Jen walked for what felt like miles .. The heat was unbearable dragging a small case and her bag on her shoulder wasn't helping .. As she stopped to take her jacket off she heard a car in the distance ..

Please be Tilly " she said to herself ..

As the car pulled up the window went down ..

Going somewhere ? Tilly laughed ..

You are a life saved .. " Jen grinned

Putting her belongings in the boot and taking a seat in the car Jen took a high sigh ..

Actually thought I was gonna have to walk all the way home ...

Hardly it's like 40miles " Tilly said ..

So what happened .?

Ugh" Jen moaned .. Cara happened

Tilly turned the car around and heading back the way she came ..

I thought all was ok with the two of you ? ... You uh ... Looked kinda cosy this morning ..

Jen looked at the red head ... Noticing the change in her voice ...

Far from it .. Was Jens answer..

Look Tilly I think it's best you know .. I mean I don't know what she's going to tell Jane ..

Tell Jane ? Tilly panicked .. Tell her what ?

Jen shook her head looking out of the window ...

Last night when you saw me outside the hotel ... Jen continued .. Well .. Cara and I had an argument .. She uh ...

Well she said some stuff ...

Ok.. Tilly frowned .. Why would Jane need to know about that ?

Well... Jen fiddled with her hands ... The argument was .. Uh .. She swallowed hard ... It was about you ..

Me? Tilly gasped braking hard bringing the car to a stop ...

What do you mean me ?

Jen jointed in her seat ... Woah...

Jen what do you mean me? Tilly urged ..

Jen sighed .. She thinks something's going on ..

What! ? How ? Tilly worried .. I don't get it ..

Ok look calm down ok ... Jen pleaded .. Last night she said she's been watching us ... Well me .. She said I'm to relaxed around you ..

That I'm .. Different "

Different how?

Jen shrugged .. I don't know .. She said that Every time she looked over we were laughing .. Flirty if you like ..

Oh god " Tilly sulked placing her head on the steering wheel ..

Wait ? This was last night right ? Tilly frowned ..

Well how come you two were the way you were this morning .. And when Jane rang last night you to were ... Well . Tilly sighed .. You were busy ..

Jen placed head in her hands " I did that to stop her from going on .. To stop her pushing me .. She wouldn't stop going on about it ..

Great " Tilly fumed .. So she's going to tell Jane something's going one with us ... And I'm gonna have to spend forever trying to convince her other wise ..

And what if janes noticed something ?

You don't have to worry " Jen sulked a little annoyed at how Tilly was handling things

It's not you she's taking about " it's me ..

Tilly looked at Jen ... What?

I need some air .. Jen puffed getting out of the car ...

Tilly followed .. What do you mean it's not me ? .. Jen? What do you mean ?

It's me Tilly " Jen shouted .. It's my body language shes noticed .. It's me she's accusing not you ...

Tilly shook her head confused ..

It's me that looks at you ..

It's me that drapes my arm over your chair ..

It's me that she's accusing of having feelings I shouldn't ..

Jen stopped exhaling loudly ..

Earlier I was watching you leave ... She mocked me .. She made me feel angry .. I lost my temper .. I broke things off And stormed out ..

Tilly leant on the bonnet of the car next to Jen .. She felt bad for raising her voice to her ..

I'm sorry " I just .. I don't know .. I don't even know what I'm doing ..

Jen looked at Tilly out the corner of her eye ...

Well your not alone "

She's gonna think it's because of me you've ended things isn't she ? Tilly asked ..

Probably"

And is it? Tilly asked nervously ..

Jens mouth fell open .. she hadn't expected Tilly to ask such a thing..

No ... It's been coming for a long time " Jen explained ... I've realised that I want more out of life .. Maybe I'm looking to be in a real relationship..

Maybe getting to know you had made me realise that .. I don't know ..

Jen cleared her throat .. All I know is cara isn't for me ..

Tilly nodded her head ... Jen .. I've been with Jane for a long time .. We have our ups and downs but I do love her ..

Jen frowned as Tilly spoke .. She wasn't sure where she was going with this ..

Her keeping me a secret is a huge factor in our relationship but a rare issue ..

I know there's an attraction but .. I can't..

Hold on .. Jen fumed .. Tilly I hope your not saying what I think you are?

Jen was angry she felt like Tilly was pushing the blame on her ..

Please don't sit here and make out this is my fault ...

This isn't one sided and you know it ..

I didn't say that ..

No? Well it feels like you are ... Like your afraid Jane will ask questions so your trying to convince yourself your not feeling anything ..

Not feeling anything ? Tilly snapped .. Jen I've been trying to convince myself for weeks that I'm not attracted to you .. That I don't feel anything ...

That I haven't sudden took a dislike to cara because of you ...

I hate this .. I hate the fact I think of you the way I do ... Tilly ranted ..

I hate the knot I get in my stomach when Jane mentions you or like last night when she said she interrupted you two being intimate ... But more then that ... I hate the fact I'm struggling to be intimate with Jane because of the guilt I have ..

So believe me I defiantly am not trying to pass the buck ...

Jen was speechless ..

Tilly began kicking the stones underneath her feet... Her arms folding like she was guarding herself ..

She was glad her shades hide the emotion in her face ...

The whole time we're together I fight myself not to touch you ... And I still ... After all this time ... I still want to kiss you ..

Jen leant back on the car.. Looking out on to the empty county road ...

This is a mess ... She muttered...

Tilly nodded still looking to the ground ..

Maybe you splitting with cara is a good thing .. Tilly sniffed ...

Maybe not seeing each other will be better for is both ...

Is that what you want ? Jen asked ..

Tilly shook her head .. No" but I know that if we continue seeing each other then well ...

Well I'm going to end up being " that person "

I know that I'm not going to be able to fight this much longer ..

And I really don't want to be the bad guy "

Jen swallowed the lump in her throat .. Licking her lip ...

Maybe you should just drop me into the village ... I can get a train home ..

Tilly looked at Jen for the first time ..

She looked sad ... Which in turn hurt Tilly ..

I don't want to do that ... I'd prefer it if I can drive you home ..

Jen scratched her head ...

I'm sorry ..

Sorry " Tilly frowned..

Mmmm" I'm sorry I came into your life messing it up .. Jen said ...

Tilly laughed under her breath .. You have nothing to be sorry for Jen ... Your not the one with a girlfriend ..

If anything it's me that should be sorry ..

Jen felt emotional .. She knew Tilly was right about not seeing each other but never the less it hurt ..

Can we just go " she asked .. Please

Tilly nodded ..

As they drove the silence was hard for them both ... Both feeling uncomfortable ..

Jens phone began to ring ...

Cara?

Jen shook her head .. My friend .. I need to answer it ..

Hi:

H : wow you sound pissed off ..

J: I'm ok ...

H: ok so in that case .. Why do I need to pick you up from the middle of no place ..

Tilly could hear Hayley ..

J: you don't know .. I'm fine .. Look I'll call you when I get home .

H babe you ok ? You don't sound to good ? Something happened ..

J: we'll talk later ..

H: is this about that doctor?

Tilly raised her eyebrows .. Shocked Jen had confided in someone about her ..

J: I'm fine Hayley .. Please just let me call you later .. Thanks for getting back to me though.

Hayley knew Jen well enough not to push ..

H: ok babe .. I love you ..

J: love you too .. Bye ..

Jen glanced out the window .. Signs for London were showing .. " thank god " she thought ..

You ok ? Tilly asked knowing it was a stupid question ..

Jen nodded .. Still looking out the window ..

Tilly's heart was racing the whole time .. Days ago being alone with Jen would have been a dream come true ..

Now it was the worst place in the world to be.

I'm the next 20 minutes she was about to say good bye to someone who had in the last few weeks filled her life with something new and exciting ..

As she pulled up outside Jens place she locked the doors ..

Jen...

Tilly please .. Can we not ...

Tilly took Jens hand in hers placing it in her lap ...

Look at me "

Jen shook her head ..

Please look at me Jen " Tilly begged squeezing Jens hand .

Jen took a deep breath looking in Tilly's direction ..

Your amazing " she began ..

Jen rolled her eyes trying to remove her hand from Tilly's .. Tilly held on tight..

I think your beautiful " talented " fun to be around "

I love how you make me feel good about myself .. I love how you want to know about my day .. My work .. My likes and dislikes .. My family ..

Tilly we don't have to do this .. Jen interrupted ..

I need to Jen " I need to say this ..

Tilly took a deep breath ..

Right now I feel like I'm losing something special .. I feel like I'm losing a best friend ..

I don't want you to get out of my car and I never see or here from you again ..

Jen pulled her hand away ... It has to be this way Tilly ... You said yourself you can't trust yourself ..

Well nor can I ... And I don't have a girlfriend so there is nothing stopping me ..

Tilly ... I want you ... I want you more then I've every wanted anyone ..

And I'm not talking in my bed ... What I feel for you runs deeper then that ...

And if I'm honest .. I can't be your friend ..

I'm sorry ..

Jen got out of the car quickly ...

Grabbing her bags from the boot ...

Take care Tilly ...

And with that she disappeared into the building ..

Tilly sat numb ... Tears fell from her eyes ..

Jen had disappeared from her life seconds ago and already she was missing her ..