Thanks for the reviews guys. FYI, my version of Spencer is very confusing. I just posted a 1shot too. So read/review that. It's called A Year From Now. Here's the next chapter!

Dear Diary,

It's been 5 days since the incident in the park with Spencer. Remember how she said she would text me later? She must have meant much much later than I thought. I'm still waiting for a text from her. I've texted her a few times. Hell, I even tried calling her once. No response. I've been trying to keep her off my mind. I've been trying to forget the way she makes me nervous, or how my heart races at the very mentioning of her name. I've been trying to hide how I feel from Kayla. I guess I should end things with her because obviously there is nothing there for me. I shouldn't stay with her when I am falling for her best friend. I don't think she'd be very upset if I did break up with her. Maybe for a few days, but no longer than that. Kayla's a great friend, don't get me wrong. I thought I could love her. I wish I could love her because it would be so much easier than this. I don't think she is in love with me either. We're just each other's backbone. She doesn't like to be alone, and I absolutely hate being alone. I just can't bring myself to ending it with her and trying to be with Spencer when I don't know what she wants. Call me selfish but I don't want to break up with Kayla just to get my heart crushed by Spencer. Then I'd have no one. No one except a few friends. Speaking of friends, I think a lunch date with Aiden and Kyla is well overdue.

Bye Diary.

I called Aiden and Kyla and now I am on my way to lunch. I decided to get dressed up because I might see Spencer. I hope I do.

I arrive just on time and see them sitting in the outside section of the restaurant. Now that I think about it, Kyla and Aiden would be a really cute couple. Too bad Kyla's missing 1 certain part that Aiden likes the most, if you get what I'm saying.

"Hey guys, I've missed the hell out of you." I say as I'm taking my seat.

"Yeah, where have you been lately sis?" Kyla, always the nosey one.

"Eh, I'm having some girl issues" I say as I look at the menu, trying to decide what sounds good.

"Oh tell, tell!" Aiden says as he gets all excited. He always wants to be in on everything.

I explain the story of Spencer, from start to end. Well hopefully not the end. But up until now the end. I explain how I want to leave Kayla because I feel bad for wanting her best friend. They want to meet her, but that would be kind of hard considering she doesn't talk to me now. Apparently when I gave the description of her, it was dead on because the next thing I know, Aiden is pulling my arm and whispering "is that her? I hope that's her because she's totally hot."

Naturally I turn around to look for my gorgeous blonde bombshell. It was her. She was sitting next to some boy with dark hair. It kind of looked like they were flirting.

"Yeah, that's her. And her boyfriend I'm guessing" I tell them, feeling like shit again.

"what are you waiting for Ash, go talk to her." Aiden tells me and pulls me out of my seat.

I head over to their table trying to think of what to say to her when I do get the chance to talk. I get close and the boy turns around, only to show me that it isn't a boy at all. It's a chick with boyish hair. And boyish clothes on. Is this what I need to look like to get Spencer to talk to me? Geesh. Spencer is just sitting there, head cocked sideways. She's looking like she's trying to think of what to do.

"Spencer, hello? Are you in there? Someone wants to talk to you." The boyish girl tells her and it seems to snap her out of it.

"Oh, right. Sorry, I'll just be right back, okay Erica?"

She stands up and looks at me, before grinning a little. I start walking to an empty table and she follows. We both sit down and just look at each other for a moment before she decides to talk.

"Hey."

"hi." I say back looking down.

"what's wrong Ashley?"

"Why have you been ignoring me?" I ask with a questioning face.

"I haven't been trying to, I've been busy" she says. She's playing with her fingers. I'm guessing that's a nervous habit.

"Oh, too busy with your girlfriend Erica?" I say kind of rudely. I see her face drop and instantly I regret saying it so harsh.

"Ashley it isn't like that. She's not my girlfriend."

"So is this your thing? You go out with the gay girls once or twice and then decide its time for a new one?"

"What? What are you talking about?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about Spencer. Don't pretend that you don't." I'm getting frustrated now.

"I don't see what you're so upset about. You have a girlfriend. Why aren't you with her giving her all your attention?" She says. She sounds mad now too.

"Maybe because I want to give someone else my attention. Someone that obviously doesn't want it."

"Then why are you still with her?" She asks, with her head to the side. I love it when she does that. She looks so cute, but I'm not going to tell her that. Not yet.

"Because I'm scared of being alone, okay? You wouldn't understand that though. You can have anyone you want. Just forget it okay. Forget everything I said." And with that I got up to leave. She didn't stop me. I went back to my friends and she went and sat with Erica.

"Ashley what happened? That looked like it was going to get pretty heated!" Aiden says.

"Nothing. Im gonna go home though, I don't feel good." And once again I get up to leave. No one stops me this time either.