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A/N: Sorry for the wait and for the shortness of my chapters. I write while I'm at work as much as I want to write longer chapters, work comes first. Got to pay the bills, right? But I want to please everyone so what do you guys want? I can combine all the short chapters in a longer one and upload it once a week or short chapters spread throughout the week? Let me know but I'll update as fast as I can so y'all won't wait too long.
Lucycastle: You're not the only one who's crazy here. I keep checking my email too. I love reading reviews like yours. Thanks honey!
Googoo4u: Don't you worry, I didn't get into too much trouble. The make-up *ahem* is worth it though ;) did I make you giddy? Now you know how it feels every time a read one of yours and every single review I read. It brightens up my day.
Ujin: I do apologize for the shortness of my chapters. I hope you understand and I am here to abide your every demands or requests ;) I will try doing longer chapters (the keyword try)
Dragonsprit: I don't want Spencer to know Ashley's plans just yet. That's too much drama I want to avoid for now. But I live for the drama so expect a lot of it in the next chapters.
Guest: I feel the same way and Ashley has a lot of convincing to do in order to win Spencer's heart. I hope I give her justice besides I am spashley all the way.
Lynettecullen: I try to be true to Ashley's character even if she plays 3 roles. Thanks for the review!
Omnomnomigon: Nice name, by the way. Hard to type though ;) I thought my girlfriend is the only grammar nazi around to kick my butt whenever i misuse your and you're. Thanks for the advice. I might look into finding a beta. anyone interested?
Chapter 19
Ashley's POV
I move close to her, lean down to her face. Our nose barely touches as I lean further to whisper on her ear, her body stiffens. She places her hand on my chest as my heart skips a beat. Her hand warm even through my shirt. "Took you long enough?" I smirk
Her warm hand on my chest sends tingles all over my body. I feel her body stiffens and I smile that I have that effect on her. Her hand gradually forms a fist. Without warning, she pounds both her fist violently on my chest, pushing me backwards.
"OW" I raise my arms defensively as she comes at me still pounding "Stop spencer stop" I clutch both of her wrist to stop her from pounding at me. I step closer to her, our bodies barely touching. "Calm down" I whisper to her. Tears forming in her eyes, she pants heavily badly trying to calm her fury.
"What the fuck does that supposed to mean?" she screams, pushing me backwards yet again. I didn't let go of her wrist with the fear of her coming at me again. Bystanders turn to watch us as if we're having a lover's quarrel. Oh how I wish. I would extremely enjoy the make-up sex if that were the case "What the fuck are you playing at?"
"Can you watch the language please?"
Tears she's fighting to hold back, flows down "No I will not. This is fucking bullshit. Is this a joke? Are you deliberately messing with my head? Is this a test I didn't fucking pass?" Hurt and anger fill her every word
"No, of course not. That's not it" I let her left wrist go and step backwards "Come on, I'll explain everything but not here" I tug on her right wrist urging her to come with me
"Why should I?" she flick her wrist free, still screaming at me. There is now a good amount of bystanders watching us.
"For one, I am asking nicely" I give her the signature Davies smile complete with the head tilt "And I want to talk to you in private if you don't mind" I nod my head towards the crowd "Please Spencer"
"Oh right" Her head examine the increasing crowd "but no bullshit ok I want you to be completely honest with me, deal?"
I sigh. I can't be completely honest with her but I still nod. "Deal"
We walk towards my car. I flip my phone to send a text to Aiden asking him to pick up Kyla from school which he happily agreed and I also send a text to Kyla that Aiden will be picking her up. I rolled my eyes at the idea of Aiden picking up my sister. Easy Ashley one love problem at a time.
Once in the car, Spencer turns to me "Does Kyla know? If so, I will be incredibly furious at her for keeping this from me. Her sister is Ashley fucking Davies" her eyes wide open as if she's recalling something "Oh my gawd you're Ashley fucking Davies this whole time. The things I did in front of you Oh my god" she buries her face with her hands "I'm so embarrassed"
"Don't be embarrassed Spence. And no, Kyla doesn't know. I will appreciate it if you don't tell her. Let me be the one to tell her, okay?"
She nods "So care to explain it to me now?" I pulled up in the parking lot of a nice little restaurant near a shopping complex.
Trying to buy myself time, I ask "Are you hungry?" as if on cue her stomach grumble "ok then, let's get you food first" I giggle as I give her a mischievous smirk "Get your sexy ass up servant girl"
An adorable blush paints her cheek as I fight the urge to kiss her. She gives me a playful smirk in return as she mockingly said "Language please" We both laugh hysterically as we make our way into the restaurant. I requested for the booth at the far end so we can talk in private. We place our order. I ordered the salad and got the chicken. After ordering, she pouts and folds her arms as if the last minutes of us joking and laughing melted away to reveal that she is still pissed at me.
"So are you avoiding the topic or you just buying time to come up with a lie to tell me? To hide the fact that you don't have a valid explanation for your actions" she seriously stares at me
"Calm down Spencer, can we at least enjoy this impromptu…" I bit my lower lip. Dare I say it, screw it, I want to see her blush "date a little bit longer?" I watch her forcefully whip her head up, a reddish blush creep on her cheeks. I snort at her poor attempt of hiding her face behind her table napkin. She simply nods behind it. Our orders came. We silently eat, I watch her fidget her food around. She's really adorable when she's uncomfortable. She keeps shooting me quick glances. I might as well put her out of her misery. I sigh, here we go.
"I'm sorry for deceiving you Spence. I didn't mean to hurt you. I will honestly answer all your questions so let's have it then"
She took a deep breath "Why are you pretending to be Brooke Woods? Is there even a Brooke Woods to begin with? Or are you bi-polar or something? Does Kyla know? If not, why? Why didn't you tell us? Don't you trust us? Why are you doing this? Is this some kind of joke? Or are you deliberately trying to hurt us?" exhaling every question in one breath
I really did it this time. I hurt the only person I care about. With something so trivial like will-she-like-me-for-me it's so plain idiotic and simply silly. God, what was I thinking? How can I be so selfish? Where did I go wrong? I don't deserve spencer, she deserves better than a whining pathetic self-loathing self-pity empty shell of a girl. Oh spencer, I have all the right answers for you, you're just asking the wrong questions. Without knowing I space out. Spencer leans over and waves her hand in front of me.
"Sorry would you slow down with the questions?" I inhale deeply "So where to begin?" I rub my chin "First of my full name is Ashley Brooke Davies and I disguise myself and use the name Brooke Woods to avoid the media. Think of it as an alias. Brooke Woods is a part of me. I do not pretend to be her because I am her. And I am not bi-polar but sometimes things just gets so crazy that I think I have multi-personality disorder or something" I chuckle knowing perfectly well how crazy playing the role of Lily, Brooke and myself "Second Kyla doesn't know because my mom asked me not to tell her so that Kyla can have a normal life. Being the sister of world famous rock star has its pros and cons. And my mom simply was to avoid it, knowing well what it did to me" I think back at the time I was spiraling out of control. Drugs, sex and money was all that has matter to me in the past. I watch her take all of this. She studies me and we stare into each other's eyes for a while
"Why didn't you tell me?" hurt fills her eyes
"It's not that I don't trust you Spence but" she cuts me off, raising her hand
My heart broke as I see tears drop down her cheeks as she stands up "Was it all a lie? Every word, every touch, and every moment we had. What's real? Are you Ashley or Brooke? I just don't understand all of it. I don't understand" she whispers her last words and it felt like a monolog to convince herself. She turns and storms out of the restaurant leaving me as I piece my broken heart together. I hated myself for hurting her. I didn't mean for everything to turn out like this. Regret is such a bitch.