Finally a new update. Sorry it took so long but, I just can't rush perfection! Anyways, the boys finally come together but does it mean that all is well?
As Sonny comes running into the coffee shop, Chad stops him. Sonny looks into his best friends' eyes and he knows he's in trouble based on the stern look.
"So, you done with your little drama queen act?" Chad raises an eyebrow as he struggles to hold back a smile.
"You know everyone deserves to have a little hissy fit every now and again." Sonny says with a smile and a shrug.
"I just thought I'd warn you that he's here. Over there talking to Abigail." Chad says with a shrug towards a table behind him.
"Thanks for the heads up Chad, but honestly I think I'm going to be just fine." Sonny says with a pat on Chad's shoulder as he walks around him to get behind the counter.
Sonny spends the next few minutes getting himself reacquainted with his list of things that needed to be done that day.
Glancing over his shoulder Sonny sees that Will is sitting at their table in the corner talking to Abigail. Sonny isn't sure what they are talking about but, he does see that Abigail is holding a picture shaped item in her hand. Both her and Will are gushing over it. It doesn't take Sonny long to put two and two together and know that they are discussing Will's baby. Sonny decides to approach the table and maybe get Will to talk to him.
"Oh my, Will she is just perfect!" Abigail gushes.
Will doesn't respond he just smiles, a smile that Sonny hasn't seen grace his face since after the first time they made love. It was a look of total and complete love. In that moment, Sonny realizes that in order to love Will he was willing to sacrifice his dreams of travelling the world and settling down with a baby instead.
"So, it's a girl huh?" Sonny approaches the table and directs his most loving smile towards Will.
When he realizes that Will isn't even looking Sonny's look becomes crestfallen.
"You want to see a picture of her, Sonny?" Abigail offers.
"No" Will snatches up the sonogram picture and puts it back in his wallet before Sonny can even see it.
"Oh come on Will! This is Sonny. Remember? Your boyfriend?" Abigail urges Will.
"We broke up, remember?" Will pointedly responds.
"Will-" Sonny starts but, stops when he sees Will look over his shoulder and then roll his eyes with a huff.
Sonny turns around to see that Brian has just entered the coffee shop. He is all smiles as he approaches the table. He smiles at Sonny but, addresses Will.
"Hey, Will. How are things with your baby mama? You guys planning a wedding?" Brian says with a wicked gleam in his eyes.
"Brian, I think-" Sonny starts but is interrupted by Will.
"Look, Brian, you don't have to act all concerned about my problems. I'm out of the picture, you can have your way with Sonny, or whatever. We all know that's what you've been egging for since day one." Will says giving Brian the most sincere, yet broken look that Sonny had ever seen.
"Will, I'm not dating Brian, nor have I ever." Sonny counter argues.
"Well, there was that one time at the movies." Brian said off-handedly.
"See, the evidence speaks for itself. Have a great day Sonny." Will says as he gets up, then he turns to Abigail, "I'll call you."
Will starts to leave the coffee house when Chad blocks the door to stop him.
"Just move Chad. I have better things to do." Will says dejectedly.
"More important than talking to the man you love?" Chad asks.
Will turns around and just stares at Sonny cleaning off their table while conversing with Abigail. It makes Will think back to all the times he would sit in her spot and watch as Sonny worked. I wonder if this not talking to each other is hurting him as much as it hurts me? I can barely breathe half the time I am near him. My chest always aches to be against his. I want nothing more than to be WITH him, but he seems to have given up all hope of us ever actually getting back together. Standing here actually makes it feel like I'm all alone as I watch him go about his life like nothing's wrong. Maybe if I begged him he would come back to me. No that's just stupid, begging is for the desperate. You know, Chad has a point, I could simply try talking to him. I should never tell Chad that he's right, it would only enlarge his already large ego.
Chad nudges Will's shoulder, bringing him out of his thoughts. "Just go over there and talk, trust me he's willing to listen."
Will walks back over to Sonny and raps his knuckles on the countertop, trying to figure out what he should say. Sonny turns around and gives Will a pointed look that says "What do you want?"
"Sonny, I'm uh I'm really sorry. I lied to you and I shouldn't have. Then you tried to talk to me and I shut you out. I shouldn't have done that and I'm sorry." Will stumbles over his words as he nervously picks his fingers.
"I'm sorry too, Will. Sorry that you think a simple apology is going to work. I tried over and over again, this is me done trying." Sonny says as he walks away.
Sonny went home that night feeling really lousy about what he had done to Will. He still couldn't quite figure out what made him say what he did to the one person he could see himself spending the rest of his life with. He could barely sleep, but eventually the need for sleep overpowered him and he went peacefully. His dreams were filled with images of him standing in a room filled with people, only no one could see or hear him. It was as if he was the only one there. Every now and again it seemed that Will, who was in the center holding a pink bundle, saw him. However, Will would turn away any time Sonny tried to get his attention. Eventually Sonny just decided to scream. This woke him up, tangled in his sheets and breathing heavily.
Over the next month Sonny tried everything he could think of to apologize to Will. He tried calling and leaving messages saying he was messed up and never should have walked away that day. He tried getting Chad and Abigail to talk to Will. Neither of them could get Will to even listen to anything they had to say about Sonny. It seemed to Sonny that things were truely over between him and Will. That is until a Wednesday towards the end of February.
Sonny was clearing out the paper hearts, two weeks after Valentine's Day, hanging from the ceiling towards the end of the day when the bell over the door clattered.
"Just a second, I'll be right with you." Sonny calls out not even turning to see who his customer is.
"That's okay Sonny, take your time. I can wait." Sami says in a muffled tone.
Hearing the voice of his ex-boyfriend's mother causes Sonny to stop what he is doing and turn around.
"What can I get for you Sami." Sonny says, quickly closing the space between them as he approaches the counter.
"Your strongest coffee." Sami forces a smile.
"Had a long day?" Sonny asks as he pours her a cup.
"Been at the hospital all day with Will." Sonny spills coffee on the floor as the coffee pot falls from his hand at the news.
"Is Will okay?" Sonny asks suddenly desperate to talk to the woman before him.
"I don't know. Gabi went into labor this afternoon. They couldn't stop it and she just had the baby." Sami mutters, as she grabs Sonny's hand, "Actually that is why I came here. I figured Will could use you right now."
"Did Will actually say that? Because lately it's been nothing but the cold shoulder from him." Sonny's face reflects the hurt he is feeling as sympathy for Will's pain and anguish.
"Well no but, I know my son. He wants you there even if he doesn't say it. He gets that stubborn streak from me." Sami sniffs and then smiles.
"And the baby?" Sonny finally asks.
"It's not looking so good. She was born way too early. Doctor's are doing all that they can. Sonny you have to go to him."
Will stood outside the NICU watching as nurses bustled around checking all the babies' monitors. It tore at Will's heart to know that his daughter was going to be hooked up to these machines the minute the doctor's were done running tests. Will fights back tears at the thought of having to go through all this alone. As if on cue a hand comes out and rests on his shoulder in a comforting manner.
"She is going to be just fine, after all she is your daughter. She's a fighter." Lucas says quietly.
"Dad, I don't know if I can handle it." Will starts to cry.
"Come here" Lucas pulls his son into his arms and begins to soothe him by rubbing comforting circles on his back. "Everything is going to be just fine."
Will didn't say anything, instead he remained in his father's arms until the nurses brought little Arianna Grace into the NICU. Will could hardly see her through all her tubes and machines. It scared him to think that his little girl was brought into a chaotic world. All he wanted was for her to be at peace and in his arms. A few tears stray from his eyes and he reaches up and brushes them off. For some reason looking in at his daughter, Will is reminded of Sonny and how he wished for that man's comfort.
Meanwhile Sonny comes rushing into the hospital. He is all flustered and has no idea where he should go. He starts rushing off towards the left but, runs into Maxine who stops him.
"Where are you off to in such a hurry?" Maxine raises an eyebrow at Sonny.
"Will's daughter was born and I wanted to be there for him." Sonny rushes out.
"Well, sugar, you are going the wrong direction. The NICU is to the left right next to the nursery." Maxine turns Sonny towards the right hallway.
"Thanks" Sonny calls over his shoulder as he rushes off, not hearing Maxine telling him to "slow down".
Sonny runs down one hallway and then another and then finally reaches the hallway that has the nursery and then the NICU. He sees Lucas at the far end of the hall, but no Will. Upon reaching Lucas, Sonny looks towards the big picture window showing off the NICU babies. Inside the room he sees Will draped in a blue hospital gown and his face covered with a face guard. The nurses are showing him the ins and outs of his daughter's incubator. The sight before him just melts his heart. Then the unthinkable happens.
Suddenly a lot of bells and whistles on the baby's monitors go off. The nurses all rush to her incubator and shove Will aside. Sonny can tell that Will is trying to keep it all together but, the longer his daughter goes with this crisis the more unraveled he becomes. A doctor rushes in and tries his best to get the monitors to quiet down. Sonny watches in horror as the machine he knows to monitor heart rate goes to a flat line. Sonny chokes on a sob as the doctor and nurses try again and again to bring the baby's heart rate back. After about 5 minutes of trying unsuccessfully to bring her heart rate back, the doctor steps away from the baby and turns the monitors off.
Sonny watches everything as if in slow motion. Will starts towards the doctor, an angry look on his face, and a nurse holds him back. He then collapses into sobs. A nurse with a blue bow in her blonde ponytail unhooks the baby from the machines and offers her to Will. Will holds his daughter close and starts to rock her all the while trying to control his sobs.
Sonny's heart about breaks. He sees a nurse leaving the NICU and flags her down.
"Can I help you?" She asks sweetly.
"My boyfriend is in there really upset and I want to know if there is some way I could be there with him?" Sonny asks pleadingly.
"Well, technically only family is allowed in with the babies, but you say that you are his boyfriend? I don't think it will hurt for you to be there with him." She smiles at him and then goes on her way.
Sonny rushes into the NICU and is stopped by the head nurse. However, after hearing Sonny's story she gives him a hospital gown and a face guard and ushers him inside. Sonny stops at the doorway to the NICU and watches as Will collapses into a chair still holding his daughter. The pain reflected on Will's face just breaks Sonny's heart into a million pieces. Silently, he approaches Will.
"Hey," Sonny whispers hoarsely as he kneels in front of Will.
"Sonny?" Will blinks back tears and looks at Sonny, sudden relief washing over him.
"Yeah, I'm here." Sonny says soothingly as he rubs Will's leg.
"She died, Sonny. I didn't even get to hold her! She died not knowing." Will starts bawling again.
"Hey, hey. Look at me." Sonny brings his hand to Will's chin and lifts it up. "She knew! She knew that her daddy was right there with her. Always."
Without a sound Will leans forward and allows Sonny to wrap him in a hug. A hug that says everything they hadn't said over the last six weeks. A hug that held all the love their two hearts could muster. A hug that made Will never want to let go of Sonny.
Sonny pulls back from the hug and plants his lips onto Will's. The kiss becomes really heated, really fast. However, just as the boys come up for air, Will shoves Sonny away.
"Sonny, I can't" Will says with a broken, dejected look on his face.