Hey everyone, I do want to apologize slightly for how slowly the chapters are coming for this piece. It partially is to do with how little time I have, but honestly, I'm just struggling with creating quality updates for this particular verse. I would rather make you wait than put up something sub par. It might also be that I'm actually vibrating with excitement over my Klaine Reverse Bang piece. I CAN'T WAIT for all of you to read it. I hope you're all having a wonderful start to summer. I know I'm having a phenomenal time taking advantage of all the wonderful concerts that New York City has to offer this time of year (Guns n' Hoses!, Darren Criss!, Ben Folds Five!). Please mind the Beta request at the end of the chapter!
I don't think that I could accurately explain to you how I felt directly after Blaine told me that he was planning to come out in just three short months. It felt so sudden, but then again like it was a long time coming. It helped that we spent the rest of the night talking about it. Blaine explained that while it may have seen sudden to me, he had been slowly building up to it for his whole life practically. Blaine was and is a naturally open person, and his psyche didn't take kindly to long term secret keeping.
"I just...I just want you to be sure you're doing this for the right reasons. I'm totally on your side, Blaine, but I..." Kurt hesitated for a moment, wondering whether or not he should finish the thought. "I just don't want you to end up resenting me," he finally admitted.
Blaine looked taken aback by the suggestions, "resenting you?" he asked incredulously. "How could I resent you? It's the rest of the world I should be nervous about, not you."
"I understand that, but no matter what you say, I think you and I both know that your sudden decision has at least something to do with our relationship," Kurt explained. "If things go really badly, Blaine...I don't want to lose you," Kurt said. He had started out strong, but he was slowly beginning to break down and get panicky.
"Kurt," Blaine said gently, taking the other man's hands in his. "I understand how you feel, and you're right. Being with you is the push that I needed to come to this decision, but I can't help but think...hope really...that even without you, I wouldn't be doing this some time in the near future," Blaine said, squeezing Kurt's hands. "I'm...I'm tired, Kurt. I can't be someone I'm not for much longer. Please say you'll be by my side when the proverbial shit hits the fan?" Blaine asked, giving Kurt a pleading look.
"Oh, Blaine, of course! I wouldn't be anywhere else," Kurt responded quickly, shifting from concern for himself to concern for Blaine as soon as he saw the uncertainty in the other man's eyes. "If you say you're ready, then there's nothing for me to do than to believe you. We're in this together."
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As willing as I was to provide as much support as possible for Blaine, there was no way that the two of us could do it on our own. Blaine was about to do something unprecedented and he would need as many people in his corner as possible.
His father's mouth pressed together in a thin line, "so you're just going to throw it away—everything we've worked for?" he asked with a hard look on his face. "Did you ever consider that more people than just you will be affected by this?"
Blaine at least had the good sense to look remorseful, "I...I know, Dad. I get it, but frankly...that's part of the reason that I have to do this. It isn't just about me anymore," Blaine said quietly, looking down at his folded hands.
The two men were in a coffee shop, presumably having a light lunch, but neither of them had even touched their drinks or their sandwiches. "What's his name?" his father said, putting his face in his hands and rubbing exhaustedly.
"Kurt," he replied simply. He considered pushing back, delaying the inevitable, but his father deserved that much at least. Blaine wasn't stupid. He knew that this could blow up in his face, and he knew that he would be taking his father down with him. Anderson's stuck together—no matter what. "He um...he works on the show."
"I know who he is, Blaine," his father said, and to Blaine's relief he could notice a slight tease in his voice. "I...I know this isn't something we...talk about, Blaine, but you have to know I love you no matter what, and you're an adult. If you think it's time, then it's time."
Blaine looked back up at his father in shock, "Dad?" he asked incredulously, "Do you...do you really mean that? I mean all this time—."
"All this time, I wanted you to be happy Blaine," his father cut him off. "That's all I've ever wanted. When you were younger you wanted to perform. That made you happy, and unfortunately in this world it means making some sacrifices, but you were just a kid. It didn't matter then. I see you now, Blaine, and you're not happy. Don't think I can't tell," Blaine father scrubbed his face one more time. "Just don't...don't do anything rash. This is a huge thing you'd be doing, coming out to the public. Make sure you're really ready for what could happen."
Blaine nodded, "I think...I think that no matter how it turns out, that it's time for me to take a breather from the limelight," Blaine said. "I'm still young and I was thinking that maybe...maybe I could go to college?" he said, question in his voice. He may have been an adult, but he still looked to his father for approval.
"I think that's a great idea, Blaine," his Dad replied. "Now let's eat. Break is almost over and you've barely touched your sandwich," he said, silently congratulating himself for successfully steering the topic back to neutral territory. One serious conversation per meal was enough.
Hello lovely readers! As I mentioned before I'm doing the Klaine Reverse Bang, and I'm REALLY excited about it. What I need now, is Beta readers. Would any of you be willing to jump in and help me? I have one already, but for a project of this size I'd really like two, possibly three. I'm about a quarter of the way through right now and I'm EXTREMELY excited. PM me or message me on tumblr (mspracticalamanda) if you're interested!
