What if's...
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Lyrics: Bigbang: haru haru
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Day07: Trace
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떠나가
Tteonaga
Leave
Yeah, finally I realize, that I'm nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
파도처럼 부숴진 내 맘
Padocheoreom buswojin nae mam
Like the tides my heart is broken
바람처럼 흔들리는 내 맘
Baramcheoreom heundeullineun nae mam
Like the wind my heart is shaking
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Gray remembers how it all started as he reads the book that was given to him.
He let out a dry laugh, as he realize how destiny played their fate. Lucy was Haru and he was fuyu, they are the two kids who made her garden into a playground.
Yet Years later they met again in the guild where everyone witness their history until he decided to leave. Master Makarov was the only person he confided with and to avoid more conflict, and he knew it was an awful decision.
"Ah, Lucy you still had been exceeding my expectations." He said to no one while reading the contents of the book she had written.
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연기처럼 사라진 내 사랑
Yeongicheoreom sarajin nae sarang
Like the smoke my love faded away
문신처럼 지워지지 않아
Munsincheoreom jiwojiji ghana
It never erases like a tattoo
한숨만 땅이 꺼지라 쉬죠
Hansumman ttangi kkeojira swijyo
I sigh deeply and the ground shakes
내 가슴속에 먼지만 쌓이죠
Nae gaseumsoge meonjiman ssahijyo
My heart is full of dust
say goodbye
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The scent of spring reminded him of the days when she was still in his arms.
Those days when he can still tightly embrace her and can still felt her warmth.
Alone in the park where they used to walk hand in hand.
Tear drops are starting to stain the pages that he is currently reading.
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Yeah 네가 없인 단 하루도 못 살 것만 같았던 나
Yeah nega eobsineun dan harudo mot sal geotman gatatdeon na
Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
생각과는 다르게도 그럭저럭 혼자 잘 살아
Saenggakgwaneun dareugedo geureokjeoreok honja jal sara
But from what was expected, I'm getting along quite well by myself
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A knowing smile was on Lucy's face as she trace every outline of his face. She felt him tremble as her fingers touch the lashes of his eyes.
She wipes the tears on his face.
"It wasn't your fault, maybe this is bound to happen." She said to him.
He felt guilty that it was his fault that she became blind just after she finished her novel, however she didn't blame him for what had happened.
"Thank you for being there, and for being my best friend." He heard her whisper. He didn't know why she those words to him.
He watch her and just realize that as time passes by her appearance did change.
Her long blonde locks are now tied in a modest bun. How she now opt to simple yet elegant looking clothes, he wouldn't deny that he miss how childishly she dress her self.
Moreover he wouldn't deny that she became prettier as time passes by. The scars she have on every mission she had, the smile she puts on her face, how her gaze now held so many meanings, and her everything.
"Thank you for everything." Natsu mumbles to himself as he trace her name on the monument.
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보고 싶다고 불러 봐도 넌 아무 대답 없잖아
Bogo sipdago bulleo bwado neon amu daedab eobjanha
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
헛된 기대 걸어 봐도 이젠 소용없잖아
Heotdoen gidae georeo bwado ijen soyongeobjanha
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
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Walking at a certain path towards the park, both men didn't speak when they saw each other.
It is as if their rivalry and camaraderie is still their and didn't change despite their old age.
Silently, as if they were reading each others mind, the two acknowledged each others presence.
They didn't know how and why but they are sitting in front of each other, inside the cafe that used to be the parks playground.
Things have change but somehow they didn't.
The two didn't speak to each other as they waited for their orders, as soon as they got it, it is Natsu who break the ice and stared at the man who used to be his friend.
"Lucy had been faithful to you, until her last breath."
Gray didn't know what to say at the other, as memories of the three of them became vivid.
"You are a fucking asshole for leaving her."
" I know."
"You didn't deserve her love and yet she choose you."
"I know."
"We could have settled it before, but I know that if it did happened, I would destroyed your lives and mine. I'm foolish as well, and I realize that as Lucy taught me how to be mature this past years that had gone by."
"I too, realize it. But maybe this is what should have happened."
"I know, asshole."
"Lucy and I had been in love with each other, but the circumstances that surrounded us is ..."
"Yeah, it is sad but atleast I have became a father figure to Fuyu, her son." There is a smug undertone on Natsu's voice as he say it, which irritated the hell out of Gray. It should have been him but he was fucking selfish of his decision, so he is torn between punching Natsu, and himself for being a coward.
"But he is still my son, and he told me to take care of his daughter."
" Ha! As if I am letting you do that you old fart!"
"You are old too retard!"
"Ah I can still remember little fuyu in my arms and him idolizing me! Good old days~"
"Heh, he told me that Lucy told him to never call you father!"
"You!!!!"
"Heh.!!!"
They banter and somehow it reminded them of the old days.
It just happens that they both fell in love with the same woman who understood their rivalry and camaraderie.
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네 옆에 있는 그 사람이 뭔지 혹시 널 울리진 않는지
Ne yeope inneun geu sarami mwonji hoksi neol ullijin anhneunji
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
그대 내가 보이긴 하는지 벌써 싹 다 잊었는지
Geudae naega boigin haneunji beolsseo ssak da ijeonneunji
Do you even see me, did you already completely forget me?
걱정돼 다가가기조차 말을 걸 수조차 없어 애태우고
Geokjeongdwae dagagagijocha mareul geol sujocha eobseo aetaeugo
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't even approach you or talk to you
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(Her spirits remembered every thing that had happened when their dear Lucy's worse nightmare had became a reality.
That day change every thing...
Happy with her check-up results, she wanted Gray to be the first one to know.
Arriving in their house, she met silence.
A note on the table, with Gray's name on it.
One word and tears started to flow.
"No."
('Goodbye.
-Gray')
She recalled how Gray acted last night and finally realized why the man kept muttering and whispering 'I'm sorry'.
"Why?"
He really did left, Lucy finally picks up the pieces. She's stunned when she recalled at the memories when Gray kept saying some ridiculous situations, like what if he didn't do court her, or what if he died, what of she didn't choose him, and etc. She realized that every time he said it to her, every gaze, every word, and every touch were all filled with guilt.
She couldn't breathe, she didn't know what to do. She just stared at the note and recalled what the doctor said to her. Moreover, she didn't notice that Erza, Happy and Natsu arrived in all smiles and just saw her in a emotional wreck.
"Lucy, what happened?" Erza asks her while embracing her dear friend, that's like a sister to her. She's worried why Lucy is crying, there are times she saw her cry in devastation but this one... She felt like it's like the time she cried when Jellal and her knew that they couldn't be together despite them being so in love with each other.
Erza wanted to know why Lucy is crying like she's so heartbroken.
Natsu saw the note and he's furious. He wanted to kill the guy, but seeing Lucy so helpless for the first time in his life, he choose to stand beside her, his hand on top of her head petting it gently.
Erza noticed it as well and immediately understood the situation. Happy flew and took the note from Lucy's hand.
She whispered, tears still flow from her eyes. Their eyes widens in disbelief, when they heard her whisper.
"I'm pregnant." She repeated what she said.
Her celestial spirits were just there, silent and watching as they saw her cry. They all knew this ia the couples fate and they would never let anyone even Lucy herself knows about this fact.)
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나 홀로 밤을 지새우죠 수백 번 지워내죠
Na hollo bameul jisaeujyo subaek beon jiwonaejyo
Alone in the night, I erase my thoughts a hundred times
돌아보지 말고 떠나가라
Doraboji malgo tteonagara
Don't look back and leave
또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
Tto nareul chatji malgo saragara
Don't find me again and just live on
너를 사랑했기에 후회 없기에
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoe eopgie
Because I have no regrets from loving you
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(It was the time when Juvia accepted the fact that Gray wouldn't love her as much as Lucy.
She knew it from the start yet she still push herself to him. They dated but she noticed that it all feel so hollow. It felt that the man he love is just confused, which she knew when they first had their date. She felt sick at his touch and the sweet words he had said.
It felt like Gray isnt talking to her at all, but to someone she thinks she knows who.
That day, she saw how his eyes stared at Natsu and Lucy.
That look.
She knew, and she gave up, because in the first place Gray was subconsciously dating Lucy, not her.
Seasons passed by and they watch them, the trio.
It was scary to see it all happening before their eyes. However Gray left, Natsu change, and Lucy was pregnant...
Things happened and Juvia didn't know what if something didn't happened. Like what if Gray didn't left, what if she pushed herself and convinced Gray to marry her... Maybe things will be different.
Juvia walks to the park and saw two familiar old men bantering and somehow destroying the new establishment.
She smiles at the scene and somehow wish that Lucy can see how the two rekindle their friendship.)
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좋았던 기억만 가져가라
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
so only take the good memories
그럭저럭 참아 볼만 해
Geureokjeoreok chama bolman hae
I can bear it in some way
그럭저럭 견뎌 낼만 해
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeo naelman hae
I can stand it in some way
넌 그럴수록 행복해야 돼
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeya dwae
You should be happy if you are like this
하루하루 무뎌져 가네
Haruharu mudyeojyeo ga eh eh eh eh
Day by day it fades away
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"You do have your father's eyes." She said with a sincere smile.
A dry laugh was heard in the four corners of the room.
His mother looks so fragile, as she stared outside the window of their guild.
Its the first snow of winter, he saw how his mother smiled at him.
"Did you know that it was the first snow of this season when I first met your father, and I was a child back then.
"I know, it's the 'nth time I heard that story."
"Ah... I guess old age is getting through me." His mother laugh but then it was cut off when she coughed.
"Fuyu, It was love at first sight when I saw him." He heard her laugh again
"Mother, please stop..."
"Ah before I forgot, I wrote my last novel. Please give this to your father, Gray will be back. I know it's foolish of me to wait for him but I know he will be back, I am not a martyr, I don't hate him, I'm just disappointed with his decisions and I didn't and will not regret meeting him, choosing him." His mother smiled at him.
"Still he left us."
"He has his own reasons, I think I knew one of the reasons why when you arrived in my life. I wouldn't say what it is, ask him why he did it. However please dont fill your heart with hatred, I think I'm one of the reasons why he left with a heavy heart."
"Mother let's stop this, I know.."
"Oh. Fuyu, You are still such a kid, but when you are older, you would understand why it all had to happen."
He stared and was speechless, yes, he is just a teenager and still learning about life, but seeing her mother wait for someone who left them hurts him.
He held the hardbound book in his arms tightly and watch her mother stare outside where the snow slowly cover everything in white.
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길을 걷다 너와 나 우리 마주친다 해도
Gireul geotda neowa na uri majuchinda haedo
Even if we bump into each other
못 본 척 하고서 그대로 가던 길 가줘
Mot bon cheok hagoseo geudaero gadeon gil gajwo
Pretend you didn't see me and keep going
자꾸만 옛 생각이 떠오르면 아마도
Jakkuman yet saenggagi tteooreumyeon amado
If old memories keep on being thought of
나도 몰래 그댈 찾아갈지도 몰라
Nado mollae geudael chajagaljido molla
I might go look for you secretly
넌 늘 그 사람과 행복하게 넌 늘 내가 다른 맘 안 먹게
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(It was the Time when Erza knew their group fell apart.
She was speechless as she tried to comprehend everything that is happening.
One day she took a mission without a second of thought, its been a couple of years since Gray left.
They search for him but Master Makarov told them to stop, for some reasons.
Gray was her friend, her family and him gone in the guild felt like a part of her body is missing.
And she knew that Lucy felt much worst than her, They didn't know if the man is dead or what and it couldn't help to ease their concern.
However Lucy was strong every day but every night she hears her soft cries.
She wonder what if she stop the man from leaving by arriving earlier.
As she was on her way to her mission she saw a man walking alone in the same path. Somehow she felt something familiar at the drunk man, and realized it was Gray.
She immediately cornered the man and interrogate him.
She's furious yet she felt crying at the same time. Seeing Gray look as if he is a drunk beggar, she felt like she failed her friend from keeping his tracks on the right path.
"Why?" She said as she choked out her tears when she punch him in the face, she heard him laugh and cry at the same time, not by her punch nor seeing her but by that one word 'Why?'.
Still the man didn't tell her the Truth and instead told her to please be more aware on what had been happening between him, Lucy, and Natsu.
She was speechless as she trace and connected it all, she watch the man got up on his feet and walked away.
She didn't bother to call him, Erza realize that she is that oblivious.
She now wonder what if she became more aware when Natsu drags Lucy in their life. She stood up from the ground and walks away, taking the last glance of her friend's back, she left.)
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Neon neul geu saramgwa haengbokhage neon neul naega dareun maeum an meokge
Always be happy with him, so I don't think of anything else
넌 늘 작은 미련도 안 남게끔 잘 지내줘 나 보란 듯이
Neon neul jageun miryeondo an namgekkeum jal jinaejwo na boran deusi
You have to get along so there is not even a small regret in me
넌 늘 저 하늘같이 하얗게 뜬 구름과도 같이 새파랗게
Neon neul jeo haneulgachi hayahke tteun gureumgwado gachi saeparahke
Like the white sky and like the blue clouds
넌 늘 그래 그렇게 웃어줘 아무 일 없듯이
Neon neul geurae geureohke useojwo amu il eopdeusi
Yes, just smile like nothing is wrong
나를 떠나서 맘 편해지길
Nareul tteonaseo mam pyeonhaejigil
Hope your heart is relieved after leaving me
나를 잊고서 살아가줘
nareul itgoseo saragajwo
Just forget me and live on
그 눈물은 다 마를테니 yeah
Geu nunmureun da mareul teni, yeah
Those tears will all dry up, yeah
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On the other side, Lucy smiles as she watch over them.
She never regret anything on her ups and downs.
She never regret rejecting Natsu over and over again. Yes, she is a fool but she isn't that foolish to force herself to Natsu's unrequited feelings towards her.
She felt a tap on her shoulder, she looks behind her and saw her parents, Happy, and some of her friends is calling her name.
She took one last glance before walking away.
"Yes. I'm going home."
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하루하루 지나면
haruharu jinamyeon
As day by day passes
차라리 만나지 않았더라면 덜 아플 텐데
Charari mannaji anhatdeoramyeon deol apeul tende
If we never met each other then it would have hurt less
영원히 함께 하자던 그 약속 이젠
Yeongwonhi hamkke hajadeon geu yaksok ijen
The promise of us staying together
추억에 묻어 두길 바래 baby 널 위해 기도해
Chueoge mudeo dugil barae baby neol wihae gidohae
is now a memory baby, I'll pray for you
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THE END!!!!!!
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the bonus chapter will be an omake... Like an attempt humour.
Thanks for the reads, seriously I wasn't expecting some certain nationalities would be reading this...
Choco forest thanks for the support... .
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