Sam runs up the hill to me and puts the clothes in front of me. I don't take my eyes off of him. He looks different; calmer. The dawn starts to appear as we stand where we are for a few minutes, neither of us moving.

"Look, Lani, I'm sorry that last night got out of hand." He started as he ran a hand through his hair. "But we are family now, whether you like it or not. At least give us a chance."

I pick up the clothes with my mouth and go behind a few trees to shield anyone from seeing me change. As I come out to where Sam is I pick up a stick and write in the ground.

Lani:
"What did you do to Leah?"

Sam hesitates and then looks back at me with a determined look. "I had to use my Alpha voice on her." Instantly something inside me wanted to rip his head off when he said that although I don't know why.

Lani:
Alpha voice?

Sam knows I'm mad but stands his ground unfazed. "Since I'm the leader of the pack I can get the others to listen to my command." Anger was seething through me as I erased my last question from the ground and wrote a different one.

Lani:
That's why you wanted me in wolf form so bad?

To command me?

"Look, I am in charge with protecting this land. We all are. I have to do what's best for everyone."

Lani:
So, this is part of your ability as Alpha?
To order us around like your lackeys?

Sam was starting to lose his patience. "Can you just come to our place? It will be a bit more comfortable than standing out here."

Lani:
I feel fine out here.

"Lani, please?" Sam asked.

I follow the pack as well as Sam to a house. Upon entering I see a woman setting some food on the table. Now shifted back the pack comes barreling in and sit around the table. The last two to enter were Leah and Seth. Leah didn't look at me but kept her head down.

"Dude, you are one cool looking wolf. I never imagined you would be all white. Man, you're almost as big as Jacob that's awesome!" Seth smiled at me as I just looked at him. "You know Leah feels bad about what she did. Sam told her to do it. He's not a bad guy. He takes this really seriously."

I nod at Seth but anger is still consuming me but I try to keep it in check. Sam handed me a notebook and pen.

Lani:
How come know one said anything at the campfire about your Alpha voice?

"I wish I didn't have to use my command voice on at all, but it's for everyone's best interest." He said as he leaned against the wall with his hands crossed. "You didn't hear any of us?" He asks in wonderment. I glare at him. How many times is everyone going to ask me that? "It's just that part of our abilities as wolf is that we can hear each other's thoughts." He then explained why we need to stick together and protect the land, especially since Bella was going to get married to Edward. "Their will be more vampires so we need to train you."

Lani:
Who said I would join your little pack?

"Lani." He started looking at me tiredly.

Lani:
You've said your piece and I get it. You feel responsible for the people here and protecting them. That's great! I don't want any part of it. I've earned that in my life. I'm not beholden to anyone or any just cause. I do whatever I feel is right. Why should I help you? Because you think we have a common bond being werewolves? You even admitted that you would use your Alpha voice on me to get me to obey you. What kind of leadership is that? I don't know if vampires are bad or not but what I do know is that they could have easily killed me when I was in their house but instead they tried to help me. They tried to fix the wounds that you gave me.

Sam looked at me a flicker of remorse and pain on his face. "You sure are stubborn, aren't you? Plus, it's probably just because you imprinted on one of those bloodsuckers." A tired looks befalls him. "Let's eat." He said thinking he could just avoid everything I had written down.

The guys were already sitting there wondering what I had written. The enthusiasm they had entered with had now dissipated. They looked at me cautiously and looked at Sam. The woman I didn't know looked at me with pity. Anger was seething from me as he called Emmett a bloodsucker. The woman came up to me.

"I'm Emily." I stared purposely at her scars and looked at Sam.

Lani:
You go against his order?

I say purposely looking at the scars and back at Sam. Emily's eyes started to brim with tears. I turn the notepad back around and write another question.

Lani:
You get ordered to be his woman?

Sam nearly lost it and lunged toward me. I pushed Emily out of the way to prevent her from getting hurt again and she landed on the couch. Paul and Jared held back Sam as I glared at him.

"Damn you!"

"She's a liability." I read Paul's lips and freeze for a second.

"She's still one of us." Sam replied.

"Sam, how is she going to protect any of us if she can't hear any noises? We could get killed because of her." Paul asked as Sam was calming down. "We don't need her."

"It's not like she likes us anyways." Jared chimed in. "We don't need another Leah in our head."

"Bite me." Leah replied.

"I would but I don't want to get any diseases." Jared joked back.

"I like her." Seth chimed which gained a glare from Paul and I.

"You don't even know her, none of us do." Paul retorted.

"We're not the bad ones, Lani." Sam said to me.

Lani:
But your not saints either.

"I never said we were." Sam replied. "You're either with us or against us." Sam said as he moved toward Emily. "it's your choice."

Once I got back to my studio I'm so agitated that I didn't realize the lights were blinking. Neal opened the damaged door.

"What happened?" He said pointing toward the door. I glowered at him and he turned toward the door. "I know you only have been living here a few weeks now, but I have kids." I look at him wondering where he is going with this. "Are you in some kind of trouble?"

I scoff and turn running my hands through my hair. I pick up my notebook.

Lani:
If you want me gone I will leave. I'm not in trouble just couldn't open the door last night and got mad. I ended up kicking it in.

I could tell Neil didn't believe me but the wonderful thing about Neil is that he just nodded.

"You ever think about going to a gym to work out that frustration." He said with a small smile; worry still in his eyes.

Lani:
Tried it but kicking down doors is so much more fun.

"I bet wildcat." He looks at the door and examines it. "I'll have it fixed after breakfast. How about you join us?" For the first time I don't put up a fight. Neil puts his hand on my forehead. "Either you must be really sick or really hungry."

I push his hand away and he wraps his arm around my neck in a choke hold, laughing. "Come on, let's go eat." As we make our way to his house he slows down a bit. "Hey, if you need any help or anything I'm here okay?" I nod tiredly. "I think you have a visitor." He says as he waves to someone. "I'll make you a plate." He says going inside.

I see Leah make her way to me. Remorse written all over her face. "I'm sorry." Leah said watching me, I simply stared at her. "I didn't want to do it, but Sam..." She didn't need to finish that sentence. I didn't feel remorse for her though, either. Even though I knew it wasn't her fault, I would not sympathize with her. "I didn't lie though; you're not the only one that hates this life."

Lani:
Go home.

Leah looks at me a bit hurt but nods rolling her eyes. "You have it easy, at least you can avoid being commanded and having your thoughts heard by everyone. I wish I were deaf."

Lani:
Be careful what you wish for.