A/N Thanks for the 5 reviews. Lol. But anyway. Here you guys go. Third chapter(:
Tris POV
I went back to our apartment and got ready to go shopping with Christina. The time was only noon, so I had a while until I had to meet Tobias. Panic rushed all thru me. Did he want to leave me? I tried to drop the horrific thought. But everytime I tried to think of something else, it crept right back in. I just gave up on trying to distract myself and went to Christina's.
"Tris, your early are you okay?"
I explained to her everything. And she assured me that Tobias would never leave me. After a while of this coddling me, we just decided to go shopping early. She pulled me into many different stores, making me try on clothes, dresses, and shoes. I checked the time every minute. Not wanting to wait to see Tobias again. But finally it was 4. And I told Christina I would see her later.
Walking to the Chasm I right away saw Tobias leaning against the rail. I walked up to him and he kissed me and pulled me into his arms. I wanted him just to come out with it. But he didn't.
"Tris, as much as I don't want to believe it, I think, i think I'm jealous of Will." He says quietly.
I was so confused. Why would he be jealous of Will? Tobias is a dauntless prodigy. He has a awesome job. And Will works outside the gates.
"Why would you be jealous of Will?"
"Tris. Because Will is going to be a father." He said slowly.
What. I was not expecting this. I did not see myself having kids at 17. Or really ever. Fear rose inside of me. Was this Tobias way of getting what he wanted? I was not ready for this.
"Tobias, I-"
"Listen Tris. You are my world. I will wait. Whenever you want to. And if you don't, that's fine. I just felt very jealous. I just don't even think I could be a father after Marcus. What was I thinking."
A sense of relief flooded thru me. He wasn't leaving me. Or pressuring me to do anything I didn't want to do. But I could tell he did want kids. I was also nervous.
"Tobias. It's okay. If you want children then we can have children. I just didn't see myself pregnant at 17."
"I know. I didn't either. I just, I don't know."
"It'll all be okay. I promise. We will figure this out." Then I kissed him. It was such a warm feeling knowing we might be a family. Wait. Did I really just think that? Wow. It's not that I am scared of sex. We have done that before. I'm scared of a family. I'm scared of how we will support it. I'm scared of judgment.
"Let's go grab some food and head back to the apartment." I nodded in agreement.
Tobias POV
I know I frightened her by the look on her face. I thought that I wanted kids. Until I remembered about Marcus. What if I turned out like him. Tris would never forgive me and I couldn't live without her and -but Tris interippded my thoughts.
"Tobias. Your squeezing my hand really hard." She sounded worried.
"Um I'm sorry, Tris." I knew she would ask what was wrong but it never came. She must have knew. I wasn't really all that hungry and just wanted to go back to the apartment to talk to Tris. I thought and knew she must have been mad at me. And I pray to God that she doesn't leave me because of this. I looked at her and pulled her into a hug. She seemed curious, but didn't back away.
"Tris, are you really hungry?"
She shook her head. She must also wanna talk about this. We walked hand in hand towards the apartment. Finally she asked "Tobias what's wrong?"
"We can talk about it when we get into the apartment. "
I opened the door and we walked to our bedroom. Tris moved in after her initiation, which was almost a year ago. We both sat down on the bed and layed in each others arms waiting for one of us to say something. Finally Tris said "What's wrong."
"Tris I don't want you to feel pressured. We don't have to have children. I was just saying that I wan- " but she cut me off with a kiss.
"Tobias, I know. Everything will be okay. We don't have to decide now. We're only teenagers." She made me feel alright. She stopped my worries. We eventually feel asleep even though it was only 7 in the afternoon.
We woke up at about 3 this morning. And decided to get up and watch a movie. While we were laying there Tris snuggled up to me and says "Never leave me." And then she falls asleep. Before I think about why she would say that I reply, "Never in a million years." And I eventually fall asleep too.
I wake up to hearing someone in the bathroom. I automatically know its Tris. But when I go in there she is throwing up. A lot. I hold her hair back and try to soothe her. Even though I'm worried that something is bad wrong. "Tobiasss-" but she's cut off with more throw up. A just stroke her hair and rub her back. And when she's done she curls up next to me in the bathroom floor. And says "Tobias, I didn't eat anything. I'm sick. Something's wrong." She sounded very worried so I picked her up and told her "It'll be okay, we are going to the infirmary. Everything's gonna be fine."
As soon as we get there she is taken back. I sit very worried until Uriah and Will and Christina walk in.
"Tobias, is she okay? What's wrong?" All of them ask frantically.
"I don't know I haven't been bac- "
" , you can go in now." A older doctor says.
As I go in, Tris isn't connected to very many wires with gives me good hope that nothing's wrong. I look at Tris and she shakes her head. She doesn't know what's wrong either. I hold her hand and wait for the doctor to come in. As soon as she does she refers to herself as Dr. Smith.
"So I have some questions for you two." We look at each other and nod okay.
"Are you sexually active?" Tris blushed but nodded her head.
"We'll that makes since because Tris, your pregnant." She said confidently.
Panic crept onto Tris face, I could it as plan as day. She looked at me and her face was very, very pale. The doctor told us she was about 3 weeks along. Which was very shocking.
"We want to keep this a secret, to everyone except the 3 outside." Tris says slowly. That means she wants to keep it.
"Um okay, we'll you should start to show soon and you'll have to wear loose shirts. And I swear I won't tell anyone."
We got up to leave when our friends bombarded us with questions, but we just told them to come with us. When we got up to our apartment, we told them and Christina jumped into Tris arms. While Will and Uriah slapped my back. We got very many "Congrats" but after a while they left.
Tris just layed in my arms and cried.
A/N so good turn? Yes? No?
