Two weeks later and Dan was fighting fit. We were watching an old rerun of Friends and after we all just sat and chatted. "Again Amy, i'm so sorry that you had to see me like that. You even saw me throw up." Dan said, embarrassed. "For the last time, it's fine Dan. It whats friends do." I laugh. "Listen, me and Phil got contacted earlier today to go over to America and test out this new camera!" "Wow, how exciting. When is it?" "Tomorrow, it's all expensives paid for two weeks! It's going to great to Vlog about." Phil said. They were both clearly really excited about it but i couldn't help but feel upset and not seeing them for two weeks. I had seen them everyday since i had moved in. They continued to talk about the trip for the rest of the evening, planning out what they were going to do, what cameras they would take, who else were going and how great the vlogs would be. I just sat there and smiled and pretended to be excited for them. "So we leave tomorrow morning at eight. We fly from Heathrow and get in about nine there." Dan says. "I'm really going to miss you guys." I say, pouting. "Aww Amy, we'll both miss you too." Dan says, hugging me. Phil joins in too and we sit there, me in a Dan and Phil sandwich. "Well, i should let you get some sleep for your big day tomorrow then." I say, trying no to cry. Dan walks me downstairs and we stand outside my door. "Seriously Amy, thank you for looking after me. Phil told me that you had to miss Uni. It means a lot to me." I stand there smiling up at Dan and then it hits me like a tonne of bricks. I am in love with Dan Howell. I am in love with this amazing man who has no idea. "Well have a great time, i'll be watching your vlogs!" I manage to say, feeling my heart in my throat. I stare at his lips and i desperately want to lean up and kiss him. Should i? Will he kiss me back? "Have a good two weeks Amy, i'll see you soon." He hugs me and i feel like i could fly out through the window and up around the stars. We pull out, this is it, this is my chance. But before i can do anything he smiles, does his usual salute and he goes. I am left feeling heart broken and empty. Oh why didn't i just kiss him? Because this is reality not some soppy romantic film Amy, i tell myself. Why would Dan ever fall for someone like me? Someone with normal plain looks, not some model who idols over him. Defeated, i slump down on the bed, he'll probably hook up with some fan girl in America, he'll come back in love and it'll be all over the internet. Danisnotonfire's new hot girlfriend.
I wake up and the first thing i go to do is pop upstairs to see what the boys are up to today. Then i remember, they'll be at the airport by now, ready for their two weeks of sun and sea. Whilst i'm here, studying for endless exams and essays. I take out my laptop and log on to YouTube, wanting to hear his voice again, see his unbelievably gorgeous face and laugh at his jokes. After an hour of watching clip after clip i feel even more depressed. I look at twitter and see that he has recently tweeted. At airport with amazingphil can't wait for America! I shut my laptop screen and decide to take a long walk around town. The next few days are all the same, wake up, look at YouTube and twitter, cry over photos of Dan, go for a long walk, go to Uni, come home and cry again. I can't believe how stupid i was not to realise that i was in love sooner. Now the man i love is on the other side of the world to me, most likely making videos with his new girlfriend.
After a week has passed i give up on Uni and stay in bed all day. I get a text and i immediately hope that's Dan. It's one of my Uni friends Sally seeing why i wasn't in today. I don't reply and continue to try to sleep. I hadn't slept propably since the boys left, i just keep tossing and turning all night.
The next day i manage to take a shower and get dressed. I sit down to try to catch up with the work i had missed when i hear someone knocking at door. I sigh and get up and open the door to see Dan standing there. I am over come with happiness and shock that it takes a while to manage to speak. "Dan. I thought-" But i am interrupted as he leans in and kisses me. His soft lips touch mine, they feel right and like they were made for me. I pull away, confused by everything. He sees my puzzled look, "I had to come back Amy, i had to see you." This isn't enough explanation and i lean back. "Amy, not seeing you has made me realise how much you mean to me. I love you." My heart skips a beat and we are kissing again. I move backwards allowing him inside and we go on sit down the sofa. I lean back against the sofa arm and he leans in to me, his kisses more passionate, more quick. Before i know it i start crying, cold tears parting our warm faces. "What's wrong?" He whispers, wiping away my tears. "I love you too." I utter and he presses his body next to mine and we make out.