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2 days had passes since Jen and Tilly said goodbye to one another ..

Tilly had gone back to work which helped keep her mind off things ...

She had finally replied to her friend Sarah's messages and had arranged to have dinner that night ...

Jen was still off on half term .. She was bored of having not much to do taking a walk to clear her had hadn't helped .. Her internal monologue screaming at her constantly for refusing to keep in touch with Tilly ...

Her painting helped her drift away from reality but even that was wearing off ..

As she climbed the stairs to her apartment she was met with a familiar face .

What do you want ?

That's not very friendly is it! ? Cara groaned ..

I came to see if you've calmed down yet?

Well you've a wasted journey haven't you ? Jen spat placing her key in the door ..

Jen wait " cara begged " look I know I've been a complete bitch .. And I know I have a big mouth .. But I am sorry ..

Jen stood still .. Waiting for cara to continue ..

Look the whole Tilly thing was stupid of me .. I know that now ..

I guess I was jealous ..

Jen laughed " of what ? An arm draped over a chair ?

Cara shook her head ... No .. I was jealous because you liked her ..

I like a lot of people cara"

Cara rolled her eyes " no Jen you really like her .. I'm not stupid .. But look I don't want to talk about it ..

You said nothing's going on so I believe you ..

Cara approached Jens personal space.

So what do you say about us forgetting all this? " she smiled playing with Jens hair ..

Jen pushed her hand away .. We're done cara ..

As Jen turned the key opening the door .. . Cara grabbed her from behind pushing her lips into Jens neck ..

But we're so good together " she muttered underneath her kiss..

And You know it "

Jen closed her eyes for a second ..

As much as she hated it " her body responded positively to cara's touch ..

Letting out a huge sigh Jen whispered " we would be wasting each other's time "

So .. Cara laughed .. We're wasting time stood out here..

As Jen opened the door they fell into the apartment .. Cara pushed Jen up against the wall .. Kissing her hungrily...

I missed you " she whispered as she cupped Jens breast ..

Jens mind was blank she hadn't time to assess what was happening .. Her body was reacting to cara ..

Cara kissed Jens neck sucking her skin .. Jen let out a little moan which told cara she was allowed to have her way ..

As she moved her way underneath Jens shirt placing her hand between Jens legs .. Jen came to her sense ..

Nooooooo" she fumed pushing cara away ... No cara ..

This isn't what I want ..

Cara laughed .. That's not the impression I'm getting " she smirked stepping closer to Jen ...

Jen shook her head ... I think you need to leave ..

Jen " for fuck sake . Cara sulked " I said sorry .. What's the big deal ..

Jen swallowed .. " the deal is I don't want this .. She explained pointing to herself and cara .. I want more ..

Cara shrugged " ok fine .. I'll give you more "

Jen shook her head .. No .. I mean I want more .. But I don't want it with you .. And I'm sorry .. She added ... I'm sorry that sounds harsh.. But it's the truth ..

Cara frowned .. Jens words actually cut her a little ...

C'mon " this was never meant to be serious .. Jen said trying to lighten the blow .. " you don't want to be with me ! .. I'm boring compared to you .. Your lively and fun .. I'm serious and reserved

Cara shook her head " your not "

I am " Jen laughed " compared to you I am .. God I'd bore you to death in a month .. ..

We have nothing in common ..

Cara stood still watching Jen ..

Can I ask you something ? She muttered .. And I just want you to be honest ..

Jen exhaled .. She knew what was coming .. Ok

Cara bite her lip ... Tilly?

What about her ? Jen sniffed ..

You fell for her didn't you ? Cara asked .. You actually have feelings for her ?

Jen fiddled with her hands .. Cara watched and sighed .. "Wow"

Wow what ? Jen asked " I didn't say anything

Cara shook her head " you didn't have too.. Your body language says it all ...

You may think I didn't care to much for you Jen but I do.. I see things .. I notice things ..

Jen just looked at cara .. She didn't have the words or the energy to lie ..

Does she feel the same ?

Jen closed her eyes for a second .. She really didn't want to talk about Tilly .. Especially with cara ..

She's with Jane " was Jens reply ..

I didn't ask that " cara said sternly

Jen raised her voice " she loves Jane " cara ..

So ? Cara shrugged . That doesn't mean anything .. I asked you if she feels the same Jen ?

" just because people are in love with other people don't mean they can't fall for someone else ..

So I'll ask you again .. Does Tilly feel the same ?

Jen felt her anger boil over ..

Ok you want an answer? Fine ..

Yes I have feelings for Tilly ..

Do I want them ? No

.. Do I want to want someone I can't have ? No ..

Her feelings for me doesn't matter .. She's with Jane .. She loves Jane .. And unlike some .. She values her relationship .. So I guess the answer is no... No she doesn't feel the same ..

Cara laughed .. Of coarse she does .. You know it .. She knows it .. And I know it ..

has anything happens between you ?

What.? No .. Nothing .. I swear " Jen panicked

Cara nodded .. Well I guess we're done .. She added walking towards the door ..

You know what Jen " no one should settle for second best ..

Jen frowned ..

What do you mean ?

Cara shrugged " well Tilly shouldn't have bothered fighting her feelings .

Jane isn't an angel ..

I don't follow " what are you saying ? Jen asked confused ..

Cara laughed under her breath . I slept with Jane ..

Jens looked shocked .. What? When ?

The day after the wedding " when you pissed off ..

As cara opened the door she turned to Jen .. So Iike I said .. All that fighting was for nothing ..

Seems Tilly values their relationship more then she does aye ?