Disclaimer: I don't anything from Vampire Academy, just the characters I have created and the plot.

Ah! The life. The ski lodge trip was the best thing ever. Nothing could ruin it…nothing could distract me—

Wait, is that Dimitri?

Sexy…the word formed in my mind as soon as I saw my sexy Russian mentor, Dimitri, passed by. All I wanted was to rush to his side and just start kissing him and doing him…Rose! Stay on task!

He smiled as we walked by and my heart stop beating for a second. I almost ran into the wall.

Get it together Rose Hathaway! He is like fifty years older than you are! He would never want to date a kid like you! Shut up, mind! God, I was going crazy. The voices in the head…the weird thoughts…the sings were all there. People just needed to put me in a box.

"Rose!" Mason called out while I walked to my room, interrupting my mental babble.

I unlocked my door and to my room. I ushered him inside. He looked around to see if any guardians were around. Everyone knew the rules: A female student and a male student should never be caught together or else big time shit for you.

I stretched out on the comfortable sofa. He sat down next to me and put my feet in his lap. Since Lissa and I were mad, I was forced to share a room with Mia, who was a year younger than me. "What's up, Mase? Can I help you with something?" I said, thinking about Dimitri's gorgeous smile. God that man really made me act un-normal.

Mason gave me a mischievous smile. He ran a hand down my leg. His actions didn't surprise me; Mason had been crazy about ever since he learned how to say my name.

"Nothing's up. Can't I just spend time with my favorite girl?"

I looked at my nails that were painted blood red. "Uh, no. Not when she is busy and at the moment she is."

God, he really was starting to annoy me. He let both his hands rummage both of my legs. He started to lean towards me. He reminded me of a carrot sometimes. Well, not him, but his hair did.

Just as he was about to kiss me, I put a hand in between him and me. "Look, Mason. I don't know how else to tell you, but I don't want you. I never have. I don't like…I only see you as a friend! How many times do I have to say it?"

"Can you tell me why you don't want me?"

"First off, I don't want a relationship with you. Second, I don't see myself with you. You'd just become another play toy in my world. Do you understand now? How else do I have to say it?"

He stared at me with hurt and pain at first. Then his face hardened. He stood up and started walking to the door. "I am going to the nearest town…don't get worried if I don't come back."

Was that a threat? I answered with the first words that came to my mind. "I don't give a damn…if you never come back. Go die for all I care." Those words were a mistake to say to him, I found out.

Horrified, I tried to come back to the present. It was a mistake. I should have stayed reliving the flashback I had just had. The present was much worse than the past had been. The present held an unavoidable situation. Mason was dying.

I could have not done anything to save him. Strigoi were just that fast and that strong. I tried calling out his name to warn him of the danger. But anything I did would not stop this. As soon I said a word, the Strigoi sped up his attach. He cut Mason's head off.

"Mason!"

I shook my head at the gruesome scene in front of me. A fury that was beyond regular fury built inside me. I grabbed the stake that was lying on the floor, the one that Mason had dropped while the Strigoi attacked him.

The Strigoi didn't expect me to be so fast. Realizing his mistake later, he let his attention draw on Mason's dripping blood. It was not even funny…It was like Mason was dripping a river of blood. I could see him struggle to breathe in and out. I knew his life was about to end at any second.

I am so sorry, Mason!

I dug the stake in the Strigoi's heart so deep that it went through all of him. He gasped out and died. I was still so furious, though. I noticed Mia, Eddie, and Christian staring at me. I didn't pay attention to them. My attention was focused on Mason's dead body. In a matter of seconds, his life had been taken from him…

A couple of days later, Mason was going to have a proper burial and funeral. I cried so much. I had lost both of my best friends in just one week. The whole academy had to come back home because of Mason's death. They did not want anymore disasters happening.

The minister said a lot of things about Mason. How good he was…how we were going to miss him…and stuff like that. I didn't really pay attention to that. I just kept to myself and didn't say anything as the ceremony passed on. All I could think of was: Were you sad, were you scared, did you whisper a prayer to be free? Was it quiet and cold, was it light or too dark to see? And did you reach for me?*

When the funeral ended, I went to my room, not feeling like doing anything the rest of the day. It was a horrible day, overall. I just thought and thought about what had happened. I had lost my best friend because I told her she couldn't fall in love. And I had lost the other because I told him that I would never love him.

As I thought, a song on the radio came on that just made me even sadder. It was like the singer of the song had written it just for Mason.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone

I still couldn't believe he was gone. It was only like the other day that I had seen him alive and happy.

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today

It was my entire fault, Mason. If I hadn't told you those god-awful words. You would have never done this. Why did I say those words? Words were words…you couldn't take them back once they were said.

Would you see the world?
Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family?
I wonder, what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy

All his dreams were to become a father. And I ruined all his dreams. An avalanche of tears came pouring down. How could I live with guilt all my life?

Today, Today, Today
Today, Today, Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again someday

Someday, Someday

Oh, Mason. I hope when I see you again that you yell at me for ending your life so soon. My friend, I will never forget your wonderfulness. God, was I horrible. I cried so hard that night. I cried until I felt I could shatter nothing else in my body.

God, I really fucked up bad. Help me. And Mason, I will never forget you and forgive me for being so awful to you.

*(A/N: This part was from a good song called Joey by Sugarland!)

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