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Chapter 9: Waiting for the Rain to fall

Three days after her rebirth, she was becoming frustrated that her first few escape attempts had been thwarted by the members of her new family; they had the uncanny ability to show up unexpectedly as she was trying to leave. Standing at the back door Lexie was contemplating another attempt, when Carlisle pulled her into his office. Sitting down next to her, he had pulled out several files from his brief case and handed them to her for review.

"What's this?" she asked while opening the file. "Oh." Lexie whispered, realizing she was looking at a detailed medical history from Boise Memorial Hospital for Meredith Grey.

"I'm sorry, it took longer than expected to get copies." he said, then got up and went to the door to leave. "You should know that they've all been transferred back to Seattle Grace Mercy West. There is nothing you can do for them anymore and I hope this information will help you to accept your new life."

She nodded and watched him leave, and then began reading through the files one by one, until they were burned into her memory. She was relieved to see that both Meredith and Christina had walked away with only minor injuries and although Derek's hand had been severely damaged, he was expected to recover. Arizona and Mark's injuries were a shock. She vaguely remembered Christina saying that Arizona's leg had been broken, but read that it had been a compound fracture that had torn through her leg muscles and caused an infection so bad that it might need to be amputated. As for Mark, her last memory was of him holding her hand until she passed out; she thought he had been okay. But according to the files, he had almost died from a Cardiac Tamponade at the crash site and had only been saved by Meredith doing a primitive Pericardiocentesiswith a tube from a spray bottle; his prognosis was unknown until he woke up.

Leaving the files on the chair, she numbly ignored the concern looks from Bella, Jasper and Carlisle to make her way outside and turned her face up to the falling rain. For so long she had tried to fight her feelings for Mark, but she knew now that he was her soul mate and the love of her life. She should be by his side and hated this feeling of helplessness! Without thinking she began to blindly punch at a nearby boulder, causing chunks of stone to fly around until there was nothing left but rubble at her feet. Jasper sensing Lexie's pain came up from behind to wrap his arms around her small frame in a tight hug until her body relaxed enough so that he was able to gently pick her up and carry her to the bedroom. Once there, Bella helped her into dry clothes, and then sat on the bed in silence to towel dry her hair. Moments later, Lexie began to talk about her human life as a Doctor; family; friends; and lastly, the love of her life, Mark Sloan.

"It's funny in a way, how things have worked out for us. It's been three years since we broke up and I still couldn't get over him, even though I tried by jumping into other relationships. He was the glue that kept me together and without him, I felt broken." She chuckles sadly. "A few days before we got on that plane; I couldn't hold it in anymore and blind-sided him with my declarations of love. He was so shocked that he just stood there with his mouth hanging open until his girlfriend showed up and I ran back to my car." Turning around to face Bella, she continued.

"Then the crash happened and while I was lying trapped under that plane, he was like a madman. Trying to lift the wreckage off me; trying to save me, until he finally realized I was going to die. So he lay down next to me to hold my hand and began to beg me to live for our future…. Because he loved me and we were meant to be." Lexie stopped and closed her eyes as the pain washed over her.

"We were stupid… all that time wasted… and now he's lying in that hospital and I can't be there for him! I can't tell him that I'm okay and that I know he loves me too."

Bella took Lexie's hands in hers. "I wish I could tell you to screw the rules and follow your heart, but I can't. You're not strong enough to be around humans and if something were to happen, even if it was an accident, it would haunt you."

She smiled sadly at Bella. "Wow, are you like 50 years old or something, because you sounded way to mature to be a teenager?"

"No, I'm actually only 20 years old," she giggled, "I was just turned a year ago after nearly dying giving birth to my daughter. Carlisle is always teasing me about having an old soul."

"Okay, well it's nice to know I'm actually older than one person in this family. It's still freaking me out that most of the "kids" are actually old enough to be my great grandparents." She joked affectionately with her new little sister, until thoughts of Mark once again came forward.

"Hey, here's a thought," Bella said, interrupting Lexie's depressing musings. "I'll have someone keep an eye on Doctor Sloan's condition, while you try to get control of the blood lust thing. So if something comes up and we need to sneak out of here for a quick visit to Seattle, we won't need to worry about you ripping someone's throat out."

"Really, you would do that for me?" She asked in surprise.

"Lexie, you're not a prisoner you know. We just don't want you to do something that you'll regret. So become comfortable with who and what you are, and then later you can go check on your family. Oh and just to clarify that does not mean you can physically knock on the door and say…. "I'm back!"

"No, I knew that. It's just everyone made it seem like it would take me forever to get control over wanting human blood." Lexie answered becoming excited at the thought.

"Well, I believe that if you want something bad enough, it will help you get over the obstacles faster. Take me for example, I knew before I was turned that the lust of human blood would be overwhelming and in newborns, it's expected, but I was determined not to let it control me and I blocked it." Rising from the bed, Bella made her way toward the door, but stopped and looked back at Lexie.

"You know, I don't think you're going have any problems with the human thing. After all, you're a surgeon; being around their blood is second nature to you." With that said Bella walked out and closed the door behind her.

'Bella's right.' She thought, sitting up straighter with strength of purpose. 'I've had arteries blow until my clothes are soaked red and patients vomit blood on my shoes, it never once stopped me from doing my job to save lives. I can beat this!'

For the first time since waking up as an Immortal, Doctor Lexie Grey had hope and she finally smiled.