Chapter 8 : Unforgivable

Dark clouds formed above the dim sky, pouring heaving above us. Rose was now living with me in my den and she watched me as I continue my study on medicines. She sat beside me and was still amazed by lots of different kinds of harvested plants on one side of the den ever since she moved in.

'You harvest all of these by yourself?' She asked looking at me with a smile.

'Yep. They're all useful for any illness or injuries.' I replied looking back at her.

'But, is there a cure for my heart?'

She leaned closer to me and rubbed her muzzle against mine and I smiled.

'Well, your cure is right infront of you.'

'Oh, really? I need a confirmation from the .'

'I see. Would this work?'

I kissed her in the lips passionately and she giggled as we broke apart.

'Yeah. Can I receive this anytime, doc?'

'Well, we shouldn't take in too much medicine. But this is a special kind, so of course. Anywhere and anytime.'

'Well, I would like to have it again.'

Our lips began to edge closer and we kissed, but it was interrupted when we heard a howl of pain and sadness from outside the den. We broke apart and looked at each other in a worried expression.

'That sounds like your brother, Rex.' She said.

'Yeah. We better go and check it out.' I replied and we left the den in a hurry.

As we stepped out into the rain, we caught sight of Aren, Alexa and a few alphas heading towards Lex's call and we ran to catch up with them. We ran beside them and met their worried expression.

'The howl came from the feeding grounds.' Aren said.

'What are they doing out there at this time?' Alexa asked.

'I don't know, maybe they're hungry.' I said.

'Well, we better hurry.' Rose said and we speed up to reach him as fast as possible.

When we arrived, our eyes widened at the horror infront of us. Lex with his body covered with slash injuries was crying infront of his mate, Rebecca who was lying on the ground with her belly and legs facing upwards and an open wound on her throat. We stood beside him and lowered our head in sadness.

'What happened?' I asked.

'A wolf… raped her. I couldn't protect her on time, but I managed to cause serious injuries to him before he ran off. We won't be far.' He replied as he sat down and lay his head on her chest.

'Go and hunt that bastard down!' Aren commanded and his alphas nodded and took off.

'I felt completely useless. Why does this have to happen?' He cried and I patted his back gently.

'I'm sorry, brother.' I said and he looked back at me with his watery eyes.

'It's fine. We better prepare for her funeral.'

'Come on. Let's move her body back to th-' Aren's sentence was interrupted when Lex looked at him.

'I'll move her myself.' He said.

'Okay. We'll be in our den if you need us. The funeral will begin later.'

We walked back to our den in silent as this was a very sad moment for my brother. I've never expected this to happen at this time. My mind began to play its guessing game. Could it be Billy or his group members? I told myself to not make any dumb predictions and walk back to the den. When we arrived, Rose and I sat together and she lean her head on my chest with tears rolling down her eyes.

'She was one of my best friend since pups, and we've had such a wonderful time together. I can't believe she's gone.' She said.

'I know, Rose. She's been a good friend to me too.' I said as I pat her back to make her feel better. 'I hope my brother will make it through this.'

She looked at me and kissed me passionately all in a sudden, but I understand that she needs more comfort and so I kissed back. We broke apart and our eyes met.

'Let's rest till the funeral begins.' I said and she nodded sadly.

I curled myself around her and she smiled.

'Thank you for being with me, Rex. I love you.' She said.

'I love you too, Rose.' I replied and we drifted to sleep.

We were awakened by Aren's howl and got up immediately. We yawned and stretched our muscles before our eyes met.

'Come on. The funeral's about to start.' I said and she nodded.

The sky was clear when we exit the den, revealing that it was beginning to set. Our walk was silent; we have nothing to talk about in this sad event, but I'll always be there when she needs me. When we arrived at the funeral, all pack wolves were already present and faced towards Aren, Alexa, Lex and Rebecca's parents who were standing infront of them and Rebecca's body. Her body was wearing a necklace made of flowers, probably made by the omegas as they're the most handy in that and prevents anywolf to see the open wound. Rebecca's parents were crying badly as their daughter suffered a terrible death. We stood beside Aren and he began his speech.

'My friends, we are gathered here today for the burial of Rebecca. I know some, or all of you, knows her and we never expected that this day would come so fast. She was brave warrior, and an excellent student in Alpha school. I'm truly sorry for her, and hope that she has a better life in heaven.'

Rebecca's parents stood forward to give their farewell speech to their daughter.

'She was the best daughter that I've ever had. She had been good, helpful, and listened to us in everything we commanded.' Her father said.

'Why does this happen to my daughter?!' Her mother cried and her mate hugged her.

Rose and I were the next to give our farewells.

'She was my best friend since we were pups, and we spent our childhood together. I can't believe she's gone…' Rose said sadly and I pat her back gently.

'She has been a good friend of mine, and we had a good time together. I never expected this to happen, so are all of us. I sincerely hope that she lives happily in the afterlife.' I said.

Lex stood forward with his injuries covered with herbs to give his farewells.

'She was the best mate that I ever had. We spent every romantic tome together, and I can't believe it ended. Why did this happen? I can't believe I couldn't protect her.'

He began to cry and Alexa placed her paw on his shoulder. He looked at her and forced a smile.

'Thank you.' He said sadly and sat beside her.

'Let us give her a proper burial, and show her our regards as she was a brave alpha warrior like us.' Aren said.

All wolves howled as four alphas gently placed Rebecca's body into a dug hole and began to bury her. Rose leaned her head on my shoulder and I placed my paw on hers, pulling her close as the burial continues. When it ends, all wolves began to return to their den and we gave a last glance at Rebecca's grave before leaving. As we entered our den, Rose sat down with tears still rolling down from her eyes and I sat beside her. Our eyes met and I wiped her tears off with my paw.

'It's okay, Rose. I understand how you're feeling right now, so am I. I'm here for you, don't worry.' I said and she finally smiled.

'Thank you, Rex.' She said and leaned her head on my chest.

Days passed like the wind, and I began to notice the irregular behavior of my brother. Every single time when I saw him, he was watching the female alphas or omegas from afar which made me curious. As I got closer to him when he's stalking, I noticed that his eyes were full of lust and he sticked his tongue out which disgust me, as if he never had a mate or remembered Rebecca. He even did that to Rose when she and I went out to hunt, which made me furious. I still remembered when the next Moonlight Howl came, he was well-dressed and looking for any female wolves to howl with when Rose and I arrived. He noticed our appearance and greeted us.

'Hello bro.' He said and hugged me tightly.

I looked at Rose and we received an awkward look from each other, but made a fake smile when Lex pulled away from me.

'So, another howl with your hot lady here?'

'Yeah. Any luck on finding any girls?' I asked awkwardly as the way that he speaks isn't how it normally was before Rebecca's death.

'Nope, but will find one soon.'

He noticed a female alpha with brown coat and deep blue eyes sat beside a tree and watched as other wolves passes by and we watched as he approach her. After a few minutes of chat, he began to walk with her up to the Howling Rock and signaled a thumbs up at me and I made a fake smile.

'Do you notice anything strange lately, darling?' Rose asked looking at me and our eyes met.

'My brother, Lex?' I asked and she nodded. 'Yeah. He's been behaving unusual ever since Rebecca died. He's so… carefree and more into girls than before.'

'I can't believe he got those perverted eyes on any female wolves, even me.'

That made my heart burn and I stamped my paw on the ground angrily as I looked at Lex walking with his howl mate.

'I won't let his paws touch a single hair of yours.'

I looked back at her and her eyes showed fear.

'I won't let him touch you, Rose. I'll protect you.'

'Thank you, Rex.'

We hugged each other and began to walk towards our usual spot. Our howls echoed beautifully around the area and it lasted for hours, and it was time to return back to our den. I took a last glance at my brother with his howl mate before leaving, wondering why isn't he returning back to his den yet. When we arrived, I curled around Rose again and she smiled.

'Thank you, Rex. Goodnight, my funny omega.' She said as she close her eyes.

'Goodnight, my hot and stunning alpha.' I replied as I close my eyes, and we drifted to sleep.

The next morning, we were awakened by a howl of alert and got up immediately.

'Something's wrong. I better go and check it out.' I said, wiping my eyes and yawned after stretching my muscles.

'I'll follow you.' She said as she stretch her muscle and yawned.

'Okay. Let's go.'

We left the den in a hurry and rushed to where the howl came from. We arrived at the Howling Rock and found lots of wolves present, some looked away in sadness and some puked. As we got closer, the scent of blood hit our nose and we pinched our muzzle as we proceed to move through the crowd, and another horror scene came to view. There lying on the ground was a female brown alpha wolf with her legs and belly facing upwards and an open wound on her throat, same as how Rebecca's body was found. My eyes widened as I immediately recognized who this wolf is; she was the howl mate of Lex last night, and this raised my suspicion meter. Rose noticed my looks and edged her mouth closer to my ear.

'What's wrong?' She whispered.

'This is the howl mate of my brother last night.' I whispered back and her eyes widened.

'Could it be…?'

'Maybe, but let's not jump into conclusions yet.'

Aren and Alexa was present, so I decided to examine the body and tell them about the results.

'She was raped before being killed, judging by these liquid on her… reproductive part, and slashed on the throat, made by claws.'

'How long has she been dead?' Alexa asked.

My eyes widened when I made another examine on the body and looked back at her.

'Last night.'

'This is the second time that has happened, and this brave alpha died the same way as Rebecca.' Aren said.

'Should we keep the alphas on alert?' Alexa asked, looking at her mate.

'We must make sure this won't happen again.' He replied and looked at his alphas. 'Prepare for her funeral. I'll have to visit this lady's parents who left a few minutes ago.'

Unfortunately, this occurred after every Moonlight Howl, and the amount of female wolves in the pack are getting smaller. My fear grows every single time as I examined the bodies that was exactly the same as my brother's howl mates during the Moonlight Howl. I sat in my den, completely clueless on what to do. I can't watch this incident that occurs continuously, but I couldn't tell Aren and his mate that my brother could be a suspect, he's my brother who grew up with me and looked after me. How could I have the heart to do that? I lowered my head and Rose noticed as she's been sitting beside me, staring at me as she knows what I was thinking.

'I understand how you're feeling, Rex.' She said as she placed a paw on my shoulder.

I looked back at her with a worried expression.

'Every time when I examined those bodies, I felt disappointed and my trust on my brother dies slowly. I don't know what to do, Rose.'

'I know, darling. I'll help you in keeping this secret.'

'Thank you, Rose. I'm glad that you're with me.'

We hugged each other and spent our time chatting about something else, erasing everything about the suspicion on my brother. But my trust dies and hatred grew when Rose was shot by the heat-inducing drug. We were on our afternoon hunt for food when two humans appeared out of the bushes. One of them shot her with a dart and she yelped. I noticed and dodged as the other human shot its gun and chased them away. I stopped when they ran further away and ran back to her. She was sitting on the ground when I arrived and I noticed the strange effects on her body.

'What's wrong?' She asked curiously as I kept staring at her.

'Rose. You're in… heat.' I replied and her eyes widened.

'What?! But it's not mating season yet.'

'I know. How are you feeling?'

'Very hot.'

I noticed her body began to sweat more than she did before and used my common sense to deal with his situation until I find a cure.

'Stay under the shade. I'll hunt a few rabbits and we'll head towards the pond immediately.'

'Why?'

'You need to stay cool at all times. Do not do anything. Who knows what this 'thing' that the humans injected into you could do.'

'You mean, you never seen this kind of symptoms before?'

'Yes. Don't worry, I'll do anything to cure you, 'cause you're my mate, Rose.'

I kissed her in the lips and ran off to make a quick hunt. I returned a few minutes later and her eyes widened as it ended faster than before.

'How did you…?'

'I have a good coach.' I said with a smile. 'Now let's go.'

I gripped our meal firmly in my mouth and we began to walk towards the pond. As we pass through the den ground, every wolf stared at her and she began to feel nervous. I noticed and covered her 'part' with my tail and he venture on without looking back. I just hope that my brother didn't see her in this condition…

When we arrived, I dropped our meal infront of the pond and turned towards her.

'Now just sit in the water with your whole body submerged, except your head.' I said and she followed.

She sat down comfortably and smiled at me.

'I'll stay with you just incase any wolf comes for what your conditions is right now.'

'Thank you, Rex.'

I sat down and we ate our meal, enjoying our conversation at the same time. The sun began to set and the moon rises to take its place. I got up after having our dinner on a few fresh rabbits and I accompanied her back to the den. When we arrived, she sat down and I began to search for a cure, browsing through every plant that I kept.

'What are you doing?' She asked curiously.

'Finding a cure for you, darling.' I replied, my eyes still focusing on every plant that I examined.

'I don't think you should do this this late.'

'I must, darling. I'll go to sleep after a few minutes. Don't worry about me.'

I gave her a kiss and she smiled.

'Goodnight, Rose.'

'Goodnight, Rex.'

I watched as she close her beautiful eyes and drift to sleep, and continue to browse through my stored pants silently. I did what I told her, but I couldn't sleep well as a feeling told me that something bad is going to happen. I repeated this for days; taking her to the pond, hunting for her, and tried to create a cure. Her parents relieved her from duty till I found a cure and I'm surprised that the death of female wolves began to decrease. I wondered what my brother was doing, I haven't seen him since Rose was shot by this unknown substance. But that didn't bother me as Rose was more important to me than him. Unfortunately, no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't find it, and my head began to bury with stress, but I didn't show my painful expressions to her. One morning, I decided to let her sleep in the den for a while before taking her to the pond while I head towards her parents den to report about my disappointing efforts. When I was halfway to the leaders den, my instincts told me that something's happening in my den, and needs me to return immediately. At first, I didn't listen, but in the end, I followed and ran back to my den as my fear of Rose in danger grip hold of me, and I'm glad that I did. As I stood outside the den, I heard struggles from the inside and I ran in, and grew furious as I found out that my brother was trying to rape my mate. I kicked him away with my muscular hind legs and send him knocking against the wall. I looked at Rose who was terrified and examined her.

'Are you okay? Did he…?' I asked in a worried tone.

'No, I'm fine. I can't believe I'm strong enough to hold him for so long till you return.' She replied and we both look at Lex as he got up slowly.

'You're beautiful, Rose. I can't believe you're married to a weak omega like him.'

My heart burned and I punched him in the face and blood flew out of his mouth. Rose howled and Lex noticed and looked back at us as he stood at the entrance of the den.

'You'll be seeing me as Lust from now on.' He said and ran out.

I panted heavily as I couldn't believe what he tried to do to my mate. My trust died and anger took over, and I felt like ripping him into pieces if I ever meet him again. I turned back to Rose who was lying on the ground terrified and I hugged her tightly.

'I'm sorry, Rose. I won't leave you alone again.' I said.

'Thank god that you're back, Rex.' She cried and I pat her back gently.

A few minutes later, her parents and mine and a few alphas entered our den with a worried expression.

'What happened? We heard the call for help.' Aren said.

'Yeah. What's wrong?' My father asked.

At that moment, I didn't care if he's my brother or not anymore. Anyone who tries to harm my mate will suffer. Everything pieces up to me at that point, and I know the reason for the decrease in the female wolves's death. I turned towards my father with my eyes full of hatred and he was surprised as he never seen it in his entire life.

'It's Lex, dad. He's been raping and murdering those innocent female wolves. He even tried to rape Rose, but I came back on time to stop him. The death of female wolves has been reducing lately 'cause he's been stalking on Rose and me, and he saws an opportunity when I left the den.' I said and their eyes widened.

'I can't believe the rapist's him, all this time.' My father said as he looked at his mate.

'I do notice that he's been acting strangely since Rebecca's death, looking at girls from afar all the time. Don't worry, we'll make sure that he's not in our pack borders.' Aren stated angrily.

'Anyone who tries to rape my daughter will be killed.' Alexa growled.

Fortunately, Lex wasn't in the pack's territory anymore; he must've left as he was already a wanted wolf with a bounty on his head. One month passed, and I still haven't find a cure, but I didn't gave up and continued on the everyday work of taking Rose to the pond. Any patients will head towards my parents den as they understood what I'm dealing with right now. I gave her a kiss before entering the forest to hunt for a few rabbits while maintaining a clear view of her from afar. I've already caught four and needs one more. I scanned the area and caught sight of one and began to crawl slowly towards it. Unfortunately, this rabbit was smarter than the others that I've killed and it ran immediately. Due to the arrogance in my head, I chased after it and my distance from Rose increased. After a few minutes of endless running, I finally managed to catch it and to my surprise, I caught sight of the two humans who tried to shoot us and I hid in a bush, listening to their conversation as they walked closer.

'You better make sure that your dart isn't filled with heat-inducing drug, Bart.' The first human said as he looked at his friend's gun.

'Yeah, yeah. That was an accident.' Bart replied.

'Well, let's hope that that wolf that you shot won't get a mental disorder.'

My eyes widened and my heart stopped when the word 'mental disorder' came out of that human's mouth. I couldn't believe my ears. So I've been dealing with such a dangerous drug? I can't let her know about this, fearing that she will freak out and will be crying for the whole day, and so I kept it to myself, but it was a heavy burden to carry. I immediately dashed out as I realized that I was far from my mate and ran back with the rabbit in my mouth. I stopped by the four rabbits where I left them and picked them up too and ran to my mate. I felt relieved when she was still sitting in the pond and she made a worried expression when I returned.

'Well, that was awfully long.' She said.

'Sorry, nature calls.' I lied with a fake smile. 'Did any wolf come?'

'Nope.'

'Sorry to keep you waiting.' I said as I dropped our meal infront of her.

'It's fine. Let's eat.'

I sat down and ate our meal and had a wonderful time together. When night falls, we returned back to our den and she lied on the ground while I continued to mix more plants for an antidote to this 'heat-inducing drug'. She can read my face and knows that something was bothering me and she sat beside me.

'What's wrong, darling?' She asked, looking at me with a worried expression.

'Nothing.' I said, concentrating on what I was doing.

'I know you're hiding something from me, Rex.'

I looked back at her and faked a laugh, but I know it couldn't fool her.

'No I'm not.'

'Yes you are.'

'No I'm n-'

She pulled my face towards hers and our eyes met.

'Just tell me, Rex.' She said in a gentle tone.

I tried to keep my cool, but my eyes betrayed me as tears dripped down and my whole lie is uncovered. I had no choice, but to let her know the burden in my heart.

'I found out… what's the drug inside you…' I said sadly.

'How did you know?' She asked curiously.

'This afternoon, I met those two humans who tried to shoot us, and they revealed about this drug inside you named 'heat-inducing drug'.'

'Well, that explains me going in-heat.'

'But… there's a chance for you to get a…'

'A what?'

It was hard, but I finally managed to spit it out.

'Mental disorder.'

Her eyes widened and she backed away. I understand how she was feeling and I hugged her tightly.

'I won't let that happen, Rose.'

'Rex.' She said, pulling away from me.

'Yes?' I asked.

'If that happens… I want you to… kill me.'

My heart broke when those words came out of her mouth. I couldn't do it and I lowered my head.

'I can't!' I cried.

She was crying too and she raised my head back up with her paws and our eyes met.

'I don't want you or my parents to see me running around crazily or being silent for my whole life, Rex. Please understand this, and stay alive. You'll be doing a huge favour for me, and you know what to do when it happens.' She sobbed.

It was a really hard decision for me to make, but I loved her, so if that is her wish, I will fulfill it.

'Okay.'

We had a long passionate kiss and decided to sit outside the den to admire the beauty of the silver moon and we sang our favourite song together before going to sleep. Little did I know that those were our last romantic time together.

Morning came, and I woke up as the sunlight hits my face and surprised that it was still early. But I decided to cheer Rose up due to last night by making a quick morning hunt on Caribous 'cause she haven't eaten one for a really long time; she's been eating rabbits for the whole month. And plus, it's her favourite. I sneaked out of the den and ran towards the feeding ground, keeping myself as silent as possible. The hunt was quick, and I dragged it at top speed back to my den, hoping that she won't wake up till the surprise is all set. I dropped it infront of the den and I tip-toed into the den. Unfortunately, she was already awake and sitting upright facing towards the entrance. I was surprised and smiled as the surprise was on time.

'Oh, morning Rose. Just went out to grab a drink.' I said and received no reply from her.

'Would you like to check outside, darling? I got a surprise for you.'

She was still silent and I felt curious, but a thought appeared in my head and my eyes widened, fearing that it happened right now.

'This is not funny, darling.'

She was still silent and emotionless. I began to find a way to check if she's normal, and found the only way which is by singing our favourite song; everytime when I sang the beginning, she always follows. I sat infront of her and began to sing, with my eyes staring at her lips, hoping that they will move.

''Say something, I'm giving up on you

I'll be the one, if you want me to

Anywhere I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you''

Her lips wasn't moving, but I continued to sing 'cause I loved her, and I refuse to give up.

''And I am feeling so small

It was over my head

I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall

I'm still learning to love

Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

Anywhere I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you''

At that point, I began to cry on every word that I sang as her lips wasn't even moving, and my fear began to grow bigger. But I never stopped.

''And I will swallow my pride

You're the one that I love

And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

And anywhere I would've followed you oh-oh-oh-oh

Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something...''

I dropped my head and cried really hard as the song was over and proved that she got mental disorder. It was painful for me to see this, looking at your mate who was fine yesterday and turned mental on the next day. I cried for around half a minute, and I looked back at her. Our eyes met and I noticed that her eyes was telling me something, as if her eyes were still fine. It reminded me of what her wish was and I began to raise my trembling paw towards her chest. I extended my claw slowly and aimed it at her chest. I gave her a long passionate kiss and edged my mouth close to her ear.

'Don't worry, Rose. This will be painless and quick. I love you…' I whispered and stabbed my claws into her chest.

She yelped softly and my heart broke into pieces as I laid her down on the ground gently.

'I'll be with you soon, darling.'

I licked her cheek and closed her eyes with my paw before leaving the den and let out a howl for help. I don't want her body to rot before they even found her, and I ran away towards the packs territory border, avoiding every line of sight. I will fulfill her wish of me staying alive, and I understand that she wanted me to move on my life, but I couldn't. Dark clouds formed above me, concealing the bright sun and pour heavy rain. I slashed my claw at every tree that I passes by, exerting every rage and pain at them. I stopped by under a tree and looked back at the packs territory which was a few kilometres away now. I looked at my paws which was covered with her blood and I cried for a really long time. The next few days was the continuous journey of me venturing other places and training my skills, remembering everything that she taught me and every tear means every pain. I tried to sleep during the night, but I couldn't as nightmares of me murdering her haunts me, and so I stayed awake every night, and howled out pains and sadness to pass the time. I looked at the moon and swore to Rose who was in heaven that I'll be a lone alpha wolf from now on and never the funny omega wolf and I'll train hard to protect any female wolves who is in danger, especially those who has the same symptoms as hers…

Finally,it's done. I actually almost cried at some parts, well, maybe you won't but yeah. This is really, really filled up and I hope you guys like it. By the way, I've bought A&O 3 and although the graphics is the same as the second one, but I still enjoy it. Thank you for the supports so far and as usual, leave a review/follow/favourite. It means a lot to me and have a good day. Peace out. -LoverWolfs1121