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Ashley's POV
"I think you've had enough." I said snatching the bottle out of Spencer's hands.
"No Ashley. You can't tell me what to do." Spencer said grabbing the bottle back out of my hands.
She drank it and sat on the couch Aiden watched tv in the leather chair.
"Aiden! Do something!" I said and he just shrugged his shoulders.
"She'll snap out of it. She did this in college." Aiden resumed watching sports center stood up and turned it off.
"I'm leaving to met with my lawyers I'll be back." He said before walking out the door.
"Spencer. What's wrong?" I said trying to remain calm. She looked like shit. Her face was bruised and she had permanent mascara stained tears rolling down her face. It hadn't stopped in atleast two weeks. She doesn't leave the apartment or.. the couch. She refuses to sleep with Aiden and every now and then mutters words. I knew I was responsible for it. I blamed myself it every day watching her get worse and worse. Aiden was being more of an ass as the week drug on.. I wanted to hang him.
"Go away." Spencer whispered. She stood up to fall back down dropping the bottle and holding her head. I grabbed her and she fought me fighting me off flipping my body on the couch.
"Spencer. Let me help you!" I shouted looking at the histerical blonde.
"No. It's not YOUR job anymore!" She screamed kicking me but I straddled her.
"Clearly the asshole that is supposed to be helping you isn't so I am as a friend!" I said trying to get her to get a grip. She was different then the girl I met and the girl I loved she was broken shattered and slowly losing herself. I couldn't let her die like this.
"That was low Ashley." She spat at me trying to hit me off of her. As sad as the scenario was I couldn't help but laugh.
"Why are you laughing at me Ashley?" Spencer said confused.
"You're acting like a child!" I screamed.
"I am not. I am an adult and I don't need YOU to take care of me. You don't care Ashley so just go on with your life and pretend like I don't exist like you want to. Stop lying to yourself and me. You don't want to be here right now you want me to disappear with Aiden and get out of here." She said before breaking down and holding me into her. Her voice cracked as she grabbed my torseo. I lost all breath feeling her touch me again. I knew I'd never feel like this with anyone I just couldn't be with her and have her deal with so much hurt because of me.
"Don't leave me Ashley!" Spencer begged sobbing into my shirt. I hugged her close and wrapped her around me. I felt so disgusted with myself because of how we were. She wouldn't look at me all week. She's barely been sober. She looks at Aiden with disgust.. which I don't blame her. I just want to help.
"Spencer. I don't want to but I have to. It's not safe to be with me." I whispered in her ear trying to calm her.
"But I'm not me without you." She said into my shirt. I lifted Spencer up and carried her to my bathroom. I began to start the bath water and sat her on the toilet. She was still sobbing silently letting the tears roll down her checks like she didn't care anymore.
"What's wrong baby?" I asked her wiping her tears away. Spencer flinched and backed away from my touch then leaned into it.
"If I died tomorrow you wouldn't be the last person I was with." She said looking down.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused.
"That night…" her voice trailed off.
"I was with Aiden before we went home." She said turning her head. I felt a rush of pain go through me heart and I felt cold. It wasn't right for me to blame Spencer… She wasn't mine anymore.
"I told you too. It's understandable." I said feeling the bath water's temperature. When I pulled my hand out she grabbed my wrists.
"Just because it's understandable doesn't mean it's right. I didn't want him. It was inexcusable.. but I left like doing what you told me I might still feel your presence and I felt nothing but dirty the whole time. He doesn't touch me the way you do. He doesn't hold me or kiss me. He doesn't snuggle me after he's done and he finishes when he's satisfied not me. Ashley he's not you and he never will be." She said looking me in my eyes.
Spencer wasn't drunk but she wasn't sober. She her eyes were red and blood shot making me wince in pain. She hadn't slept since. I grabbed Spencer's shirt and slowly pulled it off of her. She didn't fight me anymore and just let me take care of her. I stood her up as I slowly undid her pajama pants she'd been living in. She stood naked in front of me and even though she was broken she was still beautiful. I picked her up and placed her in the tub and sat her back against the wall.
I slowly pulled off my clothes and got in behind her holding her. I grabbed my cup from the sink and begin to slowly go over her skin letting the water clean her. I took the shampoo and scrubbed her head and let the foams fall into the tub. I kept running the bathwater and filled my cup with it rising her hair. I watched the white bubbled replace the once see through water. I grabbed the conditioner next and made her hair silky. I let it sit before rising it out. I was nervous to touch her as I grabbed the soap. We always had an electronic charge every time our skin connected. I hoped she would feel the same but wasn't disappointed when she did.
I felt her back press against my front as I rubbed her shoulders rubbing the soap in. I went around her neck and down her chest making the bathroom smell like coconuts. I let the water rinse her making the suds disappear into the tub again. I felt Spencer begin to shake and I turned and felt her stop breathing I turned her around and noticed she was shaking. I held her and let her catch her breath. She was coughing and clung to me.
"Baby." I said once she stopped.
"I'm sorry about that again." She said apologizing for her anxiety attack. I held her close and brushed her head in my head.
"Sh.. It's okay Spence." I whispered. We sat like this until the water got cold. I stood her up with me and climbed out of the tub with her in my arms. I wrapped her in a towel and turned off the water and let it drain. I wrapped a towel around myself as I left Spencer up again and carried her to my bed. I found my brush and sat behind her brushing her hair out. I got up from the bed to find a large t-shirt and I undid her towel and put a shirt on her. I laid her in the bed and sat beside her.
"Spencer you may not understand this but I love you so much it hurts. If I don't let you go now then we will never be together." I said cupping her face.
Spencer took her hands and grabbed my face.
"But if I'm not with you now then I won't be able to be happy ever." She said pulling me down.
I heard Spencer breathe in as our lips met and crashed. I felt tears rolling down my face in hers as the mixed with the taste of another. Spencer tasted like Vodka and pain but I pushed past it to taste the girl I've been longing ever since I told her it was over. I found myself in the sheets with her holding her closer needing to feel her again wanting to be with her again. My heart ached for her touch as my body shook feeling her against me. Spencer shivered as my hands found her breasts and hers found my hair. I didn't know what this meant but if it was the last kiss we'd ever share it had to mean everything.
Spencer wrapped my towel from my body and threw it across the room as she cupped my ass. My body felt so right in her arms and tasted so good against hers.
"I need you." Spencer said digging her nails into my back making me moan. I released one hand from her breasts and slowly brought it down above her pelvis. Spencer's blue eyes read hope, desire, and not lacking the love she felt for me. I buried my fingers into her to be met with a moan. Spencer's eyes never left mine as I slowly when in and out of her. I was surprised to feel her cup my core making me flood her hand. She didn't smile at the feeling but her eyes shinned as we both found the same rythem. Her walls felt so damp around my fingers as I curved them against her walls making her legs and body shake to me. I melted and moaned feeling her doing the same making my stomach twitch with pleasure.
She began to go harder and faster making my whimpering her name fastened and became louder. Spencer's breathe hint my face every time I'd breath in I could taste my pleasure leaving her and feel my pleasure in her ejecting into mine. Our faces got closer moving up and down on her bed not once blinking our eyes our averting our stares. I wanted to watch her climax to me and she the same. It was a silent understanding of the love we shared. Faster and faster I felt her fingers dip into me hitting every spot she could. Soon enough I couldn't take the build anymore and I felt her become close at the same time.
"Ashley" I heard her scream the same time I let out "Spencer." We both came swiftly together.
We didn't remove ourselves from another but let the sweat we build up go and mix with another. I leaned forward and found her mouth in mine. I sucked her tongue and bit her lip before sucking my fingers letting her do the same. We found each other's mouth again tasting and sucking off of each other's pleasure we just created.
"I love you." We both said into each other's mouths. I didn't move as Spencer began to cry again this time it was more of a needing me than missing me. She clutched onto me and held me close and I refused to move until she found sleep. I watched her face become peaceful and I smiled as I got out of bed. I placed back on my sweat pants and v-neck on the floor. I needed to study lines and let her rest before she woke up. She was all I thought about every moment every day. I threw my hair up and walked into the front room as Aiden walked in.
"Where is she?" Aiden whispered looking around.
"Sleeping upstairs she showered and now is in my bed asleep." I smiled gently at him.
He didn't return the look of appreciation. He looked me over up and down twice.
"How'd you do?" His voice read suspicion.
"By loving her and caring for her like you should of." I snapped angrily at him.
"Why should I? She's a mess and she has been for weeks Ash. She needs to get over what ever is going on in her head. I can't take it! I can't handle her. She was so distant from me and now she expects me to come nature her?" He said throwing his keys on the coffee table. The sound of the metal hitting hit a nerve.
"Aiden! She took care of you when your dumbass got put in the hospital!" I said defending her.
"Shit Ashley. I thought you were my best friend why are you defending her?!" He shouted.
"Because instead of talking to her you're treating her like shit and she clearly doesn't have the mind set to defend herself." I said.
"She's been so distant Ash. Did you know the night of the premiere she tried to break up with me?" Aiden said making me flinch. That was the night I broke up with her..
"Why?" I asked curious.
"She said she wanted a break but I could tell in her eyes she didn't love me anymore. After the show she was just depressed and sobbing saying it was because she missed me but I think there was more to it. She said she loved me but her eyes didn't sparkle like they used to when she would say it. She just looked empty. I knew she was lying. It was all different. I was mad because it was like she was being forced to be with me just to make me happy. I took her to the limo and we had sex but she just laid there not touching me or kissing me back. She didn't want to it was like she was fighting our love. It felt wrong. I was so mad at her because she was crying the whole time like I was taking advantage of her. We got home and the house was on fire and there was whore across her car. She fainted. I talked to the chief and he said it was arson. Someone tried to kill us and since whore was on her car I'm guessing it was her. I'm worried about her. I don't want to lose her and have her hurt but then again I can't be with her Ash." Aiden admitted grabbing a beer out of the fridge.
"Aiden. I don't know what to say.." My voice trailed off.
"I know she's in love with someone else." He said coldly.
I didn't say anything as my heart stopped.
"Who is it?" he asked looking at me.
"What?" I said as he walked toward me aggressively.
"Ashley who the fuck is it! I know you know your not saying anything but you girls eyes tell it all why are you so scared?! Do I know him? Because I will kill him if he ever hurts her again I swear to god!" Aiden screamed throwing his bottle on the ground.
"Aiden I don't know." I squirmed to run away from him.
"Just fucking tell me damn it." Aiden's eyes were grey and cold and I'd never seen him so mad before. Aiden pushed me against the wall and leaned in close looking for something in my eyes.
"Aiden!" I heard someone yell across the room surprised to see a awake Spencer standing horrified.
"What?!" He yelled then spun around to see the old Spencer. He relaxed and looked at me.
"This isn't over" He whispered in my ear.
"Ashley are you okay?" Spencer asked walking towards us.
"I'm fine." I said breaking away from both of them. I walked outside on the balcony and just screamed at nothing in particular. My world was falling apart and I couldn't do a damn thing about it.
I heard my phone ring and I picked it up not looking at the ID.
"What?!" I barked to hear an offended voice.
"Hello Ashley." The voice purred. I felt sick.
"Hello." I said displeased.
"Did you do as I asked?" They asked.
"Yes." I answered painfully slow thinking of everything from that night.
"Good. Next time you think about making love to her know. I will be watching and it won't just be her house that gets burnt to the ground. It will be her life."
"Please don't.." My voice trailed off cracking.
CLICK.
"The number you have reached is no longer in service."