A few weeks have gone by since I lived with Tony. Surprisingly everything is great, we never fuss or fight or anything, but love each other. I visit my mom every other day, cause I actually do miss her a lot. I call my friends a lot too, they beg me to let them come over but I don't think Tony would allow it. It's technically still HIS house, I can't just invite anyone. Or can I? Anywho I erased my thoughts from my mind and continued reading,"To Kill A Mockingbird". I sat Indian style on the bed and chewed a piece of lickerish. Abruptly the bedroom swung open, and in came Tony.
At first I was excited that he was back until I examined the blood on his body. I reluctantly ran over to his aid, I searched for any cuts or bullet wounds, but found nothing. I glanced at him confusingly and he looked like how my friends looked when their high crashed. I placed my hands on his face and examined his nose and found the familiar white substance. I stooded there dumbfounded and anger grew inside me," Not you too!" I felt the tears well up in my eyes and I immediately turned away from him. I paced around the room while he just stood there, watching me as I did so. I wanted to beat him down soo bad and knock some sense into him, but what's that gonna do? NOTHING! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! Cause once you're on that drug, you'll never come back to your senses. I can't live with a junkie, I could barely stand my friends when they're high. How could I withstand Tony? Suddenly I felt a pair of arms around me," Z, let me explain-" "Get off me!" I brushed his arms off me and went to the other side of the room," I'm so stupid! How could I not see it! The car, the clothes, the house, the money!...I'm such an idiot." I sobbed, before Tony could respond, I fled out of the room, down the stairs and out of the house. I hurried to my car and sped off of the property and to my mom's house. I rushed through traffic not caring about the limit or stop lights. I just wanted to get away from everyone and everything. I finally pulled into the driveway, parked the car and unlocked the house door. All the lights were off," Good she's not awake." I mumbled to myself, as I walked to my room gently closing my door. I locked it and slid down the door to the ground. I put my head on my knees and wrapped my arms around them and cried myself to sleep.
Day after day I just sat there, I was basically dead without him. Without my Tony, but he's a killer, a stone cold hearted killer. No he couldn't be, he's too caring for that... Or is he? Suddenly the door handle started to raddle and shake. I jumped and quickly scooted away from the door," What the hell? Why is this door locked?" Oh thank goodness it was only mom. I slowly got up from the ground and stalked towards the door. I unlocked it and opened the door sluggishly," Ezra!?" she in hesitantly squeezed me tight," What happened!? Are you okay!? Are you sick!?...Did he hit you!?" I shrugged my arms from her grip," I'm okay, he didn't hit me." " Then why do you look so depressed?" "Because of what he does Ma." She stared at me with a confused expression," What does he do?" " He uh, sells cocaine and kill people, and h-he...He's just bad mama." I forced out with tears streaming down my face. My mom came to my aid and snuggled me into her arms. She comfortably rubbed circles on my back," It's going to be ok baby. I promise."
RING RING RING " I'll get it Ma!" I yelled from the kitchen, I grabbed the phone off the hook," Hello?" "Z it's Nick." "What do you want?" I grumbled. "Tony wants you to come by so you guys can talk." "No thanks-" " He really misses you Z, he loves you a lot." I paused collecting all my thoughts and feelings,"No. Thank you Nick. Now stop calling me." I quickly hung up the phone and sat in a chair. " Who was that?" My mom asked taking a seat in front of me. " No one important." I responded. She grasped my hand and rubbed it gently.
NEXT DAY
"Let's go Z, you're walking to slow!" Sarah whined as she pulled my arm. " The sand is slowing me down." I blamed. My friends behind us laughed at my complaint. We finally stopped at a suitable spot on the beach that was about 50 yards from the beach bar and a few yards from the ocean. We laid down our beach towels and placed them in a long row. One by one, we all unwrapped our sun wraps, exposing our beach bodies," Ooo dat ass on Z." Sasha teased smacking one of my butt cheeks," Oow!" Everyone laughed including me. They all ran to the ocean while I stayed behind and laid down on my towel. I watched my friends play in the water, when suddenly a felt a figure sit beside me.
I turned my head towards the figure," Hello there, beautiful." this fucking gorgeous guy greeted. I was gawking at every piece of meat on him," U-u-uh Hi?" he had gorgeous brown slicked back hair and amazing facial features. He had a nice set of abs and beautiful white teeth. How could he call me beautiful, look at him!? He's a fucking angel! I shook away my thoughts and came back to Earth. I stretched out my hand do he could shake it," I'm Z." He smiled, grabbed my hand and kissed it," Hello Z, I'm Antonio." I stopped smiling and retrieved my hand from his grip.
I quickly got up and ran to the ocean towards my friends," What happened with you and ?" Veronica questioned very surprised at my gesture towards the guy. "His name is Antonio." they all stared at me confusingly. I rolled my eyes and sighed," That's Tony's name." I could feel the tears trying to escape my eyes. They huddled me into a group hug and comforted me," You got to get him off your mind Chica." Penny confessed. " She's right. You need a job or something." Sasha suggested. That actually wasn't a bad idea.
After they consoled me we walked to our spot and laid down. As we soaked our bodies in the sunlight, i felt like something unexpected was gonna happen," Hey Z wanna go get something to drink?" i looked up at Sasha and Penny," Sure." Penny laid her hand out and i immediately grabbed it. She helped me up from the beach towel and we walked towards the bar. We were a few yards from the bar when suddenly a human figure bumped into me," Oh sorry-" "EXCUSE YOU!" A blonde headed tanned girl yelled, interrupting my apology." I said i was so-" "You need to watch where your going bitch!" i paused for a moment collecting all her anger. Why is she so mad? Anywho i ignored her and tried to walk past her but she pushed me back," Aye im not finished with you bitch!" i raised my eyebrow and just stared at her confusingly," Look im just trying to get something drink-" "Fuck you and your drink ho!" Really? Bitch i didnt care, but ho seriously, what is her problem," What a lump on a log. You gonna do something ho?" thats it i had enough of her bullshit. Im really not in the mood for this shit today.
I cocked my head to the side and stared her down with evil eyes, she said something to her friends that made them laugh. Suddenly my fist smashed into her ugly face, her and her friends stumbled back in shock. My friends just stood in shock as well, suddenly the girl came charging into me knocking both of us into the ground. She tried punching me but i dodged every move. When i got the chance, i punched her in the face and in the gut and threw her off me. Suddenly Sasha and Penny finally came and grabbed me up from the ground,"Come on Z lets go!" they both dragged me up to the bar, while we were walking everyone's eyes were on me.
I looked through the crowd and found that familiar face. Tony. I snatched my arms from my friends grip and we stood by the bar. While we were standing i got a chance to cool off until i heard that familiar voice," Z?" i glanced at him and turned back to the bar," Z, im sorry ok...If you want to come back, just walk in." He took my hand and placed the house key into it, i looked up at him and saw my reflection in his sunglasses. I wanted him. I wanted him bad, but i cant be with him, he's a bad man. But a bad man that i need. NO he's bad, ignore him. I turned my head half way until his hand grasped it. He leaned down and kissed my cheek, i agitatedly moved my head from the kiss and turned back to my friends. He sighed and walked back to Manny and they left. I need to occupy myself now before i die of loneliness.