A/N: Welcome to chapter 12 of Overcoming Differences!
This chapter turned out longer than expected. It was quite difficult to write though. I'll explain more about that in my A/N at the end of the chapter.
I sorta, kinda found a job though! I'm becoming an author of digital learning content for secondary schools. I'm very excited about it! It's like a dream come true. I can create fun, instructive and challenging digital lessons without having to put them into practice in front of class myself. The downside is that it's only work for 6-8 hours a week and payment is based on royalties. If schools buy content that I've worked on then I get a portion of what is paid for it. This isn't ideal, but the job really appeals to me, and the company is quite young and is looking to have a bright future. I hope my job will grow along with it. Wish me luck everyone!
Without further ado, I'll let you get to reading this new chapter. Remember that I don't own Yu-gi-oh! or any of its characters, that mobiumshipping rocks, and that I love reviews.
Enjoy!
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Jumping the hurdle
Yugi was getting impatient, though it was mostly brought on by nerves. Night had settled in, and the three lovers were getting ready for bed. Yugi had gone upstairs before his two lovers and was now waiting for them to join him in bed. He fiddled a bit with the sheets. Tonight was going to be a very important night for him. All his efforts over the past four months to surprise Yami when he got back home would come to fruition tonight. To say that he was worried was an understatement. What he was about to do could seem as such a simple action, but with his disability it would be a huge achievement.
Atem was first to join him. As the game developer made his way to the bed he shot Yugi a reassuring smile. Yugi smiled back, temporarily forgetting his nerves. Atem would be there for him while he surprised Yami. Even though Atem would allow Yugi to do it on his own, the disabled young man knew that he would be there to help him out where needed. This made him feel slightly more confident.
Once Atem had flopped down on the bed he yawned, raising with one hand to cover his mouth while the other stretched above him, "Don't tell me you are tired already tiger." Yugi said with a hint of amusement.
Relaxing again Atem turned to his side to face Yugi with a smile, "No, I'm more like a content cat, ready to get all the attention I want from my two boyfriends."
The comment made Yugi smile, but also remember what was ahead of him. He turned his head away and fiddled with the sheet again. Atem rose an eyebrow at this. He could tell that the other was nervous, insecure even, which was odd to him. The last time he had seen him like this was years ago. He remembered it clearly, since that day was branded into his memory.
Atem heaved a sigh and wiped the sweat off his forehead. He glanced into the box before him, which was now empty of its contents. He smiled. Finishing unpacking this box truly made it official. He had now successfully moved in with his two brand new boyfriends. The thought caused a chuckle to pass his lips. Who would have thought he would get two people to love him? The thought was strange, yet comforting. He knew that he had feelings for both of them, and to have those feelings reciprocated from both of them felt amazing.
It had already been a week since he'd started to move in with them, and everything went well. Naturally Yami and Yugi had needed some time to adapt to having an extra member in their household, and Atem had needed some time to find his place in their relationship, but it was amazing by how natural everything felt, and how quickly they were getting used to each other. They still had a ways to go, but Atem was confident that this was going to work out. He could now say that he was genuinely happy, and he wanted to do something to celebrate. A feeling of excitement bubbled up inside of him. He already had a good idea what he wanted to do. This moment would be a great opportunity to be intimate with his boyfriends. They had kissed a lot during the past week, but they hadn't actually moved beyond that yet, but Atem was planning to change that tonight.
"How are you getting along?" Yugi asked from behind him.
Atem turned his head and smiled at him, "I've just finished unpacking all of my stuff."
"Congratulations." Yugi smiled back, "I guess that makes it official then."
Atem nodded and moved out of the way so Yugi could roll his wheelchair to its place beside the bed so he could get in, "I was thinking we should celebrate." He declared.
"Oh?" Yugi commented while he got comfortable, "What were you thinking of?"
Atem didn't reply, but instead climbed onto the bed himself and caught Yugi's lips with his own. The disabled young man accepted it happily, loving how the sensation he got from kissing Atem was different than when he kissed Yami. Where Yami was always gentle, sweet and caring, Atem would be slightly rougher and more demanding, but also gentle at the same time. Yugi never once felt uncomfortable when he locked his lips with his new lover.
"Hey!" A voice called out, causing Atem and Yugi to disengage and look up to its source. Yami was standing in the doorway, wearing an expression that bordered on both amusement and jealousy. Of the three of them he was the one that had the most difficulty adapting, though he was getting there, "You trying to hog up aibou all to yourself?"
"Maybe I am. He's my boyfriend now too." Atem replied bluntly before he smirked and shot Yami a challenging look, "But if you feel left out you should come here so I can give you my undivided attention."
Yami blushed and looked away with a scoff, causing Atem to chuckle. He loved to tease his first crush, especially since he was still struggling in trusting Atem with Yugi. He was doing fine thanks to Yugi's insistence that he was fine, but it clearly took some effort from him.
"Well, if you're not coming, then I'll just have to turn my attention to this cutie over here." Atem said when Yami remained by the doorway.
Yugi smiled when Atem leaned in for another kiss. The former was truly enjoying the attention he was given. He flinched a bit when Atem moved his hand under his shirt. It wasn't something Yami had ever done, so he hadn't expected the action. It felt good though. Atem's hand was warm as it slowly stroked over his chest. He could get used to that. But then Atem's hand started to move further south. Yugi instantly froze and pushed Atem away when his hand had moved to the waistband of his boxers.
Atem looked down at him in shock, not knowing what had caused such a reaction. Yugi's eyes were clenched shut, and his whole body was trembling as if in fear. Soft whimpers escaped his lips while he breathed irregularly.
"Yugi? Wha-" But Atem couldn't finish his question as he was roughly grabbed by the back of his shirt and pulled off of the cowering young man.
"That's enough Atem. You've gone too far." Yami growled at him.
Atem regarded him in confusion, "Wha-What did I do?"
Yami pointed a finger at Yugi, who had now turned his back to the other two and was hugging himself tightly, "Don't you see how afraid he is? Why did you try to touch him like that?"
Atem was still confused. Why was Yugi afraid? He and Yami had been together for nine years. Surely they had touched each other before? "But…I thought that now that we're officially together, we could move on to the next level. I didn't think that Yugi would-"
"Don't just assume things like that Atem." Yami interrupted him, still glaring at him.
Yami looked so angry, but beyond that glare Atem could see something else. Was that…embarrassment? But if it was then what was he embarrassed about? Unless… A thought struck Atem and he observed Yami's face more closely, as if the answer would be written there. But it wasn't, so there was no other option left than to be blunt and ask it straight out, "Have you two never had sex before?" Yugi notably cringed at the question, and Yami silently looked off to the side, confirming the thought Atem had, but not supplying an explanation, "Why not?" He asked next.
"Yugi's afraid." Yami answered softly, "He's afraid that he won't feel anything ,or that he won't be able to cum. I haven't been able to get him to try, and I never wanted to push him, so yeah, we've just never done it."
Atem gasped and once more glanced Yugi's way. He could understand Yugi's hesitation due to his disability, but to be so afraid as to not even try it was something he could not relate to, "Yugi." He said gently, "Do you feel it when you touch it?"
Yugi whimpered, shaking his head on his pillow, "I-I've n-never-" He trailed off.
Atem gasped again. He hadn't even touched himself before? He must be more insecure than he thought, "Don't you want to know?"
"Atem." Yami said in a warning voice, "Don't push him. I-"
But Atem held up his hand to stop Yami from commenting further, determined to help Yugi get over this, "Do you feel it when you have to pee Yugi?"He asked next.
Yugi seemed to hesitate for a moment, but then nodded, making Atem smile, "Then why wouldn't you feel pleasure?"
Yugi's body stilled, as if Atem's question had made him realize something, but after a brief moment he tensed up again, "But what if I don't feel what I should feel? I'll see you enjoying yourselves while I won't understand. I'll never know what it's supposed to be like." He whimpered.
Atem sighed, "Honestly I can't answer that for you Yugi. I don't know what you feel, but I think you can only judge whether or not you like it if you try it out. That way you'll have no regrets later."
Silence fell as Atem allowed Yugi a few moments to digest his words. He looked for signs that would indicate his thoughts, but there were none that he could see. Yugi simply remained in the position he was, lying on his side with his back turned to them, hunching in on himself.
"Yugi." Yami said gently, "You don't have to if you don't wan-"
"Get out!" Yugi suddenly yelled, "Get out! Both of you!"
Both other young men were shocked at Yugi's response. Atem wanted to walk up to him to comfort him, but Yami stopped him by placing a hand on his arm, shaking his head. Saddened and defeated, Atem followed Yami outside. What had been meant to be a passionate night of love had just turned into a very awkward situation, and he was unsure of what to do now.
"It's a very touchy subject for him." Yami said in a sad voice as he lead the way to the spare bedroom, "He's very insecure about it, so it easily upsets him."
Atem halted his movements and crossed his arms, "So you've been avoiding it all this time?"
Yami flinched, as if he was feeling guilty, "Like I said, I've never wanted to push him." He mumbled.
"And how has that helped you?" Atem challenged, amazed by Yami's ability to avoid anything that related to Yugi being uncomfortable due to his paresis. In his opinion avoiding issues that inhibited you could never prove to be fruitful. He felt that people could only move on if they faced their fears.
"Stop it Atem!" Yami snapped at him, turning around as he did so, "You saw how scared he was. How do you suppose things would have ended up if I had pushed him?"A brief silence fell as Atem had no direct answer for that. Eventually Yami sighed and slumped before continuing in a sad voice, "I don't understand why he wanted me gone too though. I thought he would let me comfort him."
Atem also sighed, and uncrossed his arms to gently place them on Yami's shoulders, "I think that you're trying to protect him too much."Yami's head shot up again to glare at him angrily. It was obvious that he wanted to retort, but Atem laid a finger on his lips to keep him from doing so, so that he could continue, "I think I was getting him to realize that it wouldn't hurt to try, but then you suggested that he didn't have to. He probably just needs to sort things out himself right now."
Yami's glare disappeared as he surrendered to Atem's explanation. It made sense to him. It didn't make him feel any less protective of their insecure boyfriend, but he could see where Atem was coming from. And knowing Yugi he would come around after some time. He always did, so why wouldn't he now?
Yami took a last glance to their bedroom door. He had to repress the urge to go in and comfort Yugi, but it would probably for the best to leave him alone for now. Without another word he turned around again to resume his way to the spare bedroom with Atem in tow.
Yugi listened to his boyfriends' retreating footsteps. He had witnessed their entire conversation while they were in the hallway. Now that they were gone he began to softly cry to himself. He knew that Atem had been right. Right at the same moment that Atem got through to him Yami had to step in to protect him. He hated it when Yami did that, even though he was in this case guilty as well. Yami had long since accepted Yugi's insecurity and avoided the matter, but Yugi too had never brought it up either. He was just so used to Yami knowing he was too afraid of sex that he never considered Atem wanting to do that. He took it for granted that Atem wouldn't try anything.
And now they were in this mess. After having been so happy to find out that both he and Yami loved Atem and were willing to accept him into their relationship he was already chasing both of them out of the bedroom after a mere week. He just couldn't help it. His fear simply dictated his actions. But the thought that he had pushed Atem away so harshly while they had just started to accept him in the first place made his heart twist. He cried because of his insecurity, hating it for ruining this for him. He cried because he feared he had destroyed this precious, but fragilely thin thing they had going.
He wondered what Yami and Atem were doing right now. Were they actually having sex right now? The thought was equally heart wrenching as the fact that he had pushed Atem away. Could he blame them? Atem obviously expected it to be a part of their relationship, and Yami wasn't prohibited by the fears Yugi had. Shouldn't he be glad that they could get that satisfaction without him? But the thought actually caused him to feel worse. What if Yami would grow more attached to Atem for being able to have sex? Would he leave Yugi to start a relationship with just Atem?
Yugi cried even harder. He didn't want to lose Yami. They had known each other for eleven years, had been together for nine. They were doing just fine until Atem decided he wanted more. Was he selfish? Stupid for harbouring his fear for so long? Yugi just didn't know. And he hated it. Hated himself and his stupid paresis for holding him back. Perhaps it was better if Yami left him to be with Atem.
For a while Yugi continued to cry as his thoughts only turned more and more depressive. When he had finally calmed down somewhat his mind also started to clear. He knew he was over thinking things, and jumping to irrational conclusions. But now that he had calmed down he started to think over what Atem had told him. Indeed, he felt it when he used the toilet. Was it really that simple? After all, men used the same organ, so indeed there was no reason to believe he wouldn't be able to make anything happen.
Tentatively, Yugi reached with his hand to his boxers. He took a deep breath and cupped the bulge that was there. He felt that just fine. It wasn't like with his legs. He could feel how his legs would feel numb in comparison to, for example, his arms. The bulge in his hand felt more like he felt his arms than his legs; there was no numbness. So, with that established, would he actually dare to…do that? He knew the only way he could find out the truth for himself and get rid of his fear would be to face it. Spurred on by Atem's words and Yugi's need to have them both in his life, he reached into his boxers and pulled out his penis. He made a few experimental pumps, gasping at the sensation that ran through him. It was…weird. He had never felt something quite like it, but it was nice. He…he wanted to feel more. He clumsily continued, trying to figure out what felt nice and what didn't. He was so caught up in the moment and the sensations that ran through him that all his fears and insecurities were forgotten.
And then it came. The growing feeling in his lower abdomen reached its peak and his entire body clenched as he gasped. He could feel something wet run over his fingers and knew he had cummed. He took a few shaky breaths as he rode out his orgasm, feeling amazed by the wonderful feeling. Was this it? Was this how it was supposed to feel? In that case, bring it on.
Those were his thoughts as his body relaxed again. How could he not have tried that out before? Now that he knew he felt kind of sheepish. He guessed that was normal when you found out that your fear, which had been so real before, was actually kind of silly now that it was conquered. He smiled as his eyes drooped shut. Tomorrow things would change.
And things had changed, Atem thought. The next day Yugi apologized by getting up early and making them breakfast as an apology. After that they had talked about it, and Yugi had confessed to what he did. It still took him a while before he was ready to have actual sex with his boyfriends, but he conquered his fear in the end, and was now perfectly comfortable with the act. A fact that made not only Atem, but Yami proud of him as well.
But tonight things were different. Yugi would be jumping over a new hurdle in this field. Atem hadn't thought he would be so nervous over it though. Perhaps some of his past insecurity still lingered. Atem wasn't about to let it stop his squirt though, so he stuck out a hand to place it gently on Yugi's arm, "Hey, you'll be fine. You've worked so hard, remember? And I'll be here whenever you need my help."
Yugi shot his boyfriend a smile of gratitude, nodding as his words boosted his confidence. And right on time as well, because right at that moment Yami walked into the bedroom, looking around briefly to reacquaint himself with the room before taking in the sight of his two lovers on the bed. He smiled as he advanced on the bed, "Now this is a sight I've been longing to see for a long time now." He said.
Atem chuckled as Yami quite literally dropped himself on the bed and right on top of him, "I think we know the feeling, right squirt?"
Yugi chuckled as well as he leaned in to join the snuggling pair, "The ugly empty spot has been filled again."
Yami smiled and leaned over Atem so he could kiss Yugi, who happily accepted it. Atem savoured the sight, "This is indeed much more beautiful." He commented huskily, "But something is missing." The other two stopped kissing to regard him with curiosity. Atem simply smiled mischievously and said, "Or rather, something needs to be missing." Before either Yami or Yugi could grasp what Atem was getting at he had already flipped the pop singer over. He then hooked a finger in the collar of Yami's shirt and continued speaking, "I'm missing that gloriously fit body of yours, so this shirt needs to go."
Yugi burst out laughing while Yami blushed furiously at Atem's remark. Still, he allowed his boyfriend to discard him of his shirt. Atem didn't stop there though. He wondered why Yami had dressed himself in sleepwear the begin with. The singer should know what to expect to happen on the first day he got home from tour. It was the same thing that happened every time. He and Yugi were only clad in their underwear, but Yami had decided to put on some pyjamas.
Unbeknownst to Atem Yami had actually done that on purpose. Of course he knew what they were going to do, but he secretly loved it when his boyfriends would undress him. To him there was something erotic about having someone else perform such a simple deed. It was almost as if they were confirming to him that they also wanted him, and that they didn't simply want some quick fix. Undressing each other was an integral part to properly making love in Yami's view.
After they were all fully undressed and as naked as the day they were born they settled back into kissing and touching each other. It was sometimes hard to find the correct balance since they were with the three of them; one person had to divide his attention to two other people. But tonight it was all about welcoming Yami back into their little circle. Atem and Yugi took the lead as they showered Yami with attention. Yami didn't even get a chance to think. When one of his boyfriends would pull back the other would plunge right in. He didn't need to think, he didn't need to act, he only needed to feel.
Yami was being so distracted that he didn't notice it when Atem eventually shot Yugi a look. Yugi looked back at him and nodded. He was ready. While reclined at Yami's side, Atem continued to distract their returned lover, giving Yugi the opportunity to gradually pull himself on top of him from the other side. It was a bit difficult, because he had to mostly drag his legs behind him. But seemingly out of nowhere a hand appeared and gently grabbed his thigh closest to Yami. Without any need for words Atem knew that Yugi could use a little bit of help to get his entire body on top of Yami. Yugi smiled in appreciation and allowed Atem to pull his leg towards him so that Yugi was partly straddling Yami. He let go of Yugi's leg then so the latter could position himself better on his own.
The sudden weight on top of him broke Yami out of his lust filled trance, and he broke the kiss he was having with Atem to see what was happening. When he saw his disabled lover work to climb on top of him he frowned, "Aibou? What are you doing?" He asked with slight concern in his voice.
Yugi simply smiled at him, "I've been working on a surprise for you sweetheart." He replied with confidence.
Atem smiled. He felt proud of his disabled lover. Just a moment ago he was nervous about this, but now those nerves seemed to have evaporated. Yugi looked confident as well, and Atem knew that he could do this.
"What surprise?" Yami wondered as he cupped Yugi's face with his hands.
"Just be patient and you'll find out soon enough darling." Atem replied for him.
Atem then leaned back, allowing Yugi the room he needed to manoeuvre himself so that he was face to face with Yami. Yugi smiled lovingly at him, "I wanted you to be the first I did this to ever since doctor Valentine told me it was possible for me to have more strength in my legs. I've worked hard and waited for a long time until you got back. Please be patient for a little while longer sweetheart."
Before Yami could protest more Yugi leaned down to capture his lips. Atem smiled at the sight and relied on Yugi to fully distract the pop singer during this next step. Even though he knew Yugi was eager to get on with it, he needed to be prepared properly first. Atem grabbed the lubricant from the nightstand and took care of that. Once he was done he placed a warm hand on Yugi's back, silently signalling him that he was ready.
Yugi understood the signal and disengaged himself from Yami. He leaned up on his arms and smiled back down at him. He could see that Yami was still confused about what he was planning to do. But Yugi didn't have time to explain, nor did he want to. He needed to focus now. He placed his hands on Yami's chest and closed his eyes. He took a deep breath and slowly pushed himself up so he could sit on his knees. Yami gasped at what Yugi was able to do. He knew that Yugi was able to sit on his knees, even though getting into and out of that position was a challenge for him, but he wasn't simply leaning his upper body backwards, he was raising his hips! That required muscle strength in his legs that Yami didn't know Yugi had. Sure, he could feel that Yugi was supporting most of his weight on his arms, as he felt the weight press down on his chest, but this was still quite a feat.
Yugi was struggling though. Atem could see it by how he was trembling from the exertion. He didn't reach out to help yet though. Yugi wanted to do this by himself, and Atem didn't want to deny him this opportunity. Yugi would be grateful for the consideration if he hadn't been so focussed on getting himself high enough. He was getting there though, and that spurred him on to continue pushing.
"Yugi." Yami whispered in awe as he witnessed his first boyfriend's slow rise. He wanted to do something to help, but he was simply too stunned to figure out what he could do. So instead he placed his hands on either side of Yugi's chest, providing him with a little bit of extra support, "Keep going." He encouraged, which only caused Yugi to try even harder.
Finally Yugi had finally lifted his hips high enough. He was breathing heavily, but he smiled. This was the moment that Atem stepped in to help. Since all of Yugi's effort was in keeping himself upright, he needed a hand to help him position him above Yami. Without any words, but simply with reassuring touches Atem guided him back down, until Yami was fully sheathed inside of him. Yugi could finally relax for a moment and catch his breath.
"Yugi…how?" Yami asked of him, pride and awe still dominating his senses.
"He worked very hard on this the past four months." Atem answered for him, seeing that Yugi needed to gather his energy and rubbing soothing circles on his winded boyfriend's back, "Doctor Valentine gave him exercises to strengthen his legs, and made him take up swimming again to strengthen them further."
"Atem helped me out a lot. He was all for it when Mai said I could become stronger." Yugi pitched in, now looking back up and into Yami's eyes.
"I'm so proud." Yami said while tears sprang into his eyes, "Who could have ever thought this was possible? Will you be able to walk again?"
Yugi shook his head, "No, I won't be. But that's okay." He reassured, not bother by that fact at all, "But I will be able to do this with you. Before, all I could do was simply lie on my back or stomach while one of you did all the work. Now I can finally switch roles."
To emphasize his point Yugi started moving. It was difficult for him, since he couldn't easily raise his hips continuously, but he found a pace that had him mostly grinding Yami. It felt odd, but it also felt so good. Just the fact that he was actively participating in their lovemaking was enough for Yugi. He didn't care that he didn't get as much physical pleasure out of it as when Yami or Atem was on top of him, them being able to move freely to give them both the most pleasure. He didn't care because he received a mental pleasure from this that he had never experienced before. He, Yugi Muto, bound to a wheelchair since he was two years old, was on top of one of the two people he loved most in his life, and giving him something nothing in the world could replace. And it was wonderful. Nothing in the entire world could beat this feeling.
Yami absorbed the image of Yugi clumsily bouncing on top of him. It was such a beautiful sight. For a moment he forgot that he couldn't walk. Right now it was almost as if he was a normally functioning person. It wasn't just this image that made Yami all the more aroused, it was the pride and love he felt for him. He sometimes forgot just how strong and resilient Yugi was, making him want to reach out while it wasn't even needed. But tonight Yugi proved to him once and for all that he really wasn't that different from him. He wasn't weak and could rise to great heights if he was given the opportunity. Yami knew Atem understood that better than he did. The fact that Atem knew exactly when to help and when not proved that. He realized that he still had a lot to learn in that respect, but that was why his relationship with both Yugi and Atem was so wonderful. He could learn and grow much better than when he only had either of them. Without Atem Yugi had probably never achieved this, no matter what his physical therapist had told him.
Atem could feel nothing but pride and love surge through himself as well. Even though he wasn't participating at the moment, simply the sight of his boyfriends' coupling made him happy. Yugi was smiling ear to ear, and Yami was looking at him with such devotion that Atem couldn't help but love them both even more. It was difficult to imagine that having sex in the first place had been such a huge hurdle for the disable young man. And now he was jumping over another one. It wasn't with style, and it wasn't with grace, but he jumped over it nonetheless. If he would describe the situation he would say that it was magical. He wouldn't want to miss it for anything in the world. He had had many memorable moments with these two people, but this one now topped the list.
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A/N: Phew! Like I said above, this chapter was hard at times. There are even parts that I'm not fully satisfied with. It's due to the fact that I'm uncomfortable in writing lemons. I think I've read enough of them to do a decent job if I wanted, but I just don't want to cross that line. As such I'd like my stories to be rated T, but there was simply no way I could keep that up here. This scene and the flashback that's in here have been a part of my idea for this story from the very beginning though, so I couldn't leave it out. Asides from that the scenes have an important meaning to the story and the way I've portrayed the characters. What I've tried to do is leave most of the details of the actual act out of it and focus on the meaning. I'm not sure whether I've succeeded so I would really like some feedback on that.
Next chapter: Yami is in for another surprise, but this time from Atem. And Dartz has a rather unusual request.
