"Albus I don't know how we can help her if we can't touch her." A womans voice worried nearby.
"I'm hoping it goes away soon but we just needed to get her out of her house." Albus's voice answered. My eyes opened slowly I was in a brightly lit room and one corner Albus was talking to someone who must be a nurse. Professor McGonagall was pacing occasionally looking disdainfully at the field still surrounding me.
I propped myself up ignoring the pain and brought my knees to my chest. No one noticed that I had woke up and I felt glad.
"Wh...where am I." I asked nervously watching everyone spin around. McGonagall almost cried with relief running to the edge of the force field.
"Oh goodness Casper we thought you were dead, I was so worried!" She exclaimed and I felt suddenly extremely lonely in my force field. It disappeared and McGonagall rushed to my side. It reappeared before the nurse could come and she stomped away angrily. McGonagall walked towards me slowly caution in her eyes and I let her come. I watched her to see how far she would go and felt myself shrink as she sat at the side of my bed. Her hand shook as she reached out to touch my arm. I could see everyone in the room freeze and watch us from the corner of my eye. Albus was smiling like a kid who just got a bucket of candy.
Her hand rested on my arm and I shivered but I stayed there. I couldn't make myself move, I was rooted on the spot.
"I wont hurt you I promise." She whispered looking me in the eye I felt tears forming in my eyes. No. I wasn't going to cry. I tried to push them back but McGonagall did something that took me totally off-guard. She hugged me. I felt her arms around me and I was stiff as a board everything forgotten. Then I did something unexpected. I cried. I wrapped my arms around this women I had only just met today and I cried. I cried for my dead parents, I cried for the baby brother I never knew, I cried for being an orphan, I cried for Julia, I cried for the years of hell I put up with with Ben, and I cried because I had a horrible life and I had never cried about anything other than the pain.
I don't know how long I cried but I remember McGonagall telling me that it was going to be okay and that I'm okay and that Ben is gone and how she would never let him hurt me again. I cried until I couldn't and then I let go of the hug and sat there. Hurting.
"It..it hurts." I whispered leaning into her as she held me.
"Oh dear I know I know." She murmured stroking my blood soaked hair, "Thats why we took you here."
"Where is here?" I asked again closing my eyes against the pain.
"Your at St. Mungos a wizard hospital." Albus cut in and I looked up to see him looking at me with a smile.
"Although it would be great if you would let us help you." A nurse muttered shooting me and angry look.
"I can take care of myself thank you very much." I replied cooly. We stared at each other for a few seconds until she walked off grumbling about patients. Albus just laughed delightedly clapping one loud clap.
"Well Miss. Potter seeing as you've chased away your nurse you really should fix yourself up." He said.
I concentrated hard on getting better and slowly, ever so slowly, the cut on my leg turned into a pink scar. Next I concentrated on my ribs crying out as they slid back into place. I had to take a small break before mending the hole in my stomach, my chest heaving and my eyes closed it closed itself. I endured it in silent agony grabbed out to find a hand and squeezing it before I finished. I took a long breath and was helped out of the white hospital bed. I tested my leg and felt a little tinge of pain.
"I'm okay." I said mostly to myself. But McGonagall and Albus had both stopped and were staring at my heavily scarred wrists. I pulled down my sleeves hurriedly but the damage had already been done.
I looked at the horror struck looks on their faces and then I looked down at my shoes. There weren't lines on my wrists, there were words. Bitch, worthless, filthy, unloved, stupid, alone, too many to count.
It was right after Julia died. Ben got drunk and I was just there. That was the beginning of the really bad stuff. I never cut but they probably think that I do now.
"I...I…." But my voice gave out and I slid to the floor. I looked up at McGonagall but all I saw were tears falling down her frozen face. Albus, on the other hand was looking at me. He had a funny expression on his face
"I don't cut myself." I finally said looking at my shoes again.
"My dear thats not what we were looking at." Albus replied coming to the floor next to me. "You have a mark on your wrist."
"I know what does that have to do with anything?" I asked confused looking down at the white mark on my wrist. I'd always had it, it showed the hands of a clock pointing at what would be 7:00.
"In due time my dear in due time." He sighed and helped me up.
"Albus why can't I know now?" I retorted flinching as he touched me.
"If you are going to go to my school you must call me Professor my dear." He answered walking to Professor McGonagall who was still rooted on the spot.
"Okay fine Professor why can't I know?" I asked again slightly annoyed.
"There is a time and place for things Casper my dear and now is neither the time nor place." He informed me rubbing McGonagall on the shoulder reassuringly.
"Professor McGonagall are you okay?" I asked wrapping my arms around her torso in a hug. I felt her arms go around me and I looked up.
"Y..yes I'm quite fine now we need to go get your school supplies." She replied trying at a smile. I didn't believe her, not for a second. I'm the master at hiding things and it was obvious that there was more to this mark.
Authors Note- McGonagall tho! I feel like she's showing a lot of emotion in these first few chapters and she toughens up later don't worry. I also think that Casper needs friends, shes really alone. Just wait for the next few chapters you guys might just kill me... Till next time! :)