You guys will probably hate me for this chapter, but i gots to keep the story going(;
I could say I thought I was dreaming at this point, but I know I'm not. The only dreams I have had since crashing here are nightmares, and this is defiantly not a nightmare. Austin runs his hand through his hair and looks down at the ground, trying to hide his blush appearing on his already warm cheeks. I almost wanted to laugh at how he just blurted that out after singing a song about not being able to tell me. It was a cute contradiction.
I'm too busy thinking of random things and I realize that I am not thinking of the most important thing; what he just said. Only when I try to tell the most beautiful girl in the world that I think I'm in love with her; his words play in my mind over and over.
I can comprehend it really. First, I'm the most beautiful girl in the world? He has to be blind. But he thinks he's in love with me? Holy shit Ally Dawson, holy shit. He's waiting for a response, that's what he's waiting for and I am just sitting here, being stupid, like usual. I'm making the poor boy suffer because I'm not good with words.
Maybe this wasn't the best response, but it's all I had, "You think?" I choke out.
I notice his body tense up, and it seems like he's fighting the urge to brush his fingers through his hair again. I don't think I should have asked that. I think he was expecting something more from me, like an 'I think I'm in love with you too', or something.
"I don't know, I've only been in love one other time, and it was a couple years ago. I've tried to push all those feelings away, I told myself I'd never fall for someone again. But I can't stop thinking about you; I can't stop worrying that something could happen to you at any moment. It's like I don't have to protect you, I need to protect you because I don't know what I'd do if you weren't in my life." He says.
I think of how that's exactly what I feel for him. When he was gone, I felt so lost and empty and I hated that I couldn't protect him out there. I know I wouldn't be able to survive out here without him, "I didn't know you felt this way. You've sort of been pushing me away lately." I whisper.
"I know. It's because I was scared. But I figured it was time to man up." He says.
Before we can finish our conversation, Frank runs frantically out of the plane and stands in front of us, "Did you hear that?" He asks.
Austin and I look at each other, and then back at Frank, "No. Hear what?" Austin asks.
But before Frank answers us, two loud howls answer for us, "Get in the plane!" Frank yells.
Austin grabs my hand and I figure he's going to start to run, but instead he grabs my waist and pulls me to him, and kisses me hard, for just a moment, and then starts running to the plane. When we enter, everyone is sitting up, eyes wide with fear. Frank closes up the entrance way and Austin and I sit next to each other at our sleeping spots.
I remember the last time this happened, and I inch away from the window. Austin pulls me onto his lap and I put my head on his shoulder and cover my ears like I'm four years old, but I don't care. I don't want to go through this again. Austin brushes his fingers through my hair and his slow, calm breathing makes me feel calm, too.
Frank finishes up blocking every opening he is aware of, and then takes a seat next to the twins who are freaking out. He's trying to keep everyone quiet so we won't give us away, but that doesn't seem possible. Daniel and Rick are saying random stupid things, like they are sick of hiding from the stupid wolves or let's cook one for dinner. But little do they know that they would get killed in a minute trying to go up against the pack, but they're too ignorant to think that.
Different noises start outside, and I know that they know we are in here. I cover my ears again and try to think of happy things, like the song Austin just sang to me, and the words he said. But then I think of how I didn't get to respond, because yet again our conversation was interrupted. That seems to happen too much.
"I just want to go home, damn it!" Rick yells and covers his eyes.
"We all do!" Wanda snaps.
"This is no time to argue children." Frank says in a low tone. He's still listening, trying to find out what the wolves are doing outside. Everyone was quiet after that.
It was weird, but they got quiet fast and we waited for what seemed like forever for the noise to start again, but it didn't. So with that, we decided to attempt to sleep. I got off of Austin's lap and went to my spot, and eventually we both fell asleep, not saying a word about anything that happened.
I'm awoken from my sleep by a strange noise coming from the end of the plane. I open my eyes and the sun is starting to rise, so it's not as dark. I sit up and look around, everyone is sound asleep. I stand up slowly and go towards the closed opening of the plane, and start to move a board back to see outside. I don't see anything, so I step outside, and that's when a pain in my head strikes me, and everything goes black.
Austin's POV: Oh yeah, awesome right? (:
When I wake up, I realize I feel emptiness near me, and that's when I sit up fast, realizing Ally wasn't lying beside me. Everyone is always up before her, including me. I usually watch her sleep for a few minutes and then leave the plane. But she's never the first one up. I look around and everyone else is asleep, and I know something can't be right. Why would she go outside after everything that happened last night? We can't know if it is actually safe or not.
I get up and go to the opening of the plane, and I see there is a small enough opening that Ally could fit her small body through. I tear off a piece of board and walk outside. I look around, and nothing seems to be out of the ordinary, expect for the fact that Ally wasn't out there, "Ally!" I yell.
I stop and listen, but no response comes. I yell it a few more times, nothing. Eventually everyone starts to wake up, from my yelling I assume, and they pile outside.
"What's going on?" Frank asks me.
"Ally's gone." I say, and run my fingers through my hair, a nervous habit of mine.
"What?" Everyone says in a wave of voices.
"She's probably at the river or something." Rick says.
I shake my head, "She would never go this early, or alone. She wouldn't go alone after what happened to her before." I say.
"Maybe she's on a walk." Wanda says.
I shake my head again in frustration, "She's always the last one up and now suddenly she's up at the crack of dawn to go for a walk, seems unlikely to me. Something is really wrong." I say.
"Well let's go search for her." Daniel says.
Frank shakes his head now, "The wolves were just here last night, that's too dangerous." He says.
"And Ally's out there! We can't just stand here and do nothing." I say.
"You sound just like Ally did when you were missing." Dannie says.
I know she's young and doesn't know any better, but those words sent pain through me. I know Ally went through hell when I made her leave me, and now I'm stuck here without her. I know something is wrong, I know she would never leave me like this. Or did she because of what I said yesterday? Maybe she doesn't love me back.
I get a sick feeling in my stomach and I walk away from everyone, and go into the plane. I sit down and hold my head in my hands, not knowing what to think now. I can't let myself think that she would actually just leave like this. There is no way she could survive long out there on her own and she must know that. Ally Dawson is a smart girl, and this is not something she would do.
I rock back and forth slightly, trying to figure out what I'm going to do. It seems like no one is going to help me find her because it's too dangerous, which means it's defiantly too dangerous for me to go alone, but I could care less now. I'm already nothing without her, and she didn't just sit here and wait for me to come back, she went out there and looked for me. I owe it to her.
I grab my backpack, and pack it with everything I can find. My blanket, a flashlight, and I grab a pack of dried fruit while I walk out. Everyone watches me in silence as I head for the woods, but I soon hear footsteps behind me. I turn around and it's Frank, Rick and Tiffany. I stop and turn to them, staring at them.
"We can't let you go alone." Frank says.
"I'm fine." I say.
"No, you aren't. We're coming." Rick says firmly.
I nod at them and lead the way, except I don't know where that way is. I don't really know where to look or what to do because none of this makes sense. There are no clues, no trails, nothing at all. So where do I even start?
"Where are we going?" Frank asks.
"I don't know." I say.
"Well we need to have a starting point. We can't just walk around the woods." Rick says.
"Don't you think I know that?" I snap.
"Let's just go towards the river and go from there." Tiffany says.
I'm interested in knowing why she would come with. I mean, her and Ally aren't friends, and I'm sure the twins could use another girl with them. That means Daniel and Wanda, they are alone with the twins; I hope they can handle that.
When we get to the river, we looked around for any trace of Ally, but there is none, like I expected. Frank and Rick talk about where they should go, and I watch Tiffany walk around slowly, staring at the water. I stare at the ground, not knowing what to do with myself.
"So we're going to go that way, circle around and it should be dark by the time we get back to camp." Frank says.
I nod and then follow him and Rick, since they know what to do. Yeah, they can think clear and plan things out because they aren't in love with the girl that's missing. But I can't bare this; I can't stand this at all, which makes me not be able to think very clear.
"Ally!" We all take turns yelling, but with no luck.
The sun is setting, and we start to head back, "This is like déjà vu." Rick says.
"What do you mean?" Frank asks.
"How we looked for Austin." I hear him say.
"Well, at least we knew sort of what happened to me, we have no idea what happened to Ally." I say.
Rick stops and looks back, sort of shocked. I guess he didn't know I was in ear shot. He nods and turns around and continues walking.
"I don't understand; this isn't like her." Frank says.
"I know." I say.
"There aren't any trails of blood like when Thomas got, um, taken. So I don't think it was an animal." Rick says.
I cringe at that sentence. I don't want to think of Ally getting attacked by any animals. Her small petite body is no match against any of them. She wouldn't have a chance.
"It doesn't add up." Frank says.
When we get back to camp I set up the firewood and try to distract myself. I keep looking towards the plane, thinking Ally is going to walk out anytime like she usually does. She spends a lot of time in there away from everyone. I try not to take it too personally; I know it's hard for her.
I know that sleeping later is going to be terrible, and I'm going to realize how bad Ally felt when I wasn't right there. I think about not sleeping at all, but that won't help me when I search for her tomorrow. I need to try to figure out where I'm going to look, what I'm going to do. It's so hard not knowing anything at all. I just want her back; I just want this to never have happened. I just got the guts to sing to her, to tell her I love her, and now just like that she's gone.
We all sit down around the fire, and I skip my allow piece of fruit. I don't care for food or anything right now. It's not like I'd be full anyway. The food is running out, and we still haven't found any food source except for some berries that none of us know are poisonous or not, and I don't think anyone would want to take that chance.
"Where's Ally?" Sammy asks while nibbling on her fruit.
We all look at her, and then turn to each other, waiting for someone to speak up first, but no one does. After a while, it's Wanda who says, "We're not sure honey."
"Why?" She asks.
I stand up and walk into the plane, not being able to handle all of the questions she was going to ask. I lie down on my spot and stare up at the ceiling. Its dark and my eyes are trying to focus, but all I see are odd shapes forming. It's too quiet in here and I realize I never come in here alone. Everyone's always asleep or Ally's next to me. I don't like silence at all.