I woke up at 2:00 and decided to get ready. I wasn't going to get anymore sleep. As I pulled my robes on I remembered that breakfast didn't start till 6:00. I walked out in the common room and sat in a one person chair by the fire. I pulled a red blanket around me and started the fire. I stared into its depths thinking of how sleep was pointless. I was comfortable here, in this arm chair, staring into the fire, not sleeping.
I know that sleep is how your body rests up and gets ready for the next day but dreams don't have to come with it. I replayed the nightmare I had had in my head,
"I don't care where you are I'll find all of you." Ben promised and I was back in that horrid living room. I looked around and this time more bodies joined the ones from last time. Snape, Hagrid, and all the Weasleys were hanging, little Ginny at the end and I stifled a sob.
"No stop they didn't do anything please I'll do anything." I pleaded, screaming as I felt him draw on my skin with his knife.
"No. You left you suffer." He yelled and started stabbing the lifeless bodies. I struggled against the chains that appeared around me.
"NO PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE!"
He only grinned his evil grin and came towards me.
"Oh I'll kill you. I'll kill you in the most painful, in humane way possible." He whispered in my ear and I let out a sob.
"Its all my fault."
"Yeah it is. You killed them. You did this."
I heard his words echoing inside my head as fresh tears escaped from my eyes.
You killed them.
You killed them.
I stayed there for hours jumping when Fred came to scare me.
"Have you been here all night you look a wreck."
"Yeah I guess."
"We'll we're going to go eat c'mon."
"Not hungry."
They stared at me in disbelief but shrugged and walked out of the common room. I was alone again and I didn't move. I ignored my stomach growls and just looked at nothing until the portrait hole opened.
"I hear you're not hungry." McGonagall said looking at me sternly. "I refuse to believe it anyone whos had Hogwarts food will eat it even if they're about to burst."
"Well I haven't had Hogwarts food have I?"
"I will not permit someone from my house to starve themselves."
"I'm not starving myself."
"Well you look like it."
Her gaze softened as I looked away but she knew to keep her distance.
"I don't like the Great Hall and the last thing I want right now is to be around people so if you'll excuse me I think I'll go roam the halls until classes start. I'll talk to Nick or something he's nice." I said getting up and stretching.
"Nicks at the feast with everyone else." McGonagall countered.
"Then I'll talk to myself." I said, moving past her without touching her.
"You're going to starve you haven't ate in weeks."
"It's been a lot longer than that Professor."
With that I walked out into the corridors and started walking. I didn't pay attention to where I was going but I had my books and schedule in my bag so I could go to class.
"What are you doing not at the feast Miss. Potter?" I heard a voice drawl and turned around to see Professor Snape stalking towards me.
"I wasn't hungry." I answered going to walk away but he caught up to me.
"Really?" He asked as my stomach growled.
"Really." He didn't seem content with my answer.
"Why Miss. Potter, do you insist on doing everything alone?" He asked, "Do you like being the center of attention?"
"I hate people looking at me. I hate people in general. And I'm not so ecstatic about you." I retorted stopping walking and looking at him as if daring him to give me detention.
"I see you have your mothers attitude." He said dryly and something in my brain clicked.
"YOU! That's where I know you from you're that man! You took me to the orphanage!" I exclaimed and he looked at me coldly.
"Thank you for letting the whole school know."
"You welcome."
At that I stalked off to my class. The nerve of that man!
I looked at my schedule, I had double Transfiguration with the Ravenclaws. I stalked off to the Transfiguration room, not bothering to care when the other students stared at me. I was still fuming when I sat down, not even bothering to notice McGonagall look up from her papers as I came in. I was also the first one in the classroom and didn't even turn when Fred and George sat on either side of me. Just drummed my fingers on the desk impatiently.
"Umm Professor we're gonna need some water of here." George joked.
"Yeah can we transfigure Casper into something more pleasant, like a flower." Fred laughed and McGonagall stood up with a small smile as I shot them both furious glares.
"As much as I would sympathize with you if you did such a thing I have to say no." She said and the class laughed.
"I'm sorry are we going to actually learn something because if we aren't I'll just go." I shot at her and her look turned disapproving.
"Yes we are today we'll be talking over the basics of transfiguration and what will be expected in my class and tomorrow we will start transfiguring."
The class went by without any further interruptions and I had started to calm down a bit when I realized that next we had double Potions with the Slytherins. I walked into the dungeon- like classroom and sat down in the middle of Fred and George again.
"So you gonna tell us why you're all mad or no?" They asked.
"No I'm not." I told them just before Snape started to speak.
"Potions is an art. It's creating something out of nothing and that takes great skill. Half of you in this room won't be able to do this." He started looking throughout the room, his gaze resting on me and I felt the rage from earlier come back up strong as ever.
"On that happy note." I breathed and George stifled a laughed.
"And seeing as Miss. Potter is having such a riot over in the corner how would she like to tell us what a bezoar is?" He asked dryly and George stopped laughing.
"A bezoar is a stone like mass taken from the stomach of a goat that acts as an antidote to most poisons, but does not work on everything." I said much to his disbelief. He pulled himself together quickly and smirked.
"That was taken directly from the textbook."
"Would you like me to state it differently, I'm sorry its just I thought we were supposed to read the textbooks and learn from them. Should I learn differently?"
People were looking from Snape to me and I felt a surge of defiance. He wasn't going to get me that easily.
"Detention Miss. Potter!" He snapped and I lost it.
"Great! Whatcha gonna do tell my mum? Well news flash Professor she's dead!" I said standing up and I knew I had taken it too far.
"Get out!" I did a little mock bow and grabbed my stuff, walking out the door.
Authors Note- On that note... Till next time!