This chapter is going to be in Spencer's POV, for the simple fact that I want her to express how she's really feeling. I probably won't post a lot of chapters in her POV so that it keeps the mystery alive. Read and Review!

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I'm Spencer Carlin. I have two brothers. My parents are divorced, and also total opposites.

Kayla is my best friend. My mom is friends with her mom. We met when we were young.

After being close for so many years, we started drifting apart when my dad made me switch to homeschooling. That's a whole other story.

Right now, I need to think about the problem at hand. A short brunette who has invaded my thoughts.

Ashley Davies.

I've known of her for a while. Kayla told me that they started dating. I wasn't really surprised when she told me. They both have similar reputations. The in-your-face, take-it-or-leave-it lesbian who hardly cares what people think or say about her.

I know differently, though. Kayla acts the way she does because she wants to intimidate people. She has a wall between her and the world, and if you're lucky enough to crack it, you'll see she's one of the most sensitive people ever.

Before meeting Ashley, I just figured she would be a bitch. But Kayla insisted on us all hanging out together.

I agreed to go to the movies with them so Kayla would get off my back.

I actually had a good time, though. Ashley wasn't at all what I expected. She kept cracking jokes during the movie. I laughed so much that my cheeks hurt by the end of the night. I actually felt happy, and it scared me a little.

I got to Applebee's early, because I was just excited to hang out with Kayla and Ashley. I don't know what I was thinking when I started rubbing Ashley's leg. I'm glad that Kayla didn't pick up on it. Ashley tried to blame her little freak out on something that didn't even happen, which was hilarious.

For so long, I've been trying to find something. I don't know what it is, or how to get it. It's been like trying to navigate through a pitch black room. But when I think of Ashley, there's a little light that flickers, directing me forward.

When Ashley texted me, how she got my number, I don't even know, I felt hopeful. I knew that Kayla was with her parents, and I saw it as a sign. So, I asked her to hang out.

I've been trying to back off a little, because really, flirting with your best friends girlfriend isn't okay. I just couldn't resist any longer. I went to the park and started swinging. Trying to convince myself that this is nothing. Just friendship.

I was so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't hear her arrive. She scared the shit out of me.

I grabbed her hand because I felt okay. It's been so long since I've felt this fine. I wanted to tell her that, without actually telling her that.

She didn't comment on it, but I could tell she didn't mind. I know she likes me, but will it just be another let down to add to my long list?

When Stephanie and Jesse asked if we were together, it scared the hell out of me. I tried to bring up the topic to Ashley, but she just seemed clueless.

Finally realizing that I have been taking this too far, I do what I'm best at. I leave. But she stops me before I can make a clean getaway.

She hugs me, and it's like someone has wrapped me up in the tightest security blanket. It's unlike anything I've ever felt before. Confused, I backed away. A flash of pain comes to her face and I instantly want to make it go away.

A kiss of the forehead is totally a thing that friends do, right?

Who am I kidding?

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I spend the following days trying to piece together the situation in my head. Ashley texted me, and called but I just can't seem to come up with any answers. So I ignored her.

Erica is a few years older than me, and much more experienced when dealing with girls, so I asked her to lunch. Maybe she can help me figure this mess out.

We meet, and I explain the situation to her, trying not to leave out any details. I saw Ashley come in and meet up with a few other people. I hope she doesn't come up to me because I really don't know what to say to her.

As fate would have it, her friend spotted me and Ashley makes her way towards Erica and I. She looks pretty angry and I try to put my finger on why.

When she starts to talk, I get nervous and I realize I haven't been right ignoring her. But she hasn't been fair either. She's still with Kayla, and I'm not going to admit anything to her when she's in a relationship.

I start to get angry, and I finally say whats on my mind.

When she tells me that she wants to give her attention to someone else, I ask the question that's been eating away at me for days.

"Why are you still with her?"

She starts spilling her feelings about being alone, and I'm starting to understand where she's coming from. Before I can say anything, though, she's walking away from me.

I go back to sit with Erica and she tells me that I need to let her figure herself out. Sighing, I leave Erica and go to my house to recall the previous moments.

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I haven't been talking to Kayla out of pure guilt. But when she calls me and invites me over, I accept. I feel so bad for having feelings for Ashley.

I try to be attentive for Kayla's sake but I find myself only nodding back at her when she makes a comment.

Completely zoning, I didn't even hear the knock on her front door and before I know it, her bedroom door opens and we're greeted with a frozen, wide eyed Ashley.

She just stands there, staring for a moment until Kayla snaps her out of it.

She starts stuttering out words and I can't help but put my head down and chuckle to myself.

Ashley tells Kayla that she wanted to talk alone so I offered to leave. I know it must be important if they want to talk alone. I wonder what Ashley could need to say. The only thing I can think of, is that Ashley came over here to break up with Kayla.

I get up to leave, hugging Kayla and whispering, "I'm here for you, I love you."

Ashley Davies, how are we supposed to fix this?