A/N: Hey guys! Sorry for the long wait. I meant to get this out way sooner but have been caught up with school, work and my YouTube channel. Anyways, hope you enjoy this next chapter and please review! I would love to hear what you think. Happy reading!
After about an hour of Rachel sobbing into Will's chest, they both headed off to her bedroom to try and take a nap. They were both exhausted with the day's events even if it was only midafternoon. Rachel headed to her room and insisted that Will sleep on her bed with her instead of the couch. Will had second thoughts though. He didn't know where they stood with each other anymore and he didn't want to make it worse by it being awkward. After staring at the comfy pillows and blankets for a couple of minutes though, he decided it wouldn't hurt to take a nap and climbed in next to her.
Will had surprisingly found himself drifting off to sleep much faster than Rachel. In a matter of minutes, he was asleep but Rachel tossed and turned, trying to find a comfortable position. She was tired but her body wasn't letting her fall asleep. Her brain had too much swirling around in it and she just couldn't shut it off.
About half an hour later with no success, she climbed out of bed and headed into the kitchen. She started making some tea, something she did when she couldn't sleep. As the water was starting to boil, Kurt walked in the front door, back from wherever he had taken off to. He looked at her with a blank expression while he took his jacket off and put it on the rack.
"Hi," Rachel said quietly to break the ice.
"Hi," he said with a sigh. He walked towards her and sat down at the barstool.
"Is he still here?" Kurt asked as he folded his hands together.
"He's sleeping in my bed," Rachel said. Kurt widened his eyes at her which made her realize how bad that had sounded so she started to explain more clearly. "I mean, we were tired and tried to take a nap. I obviously couldn't fall asleep," she explained hoping that made things clearer. Kurt let out a sigh of relief, although he didn't know why he was so nervous. She was already pregnant so it didn't make sense for him to be concerned.
"Rachel, I just don't get it. I guess I'm over the shock of it all but I still don't get how you could let this happen," Kurt said as he watched her make her tea. She reached up in the cupboard and pulled out the sugar and proceeded to measure the exact amount out.
"I don't know, Kurt. It's not like I planned it. It just happened. It obviously shouldn't have, but it did," Rachel explained as best she could. She couldn't explain what was going on between her and Will any more than he could. He seemed satisfied with her answer but continued to ask another. This one was much more unexpected and surprising.
"Well, do you love him?" he asked. Rachel widened her eyes at his question and almost knocked her tea over.
"He's engaged," she replied while cleaning up the splash of tea that had spilled out.
"That wasn't the question, Rachel," Kurt replied back. If he was going to be supportive about this whole deal, he needed to know the truth on how deep her feelings for him truly were.
"I don't know, okay? Everything is happening so fast and when we were together it was just meant to be a onetime thing," Rachel said as she started to stir her tea again. "It was supposed to be a goodbye," she explained but that didn't sound any better.
"Well that onetime goodbye just turned into a lifetime hello," Kurt replied back as he raised an eyebrow at her. Rachel furrowed her brows back at him, knowing he was right. Their one stupid mistake led to them being tied to each other for the rest of their lives and that thought alone overwhelmed her to no end.
"What am I going to do, Kurt? He's getting married in a couple of weeks," Rachel said with a panic. She could feel herself getting worked up about this but couldn't control it. He had been planning to marry Ms. Pillsbury for the past year. She knew how much this meant to him and how devastating it is going to be for him to take it all away.
"You have to talk to him about that, not me, but do you really think he is going to still marry Ms. Pillsbury?" he asked. "I know he can be a bit of a man whore but, really, Rachel, this is Mr. Schue we are talking about," Kurt explained. "The guy that always does the right thing," he added.
"Well maybe not this time," Rachel replied. "He loves her, Kurt. I can't ask him to give her up for me," she explained.
"Whether he loves her or not, Rachel, you are carrying his baby," Kurt pointed out. It didn't matter if Ms. Pillsbury was in love with him. He just wanted someone that would be able to take care of Rachel.
Rachel stared into the dark liquid that was her tea. She suddenly had no desire to drink it but continued to stir the spoon for her own comfort. She knew Kurt was right but she wasn't so sure about Will. Will had been in love with Emma for three years and she was supposed to believe that he would give it all up to take care of her and their unborn child?
"You need to talk to him about the options you guys have, that's all I'm saying," Kurt added as he began to stand up. Rachel nodded at him and began to leave the kitchen herself.
"Thanks, Kurt," Rachel said.
"For what?" he asked confused.
"For being my friend because I really need you right now," Rachel said as she pulled him into a hug. He wrapped his arms tightly around her to show his support.
"Well I'm definitely not keen to the idea, but that doesn't matter. I'm here for you, Rachel," Kurt said as he hugged her back. "Now go and talk to him," he said as he let her go.
"I will. I'm going to go see if he is still sleeping," Rachel said as she pulled away. Kurt nodded at her and finally headed off into his own bedroom.
Rachel walked into her room and noticed that he was still asleep. She wondered if she should wake him to talk or if she should try to sleep herself. She yawned unintentionally and decided that a quick nap wouldn't hurt.
She climbed into her side of the bed and slid the covers over her. She glanced over at Will for a brief second as she adjusted her position. His back was turned to her so she couldn't see his face but she sighed to herself. How could she have let things get so out of hand with him? He had only just been her teacher six months ago and now she was carrying his child. They were in for a long ride and she hoped they would be able to make it work between them.
She turned back to her opposite side and closed her eyes. Her eye lids felt heavy and in a couple of minutes she was in a deep sleep.
After about two hours of napping, Rachel began to wake up again. The ringing of her cell phone going off next to her made her stir awake as well as Will.
She lazily began to open her eyes as she felt Will shift next to her. She reached out on the nightstand to see who was calling her. Her face fell when it was Brody. Will, who was now awake, rolled to his side to see what was going on.
"Who's calling?" he asked sleepily as he ran a hand over his face.
"Brody," Rachel replied as she stared at her phone, deciding whether or not to pick it up.
"Oh," was all Will could say. From what Rachel had told him back in Lima about this Brody, it seemed like they were more than just friends. It didn't necessarily bother him that Rachel was interested in someone but it only made things more complicated between them.
"Aren't you going to answer?" Will asked, tired of hearing the ring tone of Defying Gravity blaring.
"No," Rachel said as she put her phone back in the drawer. Will watched her in confusion as she got up out of the bed. He glanced at her clock for a brief moment and noticed it was four o'clock in the afternoon.
"We slept all afternoon?" he asked, surprised.
"Well you did. I only got about an hour," Rachel said as she began to pull a sweatshirt on. The room seemed chilly to her since New York was beginning its winter season.
"Kurt's back," she added as she adjusted the sleeves.
"How is he?" Will asked, hoping that the shock had worn off on him.
"Fine, I think the shock finally wore off. He's still of course confused about everything, but I think he's going to be supportive," Rachel said with a smile.
"That's good," Will said with a sigh of relief.
"He brought up an interesting point while I was talking with him," Rachel started to say as Will just watched her pace back and forth.
"Yeah? What was that?" Will asked confused to where this was going.
"It was about our options," Rachel said. Will felt his face fall. He knew this was coming, them deciding what to do about the baby. It was a tough decision and he hadn't exactly made up his mind about what he wanted to do. Of course he wouldn't want to abandon Rachel and the baby but what about Emma? The woman he had been in love with for the past three years and was going to marry in a matter of a couple of weeks?
"We have to start thinking of want we want to do, Will," Rachel said as she finally sat down on the bed crisscross styled.
"I know, it's just happening so fast," Will said as he moved himself up so his back could be resting against the headboard.
"It is, but you are going to be back in Washington in one day. We need to make all the decisions we can together," Rachel said. Will nodded at her knowing she was right. He was only here for a short time and next weekend he was more than likely going to be at home.
"Well, what do you want to do, Rachel?" Will asked as he focused on her. She brushed her hair out of her face and began to pull it up in a ponytail while she thought about her options. Three choices stood out in her mind, abortion, adoption or keep it. She definitely wasn't doing the first one and at all possible she wanted to avoid the second one because of what she had to go through with Shelby. The last choice was to keep the baby and raise it themselves which to her, made her the happiest.
"I think I want to keep it, Will. This baby didn't do anything wrong so why should it suffer?" Rachel questioned as she placed a hand on her stomach. Will followed her hand as it found its resting place peacefully on her stomach. Again he scolded himself for being so stupid about how he was feeling towards this whole situation. He just couldn't wrap his mind around the fact that there was a baby growing inside of her. In nine months they would have a son or daughter together to love and to raise. It just seemed so surreal.
"You're not saying anything. You don't want to keep it, do you?" Rachel accused him, suddenly starting to hyperventilate again. She couldn't do this without him and the thought of him not helping her, panicked her. She began to feel her heart quicken and her hands tremble.
Will averted his gaze from her stomach to her chocolate brown eyes. He could see the panic was starting up again and decided he needed to say something, anything that would get her to calm down.
"Rachel, you know that's not true. I would do anything for you and the baby, it's just," Will said with a pause.
"Emma?" Rachel finished for him as he silently nodded. He felt ashamed for feeling the way that he did. It didn't seem fair or right to care deeply for someone for the past three years but end up having to take care of someone else for the rest of his life. It wasn't fair to neither Rachel nor Emma but he didn't know what to do.
"Do you know how much she is going to hate me for this?" Will stated rather than asking a question. "She would never forgive me if I told her what I had done with you," he added.
"Well I'm sure Brody, and not to mention Finn, aren't going to take the news lightly either," Rachel replied, trying to make him see that this was affecting her relationships as well.
"We are going to face people who are not going to be happy with what we have done, Will. That's just how it's going to be and we are going to have to deal with that," Rachel explained. Will looked at her, knowing she was right. Everything she had said tonight was right but he just couldn't lead himself to believe it.
"I really need you to with me during this pregnancy and for the rest of our child's life because I don't know if I can do this without you," Rachel said as she grabbed his hand and gently squeezed it.
Will looked down at the intertwined hands and thought to himself about what kind of future he wanted. The way he saw it, he had two options. Option one was to marry Emma and continue on as if nothing happened and option two was to leave Emma and stay and take care of Rachel and their unborn child. Either way, it was not an easy choice to make but he finally made a decision.
"I'll tell her when I go home next weekend for Thanksgiving," Will said with a sigh. He came to the conclusion that if he ever wanted to see his baby in the future and be a part of their life, he had to be there for them now. He couldn't back out on something he helped create. It just didn't seem fair or responsible.
"Thank you, Will," Rachel said with tears of happiness as she flung her arms around his neck. He gave her the best smile he could manage and held on tightly to her.
"So when do we tell your dad's?" Will asked as she broke away.
"I'm not sure. I guess I could come home next weekend for Thanksgiving too?" Rachel questioned. She had two days off of school because of the holiday so she had the opportunity to travel.
"That's probably the best choice since you will have a couple of days off," Will replied back being reminded that he also had two days off of the panel.
"So it's a plan," Rachel said as she folded her hands together. "We tell everyone next week," she said while Will gave her a small smile.
"Now that we got that covered, we need to start thinking about doctors' appointments and pregnancy classes, as well as thinking about where to put a nursery and what to buy for the baby," Rachel said as she rambled on and on about what needed to be done in the next nine months. So many things to do in such little time and it was all so overwhelming to Will.
He just sat there and stared at her with his heart ripping in two. All he could think about was Emma and what he was going to tell her. His mind also couldn't help but think about what she was doing in this very moment. She was probably preparing for the wedding which made Will even sicker to his stomach.
He had left all of the wedding preparation to her and he had hardly done anything to help her. Now he was supposed to come home and tell her that he got his ex-student pregnant?
"So, I'll call the doctor's right now to schedule an appointment. How does that sound?" Rachel asked as she looked over to him. She noticed that he was in a daze and wasn't listening to her.
"Will, did you hear me?" she asked again.
"Oh, yeah, sorry. I guess I was just zoning out for a minute. So doctor's appointment, when is it?" he asked. She frowned at him.
"I haven't made it yet," she replied as she took her phone out of the drawer and began searching for her local doctor. Although she had only lived in New York for a short time, she had already found a doctor's office that she liked enough to use it frequently if she had to.
In about as quick as ten minutes, Rachel had called the office and was on the line with a receptionist.
"Okay, thank you," Rachel said as she hung up the phone another fifteen minutes later.
"When is your appointment?" Will asked.
"They are booked for the next two weeks so not till after Thanksgiving," Rachel said with a frown. She was really hoping to get in sooner but with the thousands of people living in New York, she was lucky to get an appointment in two weeks.
"The receptionist said they would call though if an earlier time opened up," Rachel explained.
"Great," Will responded with the best smile he could. "Is there anything else we should discuss?" he asked. Rachel noticed how hard a time he was having with this and although there were still many things that needed to be discussed, she decided to let them slide so he could have a break.
"No, I think that is all right now," she said with a smile. "Listen, Will, why don't you go out? Walk around the town for a while," Rachel suggested.
"I'm okay, really," Will said but was touched at her gesture. She knew he was having a difficult time with this and still wanted to help him.
"A nice walk or run might do you good," she added, hoping to get him to think things through in his head. The mention of a run suddenly sounded good to him. It was something he did to relieve stress when he was feeling overwhelmed.
"You know, that sounds like a great idea," Will said as he got up from the bed. It was four o'clock in the afternoon but there was just enough light left in the day to take a quick jog around the block.
"I'll leave you to get changed," Rachel said as she left the room and headed to the kitchen.
Will walked out in five minutes dressed in his running gear and iPod in hand. He began to stretch as well as put on his shoes.
"I won't be gone long," Will said as he finished his shoes.
"Take all the time you need," Rachel said as she got up from her seat. As soon as Will left she knew Kurt would be out to talk about what they had discussed.
"Okay. Is there anything you need at the market or anything?" Will asked, seeing as he was going out anyways.
"I think we are fine, unless you want to bring something home for dinner," Rachel said as she remembered the cupboards were almost empty. She hadn't found the time to go shopping recently and they were low on pretty much everything.
"Okay," Will said as he arrived at the door. "Be back soon," he said as he began to slide it open. Her door was a lot harder than he thought but when he finally opened it, he was more than a little surprised to see someone on the other side.