I was hiding in a closet. My knees to my chest as I fought to hold back my tears. I couldn't cry. I would get hurt if I cried. The door slid open and Julia slipped in, closing the door behind her. I know she couldn't see me in my hiding my spot by the corner but she knew I was there.
"Cassy?" She asked and I peeked my head through the coats, my face bruised and battered.
"Mum?" I asked in reply and she sat down beside me, pulling me in a tight embrace.
"I thought I'd find you here." She murmured and I looked up slightly.
"Where is he?"
"Asleep, we're okay for now but if we aren't there when he calls he'll get mad."
"Good."
The word was said with such malice that Julia pulled away and looked me in the eye.
"He loves us you know that." She said and I gave her a raised eyebrow.
"I hate love." I said and she looked sad.
"He's just confused thats all."
"I can't do this." I whispered, my body was shaking again as I looked at Dumbledore's grave face.
"Yes you can."
I shuddered and let the next memory take me.
I was in a hospital room, sitting numbly beside the bed.
"Cassy? Baby is that you" The woman in the bed woke up and I found myself face to face with Julia.
"Yeah mum it's me I'm here." I replied grasping her hand.
"Wheres your father?" She asked and I gave a little frown.
"He's not my father and he's probably passed out somewhere." I mumbled and looked at my worn shoes. I couldn't bear to see her disapproving look right now.
"Casper!" She exclaimed then coughed.
"Mum he's the reason you're here isn't he? I hate him, I hate this."
"You don't hate him Cassy you love him, I know you do."
I looked up at her, my face hard.
"I don't love anyone, there is no such thing as love." I retorted and she started coughing again.
"C...Cassy." She stuttered and began to cough up blood. I jumped up and opened the door.
"HELP! HELP SOMEONE PLEASE MY MUM NEEDS HELP!" I yelled and three doctors ran into the room. I stood in the corner of the room, watching as they tried to control the coughing. Tears were streaming down my face when the doctors stopped working.
"Time of death?"
"6:25"
I couldn't breath.
"No. No shes not dead your doctors please you're supposed to help her." I cried and they all looked at me as if they hadn't noticed I was there. I waited for someone to tell me that she wasn't dead. Just sleeping.
"There's nothing we could do." One of them said and they all left me in the room.
"No no no no."
I walked up to the table and grabbed her hand, the exact way I had done just a few minutes ago.
"Mum stop mum I can't do this without you. I love you… mum please wake up please don't leave me. Don't leave me…" I started sobbing, my head resting on her lifeless arm.
I didn't notice Ben come in. I barely registered when he practically dragged me out of the room into the car. I was numb as he pushed me back into the house. I was dead inside as he cut his words into my wrists. His knife cutting through my pale skin like butter, his tears and words were wasted on my deaf ears.
I was as lifeless as Julia.
I was sobbing uncontrollably. It felt as if I was losing Julia all over again.
"Stop please, please I can't do this Professor let me go, I'll eat, I'll sleep. Please I can't do this…"
My words were only a whisper, my arm was bleeding profusely, mostly due to the fact that my nails were embedded in my arm ass I tried to get a hold of myself.
"Casper my dear you can't be afraid." He murmured and the door opened.
I heard a gasp and McGonagall was kneeling by my shaking form.
"Well this looks like fun." Professor Snape.
I ran my bloody fingertips through my hair in an effort to calm down but I couldn't. All I could see was Julia's lifeless body, my small body begging her to wake up.
"Albus why are you doing this now?!" McGonagall exclaimed as I slid off the chair and fell to the ground, sure that if I continued this sobbing I would drown myself in tears.
"There is no better time than now." He replied and I was dragged into another memory. This time it was brought in and out of focus.
My head was dunked under the water, I was being stabbed, hung, shot, every way Ben had tried to kill me was giving a relapse. I couldn't move. The pain was everywhere.
Bens face was above me his maniac smile inches away from my face.
I screamed and Snape can to kneel beside my head.
"Somethings wrong."
I was standing, back against the door as Ben slammed Julia against the wall,
"You little bitch." He growled and slapped her, her head snapping to the side, tears glistening in her eyes when she saw me watching.
"No! No stop please!" I screamed, writhing in pain, inside and out.
"Albus do something!" McGonagall yelled, shaking me.
My mark began to glow and in a flash of white, I was gone.
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