A/N: {ROXEL APPEARANCE!} Hope you enjoy, btw there is a small time change in this chapter since the last one, I hope this doesn't bother you

Sail Into My Heart

Chapter 15- Roxel

A few days had passed since Axel had asked me to move to Australia with him, Aqua and Terra were surprised but happy for us, telling Axel and I that we deserved it. Kairi burst into tears and wouldn't stop cuddling me for the whole day. I didn't mind it so much though, I knew that I should cherish every moment that we were together, because at my old age there is a small chance that moments like that were never going to happen again. Axel told me that I shouldn't think that way, and should just live for today, without worrying about death.

"Rox?" I looked up to a concerned Axel, who was staring at me from the other end of the sofa, with worried eyes.

"What's wrong?" Axel asked, I shrugged and continued to watch the TV.

"Nothing, just thinking…" Axel sighed, and rested his chin on his hand.

"Fine...don't tell me then." I ignored Axel, and continued watching my programme. I still hadn't told Roxel of our plans to move, and it was scaring me of what his reaction would be. He agreed to meet Axel, and they got along like Shaggy got along with Scooby-Doo. They discussed their likes and dislikes and wouldn't stop chatting. Yet, the move to Australia wasn't brought up. I couldn't stomach it, how would Roxel feel about just meeting his father who wasn't there for over 70 years, to then see him disappear over 9,000 miles away? Where contact would almost be impossible? I know that I should talk to Axel about this, but he wouldn't understand, he may be a father, but mentally he doesn't fully understand being one, not like I did. I decided to talk to Aqua as soon as she got back from picking Kairi up from school.

"Roxas?" I looked over to Axel, who stared at me with a serious expression.

"I'm sorry... for everything." Axel said, I saw a tear that rolled down his cheek.

"What are you sorry for?" I asked, taking Axel's hand and squeezing it reassuringly.

"For not being there, for all that time while you were on your own and with a child." Axel sobbed, I moved closer to where Axel was sitting, and hugged him tight.

"Axel, don't be stupid. It wasn't your fault; it was that damn ice berg! That was the only thing that got in the way of our love, I know that if that ice-berg wasn't there, you would have been with me and looked after Roxel with me. It wasn't your fault, therefore you've got nothing to be sorry for."

Axel pulled away from the hug and stood up, "I could have done something, I could have looked harder or something. No matter what you say Rox, I'll always know that it's my fault that you were on your own." Axel rushed into our bedroom, slamming the door after him. I walked over to the door and tried opening it, only to find it was locked.

"Axel, please open up. I don't like seeing you upset." I didn't hear anything, so I tried to convince him to open up again.

"Please Axe; it's not your fault. You loved me; I know you did, besides that's the past. We need to look forward remember? Live for tomorrow, that's what you always told me."

Axel opened the door, with puffy, red eyes. I smiled, and hugged him.

"Am I forgiven?" Axel croaked, I chuckled and just hugged him tighter.

"There's nothing to forgive." I felt Axel smile, and I smiled even wider. I pulled away and walked into the bedroom, pulling Axel to the bed, but not in that way. I wanted to fall asleep in his arms, so I could sleep in peace, and in my lover's arms.

Hearing Aqua walk through the door with Kairi, I slowly got up from my bed, leaving a sleeping Axel lying on the bed. I opened the bedroom door quietly, trying to not wake up Axel.

"Hey Roxas, what's up?" Aqua asked, I looked to see Aqua taking off Kairi's coat.

"Hi Aqua, could I talk with you for a second?" Aqua looked at me, sensing that this was a serious matter. She nodded and sat down in the armchair, gesturing for me to sit down on the sofa.

"What did you want to talk about Rox?"

"It's about Roxel…"

Aqua nodded knowingly, "It's about Australia isn't it?" I nodded, Aqua placed her hand on my shoulder. "No need to worry Roxas, just tell him, you'll avoid this for so long that you'll be in Australia by the time you'll feel ready to tell him. You just need to come out with it, but the most important thing to do is explain why you're going, because Roxel might not understand when you first tell him. He may react badly, but you know what he's like, you're his father aren't you? He'll forgive you, because he's a good person, just like you."

I smiled at Aqua's kindness, "Thanks Aqua, could you pass me the house phone then please." Aqua grinned widely and passed me it, after already dialling Roxel's number for me. The phone rung several times, but was answered at last by no other than Roxel.

"Hello?" The other voice said, I smiled and didn't feel so nervous now.

"Hi Roxel, its Dad"

"Hey Dad, how are you?"

"I'm good thanks Roxel, how are you?"

"I'm good, Soku gone out to visit her parents so I'm at home all alone!" I smiled again, Soku was Roxel's wife, she was Sora and Riku's daughter, Sora also created a male pregnancy mystery.

"Ah, well you can come round then, I've been meaning to talk to you."

"Urm…okay. I'll be round in two ticks, see you." Roxel hung up the phone; suddenly I was gut-wrenchingly nervous. I rushed into my room, shaking Axel awake.

"Roxas, stop, please…I'm sleeping." Axel moaned, turning away from me.

"Axe, get up! Roxel's coming round in a minute, and we're telling him about us moving to Australia." I explained, Axel lifted his head sleepily, but his eyes soon widened.

"Are you ready for this?" Axel asked, slowly rising from his sleeping position.

"It doesn't matter if I am, does it? Roxel needs to know, whether I'm ready to tell him or not. It's best he knows before anyone else accidently lets it slip."

"But what if he takes it badly? What are you going to do then?"

"Then we won't go." I replied bluntly, ignoring Axel's shocked expression, "I know parenthood is new to you Axe, but Roxel comes first with me. I don't care that he's in his seventies, he'll always be my baby that I'll forever take care of."

"I understand that Rox, but don't you think that you should put yourself first after all these years?"

"Look Axel, for all we know, Roxel might take this well. So can please stop talking about it!" I snapped. I sat down on the bed, pulling Axel down with me.

"I'm sorry that I snapped, I just don't feel that I deserve to put myself first." I took a deep breath, trying to stop the tears from flowing, but failing miserably. "I just feel that I'm letting everyone down all the time, I don't feel good enough to do anything for myself. I mean, my father constantly told me that I was a disgrace, and the failure in the family. I already failed my family, I didn't want to fail my new family, and Roxel was all I had back then. I can't fail him now, not when I've come this far in my life…" I sobbed. Axel comforted me, saying sweet nothings into my ear, until finally holding my chin in hands, and wiping the tears from my face with his thumb.

"Roxas that is the stupidest thing that I have ever heard, you are the most amazing, and incredible person that I have ever met." He kissed me briskly, but continued his declaration of love. "Don't ever say that you failed your family, they failed you Rox don't you see? They left their son when the ship was fucking sinking? That's failing their son, it most definitely was not the other way round Roxas. Who cares about them anyway? You are an amazing father to Roxel, and you are an amazing lover. So they are the ones who missed out on the most perfect man that I am elated to be in love with. I love you Roxas, and don't ever forget that."

I kissed his lips passionately, embracing him and running my hands up and down his back.

"Roxas, Axel! Roxel's here!" Aqua shouted, Axel and I pulled away immediately, panting from our kiss.

"You ready?" Axel asked me, I nodded and kissed him on the cheek. I stood up, taking Axel's hand and walked into the living room. Roxel was sitting on the sofa, staring up at me with his blue and green eyes, (a medical condition that makes him more special and unique). I hugged him in greeting, and sat down next to him. Axel hugged Roxel awkwardly, but sat down next to him anyway.

"Roxel, Axel and I have something to tell you. Please don't take it the wrong way, because it's bad timing, but just hear us out." I managed to let out, but nothing else could seem to come out of my mouth.

"W-w-w-we-"

"What your father is trying to say is that we're moving to Australia." I stared at Axel shocked; couldn't he have waited for me to say that? I looked to Roxel worriedly, he was staring at me, glaring would be a better word to use.

"So you decide to leave for Australia, literally moments after I meet my father that I haven't seen for seventy years to then leave me in Florida? Where I'd barely be able to contact you?"

I looked to the floor and shut my eyes. Yep, he'd taken it badly.

"Look Roxel, it was my id-"

"Oh shut up, Axel! I knew it was your idea; I'm not surprised that you would leave when you first got a proper responsibility in your life. No wonder my father was alone, I expect you left him at the first chance you got!" Roxel barked. Axel's eyes turned angry, and hurt.

Axel rose from the sofa, and spoke down to Roxel face to face. "It wasn't my fault that the Titanic sank, so it was most certainly not my fault that I wasn't there for you. I fucking wish I was yes, I would have done anything to be with you two, and have a happy family but it didn't happen. I am saddened that you think that I would fuck off and leave Roxas, because I never would, but I had no idea that you existed, or any idea where he was so you have no idea what it was like to find out the love of your life was living on their own with a child. I was disgusted with myself for not being there, but… I can't do anything about it now can I?" Axel yelled, walking to his room as fast as his old legs would carry him to our room, pushing a vase over to show his anger.

"Roxel, was that really necessary?" I confronted him, he glared at me again.

"I honestly don't care. He deserved it" Roxel rose from his seat and walked to the front door. "If you go to Australia, don't bother saying goodbye because you are dead to me." The slam of the door caused Aqua to race into the living room from the kitchen.

"What's wrong Rox?"

"R-Roxel took the move to A-Australia badly, and h-h-he left…" I sobbed.

"Don't worry Rox, I'll go after him and talk to him." Aqua ran out of the door, once again slamming it as she left. I sat there sobbing, despite hearing the bedroom door unlock.

"Rox, I'm sorry for going off on one." Axel apologized, slowly walking over to me.

I started to sob uncontrollably, "We can't go to Australia Axel. We just can't…"

A/N: So will Aqua convince Roxel to make up with Roxas and Axel? Will they go to Australia in the end? Read the next chapter (which will be up soon) to find out!

I hope you enjoyed this; it's a longer one than usual because a fair amount happened. I have only planned two more chapters, and then this story will slowly come to an end. I would like to thank everyone for their reviews, and I hope you guys will review more so the next chapter will get posted faster! By the way, it might be faster as my aim is to finish this story before the Summer holidays end, which is in two weeks time! No pressure…I hope! See ya' guys!

~HereGoesMyReputation