Chapter Eleven

A/N: WARNING! SEXUAL CONTENT IN THIS CHAPTER! :p remember to leave a review guys!

That night, I had gone back to my tent slower than usual. Luke had made me feel butterflies in my stomach, and that was something I didn't want to feel. Not from him.

I smiled at Nick as I walked into our tent. "Hey."

"Hey." Nick replied, staring at me as I turned my back to him. I was rummaging through my bag when I felt him snake his arms around my waist causing me to gasp. "I missed you." Nick whispered low into my ear, causing shivers to run down my spine.

"I- I missed you too, Nick." I replied breathlessly.

Nick slowly began kissing my neck, his hands placed on my stomach. I let out a quiet gasp as he held my body tight against his. I closed my eyes, leaning comfortably against him as he moved his lips up and down my neck.

A moan slipped from my lips as Nick ran his tongue along the sweet spot on my neck. Nick chuckled, licking the spot repeatedly causing me to moan more. Nick held me tighter, biting down on my neck ever so gently. "Nick." I said breathlessly, causing him to let out a low groan.

Nick sucked on my neck, moving up and down. I sighed contently as he rested his forehead against my neck. "You really did miss me, huh?" I grinned as I turned around, wrapping my arms around his neck. I looked down slowly, noticing the hickeys that were beginning to show. I blushed, looking back up at him. "You're mine." Nick whispered, a different tone to his voice I hadn't heard before. It was almost like a growl. "Only mine."

I grinned, pulling him into a tight hug. "Of course I'm only yours, you idiot." I leaned up, giving him a soft peck on the lips. "C'mon, I'm tired." I said as I pulled him into bed with me. Nick held me tight against his body, his fingers running up and down my sides slowly.

I had missed this. I had missed cuddling with Nick. I missed being with him. I felt bad for always being around Luke, but we needed a solid, good plan or else it wouldn't work. I closed my eyes slowly as I listened to his faint heartbeat. "I love you, Tash."

I smiled, yawning quietly. "I love you too, Nick. Only you."

I woke up the next morning, my body still curled into Nick's sleeping form. I smiled as I sat up slowly, staring down at him. He looked so peaceful when he slept. I had to go talk to Luke and finalize the plan; I didn't want to, especially not today. All I wanted to do was be with Nick. I sighed, standing up as I began to pull my clothes off to change into a decently clean pair.

When I was in just my bra and panties, I could hear Nick chuckle. I rolled my eyes as I turned to face him, a blush creeping onto my cheeks slowly as I watched him look at me. "Morning." He smirked, leaning his head against his arms as he looked at me.

"Morning, pervert." I smirked back, walking past the bed to find a shirt to wear. "You're the one half naked here."

I rolled my eyes once more. "You're the one staring."

Nick grabbed onto my arm gently, pulling my half naked body against him. I was straddling his waist now and I could feel my cheeks burn even more now. "Why wouldn't I stare? You're beautiful."

Nick slowly leaned up, kissing my neck once more as his fingers trailed up and down my bare sides. Nick had never done this before. Sure, he had seen me in my underwear before but he would only glance at me and blush whenever I caught him doing so. What got into him? Whatever it was, I didn't mind it.

I had my hands on his shoulders, gripping slightly as he bit down gently on my neck again. I let out a quiet moan as he sucked on my neck, probably leaving more hickeys in the process. "You like that?" He asked, his voice a low whispered.

I nodded, unable to speak as I felt his hands roam up my bare back. He had no idea what he was doing to me... He was driving me crazy! Nick pulled his lips away from my neck slowly as he stared up into my eyes. I was breathing faster, and I was biting my tongue to keep my moans and pleas in. I wanted more.

Nick pulled my body against his as he kissed me passionately, running his tongue slowly along my lips. I let out a moan as his tongue met mine, grabbing on to his shoulders tighter. Nick let out a groan as he felt me push against his body, causing me to smile. I knew he wanted more too, because I could feel him through his jeans.

I pulled back slowly, causing Nick to stare at my confused. I put my hands under his shirt, slowly moving them up to his chest. Nick stared at me, his breathing becoming faster as I pulled his shirt off. Nick sat up, wrapping my legs around his waist as he began to kiss me harder and faster. I moaned against his soft lips, wrapping my arms around his neck as our tongues fought for dominance. Nick grinned when I gave in, making me let out a soft moan as his hands grabbed my ass.

I had a feeling we wouldn't go all the way, but that didn't mean I wouldn't make him feel amazing. He deserved it; Nick was amazing. I smiled lovingly at him as he laid me down on my back, his breath hot on my face. "I love you, Nick." He smiled at me, touching my cheek gently. "I love you too..." Nick leaned his head down to my neck as he started kissing it again. "So much..."

I laid there still as I felt his lips move down my neck, to my shoulder and then down to my chest. My breathing quickened as he reached behind me, unclamping my bra and slowly tossing it off me. I blushed, half embarrassed and half thrilled. Nick let out a shaky breath, his arms still holding him up. "God, Tasha... You're so beautiful."

Nick kissed my chest lightly, causing me to let out a deep, shaky breath. Nick ran his tongue along my breast slowly, causing me to grab at the sheets under us. Nick moved his tongue to my nipple, slowly moving it back and forth causing me to moan louder. Nick grinned against my skin, slowly moving his hand down my body as he continued to lick and suck on my breast. I gasped as his fingers slipped under the waistband of my panties, taking me by surprise. Nick let out a soft moan as he slowly began rubbing me, feeling how wet he had made me.

I gasped as Nick pushed a finger into me. I let out a louder moan as I gripped onto the bed sheets, trying so hard to stay quiet. Nick stared down at me as he moved his finger in and out slowly, watching my reactions. As he went fast, I let out a moan. "Nick." I moaned softly, causing him to bite his lip. "Nick."

Nick kissed me passionately, pushing his finger in and out faster. He was driving me crazy. I let out another moan as I felt him slowly put in another finger. I opened my eyes as I stared up at him. "I love you." He said as his voice shook.

"I love you." My breathing was so heavy, it was hard to think. I arched my back as he slowly pulled his fingers out. Nick gave me a quick peck on the lips before moving down to my underwear. He slowly took them off, tossing them to the side. Nick leaned forward slowly, running his tongue along me. I gasped as he continued to finger me and do this at the same time. "Nick!" I moaned, gripping into the bed sheet as I felt my stomach tighten, then relax. Nick groaned, licking up every bit of me.

Nick stared at me, wiping his mouth slowly. My face was red, and we were both sweating. I shakingly pulled Nick up to me, and pushed him down against the bed. I sat up as Nick stared at me questionably. I slowly began to unzip his pants, feeling the hard bugle in them. Nick watched me as I pulled down his pants, staring at his underwear while biting my lip. I slowly began to rub the bulge through his underwear, causing him to groan lightly. I pulled down his underwear, tossing it aside as I stared at him. Nick's cheeks went a deep red as I stared down at his dick. I bit my lip gently, staring up into his eyes as I leaned down, kissing the tip of it gently. Nick let out a moan as he watched me, his hand moving up and down my arm. I teased him slowly, running my tongue along the tip slowly, causing him to grab my arm tightly. I could tell I was driving him insane. I smirked at him before slowly taking him in my mouth. I was slow at first, but as time progressed I went faster. Nick let out a loud moan as he slowly moved his hand to my head, grabbing on to my hair gently as he began to push my head down faster. "Tasha..." Nick moaned. "Oh... Fuck... Baby..."

I moaned against him, going faster as I felt his body shake before he released. I swallowed slowly, pulling back from him slowly. I let out a deep breath as Nick pulled me against him, holding me so tight.

"I told you." I smiled as I looked at him. "I'm only yours."

Nick's POV

"Man, it's fucking hot out." Luke said as he pulled off his shirt. I rolled my eyes, scoffing as I began hammering the nails. "Put your shirt back on, dude, nobody wants to see you strip."

Luke laughed, shoving my shoulder. "Oh, I can think of one person who might."

I felt my stomach clench. Every since Tasha started working with Luke, he would always hint at her wanting him. I trusted her, I knew she wouldn't hurt me like that... But the more I saw them together, the more suspicious I got.

"Why do ya gotta be like that, man?"

Luke shrugged. "I was with her first, Nick."

I groaned. "Yeah, you really messed that one up didn't ya?"

Luke glared at me. "Where is Tasha anyways? I need to talk to her."

"Why do you need to talk to her?" I asked with irritation ringing in my voice.

"I just do. It's important, okay?" Luke replied, rubbing his forehead.

"You worked with her for days now. You had plenty of time to talk to my girlfriend, Luke." I snapped. "If there's something going on, I need to know, especially if it involves her."

"What are you trying to say Nick? What if there is something going on?"

I shook my head in disbelief. "Luke, you want her back, don't you?"

"Yeah, what if I do? She was my girlfriend first."

I shoved Luke hard, pushing him against the wall. I glared at him, ready to punch him if he tried anything. Luke grabbed my shoulders almost gently, pushing me away slowly. "Look, Tasha came to me a few days ago and told me she didn't wanna stay here."

"What are you talking about?" I asked as I tried to calm down, though just looking at his face made me want to choke him.

"She wouldn't tell me why, but I think it's something to do with Carver." Luke replied as he pulled his shirt back on. "She looked pretty out of it though."

"Fuck, man." I took of my hat and wiped the sweat off of my forehead. "Well? Do you guys have a plan?"

Luke nodded. "You should talk to her about it, Nick."

I shook my head. "Fuck. This is fucked."

"Nick-"

I shook my head. "If you see her, tell her I wanna talk to her," I mumbled as I walked away, putting my hat back on my head. Why wouldn't Tasha come to me? I was supposed to be the one she trusted... After everything this morning, I couldn't believe that she'd go to Luke before me... Did she want him?

Tasha's POV

"Hey." I smiled at Nick as I entered our tent. Nick stared at me for a moment, he seemed to have something on his mind. "Hey."

I sat down beside him as I pulled off my shoes. "Everything okay?"

"No, Tasha. Everything isn't okay." Nick snapped, causing me to look up at him.

"What's wrong?" I asked quietly.

Nick scoffed. "Why don't you ask Luke since you two seem to be so close now?"

I grabbed his hand. "Nick, what's gotten into you? Did you forget everything from this morning? I'm yours, remember?"

"Luke told me that you went to him wanting to escape the camp." Nick said as he stared at me. I blinked a few times before letting out a deep breath.

"That's what your mad about? Look, I don't feel good about this place, Nick." I tried to make up a decent excuse. "I knew that Luke didn't like Carver so I made a plan with him so we all could leave."

"Why wouldn't you come to me?" Nick asked, his voice slightly softer than before, but I could still hear the strain in it.

" I knew you'd worry..." I muttered quietly.

"Tasha, I know you well enough to know that you're keeping something from me." His voice was soft as he touched my hand gently. I looked up at him slowly, fear in my eyes. "Hey..." Nick said as he caressed my face. "You can tell me anything, Tasha." Nick comforted me as I looked away from him, tears starting to fall down my face. "Tasha? What's wrong?"

I took a deep breath as I stared at my hands. "On the run with Carver, we came across a group of people. They had food and supplies... Carver asked them to come back with us and they refused and Carver... Carver shot the guy... Most of the people were dead, but there were three left..."

Nick's grip on my hand tightened as he stared at me. "Carver told me to kill them... To prove I have what it takes... I couldn't do it, Nick... I couldn't kill three innocent people..."

"Tasha..." Nick's voice was so quiet as he grabbed both of my hands.

"Carver told me if I didn't shoot them, he would kill me... I thought about you, I thought about how devastated you'd be and I couldn't leave you, I couldn't..."

I looked up at Nick slowly. "I killed three innocent people. That's why we need to leave. Carver wants me to join his close group and I can't, Nick... I can't kill more innocent people!"

Nick held me close, his body shaking with what I assumed was anger and fear. "Hey... Hey, shh... Shh... We're gonna get out of here. I won't let anything hurt you... I love you..."

I sobbed quietly into him as he kissed my head. "I promise I'll keep you safe."

I woke up in the middle of the night, nick's arms still wrapped around my. I sat up slowly, noticing he was still awake. "Hey, why aren't you sleeping?" I asked quietly, feeling a lot better that I had told him.

Nick smiled at me, touching my cheek. "Can't sleep."

I leaned down, giving him a soft kiss. "You should try, sweetie. Tomorrow's our last night of sleep before we leave." I said quietly as I laid back down on my side so I could look at him. Nick rolled onto his side, wrapping his arm around my waist.

"Have you talked to everyone yet?"

"Luke mostly has... I'm supposed to try talking to Bonnie tomorrow, but I don't think she'll come. " I frowned. Out of all the people in Carver's group, Bonnie was the closest girl my age and she was really sweet. I trusted her.

"You trust her? Wasn't she with you when-"

"Yeah, but you didn't see her... She looked just about as scared as I was..." I mumbled as I took a deep breath. "Whenever I sleep, I see myself murdering those three people..."

Nick touched my cheek softly. "You're not a murderer."

"I killed three innocent people. What do you call that, Nick?" I asked, almost annoyingly.

Nick sighed. "You did what you had to do to survive. You made a tough choice to live, not a lot of people can do that..."

I nodded. "You know, I used to be a Catholic before this... But now I just don't know. How can there be a God if so many bad things are going on? I've lost so many people it's hard to believe, you know?"

Nick nodded. "I've never been one to believe, but I think there must be something after this. Right?"

"Like heaven?" I asked.

Nick nodded. "Yeah, something where you can see all your loved ones again."

I sighed, snuggling up closer to him. "I hope."

"Tasha? Did you get the medicine?"

I looked up at Luke and nodded. "Yeah. Carlos said he'd get the rest after, though."

"Okay good... Did you talk to Bonnie?"

My face fell. I sighed. "Mhmm. I don't think she buys it though... It's fine." I said. "Just one less person to worry about. Who do we got coming?"

"The others all agreed, and Reggie said he'd come too." Luke said softly, obviously noticing I was stressed. "Hey." He said as he touched my cheek. "This is gonna go good, alright? We're all gonna get outta here."

I simply nodded, pulling away slowly. "You and Nick need to stop fighting. We have enough to deal with."

Luke nodded. "I don't try to..."

"I know, neither does he. You've known him longer then me, you're his best friend... Just try? Please?"

Luke nodded. "Alright."

I nodded as I took a deep breath. "Okay, what else do we need to get?"

"Well, I was thinking you and Nick could get the ammo." Luke said as I reached for my knife which was up high in a cupboard. Luke walked over to me, leaning over me and grabbing my knife. Cheekily, he smirked at me, holding the knife out for me to grab. "Pssh, asshole." I scoffed, grabbing it from his hands and putting it in my pocket.

"Ain't my fault your short." Luke chuckled as we walked back over to the table. I rolled my eyes, looking intently at the map. "Ain't my fault your a redneck."

I sat in bed with Nick that night, holding his hand tightly in my grasp. One night until everything changed. One night until everything was harder. I had told Nick the plan; we were going to Parker's Run, then hopefully finding another place after that. Nick had tried to comfort me, realizing how devastated I was that I had killed three people. It affected me so terribly now, even when I was in his arms I saw their stunned faces turn into blank, emotionless ones.

My grip on his hand tightened.

Nick kissed my cheek soothingly, leaning his head against mine. "We could die..." I said slowly as I stared at our interlocked hands. Nick forced me to look at him as soon as I said that, a scared look on his face. "No. We'll both be okay."

I shook my head. "No, Nick. There's always a chance we could die...and I... I can't live without you... I wouldn't know how..."

Nick kissed me gently. "You'll never have to live without me... I'll always love you."

I looked up at Nick with tears in my eyes. "I'm scared."

Nick held me closer, looking deeply into my eyes. "I am too, Tasha. But we're both gonna make it out alive, because I can't lose you..."

I managed to smile as I leaned up, giving him a soft kiss. "You won't lose me... I just... I guess after everything that's happened, I'm afraid that me killing those three people is gonna haunt me for the rest of my life."

Nick cringed. "You did what you had to do to survive... They were going to be killed by Carver either way..."

I nodded. "I know... But I feel now that any pain I receive I deserve." I frowned. "Nick... Do you think I'm a murderer?"

Nick looked shocked. "No, Tasha! How could you even think that? You're not a murderer."

I wouldn't look at him. "Nick..."

"Tasha, don't ever think that." He rubbed my cheek soothingly. "I love you."

I nodded slowly. "I love you too, Nick."

Nick leaned down, giving me a soft kiss. I smiled, kissing him back slowly as I felt his hands move to my waist. Nick and I could potentially die and... and I needed him to know how much I loved him.

My hands were against Nick's chest as he moved his lips to my neck, flicking out his tongue on my sweet spot. I let out a soft moan, gripping tightly on to his shirt. Nick pulled back as I lifted his shirt off, tossing it to the ground. He slowly ran his fingers up my sides before pulling my shirt off as well. I blushed in the darkness as Nick pushed me back against the blankets, his one arm holding himself up while his other hand began to roam my body. Nick kissed me passionately as he slid his hand into my bra, cupping my breast tentatively. As soon as I felt his warm touch, I squirmed in delight. Nick reached behind me, unclamping my bra before tossing it to the side. He pulled my bare chest against his, kissing me feverishly.

I let out a moan as I slowly pulled down his pants, along with them his boxers. I pushed Nick onto his back as he began to pull down my pants and panties. Nick breathed heavily as he stared up at me, his eyes never leaving mine. He held on to my waist tightly as I positioned myself overtop of him. I gripped onto his shoulder for support as I slowly let the tip of his dick enter me. Nick moaned, his grip on my waist even tighter. I bit my lip as Nick thrusted upwards, allowing himself to enter me completely.

"Fuck!" I moaned softly, leaning my forehead against his. Nick's lips found mine and feverishly we kissed each other as Nick thrusted upwards. My hands began to shake against his shoulders as we kissed, his one hand moving to my hair as he kissed me harder. I moaned as I felt him move inside of me, slow at first, but as he began to pick up the pace I didn't know how long I would be able to hold on.

Nick let out a sharp breath as I began to move against him in perfect rhythm. "Nick." I moaned his name softly causing him to grip on to my waist tighter.

"I love you, Tasha." He moaned between pants. I could tell it was getting harder for him to hold on.

I felt my stomach tighten as I moaned loudly, before I felt a release. I collapsed against Nick as he came inside of me, both of us breathing quickly. Nick ran his fingers along my bare back before pulling the sheet over us. "I love you, Nick." I whispered softly. Nick held me tighter as we both fell into a deep sleep.

A/N: Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter!

SpawnOfSatan: awe :3 well, when you see future chapters you'll probably feel mega-guilty :p. Luke is DEFINITELY getting far too comfortable. I'm glad your excited for them escaping :3 hmm, maybe my writing style has improved? I'm not sure ^-^ there will definitely be a fight scene with Nick and Luke in future chapters, don't worry! Thanks for sticking with this story :) your reviews help me! Also, carver is just a major creep xD