Someday

A/N Hey everybody! So this chapter consists of what happened when we last left Nuala and Ryder in Chapter 14. I know the timing doesn't make a lot of sense, but let's just pretend! I pretty much just thought of this idea and I am still having some writers block, so thanks to BabyMist I shall just be writing until I figure out what to do. It's better than nothing I guess right? Title comes from a Celtic Woman song. There will be some sensitive topicsin this chapter so read with caution, pretty much Nuala tells Ryder detains about "that night". Hope you like it.

~*~ flashback, earlier that night~*~

"No, Starlight. I ain't gonna let you'se get hurt. I'se love you an I'se don't know what I'se would do if I'se lost you. I almost did once. If he gets his hands on you'se again, you'se might not be so lucky. I'se couldn't live with dat."

Nuala was taken aback by Ryder's words. He had said he loved her. Words that she had longed to hear were ringing in her head, and she couldn't help but to repeat them back to him."

"I won leave you, just as long as you don't leave me. Dillon I love you."

She had called him by his real name. Ryder looked back in shock, but a love filled look in his eyes."

"Nuala," he said tucking a lose brown curl behind her ear. "I will never leave you."

The two leaned in slowly and as gently as one could, pressed their lips together in a soft kiss.

To Nuala, it seemed like every bad memory that Blade had given her was being melted away, and the comforting passionate sensation that Ryder brought to her suddenly took over. Ryder was giving in quickly, all thoughts he previously had of him and Nuala never being able to be together were slowly drifting from his mind. Maybe it could happen?

Ryder had watched Nuala until she fell asleep, and even so he gazed at her, her pale skin seemed to glow in the moonlight and her stomach dropped up and down at a steady pace that is until Ryder bent down to put a strand of hair behind her ear. At the touch Nuala flinched and turned away. Ryder just thought he had tickled her, but she continues rolling in her bed and after a few moments, she began moaning, which soon developed into words such as "no" and "stop". Whimpers escaped from her lips as Ryder put his hands on her shoulders she tried to pull away, but Ryder was to strong. Soft screams were coming from her lips and Ryder tried in all his efforts to wake her up.

Suddenly Nuala's eyes shot open and darted around the room until they landed on Ryder who was sitting on the edge of the bed. Her breathing became heavy as tears started to rim her eyes threatening to fall. Ryder put his arms around his shoulders and hoisted her up into his loving grasp.

"Shhh, it's okay. It's over now."

He knew what had happened. Nuala was having another nightmare. He had seen her go through this weeks before when "the incident" happened.

"Ryder. It was awful. I saw him-he was there an- an he-"

"Don't worry, I'se won't let I'm get cha again. You'se is safe."

Moments of silence passed as Nuala tried to compose herself. She wiped her nose on her sleeve and moved away from Ryder's grasp.

"Star, you'se haven't had a nightmare in days, why now?"

"I guess it's because I can't stop thinkin about Queens and you boys going off to fight and me here wondering if anyone is going to get hurt. Ryder, I can't stay here!"

"Yes you'se can, and you'se will! Nuala you'se is having nightmares still! I'se is not letting you'se anywhere near him again!"

There was another moment of silence when Ryder deeply inhaled.

"Nuala-tell me about what happened that night?"

"Ryder-I-I don't know."

"Please Starlight- I want to know what happened."

The only people Nuala had told details to of that night were Aoife and her brother, but she knew she could trust Ryder.

"Okay, but I don't think you're going to like a lot of it."

"I'se don't care, I want to know what he did you you'se. Star, I'se want to fight for you."

Now it was Nuala's turn to deeply sigh.

"Okay, well I remember one of Blades newsies dragged me outside during the party and someone hit me over the head with something-I blacked out and I guess they carried me somewhere when I was out. When I woke up, Blade wanted to get information out of me-but I kept my mouth shut. He didn't like that so much. He hit me a couple of times and eventually pinned me to the ground."

Nuala closed her eyes and let the memories of that night flood her memory.

"Well if you'se can't give me what I'se want, I'se just ta have some fun" Blade said to me a malicious glint in his eyes.

"What do you mean fun?" I asked as I backed up. He was close now. Too close for comfort. It finally clicked in my head what he meant by 'fun'. "Back off, Blade." I tried to sound brave, but I was trembling on the inside.

"Back off? Oh, sweet face, deres no one ta helps you'se so I'll do what I please," he said as he pushed me against the wall again causing a grunt to escape my lips. He grabbed my hands and held them on either side of my head. I closed my eyes with hope that none of this was real. "Are you afraid?"

"Get off me." I hissed trying to sound as much bit threatening as I could. He chuckled at me.

"Why would I'se do dat?" he asked. I was at a lost for words. He was right before, and I was finally realizing that. I was alone and no one was coming for me. "Just relax and I won't hurt you…much," he mumbled as he started to press kisses on the base of my neck.

"Stop it," I said as strongly as I could struggling against his grasp.

"Don't try ta fight me, you'se is just gonna make is worse for yourself. Just go with it, I'se know ya want ta." he urged. I felt the tears coming. My throat was tight with fear. I didn't want this now. I didn't want him.

"No, please…" I pleaded as he unbuttoned the front of my dress-like pajamas. He pretended not to hear me. "Please, Blade, don't do this. Please."

"So we'se ave' resulted ta beggin now?," he murmured as he kissed up my neck to my jaw. I tried to push against him but I was too afraid. I was weak with fear and couldn't defend myself. By now, he had untucked my shirt from my skirt and was working on unbuttoning it. I could tell he was getting frustrated with the buttons because he eventually just ripped the shirt, sending buttons flying onto the ground. My shirt was now opened and my bra was exposed to him. He began grabbing me and he pressed his body up against mine. I was trapped against the wall and him.

"Help-" I was cut off by Peter's hand. My sobs and yells were muffled by it. "Now just be a good girl and do what I tell you," he said in a harsh demanding tone. I silently whimpered as he began to touch me again. "How about we'se moves ta a better place, huh?"

"How about we not do this at all? Please, don't do this. Please," I whispered. He ignored me again as he threw me onto the alley floor they had brought me to. "Blade, please! No! Don't! Please!"

"Shut up!" he slapped me across the face.

"Please…Please," I sobbed as he hiked up my skirt. "Don't…please." He unbuttoned his own pants…then everything else was a blur to me. I remember being in pain for a few hours and my screams were probably heard over in Europe, but he just didn't stop. I'll never forget that day. Never…"

Nuala looked up to see Ryder had tears in his eyes to match her own.

"Nuala, I'se is sorry dat had ta happen ta you'se. I swear as soon as I can get my hands on Blade-"he trailed off as Nuala laid a hand on his shoulder.

"Ryder, please-let me come with you."

"Nuala you knows I can't. And If I did and Spot found out we'se would both be dead. Nuala, I promise you- I will avenge you, and I will kill Blade."

A/N Ohhh, so Ryder is making this personal. Wonder what's going to happen? Let me know what you think! There should be another chapter up soon before I go to Florida for Spring Break. I will make an announcement saying when I'm leaving. Thanks for reading! Review/follow/favorite!