Kaoru didn't ride the limo home that day. Instead he walked home he couldn't bare sitting in the same seat he and Hikaru shared throughout the years. Memories would've flooded back teasing him about how he and Hikaru's relationship would never be the same again.

Staring at the ground seeing the tiny sparkle in the dull pavement. He wanted to be like them. Dull but found a sparkle to be joyful about. Now this was just sad, now he wanted to be a like a rock. He sighed then glanced up seeing his mansion in front him. The memories hit him without warning, which he did not appreciate.

When he walked into his home every step he took was a reminder to him that Hikaru was departing from their own world they created together. He felt a sharp stab in his heart when he entered their room. Flopping down on top of the bed didn't help. He was only tackled with the scent of Hikaru. Kaoru jumped back and landed on his bum from shock. He gripped the left side of his chest he could feel his heart being stabbed multiple times.

He rushed to the shower trying to get rid of the smell even if he was satisfied with the comfort of Hikaru there; it pained his heart too much. Once he finished he changed out of his clothes with the lingering smell of his brother. He demanded the maids to wash all of his clothes again it too had the scent. Once he put new clothes on he felt like he just literally washed away a part of him. He sat on his side of the bed trying to keep out Hikaru.

Kaoru lowered his eyes, he didn't like the wretchedness his heart was putting him through. What did he do to deserve this? Was it being born? He couldn't help that, he didn't ask to be born be, but he didn't want to slip down the path of nothingness and depression. He knew he could do better but with every breathing second he couldn't help but think what it would've been like if he never lived.

Would it have better if he just wasn't born? The pain wouldn't be there that's for sure. He tried to rid these foul thoughts that were forming in his head. He tried to persuade himself that life would have been worse...or would it...? Since he and Hikaru are twins was it his fault...that they shut everyone out at a young age. If he wasn't there would his twin would've been more open and more happy? He brought his legs up to his chest he rested his arms on his knees allowing his head to rest upon his arms using it like cushion.

He asked himself these questions he didn't want answers to. His eyes started to sting with tears, he shut them closed hoping it wouldn't rain down. To help ease his thoughts he switched the TV on. He kept switching channels until he found one he was satisfied with then allowed the remote slip out his hands. He wasn't very into the show but it was better than moping around.

Later That Day

The door slammed closed followed by a happy sigh. Kaoru opened his eyes he must've dozed off at some point he sat up straight and softly yawned.

"Kaoru you're awake brilliant!" his brother beamed. He gave him a confused look wondering why he was so cheerful, then he remembered what had happened earlier, "Haruhi and I just had the best time!" he sighed flopping down on the bed.

He turned on his back revealing a smile and a small blush from the last events, "We went to the commoner's shop and ate commoner food! We even shared some which meant indirect kisses!" he started to ramble on about how wonderful time he spent with her.

"Oh sorry Kaoru you must be confused! I didn't explain yet!" Hikaru suddenly exclaimed, he looked towards the younger twin for the first time since he spoke, "I confessed to Haruhi and she felt the same way. So we're officially dating and it's all thanks to you little brother,"

Kaoru gaped at his brother not sure how to respond. Just a few hours ago his life was falling apart and it wasn't due to the the girl, but he was to blame for the world crashing down on him. That didn't help his case if anything now he defiantly had no trouble going down the path of darkness.

"Kaoru?"

"Huh?" He didn't even acknowledge that Hikaru had been staring at him waiting for his reaction, "Oh-! I'm so happy for you! I can't even find the words to express my happiness," he lied and topping it off with a fake smile.

His twin beamed at him, "You're the best little brother anyone could ask for! Just don't start planning the wedding yet!" He winked at him causing the younger twin's face glow a soft red. Hikaru sat up on the bed, Kaoru half expected to receive a hug from him but instead he picked up the phone and called his girlfriend.

Ugh, girlfriend that word made him sick though to his brother it probably meant it like a dream. He stared at his brother seeing how delighted he was just talking to her. When was the last time he made him that cheerful? He lowered his gaze he bet not in a long time. He slipped back under his covers wanting a meteor to crash down already. The broken boy closed his eyes hoping that the agony would just leave him alone. He wanted to be jumping for joy for his brother but everything kept he him from doing so.

What was going on with him? Hopefully it was just a passing phase until then he had to hide the newly discovered feelings. He shut his eyes tighter soon slipping into a nightmare filled sleep.

"Kaoru!" Hikaru shouted shaking him back awake.

"What is it?" he mumbled not looking at him.

"Its time to eat! Let's go! The maids just came up to tell us but you were asleep now come on!" he explained grabbing his in attempt to pull him out of bed.

Kaoru roughly pulled his hand back causing his brother to stumble backward, "I'll skip and I'm tired, so leave me be,"

Hikaru stared at him shocked not once has his brother ever done that to him or reacted in a such a manner. He wasn't familiar with the atmosphere and not sure how to approach it. Should he asked directly or leave it be until everything calmed down?

"It's your favorite," he pointed out hoping that it would get him up. If anyone asked him he would deny it but he was a bit afraid of the new feeling in the air and he wanted to rid it. Quickly. He reached for Kaoru's hand.

"I said, leave me be," he younger brother snapped and yanked his hand away. He glared at his older brother. Hikaru pulled back immediately staring at him confused and worried.

"Well...alright..." he gave in walking out the room reluctantly.

Kaoru knew what he had to do. It might not be the best answer but it was sure better than the other dark thoughts that clouded his mind. He'll just have to push him away to save the tormenting. If he just kept push and forcing Hikaru away his heart will probably heal again.

He still didn't know what the cause of misery was, but he did know that he never experienced it before. He clutched on the blanket and he gritted his teeth he had a sick blue feeling that he it would come back to haunt him and it would be a more painful route. He sat up the bed, and that would mean they would have to do things separately.

Hikaru didn't know what his problem was. His twin was acting more strangely than anything he ever encountered. He twirled the fork in the spaghetti resting his hand on his left cheek. He was genuinely worried about him but he couldn't say anything. He made him so happy about telling him that he's dating Haruhi; he can't spoil his mood now.

He finished up his meal and went to his staircase after thanking for the food. Once he reached the top he already came to a decision. He was going to try to ease Kaoru on telling him what's the matter. Lately it was getting harder and harder to read his little brother which made him feel a bit scared though he will never admit it.

He opened the door, "Hey Kaoru, do you want to watch a movie...?" he trailed off realizing that his brother was no where to be seen. Instead of going to immediate panic which was his preferred option he stayed calm and prayed that he was just hiding under the covers. Unsurprisingly, Kaoru wasn't there. He checked the restroom to see no one. He looked everywhere in the room even in the cabinet. No one.

Before he could freak out he heard rummaging in the room next to him. He raced to the room to see Kaoru in there setting it up to his liking. Truthfully, this was Kaoru's room but he never used it since they always slept in the same bed.

"Kaoru what are you doing?" he questioned while slowly tip toeing past the clothes that had already invaded the once clean floor.

"Moving into my room!" his twin beamed at him. He blinked not understanding the words he had just spoke. Kaoru twirled around happily letting his arms spread wide, "What do you think?" he asked before stopping with his hands on his hips with a wide smile.

Hikaru couldn't make out any words or why would he want to do this. Was this why he seemed upset? Could this really be the reason? Before he could answer his question, Kaoru continued.

"After lots of thinking I'm pretty sure it was time for me to move in my room for the first time!" he explained caressing his chin with his index finger and thumb, "Besides," he lowered his hands and narrowed his eyes then harshly spat, "Haruhi would think it's werid wouldn't she? You know since she is your girlfriend,"

Hikaru stared at his brother shocked by his sudden harsh tone just a second ago it was like he was blooming flowers out of his head then a thunderstorm just appeared. He pondered on the thought of him and Kaoru sleeping together they've done it all their lives. Do these kinds of things change when you're in a relationship?

"It's just sleeping, it's not like we're actually doing anything," He pointed out acting desperately to keep his younger brother with him.

"I wish we were," Kaoru muttered then almost at once he clapped a hand over his mouth surprised by his own words. He silently prayed that Hikaru didn't hear anything, oh but he did. Thankfully the older twin saw how embarrassed he was becoming and spared him even further embarrassment. He probably didn't mean to say it, so why make a big deal of it?

The red faced twin straightened himself (oh the irony) and grabbed his right arm with his left hand, "T-True but...in relationships you have to restrict some sorts of actions...and stuff..." he ended weakly no longer looking at Hikaru in the eye too hurt on the thought of losing more contact with his brother, "We can't do the things we usually do. Not like we did it as often, but it means no holding hands, no doing the Brotherly Love, no kissing each other's cheeks, no cuddling, no sleeping in the same bed and a bunch of more stuff. If you did those types of things with me all the time, it only loses meaning when you act the same way towards Haruhi,"

Hikaru lowered his eyes feeling defeated, "I...I guess your right," he hesitantly agreed, the room started to fill with tense silence, it was unbearable for both of them, "S-See ya..."

"See ya..." His twin whispered still staring at the ground. He heard footsteps then a door close, he loathly looked up to see the door...his door closed. He felt a lump in his throat grow bigger his knees grew weak and he sat on his bed. He gripped onto the covers until falling backwards onto the bed. He let the cold invade, he shivered. Well he got rid of the scent of Hikaru alright.