A/N: Busy and distracting places this week... Sorry for any writing boo boos! Will have more next week! Big Thank yous for the reviews and ENJOY!

"Hi" Kate said standing at the end of Malcolm's bed. He looked up from the plex in his hands at her.

"Hello" he said, there wasn't the slightest whisper of recognition as he looked at her waiting for to do something or say something. Kate however was caught up in seeing him awake and talking that she stood there staring at him with a soft smile. It took her a moment to shake out of it.

"Sorry, I'm Kate Renshaw" Kate said as she moved toward him and held out her hand.

"Malcolm Wallace but I guess you know that as you are my fiancé" he said as he took her hand and gave it a firm shake.

"Yes" Kate said giving him a warm smile.

"But no ring" he said noticing her left hand was bare. Kate winced as he sounded so suspicious of her already.

"It's a long story that I will tell you. Just not today as it will take more than an hour and I promised to babysit a friend's kid for him. So I'm sorry but this is a short visit" She said.

"That's ok" he said as he looked at her as if he was sizing her up to a certain list of criterion and she could tell by the lack of approval in his eyes. She had seen that look many times before just not from Malcolm. Kate held up the duffel bag and decided to try and stay as positive as she could.

"So I brought you this. It's your toiletries, pyjamas and some clothes for when you get tired of wearing scrubs. Just a few shirts etc. along with your personal plex that you like to have at home. I figure you'll want to know everything you've done or been up to research wise for the past 5 years" Kate said as she placed the duffel bag on the bed in easy reach for him.

"Oh wow, thank you" he said with a smile.

"So what were you reading?" Kate asked as she tried to take a look at the plex on the table in front of him to find it was turned off.

"I was reading about the colony in general and you" he told her.

"Me?" Kate asked.

"Your Public record, I don't mean to be impertinent but why would you be a deputy with your credentials?" Malcolm asked he picked the plex up and turned on the screen and Kate saw her false record being displayed.

"I don't understand" Kate said seeing what he was getting at.

"You could have been working on the Terra Nova Project or for the UN as an engineer for their domes. A pretty good life, yet you come here and instead of applying your engineering skills and knowledge you become a deputy" He said he made it sound like he was interviewing her for a job and asking why she wasn't utilising her education and that being a deputy was beneath her and waste of her natural talents. Obviously Elisabeth left out the minor detail that Kate wasn't from his time.

It was incredibly off putting, so she took a deep breath and inwardly counted to three as she really wanted to cry. She already missed her 'Malcolm' and had wished for some miraculous TV moment where he'd see her and be inundated with emotions and just know that he loved her. But no he was talking to her like a complete stranger.

"Could you possibly talk to me like we are friends having coffee and not an employer giving me an interview?" Kate asked him as she took the plex out of his hands.

"But you are not my friend or a prospective employee though you could work for me if you wanted to. I can't imagine being a deputy is the dream job of an engineer-" he rambled.

"Malcolm what did Elisabeth tell you about me?" Kate asked cutting him off.

"That you are my fiancé and a deputy who worked with her husband. Apparently we are happy and madly in love but honestly I don't feel any of it" he said plainly.

"Wow" Kate said as it cut deep in her to hear him vocalise that he felt nothing for her. He seemed to realise his blunder as Kate couldn't stop the tears from filling her eyes.

"Oh I… sorry it's just-" he stopped as Kate waved a hand silencing him as she swallowed the lump in her throat.

"You have no memory of the past 5 years. I know and that excuse will get you far" Kate said wondering how much longer she could sit in his presence before the pain became too much.

"I sincerely apologise, I do. It's difficult I woke up last night and found I have lost five years of my life and that I'm engaged to a woman I- no offence never pictured myself with. I mean we share nothing in common except varying knowledge in engineering field." he said apparently her limit was incredibly low as she was ready to leave the room but she persevered. She needed to get her thick skin back so she could take sit throw what was going to be some very painful weeks of Malcolm getting to know her.

"Perhaps instead of trying to put the pieces together in the hopes they make sense. We just start fresh. You getting to know me and I you because I think I deserve at least that much before you give me the flick" Kate said as calmly as she could.

"I wasn't-"

"Please you're about subtle as an ox in a china shop about what you think about me right now." Kate told him curtly.

"I'm being honest about my situation." Malcolm stated as he couldn't understand why she was getting so upset.

"There's honesty and then there's having no tact and you are displaying the latter. Trust me I have hopes but they aren't unrealistic. I know you'll never get your memories back, that you have reverted to a stage in your life where your different views and opinions on your life, that this is all a big disappointmen-"

"No, not a disappointment just a-"

"So you aren't thinking about how much you wish I was Elisabeth Shannon right now?" Kate asked him as she didn't miss his wandering eyes. He looked embarrassed as his neck went red, Kate looked down at her hands for a moment.

"Am I that transparent? Or-"

"I know how you felt … feel about her. It will change" She told him

"And you're just going to wait for that change?" Malcolm said as if she were delusional to think he would ever change.

"I don't have a choice. I love you and I'm not willing to walk away from us but I don't expect you to get it. But could you at least give me a chance?" She asked him. Silence lapsed between them as Malcolm didn't know what to say. Kate gave a sardonic smile and stood up from her chair "I'm going to go and I'll be back tomorrow in the morning, maybe we can start fresh?" Kate asked.

"Yes, of course and thank you for the bag" he said.

"You're welcome." Kate said before she left his bedside. He watched her walk out of the infirmary stiffly and felt like the world's biggest ass. He was engaged to a beautiful woman and he had to get bogged down in the details of who she was and her being a deputy instead of scientist.

He was just nervous at the thought of her and then seeing her in person. She was beautiful and young which made him wonder what the hell she was doing with him when she could be with a man closer to her own age. He also felt conflicted as he wished he felt something for her but the truth was he felt nothing; she was a stranger to him. He gave a sigh and decided tomorrow he would try to be a better version of himself for her as he had to remember to be more sensitive and that she was in love with him well the older version. He may have lost 5 years of his memory but she lost the man she loved.

He pulled the duffel bag and opened it up pulling out his personal plex. He smiled as he typed in his password and the plex unlocked. He started immediately tapping through the plex at all the research from flora to fauna there were terabytes of information which he surfed out of as he knew he was prolific journal writer for not only his research but personal life. He found it cathartic to read over his past but in this case it would be a crash course on what he had forgotten.

He tapped his personal folder and was glad to see he was still a creature of habit as there were journals for the past five years but there was also a folder on Kate. He opened it wondering what kind of dossier he kept on the woman when he found several files dated 2016 and further back. It raised his curiosity but his attention was drawn to the photos he enlarged a few and noted they were of him and Kate.

He scrolled through all the photos, one after another all carrying the same themes of them smiling at one another or the camera. It was clear to see they had been in love. He looked incredibly happy with her and vice versa. It confirmed what Elisabeth had told him. He gave a sigh and exited the photo and moved the files with Kate's name and opened the first folder. His eyes went wide as he read the information.

By the time Kate made back to her house she managed to box up everything she felt in regards to Malcolm as she needed all her energy for Olivia. She opened the door and stepped in to find the place unusually quiet. Evan looked up from the lounge and smiled.

"Hey, Olive is down for the count. How are Alicia and twins?" Evan asked as he put down his plex on the coffee table.

"Beautiful as always. They haven't picked their names yet but the list is down to four" Kate said as she flopped down on the lounge next to him.

"Nice. Picking names is the hardest part." Evan said, a moment of silence passed between them "Jim told me about Malcolm and the memory loss" Evan said carefully testing the waters and the lock and chains Kate wrapped around her metaphorical box containing her feeling on the subject.

"He doesn't recognise me at all" Kate said looking down as she knew she wasn't fooling anyone. It hurt deeply that Malcolm didn't recognise her even though it wasn't personal. It felt incredibly personal and she couldn't help that she felt like she was never going to measure up to being a suitable woman for Malcolm Wallace. She couldn't compete with Elisabeth and she couldn't be like her either.

"I'm sorry" Evan said empathetically.

"Me too" Kate said picking a piece of invisible lint off her pant leg.

"So what's going happen?" Evan asked.

"In regards to?" Kate asked as she really didn't know what he was referring to.

"Malcolm, me and the kids the house and living arrangements etc." Evan said.

"Malcolm is going to stay in the infirmary for another couple of weeks and then he'll come home, I guess. I don't know how it's going to work out to be honest but I'm not going to kick you and the kids to the curb so you can relax" Kate said as she propped her head up with and elbow on the back of the couch.

"I didn't think you would I just wanted to know. If you want we can double the kids up into one room and leave the third room as a spare for him to sleep in. In case he's uncomfortable with sharing a bed with you" Evan suggested. Kate gave nod as it probably wasn't a bad idea in case the current Malcolm was a complete prude about sleeping in the same bed as her.

"Might be an idea, I'll talk with Carter and see if one of the bed frames for your place are finished so we can get it set up in the next couple of weeks" Kate said with a sigh as she ran a hand over her face.

"You ok to watch Olive?" he asked concerned as she looked ready to fall asleep.

"Yeah, just a trying morning but I'm fine. Go see your sister" Kate said waving a dismissive hand at him.

"Ok, well I'm going to go see my sister for half an hour. Did you want me to get anything while I'm out?" Evan asked as he got up from the lounge.

"Cupcakes?" Kate asked him with a hint of a hopeful smile.

"You know eating your emotions isn't healthy" He said in a mock chastising tone as he watched Kate stretch out on the lounge and pulled out her comm. unit.

"If I was eating my emotions I'd ask you to go out into the jungle and bring home a brachiosaurus" Kate told him in a mockingly sweet voice as she typed in a message he assumed was for Carter and looked at him expectantly.

"That's a lot of emotions" he said as he knew a Brachiosaurus were very large dinosaurs. Something he had yet to encounter since arriving to Terra Nova. He hadn't seen any dinosaurs except for the odd pterodactyl flying over the colony once and a while.

"You have no idea" Kate drawled in an exhausted tone.

"Right, cupcakes it is" Evan said with a chuckle.

"Thank you" Kate said as she watched him leave the house. She gave into another sigh as she sunk further onto the lounge and waited for Carter to reply to her message.

"I like Rei" Alicia said as she and Taylor were still deciding on the names of the twin girls.

"It's a boy's name" Taylor said as he folded his arms a common body signal that told Alicia he wasn't going to allow one of their little girls to be named 'Rei'

"It's a girl's name too" she said pushing for the name as she liked it.

"I want her to have a feminine name" Taylor argued.

"Rei is a beautiful name" She countered.

"It's a beautiful name for a boy" Taylor said with a hint of humour as Alicia fought not to roll her eyes.

"It's a unisex name like Ashley, Peyton or Riley" Alicia told him. After Kate and Jim left Alicia had taken a nap to avoid talking with Taylor and she had hoped he would have left the room but when she woke up he was still there watching her. So she picked a relatively safe topic of naming the twins.

A knock sounded at the door and Evan popped his head. "Hey, permission to intrude?" he asked with a good humoured smile.

"Granted, get your butt in here" Alicia said glad to have her brother be a buffer between her and Taylor. Her good feelings melted when she remembered the argument and the truth of why she and Evan lost contact reared its ugly head.

Evan came into the room and gave a nod to Taylor before he continued to the incubator and looked down at the twins. "Wow sis they are beautiful" he said.

"Thank you" Alicia said. Evan looked up at her and frowned as he didn't miss the disappointment in her tone.

"What's wrong?" Evan asked referring to the twins they were barely a day old and his sister wasn't happy. He could only think the twins had complications Taylor and Alicia hadn't told the others.

"She knows" Taylor said bringing up the one conversation Alicia didn't want to have especially with the twins in the room. Sure they couldn't understand what was being said but she felt they would feel the negative energy and didn't want that.

"Knows what?" Evan asked blankly as he felt like he had walked into the middle of the conversation and not the beginning of it.

"What happened 10 years ago" Alicia said darkly as she pursed her lips and folded her arms glaring at Taylor. Evan cursed under his breath and looked at Alicia with face wrought with guilt and annoyance. But the annoyance was directed more at Taylor than Alicia.

"We may as well bury the hatchet" Taylor said diplomatically.

"It's not that simple" Alicia said thinking it was typical for when she was in the dog house he'd make punish her for weeks with grueling work and training schedule but when the tables were turned and he was in the dog house. He suddenly wanted to kiss and make up like it never happened and forget about it.

"You're the only one who is complicating it" Taylor told her.

"You both lied to me for years. I thought Evan hated me because I was forever pushing him to make something of himself and that he disowned me because of it. We promised we would never lie about anything to one another and yet you kept this secret and passively lied to me for years in not telling me the truth" Alicia said in an angry and low voice to Taylor.

"Alicia-" Evan started carefully only for his sister to cut him off.

"No, you'll get your turn" Alicia snapped at Evan. She looked at Taylor with fury in her eyes "Do you know how much you've hurt me, how much of a fool you have made by your silence?" she asked him. Taylor sat there passive as he was sure no matter what he said would help him. Alicia looked to Evan. "I never stopped blaming myself for what happened. I thought it was my fault and I would tell Nathaniel about how I wished we could have patched things up before I left for Terra Nova and even before that and he said nothing. You said nothing either. You made me believe I was the bad person. I sent you hundreds of messages and you never once replied"

"I never got those messages" Evan told her.

"I sent them" She said in a cold and firm tone as she felt he was accusing her of lying.

"I know, I believe you. I'm telling you I never got them. Alicia, I was a screw up back then and he was right in what he asked of me. I could have been shot for treason and you right beside me and it was all because I was the idiot. I was also an idiot for not realising what I was giving up. I also tried to contact you many times over the years" Evan told her, she saw he was being honest which softened her anger toward her brother.

"You did?" Alicia asked.

"Yeah, I wanted you to know about Lena, I wanted you to know about Sean and about Olivia. I wanted you to be their guardian if anything happened to me. I'm sorry about it all I wish I had a time fracture that could take me back to the past and fix it all but I can't. Please don't cut me out of your life" he pleaded.

Alicia shook her head in disbelief of the situation. She was so happy to have her brother back and still was but everything felt tainted. She felt the anger bubble in her and wondered why they couldn't have had this conversation years ago. But now it was wreaking havoc with her and her life, their family.

"I'm so angry and disappointed at both of you for this and you know what? I don't care about what happened 10 years ago but I do care about is the fact that you both omitted truths from me and I don't want this discussion now when I should be happy and naming my children and enjoying their presence instead of feeling angry and betrayed by my own family. Having a discussion I don't want to have in the infirmary with the twins in the room" Alicia said losing steam as she found being angry was exhausting her and depressing her at the same time.

"I am truly sorry, if you want me to leave" Evan said.

"No, stay you've been out of my life long enough. I may want to throttle both of your asses right now but I'm not in any shape. We have four names and can't decide" Alicia said in a despondant tone as she handed the plex she had to Evan.

"Ava and Ella" He said as he handed the plex back.

"Really? Are you sure?" Alicia asked him as he answered way too quickly.

"Yeah, Ava after Mom and Ella because it goes better than Anna does. Also Rei is a dude's name" He told her.

"It's a girl's name too"

"So how long are you going to be angry at us?" Evan asked as he knew he and Taylor were in the dog house where they so rightly deserved to be.

"I don't know, I'm tired and I don't want to talk about it. I had twins cut out of me like I'm some kind of turducken" Alicia said with an exhausted sigh.

The door to the room opened and Elisabeth came in "Oh sorry am I interrupting?" she asked. Elisbeth was always too intuitive about the mood in the air and Alicia knew the doctor could sense the tension.

"No, I was just leaving. Kate desires cupcakes. I'll come by tomorrow of that's ok?" Evan asked Alicia gave a smile at Evan mentioning Kate and knew if she wanted cupcakes then what went down with Malcolm didn't end well. That or she was finally having pregnancy cravings.

"Yeah, we'll talk some more then. Could you tell Kate I want to talk with her tomorrow as well?" Alicia asked him.

"No problem" Evan said with a nod before he left the room.

"Commander I'll need you to leave the room" Elisabeth said to Taylor, he narrowed his eyes at the doctor.

"Why?" He asked.

"I have to run some scans and talk with Alicia privately. It'll be no more than a couple hours" Elisabeth assured him.

"Ok" Taylor said reluctantly vacating the room. Alicia looked at Elisabeth and gave the woman a grateful look.

"Thank you" Alicia said after Elisabeth closed the door.

"You're welcome. I could tell things were getting a little heated in here from your vitals" Elisabeth said as she motioned to the screen with Alicia's BP and Heart rate. Alicia had forgotten that Elisabeth was monitoring her from outside the room.

"It's all a mess" Alicia said in disbelief as she covered her face with her hands.

"Families are rarely ever perfect" Elisabeth commented with a sympathetic smile as she moved to the incubator to check on the twins.

"Do you want to run those scans?" Alicia asked.

"No, I was fibbing about all of that. Now have you decided on the names?" Elisabeth asked.

"Ava and Ella"

"Lovely names but who will be who?" Elisabeth asked.

"Baby Wash will be Ava and Taylor will be Ella" Alicia said it only seemed fitting that she name the child named 'Baby Wash' after her mother. Elisabeth accessed the screen above and typed in the names. The original names Jim had given the twins was replaced with the new ones.

"Hello little Ava and little Ella" Elisabeth cooed to the babies below. Alicia felt her eyes well up with tears as her emotions overwhelmed her. She wished they were happy tears but they were tears of sadness which she quickly wiped the tears away. Elisabeth looked up and felt her heart ache for Alicia as the woman was always so strong and now looked broken when she should be happy.

"Sorry" Alicia said annoyed she was crying.

"Don't be, you have nothing to be sorry about" Elisabeth said.

"You're right. I really want to hold them" Alicia said tears falling down her face she hated being weepy but she missed having the twins inside her. Even if she had been the size of a rover she felt disconnected from them even though they were in the same room. It wasn't the same and she wanted to hold them desperately to reconnect.

"I know in a couple more days you can and I'll make sure you are the very first person" Elisabeth told her.

Elisabeth stayed for a few minutes before leaving Alicia so she could have some privacy for the first time in 24 hours. She ended up having the room to herself for the rest of the afternoon which gave her much needed alone time to digest her thoughts with Taylor sitting like a gargoyle watching her and the twins. The only time she was interrupted was to feed the babies or change them with Elisabeth. Though she didn't think of them as interruptions but something she wanted to do instead of think about how angry and upset she was.

Elisabeth was a blessing to Alicia as the woman told her stories of her kids and every 'bad' parent thing that she and Jim did and still the kids turned out well along with helpful tips and reassuring Alicia the more the babies ate the better as they would get stronger. It made her feel better that the reassurances were being said as it made her feel less like a failure as a mother since she hadn't carried them to term.

She wished she wouldn't beat herself up about it but she just added failure to the list with naive fool. Though she did wonder what happened to the messages she sent Evan and vice versa. He claimed he never got them and she never got any of his messages. She wondered where they had gone but the thoughts drifted from her as she fell into a dreamless sleep.

Elisabeth checked in on Alicia and found the woman peacefully asleep. When she closed the door she saw Taylor coming back into the room and promptly grabbed the commander by the arm and dragged him into her office and closed the door.

"I'm going to speak as a friend to you and not your doctor" Elisabeth stated, Taylor's curiosity was piqued as he nodded for to continue. elisabeth took a deep breath and then to his surprise smacked him in the arm "What the hell is wrong with you?!" Elisabeth hissed in an annoyed and low voice.

"Excuse me?" Taylor asked shocked to have Elisabeth mad at him since he didn't know what he did to deserve it. He spoke in an equally low voice as he didn't need anyone overhearing and was glad Elisabeth had some sense to dress him down behind closed doors.

"I said don't stress her out, to keep her calm for another 10 weeks if possible. Make sure she doesn't overexert herself and you decide it's the most appropiate time to have fight and then continue to have it out during her recovery?" Elisabeth asked him with her hands on her hips.

"It's not how it happened" Taylor said as he didn't want to discuss his marital problems with Elisabeth but still felt the need to defend himself.

"No because that woman in there is feeling like she's a bloody failure and a fool because of you. You don't think those children can't sense you three having it out or Alicia's pain? They need a positive environment and so does Alicia" Elisabeth said.

"Were you listening in on our fight?" Taylor asked.

"No, I was doing rounds when my computer system alerted me to the changes in Alicia's BP and heart rate. I was concerned for my patient and lucky I checked in. She had major surgery and is incredibly fragile mental state not that she'd ever admit to. She needs to be supported and comforted. So whatever you two are fighting about which I don't care to know the specifics of. Either Box it up and put on a shelf for later or fix the problem and do it as quickly and efficiently as possible because right now she needs you to be the supportive husband who we all know you are and be with her and the children" Elisabeth told him.

"This is an inappropiate conversation for us to be having Doc" Taylor said.

"No, what is inappropiate is stressing your recovering wife into mess of tears when she has done nothing to deserve it" Elisabeth told him.

"I know, I'm trying to make amends but I can't work miracles. Is that all?" he asked.

"Yes, you may go but if I find you two fighting or Alicia in distress again like she was this afternoon I'll revoke your visiting privileges"

"You wouldn't" Taylor said narrowing his eyes at her for threatening to interfere with his right to see his children and wife.

"Try me" Elisabeth said holding his gaze before he lifted his chin in a show of defiance.

A few hours later she woke and found that night had fallen she wondered why no one had woken her for dinner. She could see Taylor sleeping uncomfortably in the chair by her bed. She picked up the pillow on the empty side of the bed and tossed at him and hit him square in the face waking him up.

"Get in the bed" she told him with a sigh.

"I'm fine where I am. Go back to sleep" Taylor said adamantly as he shifted uncomfortably in the chair.

"Don't be an ass. Get in the bed now or go home you can't sleep in that chair it'll give you a bad back" Alicia told him.

"I didn't think I'd be welcome" he said.

"Just get in the bed before I change my mind and don't think I'm not still angry with you." Alicia told him.

"Ok" Taylor said as he got up from the chair and stretched before moving to the bed and removing his belt and boots before getting under the sheets. "I am sorry" he told her in a low voice as he relaxed into the bed beside her. He was careful not to touch her as he didn't want to rile her up.

"For what? lying to me or actively keeping my brother from me? The messages had to go somewhere, someone had to divert them" Alicia asked she was bluffing about thinking Taylor was involved in the messages going missing but felt she should test the waters.

"For everything" Taylor said which played into Alicia's bluff. Tears slipped down the sides of her face as Taylor confirmed in not so many words that he did actively keep her brother away from her.

"We shouldn't talk about it now" Alicia said as she wished she could turn her back to him but her abdomen was still too sore for her to sleeping on her side.

"Then we won't. Just know I'm going to do whatever it takes for you to forgive me and that I love you" he said.

TBC~ Cya all in a few days with more :-)