Hey since I got a minute here'a chapter 14. And Happy Fourth of July everyone!

Tris

Once I hung up on Tobias I became lost in thought. I hope he's okay. Although I wanted to go back and help him he was right. If I had gone back then they would have taken me away. Now I am safe, but my friends aren't. My instincts tell me to just go and turn myself in. At the same time they tell me to hide. As I sit on Zekes couch and groan. Marlene laughs at me, "come on Tris everything will be okay." With a slight smile I reply, "yeah sure, I have no doubt we will all be okay." As the words left my lip I didn't believe them.

That's my fear right there. Losing everything I hold near away from me. There is knocking on the door and my heart begins to pound. I have had enough excitement and cannot take anymore. Zeke readys his gun while Marlene's hand hovers over her knives. She motions for me to get down and slowly I do. For some reasons I have become more obiedient to those around me. Must be Nita's handy work. God I hope I can kill that bitch. Maybe one day I will. I know shouldn't think about killing people, but if she lays a hand on Tobias again she's a dead girl.

Zeke opens the door and bolts his gun at the persons face. When I see who it is I sigh. It was Caleb. He raises his hand up almost terrified that Zeke would shoot him. "False alarm," Zeke says as he lowers his gun and shuts the door behind Caleb. Caleb and I make I contact. He moves closer to me, but Marlene gets in his way. She knows about his betrayal to me which happened three years ago.

I'm over it, but I guess some people really didn't like it. "I'm not going to hurt her," Caleb said a little angrily. It kind of surprised me, but people change. Marlene stares him down, "really? What happened in the lab when you turned her over? Or when you were supposed to go in, but she took your place."

"Mar," I say hoarsely, "it's okay, really it is." Our eyes meet and she nods. However it takes her a minute to move away from him. Marlene moves over to Zeke and he wraps an arm around her. Not in a couple sort of way, but like really good friends would. However it almost looks the way Tobias would hold me. Are Tobias just good friends? No we can't be.

If so he wouldn't have asked me to marry him. Caleb wraps his arms around me and I'm pulled from my day dreams. I don't wrap my arms around him. I knew he was going to be fine. Right now I long for Tobias's warm arms. That is all I want. To be in his arms as he whispers that he loves me and I whisper to him that I love him.

Soon he will be healed. I just wish soon was sooner. Caleb let's go of me and says, "I'm so glad your okay." Since I can't find te right words to say I nod instead. He seems to understand. I sit back down as close my eyes. From a distance I can hear the other talking silently. I don't care what they talk about as long as I can beefy to my thoughts. For a minute everything is silent and I feel at peace. The silence is short lived. Zeke says a little to loudly, "we need to get moving. We don't know where Nita is, but we don't want to take any chances."

I turn around letting my elbow hang off the sofa as I say, "why not take a chance? Look if she's after me then I should... I don't know I have to do something." I can't turn myself in. Not when the ring in my finger feel incredibly heavy and hot. When my words are greeted with silence I look back at the ring. The words on the ring burn into me like fire. Honestly it hurts to look at. Tobias will be fine I'm sure, but he is hurt because of me. If I would have gone out sooner no one would have been hurt. Or at least bit as badly. As I lay on my side I can feel the others eyes watching me.

Waiting for me to fight back against running. That was the old me. It's time for me to grow up. "When do we leave," I ask facing forward hoping know of them come into l can't bare to see them. No one. Truthfully I wish to be alone. I wish to be somewhere else far away with Tobias by my side. I am stuck here and Tobias is miles and miles away.

My eyes begun to fill with tears as Marlene says, "were leaving in a few minutes. We're going to go 50 miles out." Closing my eyes I let a few tears fall. I need to get them out. When I open my eyes I see Marlene sitting in the floor in front of me. "I've never seen you cry," Marlene say and I give her a weak smile.

She smiles back. Her hand rests on my shoulder. I know she's trying to help, but I don't want her to touch me. The only person I want to touch me is Tobias. Sitting up slowly I run my fingers through my hair. "Let go," I say sadly hiding the pain in my heart. Maybe this will pass over, but knowing Nita this is only the beginning. As I walk out with Marlene by my side Zeke jumps into a Chevy truck as Mar calls it. I ask to sit by the window and Mark doesn't seen to mind. Besides her and Zeke look pretty comfortable together.

I wonder if Shauna and Zeke are still together. I have to to say I hope so. It could just be that they are really close because they shared the loss of Uriah. The thought of him makes my chest ache. Caleb hugs me goodbye and this time I hug back. When I get in the truck i lose myself in a world far away. The truck begins to drive away and I watch as the land begins to pass by in a blur.