Tilly sit alone in the darkness of her flat ..

Her mind going over and over what jane had said ..

How did Jen not tell her? She wondered..

They had Spent all that time alone and she never said...

The more Tilly thought it through the angrier she became ..

She didn't know Jen at all...

Over at Jens Hayley was visiting ..

She had a little more wine then she planned so decided to stay over ..

What's up? She asked noticing Jen biting the inside of her cheek fiddling with her phone ..

Nothing ..

Don't look like nothing ? C'mon tell auntie Hayley ?

Jen sighed ' it's Tilly ... She uh.. She hadn't called me today

So call her" Hayley shrugged..

I have .. Loads of times.. And I've left voicemails .. And texts.. Jen explained ... She hasn't got back to me ...

Uh.. She gasped .. You don't think she's given in and got back with jane do you?

Hayley frowned... Doubt it.. Not if what you said about your sexual encounters are true .. She laughed

I'm serious jane " she said she had to talk to her .. Close one chapter before opening another "

Yeah well then " Hayley smiled..

Jen closed her eyes " what if she didn't close the book?

What if she realised that janes the one?

Relax .. Hayley urged .. Look it's tough ending relationships .. Maybe she just needs some space .. I'm sure she will be in touch..

In the mean time lets have some more wine ..

Jen nodded ..'maybe your right "

I am always right " Hayley winked

Jen went along with Hayley trying not to worry to much ..

They drank into late into the night ..

Jen woke the next morning to Hayley singing along to the radio ..

Uuuugghhh" she groaned placing the pillow over her head ..

Instantly bolting up right to check her phone ..

Nothing ..

No reply

No missed calls

Nothing ..

Jen frowned.. Why hasn't she called me " she said to herself ..

Morning " Hayley grinned being Jen a Cup of coffee ..

How are you so cheerful ? Jen moaned

Cause I'm not a light weight " Hayley joked ..

She hasn't called me" Jen sulked

Hayley puffed out her cheeks " ok so what's your plan ?

Plan? Jen frowned.. I don't have one ..

Well this Tilly ? You said she's a decent " kind" caring girl right ?

So surely either way she would tell you .. Hayley shrugged .. Stop worrying ..

Jen bit her lip ... I'm going for a shower ..

Hayley worries for her friend .. She could see how into Tilly Jen was . She hoped her theory was right and Tilly really was just taking some time to herself ...

Tilly sat on her bed staring at the canvas on the wall..

The print was one of Jens ... Tilly's favourite in fact .. Up until that morning ..

Suddenly it hanging on her wall annoyed her ..

Grabbing it and stomping through her flat into the living room .. She tore down the other prints she had...

She wanted no reminder of the woman she felt had betrayed her ...

Throwing them into the boot of her car she sped off in the direction on the brunettes flat ...

Jen sat eating breakfast quietly ..

Babe" stop thinking the worst " Hayley sympathised .. You don't know what's happening ..

She's forgiven her I can feel it" Jen sulked .

You don't know that " and why would she? Seriously ?

She said herself it's over ..

H... Please .. I don't want to talk about it" Jen sighed .

Hayley left it alone .. Changing the subject ..

Ok so I was thinking a little retail therapy ?

Jen shrugged jumping as the door banged ..

Eager postman? Hayley joked.. Jumping off the kitchen counter to answer it ...

As Hayley opened it she smiled ..

Hi..

Tilly's jaw dropped .. She wasn't expecting Jen to have company ..

You must be Tilly ?

Uh.. Yeah" Tilly muttered..

I'm Hayley " Jens mate..

Tilly nodded .. Her heart feeling slightly relieved .. She remembered Jen telling her story's of Hayley ..

Jen .. She muttered barely audible

Jen" Jen .. Hayley called

Why are you shouting ? Jen moaned as she made her way to the door ..

Tilly ? She grinned .. Come in

Tilly shook her head ... No ..

Hayley noticed the red heads demeanour ..

I'll uh " leave you to it.. She said hurry off into the flat ..

You ok ? Jen asked seeing Tilly's eye fill with tears ..

Tilly slide the painting into the flat "

What's wrong ? Jen panicked ...

Me .. Tilly swallowed .. I was wrong .. Wrong about you .. She whispered

Jen knew .. She knew before Tilly had to say ..

Tilly ...

Save it Jen .. I don't want to hear it .. Just take your paintings and leave me alone .. Tilly warned as she walked away ..

Jen chased he'd grabbing her arm ..

Tilly please .. Wait .

For what ? Tilly snapped pulling her arm out of Jens grip .." . For you to tell me how sorry you are?

Let me explain ..

Tilly laughed .. Explain what ? How you lied to me ? How you watched me beat myself up over you for weeks ?

Let me feel guilty about jane ?

She laughed again " save it ..

You got what you wanted .. Now leave me alone ..

What I wanted ? Jen asked .. What's that suppose to mean ?

Well .. It's what you do isn't Jen ?

Take a fancy to someone .. Wear them down ? Bed them?

Well done " the red head clapped .. You succeeded .. You did it ..

Tilly your wrong " Jen protested .. I wanted to tell you " I tried ..

Tilly carried on towards her car ..

You didn't try hard enough then did you ? She snapped ..

As Tilly opened her car door Jen slammed it .. " just let me explain please ?

Give me that ?

Are you serious ? Tilly spat .. You don't deserve nothing from me .. Nothing..

You don't think this has been hard for me ?

Knowing something like that ?

I tried to tell you " you kept shooting me down

You wouldn't let me speak ..

Oh.. I'm sorry " Tilly said sarcastically .. How bad of me ... It must have been so hard to get the words out .. while your fucking me ..

Jen gasped " shocked

That's not fair ... You have no idea how much I tried ..

Tilly stepped into Jens personally space .. Not hard enough .. Move.. She said pushing Jen out of the way of her door ..

Tears fell from Jens eyes ..

Tilly please .. I'm begging you .. Just let me explain ..

Save it Jen .. I don't trust you .. Not anymore ...

Please don't say that " Jen begged .. Please just hear me out .

Tilly got into her car ... Shaking her head ... There's no point ...

Tilly... Just listen ..

You know if I never met you .. Then maybe .. Just maybe I'd be happy .. Maybe my relationship with jane wouldn't have broken down ..

Jens heart hit the floor ..

" you don't mean that ..

Don't i ? You pushed and pushed .. You got into my head .. You were there all the time .. Messing with me ..

So yeah .. Yeah I mean it ...Now leave me alone.. She spat slamming the door

Leaving Jen numb .. Her heart shattered into a million pieces

Finally Jen made her way back to her flat slumping down on to the sofa..

Babe" you ok ? Hayley asked wrapping her arms around her friend ..

She hates me " Jen whispered letting her tears fall ..

How could I have been so stupid ?

It's not your fault babe"

Coarse it... I should of told her ..

Hayley shook her head .. You said you tried ..

Not hard enough though " Jen sulked ..

I've ruined everything ...

Tilly drove to the only place in London she felt was home..

Knocking the door taking deep breaths ..

Tilly , ?

Tilly burst into tears wrapping her arms around her friend..

Babe" what's happened ?

Sarah ... Everything's a mess ..

Sarah ushered Tilly into her bedroom where she was working ..

Darling .. What is it ?

Tilly climbed onto her friends bed ...

It's jane ... She uh... She cheated on me ..

Whaaaaaaat? Sarah chocked..

Tilly nodded .. Jen knew ..

Oh" Sarah cringed .. Can I ask what your more upset about ?

Tilly wiped her eyes ... Jen and I spent the night together...

After I uh .. Found out about jane ..

We made love .. She sniffed ..

Sarah cleared her work away and led next to her Friend .. Taking her hand in hers..

When? I mean when did jane.. You know ...

Weeks ago.. Tilly swallowed .. With cara.. Jens ... Friend...

Shit... Wait how did Jen know?

Cara told her... Tilly began to cry again .. She knew and she never said ...

She let me kick myself over and over again .. Let me feel bad about wanting her... When all along ..

Did you ask why ? I mean have you seen her ?

Tilly nodded .. Today ... She kept saying how she tried to tell me ..

Made out it was my fault .. She said I kept cutting her off .. Shooting her down ..

And did you? Sarah asked..

Tilly sighed .. I don't know .. All I know is I've never felt so hurt ..

And it's not because of jane .. It should be .. But it's not ..

I'm so angry at Jen ..

Sarah stroked her friends hair ..

Shhhhhhh... C'mon " don't cry.. We can sort this out..

How? Tilly asked .. It's done .. I messed up ..

No you haven't . You're upset ... You just need some time ..

Tilly shook her head " it's to late .. I said some horrible things to her..

Like?

Like it's her fault my relationship ended .. I blamed her for my feelings..

Tut .. Tills.. Sarah moaned ..

Why me.. Why did this have to happen to me? Tilly cried..

Babe .. It's tough love time .. Sarah said bluntly ..

You and jane were never gonna last babe.. She will always be in the closet... You would never be able to plan a future with her .. So if not now then eventually it would have ended..

Jen .. She gave you a glimpse of what life is about .. She's out .. She wasn't afraid to show you her feelings ..

She offered you something you've craved years for ..

And ok .. Ok so she was wrong for keeping it from you .. But .. Maybe she was scared ..

Of what ? She knew how much I wanted her " Tilly moaned .. It could have been so easy to tell me .. She held the key .. she knew it could of been easier for me to have ended things with jane ..

Instead she hid it .. She slept with me knowing ... Tilly added angrily ..

Did she try? Sarah asked .. Think Tilly .. You said she said she tried .. She tried but you wouldn't let her?

Did she?

Tilly thought for a while.. Shit.. She sighed ..

She did .. Oh god.. Tilly groaned

She kept saying we needed to talk ..

She kept mentioning jane and I .. I ..

You didnt want to talk? Sarah finished off her sentence

Tilly closed her eyes "

You need to talk to her .. Sarah said .. Properly ..

I can't.

Yeah you can.. Sarah encouraged

You need to listen .. Let her explain...

..

Then what ? Tilly asked.. It makes no difference .. I lost trust in her... I feel like I don't know her .. Maybe I don't.. ? Maybe I never did .. ?

Sarah sighed .. You know how it felt to be intimate with her .. You know how she makes you feel.. .. That's all you need to know ..

You learn about someone over time Tilly ..

You just need to drop your guard .. Be open to hear things you don't want to ...

Like maybe .. You made it difficult for her to tell you ..

Your suppose to be my friend " Tilly laughed ..

Yeah I am .. And that's why I can say shit to you that you don't like Sarah winked ..

You look knackered .. Get some sleep ..

What ? Here? I can't " Tilly laughed again .. What about Simon?

Don't worry about him .. He can sleep on the sofa ..