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Chapter 6:
My bare skin was cradled against Tobias' when I woke the next morning. We had fallen asleep very shortly after last night's events. I conquered my fear, I lost my virginity last night, and it was one of the best things to ever happen to me.
I'm incredibly pleased to realise that there is no throbbing in my head. No hangover. I look up and see that Tobias' is still asleep. His eyelids flutter as he breathes deeply. I begin to get up from the bed just as I'm about to leave Tobias' arms they pull me back against his body.
"Where do you think you're going?" He asks groggily, his voice think from sleep.
"I was going to have a shower." I answer as I look to him. His eyes are on me, though they are still adjusting to the light. He smiles and loosens his grip on me. I reach up to peck him on the lips before placing my feet over the edge of the bed and standing. I'm halfway to the bathroom when a thought enlightens me.
"Would you like to join me?" I ask. His eyes shoot open after he had closed them again, his head turns towards me and he props himself up on his elbows. He looks me up and down; it's then only seconds before he is out of bed and walking past me to the bathroom, winking at me as he passes. It's then I notice that he is standing at full attention. He must be very horny?
There's something very different about us after last night, we so much... closer. I am completely naked, and that doesn't bother me in the slightest. Where so flirty and everything just seems, easier.
When I get into the bathroom Tobias' has already turned on the shower and is stepping in. I quickly follow. The shower is very roomy, easily fitting us both. Tobias stands under the warm water, the droplets falling from his hair onto his face. He is truly a gorgeous man.
His arms reach out to grab my hips as he pulls me into him, the water falls over both of us as we embrace. I can feel his hardness press against my stomach.
"You're excited this morning." I comment. He looks confused for a moment before realising it was a remark regarding his current erect state.
"That happens every morning." He informs me. The human body does some strange things, especially the males. I'm brought out of my thought process as he brings his lips to mine. His hand slowly slips from my waist down in between my thighs, he begins to tease me. I tighten my grip on his back as I moan into his mouth. His hand falls lower and he slips a finger inside me. I gasp, his lips kiss down my jaw to my neck as he pumps his finger quickly. My finger nails dig into his back as I continue to moan. I can feel him getting harder against me and he twitches, almost asking for attention. I think he deserves it. I take a hand and wrap it around him, I stroke it up and down just as I had done last night. He growls into my neck, inserting another finger in me and pumping faster. The pleasure has my movements faulting as I begin to gasp into his ear. He suddenly removes his fingers from me, pulling his face from the crook of my neck, my face falls.
"Wh..."Before I can ask questions, he grabs my hips and turns us around. He swipes his arm across the ledge that holds his shampoo's and soaps, knocking them to the floor. He lifts me up to sit on the ledge and steps closer to me, spreading my legs to either side of his body. This shelf, I must say, is at a perfect height it has aligned him perfectly at my entrance. Tobias looks at me as if to ask for permission. I put a hand in his hair as I nod and bring his lips to mine, they touch at the instant he enters me. There is no pain this time, there is a slight stretching feeling like he doesn't quite fit, but no pain. Only pleasure, intense pleasure. Our tongues battle as he thrusts sensually in and out. I need more.
"Faster." I whimper against his lips. He instantly complies, one of his hands bracing the wall behind me for support as his other is placed on my lower back for leverage. I cry out when I'm sent over the edge, I shake so violently I almost fall off the ledge, but Tobias' next thrust forces me back. His hand is on my ass now, he squeezes tight as his movements falter and he huffs with one last thrust that has him cuming inside me. He slumps into me and I feel him twitch within me.
After just staying in each other's arms for a long moment while our breathing settles we smile at each other and share a kiss. It's after we're clean and ready to get out that I remember the unusable state of my towel.
"Shit." I mumble. Tobias has stepped out of the shower and wrapped his towel around his waist.
"What?" He asks.
"My towel." I respond. Recognition appears on his features and he chuckles, he gives me a quick kiss before leaving the bathroom. He comes back only moments later with a clean folded towel.
"You're lucky I have a spare." He says, handing me the towel.
We had gotten dressed and left the apartment, we were only one door down the hall way when it opened. A guy steps out of the apartment, he looks about Tobias' age, he has short hair and a black ring in his eyebrow.
"Hey, Four." He greets.
"Hi, Brant." He acknowledges.
"Good job, Bro'. But try keep it down a little next time, yeah?" Brant says, clasping a hand on Tobias' shoulder and winking at me. I go bright crimson with embarrassment and avert my eyes, it's obvious what he's referring to. Brant chuckles and walks off down the hall.
"You were pretty loud..." Tobias says with a large grin on his face, I glare at him and slap him on the arm, I highly doubt it would have hurt him at all. He wraps his arms around me and put his mouth to my ear.
"I fucking loved it." He whispers, then bites lightly on my earlobe. A shiver runs down my spine and I moan quietly. I had never liked profanities much, but coming from Tobias now it's so raw and passionate.
It's quite late when we make it to the dining hall, after this morning's showering events. There's a bounce to our step, a smile plastered on our faces, there's a new intimacy between us that has me feeling closer to Tobias than ever before.
When we get to the dining hall I see Christina sitting alone.
"You can sit, I'll get you some bacon and eggs." Tobias says, gesturing to Christina and quickly kissing me before heading to the buffet. Does he know that I am dying to tell Christina all about last night?
I walk over to Christina where she is eating by herself, I sit directly in front of her. She looks up to me. I have a ridiculously large grin on my face.
"Hey Tr... What?" She asks. I just continue to grin and raise my eyebrows. She knows. She gasps. "Oh my god. You did it?!" She whispers screams. I nod enthusiastically. She lets out an excited squeal.
"That's so exciting! How was it, how was he, how big was he, did it hurt, was there...?" She floods me with rushed questions. I interrupt her.
"It was amazing!" I whisper yell back, I see Tobias walking over now. "We can talk about that later." I say with a wink. She lets out another excited squeal just before Tobias sits down, placing a tray in front of me.
"Thank you." I say with a smile, he smiles back before digging into his eggs wordlessly.
"So, where's Will?" I ask.
"He 's on shift. He's got the morning shift today, I have the afternoon. He started at 5am! How crazy is that?" She informs.
"That's really early." I agree.
We are interrupter by someone clearing their throat next to us.
"Four." Eric acknowledges coldly, than turns to me. "Tris, Max has asked me to inform you that you're required to attended the leadership meeting at 3pm today in the board room, 6th floor of the Pire. The receptionist will help you find it if you have any trouble. Don't be late." He says before turning and exiting the dining hall.
"He's such a dick. He just has a terrible personality, you that kind of person you just want to punch in the face when you look at them... just 'cause?" Christina says, glaring at the door. Tobias laughs.
"I'm excited." I say enthusiastically. "My first leadership meeting." I clarify.
"That is pretty exciting." Christina agrees with a smile.
After breakfast Tobias leaves for work in the control room and Christina and I head to the shops. Well, we would have if she hadn't stopped me the second Tobias turned the corner.
"Tell me everything!" She shouts, pure excitement on her face. I laugh.
"There's a lot to tell." And there is, we could discuss the grinding, the foreplay, our first time, the shower sex and anything in between, I'd be very happy to go into intense detail. We've begun to walk in the direction of the shops again.
"I don't know what to ask first!" Christina says excitedly, she looks to me. "How big was he?" She asks. It seems like a strange question to ask, I'm going to assume she referring to his penis. Is that something that matters, are they different sizes?
"Um..." I stutter, it's not like a had a tape measure. Mind you, he's kind of permanently etched into my brain. I pull my hand up and spread them about nine inches apart. "About this big?" I say, more a question than a statement.
"Shit. Really?" She asks in disbelief.
"Yes... why?" I'm confused, what's so strange about that?
"That's pretty freaking big!" She says surprised. "Did it hurt."
"Yes! You liar, you said it wouldn't hurt! It was very painful!" I scolded.
"Yeah, well I didn't know he was hung like a freaking horse did I?!" I don't get the expression, but I'm assume from the previous conversation that horses have large penis'... we're getting off track.
"It didn't hurt for too long though, about a minute, then it was... it was... wow." I try to explain but I'm lost for words.
"I know what you mean." She admits. "So, how did it... you know... start?"
"We were making out and I rubbed up against him and it felt amazing so I just kept doing it... and yeah, it just kind of went from there." I tell her.
"You started it?!" She looks at me flabbergasted. "I still can't believe you even did it." She adds.
"I can." I'm quite proud of myself for overcoming that fear.
"Did he wear a condom?" She asks.
"What's that?" I ask. She looks at me concerned.
"Like a little rubber thing that goes over his dick?" She says as if it's obvious.
"No?" I don't remember anything like that, I think I would have noticed.
"What?" She's shocked. "Are you guys crazy, do you want a baby?!" She questions. A baby? I had completely forgotten everything I actually had learnt in school about sex. Sex is how babies are created. Did I want a baby? I think about it briefly before I realise that it wouldn't bother me in the slightest to have Tobias' child. I don't know if I should have children this young though.
"Did he cum in you?" She asks, her tone is quite urgent.
"Yes." I answer truthfully.
"That's how you get pregnant!" She says. I guess it really just slipped my mind, I hadn't associated sex with children at the time, I was too absorbed in the moment.
"Probably not the best oversight..." I admit.
"You think?" She says slightly condescendingly.
I've never thought of myself as a mother. In Abnegation it's set that at the age of 24 you are expected to be married and at 25 you are expected to start trying for a child, so I thought it would be a far off thing. When I came to Dauntless, that was really the last thing on my mind. When I was younger I use to volunteer with my mother at the child care centre, I loved the children. They were so imaginative, positive and full of life. They were a joy to be around and play games with. If I were to have a child I would definitely want it to be with Tobias. I can't imagine the joy it would give me having a child with him, a beautiful being half Tobias, half me. A true representation of our love and commitment to each other. If you look at it on the large scale, I haven't even know Tobias two months yet. Although I couldn't imagine ever being with someone else it does seem inconvenient to have a child at sixteen. Would I still be able to train for the dauntless ambassador position? Would I be shunned by others for having a child so young?
I don't think I would mind either way. There are positive and negative aspects to having a child and not having a child. I think I'd still be okay with either... What would Tobias think?
"What would you do if you got pregnant?" She asked. I looked at her a little confused.
"Have a baby?" I reply unsure. Was there other options after getting pregnant?
"You'd definitely keep it?" She asked.
"Why would I give my baby away to someone else?" I ask.
"Well, sometimes you just aren't ready to have a child in your life. You could not have it at all. Pregnancy's can be terminated." She explains.
"Terminated?" I ask.
"Yeah, an abortion? They get rid of the baby before it has the chance to grow or be born." She elaborates. I don't like it. I could never get rid of my baby, a gift from Tobias, a part of him and me.
"No, I wouldn't do that." I respond. Would Tobias have a say in that, what if he didn't want to have a baby with me?
"That's very dauntless of you." She comments. "Most dauntless have children not to long after their initiation, at about eighteen. I guess it would be kind of normal here." The dauntless live a very interesting life, it could be seen as short. Maybe they don't waste time like people in other factions would. Tobias is eighteen; I think I should definitely have a talk to him about that as soon as possible.
"It's very possible that you're pregnant." Christina says, seriously. That's too much to think about before I talk to Tobias.
I think Christina can sense that the conversation was making me tense, so she swapped over to talking about her and Will's sex life. We spent a few hours going from shop to shop. Christina helped me pick out some new clothes, even some sexy lingerie. We stopped for lunch and proceeded with more shopping. Christina started her shift guarding the fence at three and I had the leadership meeting. It was 2:30pm when she's finally let me loose. I'd headed back to the apartment and dropped off my shopping. I'd also picked out some of my new clothes to wear to the meeting; I wanted to look nice, I wanted to look like a dauntless leader.
Up next is Tris's first meeting with the dauntless leaders! I'm bringing in a new rule into dauntless that i love, and i hope you will too! Read the next chapter to find out what it is!
-Kayla