"Are you going to give this baby up like you did me?"
And like that I was pulled out of my happy little conversation we were having about school and favorite colors and stuff animals. Santana tensed beside me as I could see Mackenzie's parents cringe at the sudden tension in the room. She was intently looking at me waiting for an answer. I wanted to run that was my first instinct but I knew I had to stick around and answer her. She was just a child; she didn't know what had happened.
"No, this child is Santana and mine." I answered trying to hide the nervousness in my voice. Santana relaxed her shoulders I could see out of the corner of my eye as did the Coopers.
"Will it be my brother or sister?" more questions just great I thought as I smiled a little to show her she wasn't in trouble for asking these difficult questions." In away." I answered not wanting to disrespect anyone." You already have a big brother." I threw that out there hoping she would start talking about him.
"Yes and he is the greatest but I have always wanted to be a big sister." Mackenzie informed shooting her parents a smile before turning back to Santana." Would that be ok if your baby is my little brother or sister?" she was now asking Santana who I knew was just as nervous about the young girl's questions.
"Sweetie, wont we discuss where you want to go for lunch?" Mrs. Cooper interrupted trying to help the women out. The little girl shook her head." I want to know Mama."
The thing is I warned Santana she probably wouldn't be the happiest about this surprise and I knew my wife didn't understand how could she? But this was just going downhill and fast. I knew I needed to help my wife out here but I had a hard time making myself try to grab her hand to reassure her let alone say anything at the moment.
"Honey, your mother is right. Let's discuss lunch. I am starving now." I forced myself to say thinking of my rumbling stomach. Mackenzie took all of us by surprise as she folded her arms and narrowed her eyes as she gave Santana a pointed look. Santana turned to look at me for a second not knowing what to do before she glanced over at the little girl again.
"Are you ok Mackenzie?" I dared to ask. Her head turned violently in my direction giving me the same creepy look she was giving Santana. "Is she the reason you gave me up?" Mackenzie demanded.
"Mackenzie!" Both her parents shrieked in unison. I held my hand up as I scooted to the edge of the couch to be closer to Mackenzie.
"Honey, no. Santana is not the reason. Look at me please." I hoped this went the way I hoped it did but I had already thought this whole meeting was going to go the way I had planned it in my head and nothing had panned out right.
"I was real young when I had you Mackenzie. I had nothing to my name. nothing I could offer you and I found your amazing parents who wanted so much to have a beautiful little baby girl and I couldn't say no." I explained as tears started to fall from my face.
"Know I loved you so much, it was the hardest decision for me but the best in my situation." I glanced over to the Coopers who both were giving me grateful expressions giving me courage to go on." Yes Mackenzie this baby is your baby sister. You can love her and if your parents will allow have play dates and such." I saw the expressions on her face start to change and I could breathe again knowing I was getting somewhere with this girl.
"Santana has never and would never think of you any less than a daughter." I felt Santana's hand on my thigh something I needed. "Don't be mad at her or blame her for anything. You can be mad at me but I hope that one day you will see all you have in your life because of your parents."
I was grateful when the conversation took a turn for the better and Mackenzie agreed it was time to go get food.
"Brittany, let me in." Santana's voice came through from the other side of the downstairs bathroom door. Without any thought I unlocked the door and let her in before locking it back just in case.
"How are you feeling baby?" Santana questioned concerned. Brittany wrapped her arms around her wife's neck wanting to be close to her." This is too hard." Brittany mumbled under her breath but her wife had heard her." You can do it baby." Santana reassured the blonde as she hugged her wife tighter.
"You can do this Britt." Santana firmly said once again as she pulled away from the blonde's grasp to look at the blonde in the face." Look at me."
Brittany looked over at her wife smiling now." Baby is hungry." Brittany announced." What about my baby?" Santana asked confusing her wife until she gave Brittany a known look." Oh, yeah I am pretty hungry too."
By the time it was time to leave to go home Mackenzie and Santana were best of friends and the Coopers had promised Brittany she could keep the girl once a month and they would put that in writing for the women per Santana's request.
"I am going to miss you two." Mackenzie said sadly." Hey kiddo we will be back to get you in a couple of weeks so you can come out to our house to stay." That was all it took for the girl to jump up and down excitedly.
Santana had a great weekend overall although there were bits of it she would've like to put aside because how emotional it had gotten these few days. Brittany had be right about how unexcited Mackenzie was about the new addition until they explained to her in words they knew she would be able to understand that she wasn't being replaced in any way. The little girl had asked Santana to be her friend? That melted the Latina's heart in so many ways she had also asked Brittany if she could tell her about her grandparents which Santana knew was a hard subject for her wife. Santana monitor the conversations after the first big one when they first got their not wanting Brittany to overdo it with the past because of the affects it could have on her wife and the baby.
"I don't want you to go." Brittany whined knowing it was time to let her wife go even though she didn't want her to." Baby I will see you for lunch." Santana reminded the blonde." I know but I want you to cuddle some more and so does the baby." Santana scrunched her nose" You know I can't resist when you use the baby." Santana shook her head." I know." Brittany said proudly as Santana began to climb into the bed again.
"I always get my way." Brittany threw out there knowing it was the truth."Yeah, yeah." Santana chuckled kissing her wife on the cheek as she cuddled close to her knowing Sam and Tim were going to have a cow when she finally did get to the office but that was alright she would just remind them who was the one with the talent and come up with a very good excuse that neither could argue with.