Chapter Three

Too Far Gone

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(* : means smut, at the beginning and end of a smut scene I will put stars so you can skip over them if you like! )

I sighed as I stared at the photo of Ben and I. It was getting very worn, and had some tears near the edges but besides that, it was perfectly intact. Ben had that goofy smile on his face, his arm wrapped around my waist, and I had my arm around his neck, a smile on my face I hadn't seen in a long time. That was taken before everything happened- God, it was so long ago. I felt tears fall down my face as I thought back to how happy we were, even though it was only for a short time, while we were together Ben seemed to be his happiest. I rolled over onto my back as I shoved the photo back into my pocket. It was in the past, and I had to get over it. Ben wasn't coming back. Ben was dead.

I didn't know what to expect when I went out for breakfast. Was Luke going to act like we were a couple? WERE we a couple? We kissed once, twice... Maybe four times but after everything that happened with Ben I didn't know if after knowing someone for a week I could call them my "boyfriend." I was relieved when I sat next to Barbra that Luke was treating me the same as he always did. Maybe I was afraid of being hurt, or maybe I just enjoyed the thought of sneaking around, but it felt okay to just be friends, who kissed when no one was around.

I was sitting by the fire, humming as I combed through Sarah's hair. I glanced up at Luke while he spoke to Pete. I couldn't understand what it was about him that made me feel he was worth the risk of being hurt again. I sighed as I began to braid Sarah's shoulder length hair.

Maybe I was just being naive... But I felt like Luke genuinely cared about me. I didn't want anyone to know about Luke and I. Maybe because if things went south, I could pretend like it never happened. That was the though thing; we were in a group. If we "broke up", we'd have to get along and pretend everything's okay. I hated that. There was always a Rick to take and I wasn't open to falling... Not yet.

I stood quietly, tying her braid off with one of my elastics. I needed a break from reality, and Luke was the only person who helped with that.

"Who's this?" Sarah asked, the photo of me and ben together in her hand. I cringed slightly, slowly taking the photo out of her hands and shoving it into my jeans pocket. "He was a good friend of mine. You probably would've liked him. He could always make people laugh." I sat back down beside Barbra, feeling my heart thump in my chest as memories flashed through my mind. I didn't want to remember- I wanted to forget. About Ben, Lee, Omid... All of them because they were dead. The pain was becoming too much. I stood up, walking away from the group and back towards my tent, stumbling into Luke on my way there. "Are you okay?" He asked quietly as he slowly moved to hold my hand. I sighed, pushing my hair out of my face with my free hand. "Yeah, I'm just remembering things I've been trying to forget."

Luke chuckled, running his thumb against my bottom lip. "I could make you forget." I laughed, smiling at him as I pecked him on the lips gently. "Luke, you're such a tease." I wrapped my arms around his neck. "I WAS going to go to bed." I told him, looking up at him innocently. Luke grinned, leaning down to kiss me again. "And now?" He asked between kisses. I grinned. "I have something more fun in mind." I replied quietly as I kissed him softly, tightening my grip around his neck. His hands moved to my waist as he pulled me into my tent. "Luke!" I screeched as he threw me down on my bed, causing me to laugh when he jumped ontop of me. I smiled up at him as I slowly began to pull off his shirt, staring up at his bare chest. He was muscular, but not to the point where it was nasty. He had a nice body, I wasn't going to lie.

Luke leaned down on his elbows, brushing my hair out of my face. I smiled, messing up his hair before grinning mischievously. I leaned up slowly, kissing his lip gently while wrapping my arms around his neck. Luke grinned against my lips, seductively running his fingers up the sides of my shirt. I let out a soft whine as he lifted my shirt over my head, tossing it to the side. I leant over to the side, blowing flame of the burning candle in the corner, wanting nothing to interrupt our bliss.

Luke leant over me, resting his head on my forehead. I sighed deeply, running my fingers through his brown hair. As I laid with him, I couldn't help but think to the times Ben and I had spent together. It was different with Luke- he was dominant, and always wanted in control...

A few weeks passed, and everything was still okay. Things were great, actually. I was beginning to get healthy again, after not eating or drinking properly for months. I started to gain some weight and I felt for the first time in forever that things could stay okay, and we could all stay safe.

Luke didn't have anyone, and neither did I. I guess he had everyone else, but his parents died a while back... I felt bad for him at first but after a while I learnt that Luke was able to keep going, as if nothing bothered him. At times I could see that facade slip off his face, but he never really opened up about how he felt. The only time he even remotely would open up to me would be when we slept together...That was the problem.

I sighed contently as I rested my head on Luke's bare chest. He hummed quietly as he ran his fingers through my long, tousled hair. My heart was still beating rapidly but I managed to slow my breathing. "That was..."

"Amazing." Luke finished, kissing my head. I giggled. "I was gonna say alright." I teased, poking his chest. Luke chuckled, pulling me closer against him. "By the way you were moaning I don't- Ow!" I slapped Luke playfully on the chin, causing him to frown at me. "It's true!" He stuck his tongue out at me. For a twenty-six year old, he sure didn't act his age.

I frowned as Luke stood up, pulling on his underwear and a shirt. "I should go... Everyone's gonna be up soon." I sighed, as I stood up, holding him closer. "Is it so bad if people find out we've been staying together?" Luke stiffened, causing me to let go of him. Recently, he had become... different. It was like any form of affection I'd show him publicly, he's push it off. It made me doubt his intentions even more as the days progressed.

"I just don't want people thinkin' anything." Luke replied quietly as he began to pull the rest of his clothes back on. I rolled my eyes impatiently, pulling the sheets over my bare body. "We've been sleeping together for over a month, Luke." I glared at the back of his head. "How long are we gonna drag this out?"

Luke turned and stared at me, an angry expression on his face. "Ya know, you're a nice girl but I really don't need to answer to you." I blinked slowly as he walked away, my heart aching at his words. Nice girl? Was that all I was to him? Some girl he could fuck and just push to the side? No, no I was not some whore who could be pushed aside like that.

A/N: THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT! I KNOW THIS CHAPTER TOOK ME A WEEK TO RIGHT BUT I HOPE IT'LL BE WORTH IT!

Celebrityfan: Yeah, she was with Omid, Christa and Clem Further on in the story I'm sure we'll see some flashbacks with all of them! If you ever wanna give some ideas for me to write more in depth about like you did with the photo of Ben, PLEASE do it really helps me know what y'all want from my writing I hope you continue to enjoy my fanfic and keep reviewing!

WalkingDeadXOXO: Calm your dirty pillows XD OH BY THE WAY I TOOK YOUR ADVICE WITH THE STAR THING FOR THE SMUT SCENES SO BE HAPPY THE THREE TIMES HAPPENED MOSTLY "OFF- SCREEN"! Thanks, love ya

Guest chapter 2 . Mar 19 : thank you for your review! Thank you for being so enthusiastic about my fanfic! I am trying to update as much as I can; I wrote chapter four when I had writers block for this so that will also be uploaded SHORTLY! The fluff between Luke and Tasha will be more thorough in the future perhaps, but Nick x Tasha smut/fluff will DEFINITELY be persistent as chapters progress Rebecca and Tasha I think will become good friends and when Clem joins us, it'll be one hell of a party! continue to review please, it always helps out!

PetrovaDoppelganger02 : awe c: thank you for your review! I have a few chapters written for season 1, but I'm not quite sure I'll post them I might do a lot of flashbacks, though if you wanna see Ben x Tasha and the friendship between her and the others from S1? (: