In the elevator
I kiss him grinding my body against his in the elevator.
"You've been teasing me all day and night. You're driving me crazy. I want us naked at your house. And soon. I really want you."
"I tease you?" He smirks and pins me to the wall. "You provoked me last night on the couch this morning with the bathrobe and this evening in the kitchen."
My eyes darken. I look at him daring him.
"Then teach a bad girl a lesson. Make me beg for you. Unless your afraid. Mr Gardner."
"Me afraid of you my beautiful girl. I don't think so."
He teases and kisses me. I push him into the wall again.
"And what you think you're going to make me scream apologies then."
I keep my lips just out of reach of his my breathe heavy against his lips. He grabs my ass and pulls me against him. My eyes sparkle with desire.
"Oh no... Sweet little thing. My Angel I'm going to make it all better."
I take a step back letting go of his wrists. My eyes clouded with desire. He leans in and kisses me tenderly. Running his fingers through my hair and one hand cupping my face.
"You can't be away from me."
He smiles and teases.
"You own me. I live and breath for you. There is no other. There never was anyone else it was always you."
I place my hand over his. He looks at me with loving brown eyes.
"And for me... It was only ever you."
I kiss him and pull back picking up my bag as the elevator reaches the parking level.
"Come on or we will never get to your place."
I tease him. He takes my hand as we walk to his car. He opens my car door for me.
"Ladies First."
I sit in the car watching him and waiting. He gets in the car and takes my hand and looks at me.
"I am... Happy. To have you close to me."
I lean across the car and kiss him.
"I'm happy to be with you too. I don't ever want to lose you again."
He drives to his house in silence. I look at his building. He leans across the car. I turn to face him and he kisses me lovingly. I smile at him. I get out of the car. I wait with. T bag as it starts to pour down rain. I look up to the sky and watch the lightning. He pulls me to him quickly and kisses me in the pouring rain.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
I murmur against his lips. My teas mixing in with the rain. He caresses my face tenderly. Wiping the tears and rain that build up on my cheek.
"Why are you crying, baby? We are together."
"Their happy tears, Will. I'm not sad, hurt or numb. I'm truly happy. I haven't felt like this since New York but even then compared to what I feel now. I don't think I've really felt like this since Georgetown."
I smile. He kisses me deepening it pulling me into his arms, pressed against his hard chest. I moan into the kiss and wrap my arms around his neck wanting to melt into his body. He lifts me up and spins me around. I smile as water drips from us. I look up to the sky and see the most beautiful lightning pattern light up the sky. I look at him smiling.
"Will, take me upstairs before I start getting undressed in the rain."
I whisper huskily in his ear. He places his mouth beside me ear. His warm breath fanning my neck.
"And?"
He smirks. I know he is the tone in his voice is playfully and daring. I run my hands along his chest. Unbuttoning his top shirt buttons.
"Will."
I let him know I wasn't joking. He shivers slightly as my fingers trace the top of his chest.
"Alicia."
His voice is so low I nearly don't hear him over the rain. I kiss his neck. Feeling the muscles in his body contract under my touch.
"Mmm god, Alicia. I would love to continue but we have to go upstairs. If someone sees us right now we will be in trouble."
"Then take me upstairs or I will make good on what I said earlier. I will get undressed in the rain."
I but my bottom lip. He takes my hand as we walk into the building. Standing there waiting for the elevator, dripping wet. I smile as the elevator doors open knowing how we get in confined spaces together. The doors close. He pushes me into the wall.
"Alicia."
I moan as his hands caress my hips. My bags dropped on the ground as I pull him closer.
"Oh, Will."
"Tell me I am not dreaming and you are here... And will stay."
He kisses me grinding his hips into mine. I arch my beck moaning. I look into his brown eyes.
"This is really me, Will. I'm really here I'm not going anywhere without you. I love you."
"I love you too."
He kisses me as the elevator opens. He collects my bag. I carry my purse. He walks me down the hall to his apartment. Bumping into walls and decorative furniture in the halls. I moan. He fiddles with the keys in his pocket.
"Oh god Will, please."
He manages to open the door. He pulls me in with him. He pushes me against the door. He places my bag on the floor. He kisses my neck and exposed chest as he rises back up.
My hands running along his muscled torso. My nails lightly touching the surface of his skin. He runs his fingers through my hair, looking at me like there was no other person, place, or time he would want to be with but me. I slowly unbuckle his pants. His hands caress my back as he unzips the dress. His fingers stroking the bare skin on my back. I pull his belt from the loops slowly as my finger runs along the zipper in his pants. He kisses me. Sucking on my lower lip as he pushes the dress from my hips. I feel my knees weaken slightly. My dress pooling at our feet. I unzip his pants pushing them from his body.
"You are... So beautiful... No one is sexier than you."
He caresses my cheek. I tug the buttons in his shirt loose as I push it off his shoulders my arms wrapping around his neck. He unhooks my crimson strapless bra. tossing it away. Our bodies warming one another. I blush.
"Not everyone thinks so."
I shrug my shoulders. He kisses me. His name a slight whisper from my lips. He pushes me a little harder into the wall making me look at him. His brown eyes raw with emotion.
"Don't sell yourself short. You're an incredible lawyer, a amazing mother, smart, funny, extremely beautiful, loving, caring, kind, my best friend and the most incredible person I know. Loving you is probably the best thing I could ever do."
"Thank you Will. Then love me for the rest of our lives. And i will always be happy. Finally chasing you and catching you was the best things ever did."
"I will if you will allow me to."
He kisses me tenderly. I lift a leg onto his hip pulling him close.
"I do."
I whisper as he rocks his hips harder into mine creating a pleasurable friction. His hand caressing my thigh. I moan as my head falls back, lips parted. Breathy sighs escaping my lips with every touch.
"Now Miss Cavanaugh. I did promise you something."
I grin at him.
"I seem to recall that."
I batt my eyelashes innocently but roll my hips against him. Feeling his hard cock press into me causing me to whimper. He groans in response. He runs his hand along the outside of my underwear.
"I hope these come off fast."
He bends down kissing my thighs as he pulls my underwear down. A matching crimson thong.
I grin at him. I kiss him with passion and desire.
"Will. Please. I really need you."
I whimper. Finding his eagerness sexy. The way he still managed to caress every part of me body.
"My Wills a bit animalistic tonight. I find that incredibly sexy ."
I kiss him playfully but still manage to pass my love and desire through it. He kisses me roughly. He pulls back to look at me.
"So animalistic. Because I want you after all this frustration. All this wanting you."
I unhook my bra and dangle it in front of him. He grabs it and smiles.
"Are you doing my job?"
"Maybe."
I tease as I throw my bra away and push his boxers off. He pulls me along his body. His hand cupping my breast. I lean up against the wall. Sighing as his touch sets my skin aflame. I nite my bottom lip. I know my eyes are darker than ever with desire when I look into the mirror in front of me. Showing me what Will was doing to my body.
"Mmmm. Alicia."
He hums against my skin. He kisses me gently running his erection against me.
"You want me? Mmm."
I sit on the table near the door. I pull him between my thighs. I wrap my legs around his waist. He gently slides in deep but slow. Making me groan.
"Mmm, Alicia. You sound so sweet."
He moves deep and slow between my thighs. He kisses me and moans my name against my lips. I arch my back and kiss his neck.
"Oh. God Will."
I moan against his neck. He thrusts harder into me. And bites my neck as he caresses my hips pulling me against him as he thrusts into me.
"Alicia... I love you."
He kisses me. I moan as my fingernails scratch him.
"I love you too, Will"
"You want to leave a mark on me my little princess."
He strokes my hair. He used to call me this in Georgetown when we liked it a little rough. Will knew the right moves to pull on me.
FLASHBACK
I was sitting by the fire in Will's dorm. He was sitting in his armchair drinking a beer. I was reading a case file. It was another mock trial for the class. I felt his eyes on me. I turned and looked at him. He smiled. He motioned for me to come sit in his lap. I went to stand.
"Oh. No my little princess. Crawl over to me."
He huskily said. I dropped the blanket. I crawled over to him. I slowly stood up making sure to display my body to him. He gently caressed me body as I straddled his lap.
"There's my girl."
He kissed me. I kissed back eager to please him. He had called me this last night when doing some amazing things with pleasure and pain. Making me scream for him. He pulled my scarf away revealing his teeth and a dark bruise on my neck. He traced with his fingers. I rested my forehead against his until he moved his lips to kiss the bruise.
"I didn't mean to hurt you baby."
He looks at me with sad eyes.
"I loved what you did to me. It was amazing. Will it didn't hurt. I like it. It's like I can still feel you there."
I blush. He caresses my cheek smiling. He kisses me lovingly. He slowly strips me of my shirt. Kissing and nipping the skin on the tops of my breasts. As Will caresses my nipples through my lace bra.
"Good girl. I like this."
He tugged at the fabric with his teeth causing me to whimper. I rolled my hips against his causing us both to groan.
"Will. Under this. Skirt I'm not wearing any panties."
Whispers in his ear seductively. I suck on his earlobe. I feel him shiver beneath me. Thrusting up to me. He caressed my back before taking my bra off. Sucking on my nipple.
"That's hot. Undo me babe. I need to feel you."
He whispered as he kissed the tender spot of my neck. I whimper as I undo his pants and free his erection guiding his tip to my entrance taking him in slightly before slamming down hard. We grasp each others bodies tight. Groan and moaning as we thrust and pushed against the other in a slow rhythm.
END OF FLASHBACK
"Where did you go?"
He kissed me and caressed my cheek.
"Georgetown the day after we did that stuff and you called me your sweet little princess. You left that wicked bite on my neck."
I stroke my neck where it was. He kisses my neck like he did so many years ago. His lips caressing the skin, he thrusts harder into me. I start moaning louder. My body starting to contract around his. He slides his hands to my breasts and pinches my nipples in his finger and thumb causing me to gasp and spasm around his cock. I start panting as he thrust violently into me but it felt so right. I moan.
"Oh god. Will."
He moans and kisses me biting my lower lip.
"I want you to come for me Alicia. I need you to come with me."
I suck and bite his neck knowing I would leave a mark for a few days.
"I am right here. I want you and need you more than you will ever know."
He moans as he feels my biting and sucking on his neck. He rolls my nipples around his fingers. Thrusting harder.
"God. It's soo gooooddd."
I moan and bury my head in his neck as I spasm around him once more.
"Will."
he moves with me going faster and deeper.
"Alicia. Goddddd."
I collapse in his arms. He moans as I relax in his arms. He leans in and kisses me.
"I haven't finished with you yet Miss Cavanaugh."
"Insatiable." I tease him. "But you certainly haven't lost your touch, Mr Gardner."
He smiles and kisses me. He lifts me locking my legs around his waist.
"Why not in my bed. I want to take you there. My sheets miss your body."
"Will. It was raining outside we could get sick if we don't have a hot shower."
"We could make love in the shower. We could continue our rain scenario behind closed doors. Would you like that my little sweet princess?"
I smile at him as he smirks. He walks me to the bathroom. He sets me down as he turns the water on getting it nice and warm. He takes my hand in his and places it under the water. He whispers in my ear his lips caressing my earlobe.
"Is it warm enough?"
I nod and swallow. Aroused again by his torturous actions. He helps me into the shower with him. His hands explore my body as the water falls upon us warming our bodies. I sigh feeling happy with how things were. He takes my hands and places the above my head as he pushes me into the bathroom wall. I surrender kissing him eagerly.
"Please, Will."
He looks at me.
"Tell me exactly what you want me to do to you and how. I will do whatever you want."
"I want you to take me here against this wall with the water pouring over us. Make love to me hard and fast."
I nip at him. He looks at me and kisses kneels in front of me. I gently pull him up.
"Not that. Ok. I just want to feel you inside me."
"Then I'm going to make sure tomorrow you will still feel me inside you. I was in you. I love you. You're so beautiful."
"I love you too."
He pulls my legs around his waist sliding into me gently at first before slamming into me. I space out in pain, pleasure. I moan and arch my back.
"Will."
I pull him deeper. He kisses me and moves faster and deeper pulling us under the water. I tilt my head back moaning as the water warms us. The steam begins to fill the room. He places kisses on my face.
"Your so perfect. Beautiful, intelligent."
He whispers as he kisses my neck.
"You're handsome, funny, kind and loving."
I kiss his shoulder. He moves harder and tugs my hair slightly. I whimper in pleasure unable to hold on any longer. I fall apart moaning. My body shaking violently.
"Will."
He caresses my back and kisses my temple. He thrusts a few more times hard against me.
" Alicia."
My name a sensual hiss from his mouth. He holds me close. He rests his head on my shoulder. He kisses my shoulder.
"I think you need rest now."
He smiles and kisses my shoulder again. I smile and kiss him.
"Come to bed with me."
"Not to worry I am going to bed with you."
I stand and get out of the shower. I dry myself off. He puts a towel on his waist and kisses me weeping me with his chest. I giggle.
"Will. You're all wet."
"So."
He grabs my towel and dries me and then himself. I smile and pull his towel from his waist. I kiss him.
"Oops."
"Mmm. I don't think that's really an accident."
he raises his eyebrows with a slight smile. He kisses me. I bat my eyelashes innocently.
"How could you say such a thing."
I smirk and kiss him. He kisses me walking me to his bed. I slaps my ass playfully.
"Go to bed bad girl"
I pout as I get into his bed. Laying looking up at him. He looks at me as he sits on the bed. I strokes my back gently.
"I'm not sleepy yet."
He looks at me as he lays on top of me under the covers. He smiles.
"I'm not either."
He kisses me. I pull him between. My legs as I smile at him. He looks at me with a loving smile. He kisses my nose.
"Hey."
"Hey."
I kiss him. He pulls the covers around us. I hold him close to me. He rests his body weight on his forearms.i hook my legs around his waist. Kissing him slowly.
"Hmm. Do you want to kill me."
"I just want you to lay your body on mine and hold me, kiss me, I just want to be near you."
He kisses me tenderly.
"You have me completely."
I smile at him. He kisses me and places his head on my waist breathing deep as he relaxes enjoying the warmth of our bodies together. Just be near to each other. I run my fingers threw his hair. He sighs.
"Will?"
"Yeah?"
"Where do you see us in a couple of years?"
I keep running my fingers threw his hair. I close my eyes enjoying every caress of his hands across my body. Cupping my breasts. Stroking my hips. I've never asked him about a future with me. It's never really been possible. I wasn't strong enough before to leave Peter to go back to the love of my life. I look at him.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing. I am seeing it with you."
He moves his head up to mine. I look at him
"What does it look like? Our life. Tell me."
"I haven't really had time to think about it recently. I've just been thanking whatever god or whatever brought is together. I've loved you for most of my life and I've been in love with you most of your life. The first day we met into Georgetown, I loved you."
I smile at him remembering the party we met at.
FLASHBACK
I had been dragged to this party in Georgetown. I was wearing a red dress. I'd never know the importance of the colour that night. For this is the night that I would meet my best friend and the love of my life. I was sitting by the pool drinking some awful cocktail but out of a need of alcohol and no guy giving me a beer, I settled for the cocktail. There were people laughing near on the other side of the pool. Someone was standing at the top of the slide. I couldn't see because of the light near me. The tiki touch burning to keep mosquitos away and provide light. I waited. The guy slid down the slide and splashed heaps of water as he cannon balled into the pool. I giggled. I stood and walked to the pool. I sat on the edge running my fingers threw the water. He swam over to me. He caught my hand and tugged gently grinning at me. I looked at him and he swam closer to the edge and started talking to me. I was running my fingers threw his drying hair as he stroked my thigh. It was a little more intimate than I was used to but I was so comfortable around him. Everybody started gathering and gossiping. I felt like he was the only person int the world with me. We talked about law and we talked about our classes. He told me about his family. I told him about my mom who had too many boyfriends and husbands. I told him about my brother and how he was like my best friend and I protected him from things. He told me about his sisters trying to set him up with a girl. I got a little jealous. I stroked the side of his face.
"We should go and get beer and pizza."
He smiled. He pulled away as he pulled himself out of the pool grabbing a towel and drying himself off. He offered me his hand. I accepted it.
"Perfect idea. I know this quiet little pub that does pizza and other meals too and they have beer, tequila, vodka, rum, whiskey. It's nice."
"Ok. Let's go."
He walked up to his room and I went with him. I sat in his bed as he changed. I watched ever muscle in his back move and contract as he removed his clothes. He chuckled at me as he turned around in his boxers. He walked over to me grinning. I giggled. He jumped on the bed crawling across my body. I smiled shifting my body to lay down under him moulding my body to his. He lips brushing along my neck.
"I love red on you. It's so beautiful."
He kissed my neck. I shivered pleasantly under him. I run my hands along his shoulders. Allowing him to bury his head in my neck as I pressed his chest to mine in a hug. My legs holding him close. Our bodies seemed to fit together like we were made for each other. We just laid there holding each. His hands caressing my body lightly through my dress. I sigh and rest on his bed.
"Weren't we going to get beer and pizza?"
"Yeah my house is the little bar. It's a private hide away. I've got alcohols of ever kind I keep a well stocked fridge and pantry. And we can order pizza here. No one here to hear us talking. We can study. Have a beer at the end of the day and hang out when we just need this. Just a moment of time with each other."
"Of course. I've never felt more comfortable than I do now. I just like laying here with you. I feel like I've known you for longer than I really have."
"I feel like that too. Like I bet that when it rains you like to grab a hot coffee, biscuits, a blanket and a book to read because you would rather study at home in the warm than go out. I bet that when there is a storm you cuddle into your blankets or if your with someone you cuddle closer to them. I bet that you love to run in the rain and you prefer to swing on swings rather than go to some crappy movie. You'll only go if it gets good reviews. You'd rather pizza and beer than some crappy Indian food. If take away at all I bet your a Chinese fan, maybe a bit of Malaysian or Vietnamese."
His lips brushing sling my neck as his hand stroked my body gently. He moved his mouth all around my neck, letting his lips ghost against my flesh. His hand making me wrap tighter into him feel the warmth spread threw me as he tells me thing about myself he shouldn't even know yet. I smile. His hand are on my breasts stroking the flesh lightly.
"Will."
I shudder. He slows his hands down letting the pleasure lower slightly teasing me.
"It's ok baby. I'm not going to do anything you don't want me to."
I gently run my hand along his torso. Feeling his muscles. I tug at his boxers feeling him getting hard. He unzips the back of my dress. Caressing my skin. He kisses my neck finding the sensitive spot and kissing and biting gently making me moan. He slowly thrust against me as if testing how'd I react. I slowly rolled my hips against him making him groan.
END OF FLASHBACK
He kisses my nose.
"Where'd you go this time? You were making some interesting noises and movements not that I'm complaining."
He was smirking.
"Georgetown. The night we met at the party. Where we got so close to making love then your friend brought pizza over. Because you texted him and he brought them around from his own little pizza shop. I want you to tell me before all the confusion and our.." I paused I couldn't think of the right word. "Break, you would have had an idea. I did. Please. Tell me yours I will tell you mine. I smile at him. He kisses me.
"You first."
He cuddles into me.
"Well. I left Peter. We moved in after a while when I wasn't your underling. Got married. When I became a partner. We have a baby. It's stupid but it's what I always saw."
He breaths deep. He caresses my face and kisses my nose.
"Never say that it is stupid. It's not. I never thought you would want another child with children already."
"No I wanted another child because it would be yours. We would have a baby together."
I close my eyes and unconsciously touch my stomach remembering when I carried Grace and Zach. He must he felt my hand slide between us.
"Alicia.."
He leans in and kisses me. I kiss him back. I caress his face.
"Will tell me. What you saw?"
I look at him. He looks into my eyes.
"I would be with you. Really be. Then that would change because we would buy a house. Travel on a holiday. Ask you to marry me."
I smile and kiss him.
"Where'd we live?"
"In a house no matter where as long as we are together. But we will do that one day. For now we can stay between each others places."
"I'm okay with that. As long as I am with you I am the happiest woman alive."
I smile. I realise my hand is still on my stomach. I pull my hand away and smile trying to cover. He looks at me and sees my forced smile for the cameras and public not the one he usually sees.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing."
I put my arm around him and smile.
"I know you remember."
I shake my head. He caresses my stomach making me shiver.
"Alicia. You want me to be honest with you be honest with me. Remember it's supposed to be different this time. You and me together."
I sit up a little. My eyes close a splash against me cheeks.
"Back when we were together."
He looks at me and sits next to me. He caresses my thigh like he did all those years ago.
"What?"
"I was late. I.. I.. Was pregnant. I was going to tell you. But but and I had a fight. I left. With the scandal still fresh. Things were rocking between us. I was with you then Grace went missing. I miscarried. I didn't want to hurt you so I didn't say anything. Please don't hate me will."
He looks at me so hurt. I grab the bed sheet and wrap it around me. I step away from the bed. I cry a little more.
"I don't know what we would have had. I was still too early. Will I'm so sorry."
He stands and captures me in his arms. Rocking me gently stroking my back.
"Shh. Alicia. I am here now. I'm going to take care of you." He kisses me temple. "Please don't be sorry it's not your look at me Alicia."
i open my eyes and look at him. Tears cascading down my face.
"I didn't tell you because I didn't want to hurt you. But we are being honest so I had to tell you."
"What hurts me is the fact that you live it alone. I could have been a friend to help you."
I look at him, my eyes slightly red from tears. He looks at me caressing my body.
"You lived it alone and I wasn't there to protect you."
I pull him closer.
"No Will it was my choice not to say anything you are not going to blame yourself. That's on me. But um... Cary knows."
"What?" His voices raises slightly.
"The fight I had with Cary he told me. He said everyone knew I was sleeping with you even Diane. He said some awful things to me."
I hug him. I pulls me to him.
"You should have told me. But you hid it from me. Why?"
"It would have destroyed you. I was an underling and the States Attorneys wife. They would have crucified you. I wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you I was carrying your child. Every time you entered the room I wanted to tell you and kiss you in front of everyone."
"Then why? I would give up my career for you. I love you."
"I love you too. I don't want you to lose your career over me. Because I miscarried the day I was going to tell you. Remember we had dinner planned but I said I couldn't make it because the kids where home. Really Kalinda had just dropped me off from the hospital. She stayed the night and I made her swear never to say a word. She agreed."
He swallows hard closing his eyes. I was so afraid of his reaction. Both Kalinda and I had betrayed him that night. I didn't call Will to tell him and I made Kalinda swear to never speak of it. We lost a piece of us here and I could feel it as we mourned the loss of our child together. Just holding each other.