Mey-Rin carefully closed the door behind her and followed Finny to the bed where Ciel now sat. The gardener felt a strong tug at his heart upon seeing the tears streaming down the young boy's face.
"What happened?" Finny asked gently, fighting the urge to wrap his arms around his master. Ciel wiped away the tears and took in a shuttered breath.
"Y-you can both sit down if you like." The servants began to lower themselves to the floor.
"Was Sebastian still in the kitchen?" Both nodded slowly.
"Then if It's more comfortable, you can come sit up here with me. It has to be better than the floor." Mey-Rin and Finny offered a very grateful smile as they stood up and seated themselves on the edge of the large bed.
"Thank you master" they said in unison.
"You Both came to me on your own, without being asked. The very least I can do is offer you a comfortable place to sit."
"Of course we did. We well, if you don't mind me saying, we love you. Me, Mey-Rin, Tanaka, even Bard. We don't want you to be sad."
"You shouldn't love me, I've done nothing to earn your love, all those times I said terrible things to you, called you-"
"Oh young master, love shouldn't be earned. It's given, if we had all the stress you deal with everyday, us ruining things for you, we'd probably have a few choice words for us too, yes." Mey-Rin's empathetic tone earned a faint smile from the young boy.
"And yet where would I be without all of you, here you are beside me, It's more than I could have asked. "
"We always will be, no matter what." Finny promised only for Ciel to turn away.
"You wouldn't feel that way if you knew the truth about me."
"What truth would that be?"
"I can't say finny I'm sorry. Just know that although I appreciate what you're both doing for me, it's best for everyone if some things remain unknown"
"We understand, we won't push you to tell us anything you don't want to." Ciel thought for a moment, where to begin when so much was secret.
"Sometimes I feel as though I'm nothing more than a bother to everyone in my life. I hurt the people that care for me and no matter what I do, I will never be anything more than a selfish child that doesn't deserve anyone's love. Sometimes, I wish I had died with my Mother, then none of this-" Finny's arms wrapped tightly around didn't fight against the embrace.
"I'm glad you're alive. I understand that you've been through a lot, but you got through it. You're here with us now."
"I shouldn't be. I've done...bad things Finny."
"We've all done things we aren't proud of young Master, goodness yes, you know what we've done. Whatever it is, nothing will make us think badly of you."
"Only because you don't , can't know everything."
"Young Master, d-did Mr. Sebastian do something to hurt you?" Finny asked cautiously.
"No. He would never hurt me. Not physically. I've hurt him a lot more than he deserves. I found out something recently and It's been difficult for both of us to adjust to it. You probably noticed the changes, the situation is hard to explain without getting into details. I just feel so lost, when finally things start to get better, I ruin it. I can't do this anymore. I guess all I can say is that I can't adjust to the information and I've reacted very badly to it, not that I could have been expected to have been okay with it . I'm not sure what to do." Ciel sobbed as Mey-Rin joined the embrace.
"We're here young master, there's no shame in crying, and we won't tell anyone about this, not even , no matter what." Finny promised. They sat together until Ciel began to yawn. The servants released the boy and allowed him to lie down before standing up.
"You won't leave will you?" The earl choked out through his tears.
"No. Our work is finished so we have nowhere else to be."
"We'll stay as long as you want us to. Try to rest, things might look better in the morning."
Sebastian sighed heavily as he stirred the contents of the large pot.
"What do I do now, Rachel, I could use your guidance at the moment, you knew better than anyone how to raise our son. Why couldn't it have been me that night. I've failed him countless times now. I never should have told him. He was so much better off with a butler. Now, now even that has been taken from him."
"Sebastian" the demon turned to find Tanaka standing before him.
"Tanaka, what a pleasant surprise, to what do I owe the pleasure?"
"You know that I have limited time to speak, so I can only hope to get ny point made quickly. If you would consent, I would very much like to have a conversation between us. Just us." The old man said gently.
"A conversation between two old friends." Sebastian turned a hint of surprise in his eyes.
"Whatever do you mean by that?" Tanaka stepped forward.
"Did you think it would go unnoticed forever, you and I are intelligent men, let us not play games with each other. The change in the young Master, in you. You might fool the others and for a long time, you had me fooled as well."
"I have no idea what you're getting at but I'm not sure it's going to end well ... For either of us."
"But I'm sure you do know Sebastian, or would you prefer master Vincent?"
A/N: I just want to thank everyone again for the support and hope that I don't disappoint any of you with these chapters, I realize I'm kind of getting away from things and I apologize. You've all been very kind to me. Thank you. I'd love to hear from you if you have a moment to review :)