Ah! I'm so excited about this story again! Maybe the holiday spirit has something to do with it? Two updates in one day! As always, reads are mucho appreciated, reviews are definitely necessary. I love hearing what you guys think of my work, and hearing suggestions.

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Wow, I definitely should have thought about Spencer being at Kayla's. I don't know why the thought never crossed my mind. I have to figure out something to do or say soon or I'm going to look like a total freak, deer in headlights, type of thing.

That is so not how I want Spencer to see me.

"HELLOOOO, Earth to Ashley," I hear Kayla say before snapping out of my thoughts.

"Oh, hey Kayla, sorry, I must have zoned... You know me.. Heh," I manage to muster out, not before a flush of red greets my cheeks.

Why am I blushing? Ashley Davies does not get embarrassed, much less blush, ever.

I glance quickly at Spencer to see her with her head down, and I think she's mad that I'm here, but then she looks up at me and I see those totally adorable dimples in her cheeks.

"So, what did you want to talk to me about?" Kayla asks, leaving me flustered again.

Shit shit shit shit, think brain, PLEASE?

"Um, I.. I thought you were alone, I didn't think she was going to be here, and it's kind of a thing that needs to be talked about alone, you know?" I say, finding my shoes pretty interesting to stare at.

"Oh, I can leave if you two need to talk about something?" Spencer says, leaving the question hanging for either me or Kayla to answer.

Kayla studies me for a second before answering, "Yeah, if you don't mind. I'll call you tomorrow and we can plan something..."

Obviously she can tell something is wrong, because usually Kayla doesn't let anyone interrupt her plans. Kayla's nothing if not loyal to people she cares about. That's another thing that makes this so hard. I still want to be there for her, and try to build a friendship after this.

I see Spencer hug Kayla and whisper something in her ear, and in return Kayla kisses her forehead and thanks her. Spencer walks out and closes the door behind her. I guess this is the moment. Ugh..

I grab Kayla's arm and lead her to her bed. I sit beside her and look her straight in the eyes, which she returns. I see her start to get teary, and I instantly want to give up on my plan on seeking out Spencer. I am no good at handling crying women. But then, I think about the way I feel around Spencer, and the way I know, or think, she feels about me. It's really no fair to Kayla.

"Kayla, I need you to listen to me and not interrupt while I'm talking. Okay? Can you do that for me please?" I plead with her and she nods. She knows what's going to happen, I can tell by the look in her eyes.

"I know how wrong this is, what I'm about to tell you, and I feel horrible. I understand if you hate me, and don't want to be around me or talk to me... I have feelings for Spencer. I didn't plan on it happening. I didn't even like her in the beginning. I just feel like its not fair to stay with you and want someone else, so I have to end this," I tell her, bracing for what she'll say next.

Surprisingly, it's not what I expected. She takes my hands in hers, and starts to rub them. I'm guessing that she's thinking about what to say.

She must see the confusion on my face, because she says, "Ashley, I knew that you had feelings for Spencer. I could always tell when we hung out with her. Your gaze would linger on her longer than it should, and something changed in your eyes."

As she's telling me this, I'm wondering where she's headed, because I can't help but feel like shit is about to hit the fan and she's going to start screaming at me.

She stands up all of the sudden and looks at me expectantly. When I don't respond, she pulls me up so that we're standing face to face. She takes my face in her hands and I look her in the eye. Maybe things won't be so bad after all.

"The reason that I'm not flipping out about you falling for my best friend, is that I know there was nothing I could do to stop it. I care about you immensely and I only want the best for you. I know it isn't me, and I'm somehow okay with it," she confesses and pulls me into a tight embrace.

It feels really good, and I think it's because we finally realized that we're better off as friends. It's like the weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I collapse into her arms and we sink to the floor. I don't think we've ever hugged this long while we were dating, and that seems funny to me so I start laughing.

"What's so funny?" she asks me, confusion all over her face.

"Nothing is really funny, but it's just that.. this is like, the longest we've ever hugged," I tell her, still giggling.

She must find it funny too, because she laughs along with me.

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Dear Diary,

Today I realized something.

I realized that sometimes staying is worse than leaving. Hiding, denying and lying about feelings works for a moment or two, but eventually, your heart will trump everything else.

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