"I'm so sorry about this Amy, it's just we received four complaints from the girls and a letter from their parents. It's our company policy; it's a real shame to have to let you go." Rebecca says. We are sitting in the back room to the Cafe and I am being fired for the first time in my life. I just sit there and nod along. The girls who I threw out a week ago wrote to the cafe, basically saying how I shouted at them for no real reason and that I have no proof that they were talking about me. I walk out five minutes later and feel disappointed in myself, I managed to lose a job within two months of working there, well at least I can spend more time with Dan now, I think as I walk back up the stairs. I let myself in and find the flat empty. Even though I have been living there for a month it doesn't really feel like home, it feels more like I am staying over. I walk to mine and Dan's room and sit down on the bed, I watch a couple of his most recent videos. He had asked me whether I had wanted to be any of them but I said no, YouTube was his thing, I didn't want to take it away from him or worm my way in to his videos. I then checked out Face book and Twitter to see what was happening but I lost interest and fell asleep.
When I woke up it was nine in the evening, I got up to look for the boys. "Dan?" I called walking to the living room. "Dan? Phil?" I search the flat but it is empty, I phone Dan as I turn on the lights. "Hello this Dan, I can't answer right now but please leave a message." My heart jumps at his voice but falls again when I realise I have reached the answer phone. "Hey Dan, it's just me. I was just wondering where you were and if you're back for tea. Call me, love you." I hang up and make my own tea anyway, hearing my stomach grumble against the odd silence of the flat. I make pasta but when I start eating I am no longer hungry, I just keep thinking about Dan, he never stays out this late without telling me. I text him five minutes later. Hey Dan, where r u? Love Amyxxx
Another hour passes and I give up and go to bed, it seems too big and cold without him. I am used to falling asleep in his arms but now I feel lonelier than I have for a long time.
I wake up and I am relieved to see Dan next to me in bed, he is still fast asleep even though it is 12. I get up and I am about to get ready for work when I remember. I sigh but stay in pyjamas and see if Phil is up. He is sitting at the table, eating cereal and looking on the internet. "Hey." I wave to him and take a seat next to him. "Hi Amy." "So where were you last night?" I say causally. "Oh, just at this party." He briefly. "Which party?" "Just a friend, we were going to come back earlier but she was making a vlog about it and wanted us in it." The word 'she' makes my ears prick, "Oh, is it on YouTube yet?" "Yep, I'll just find it for you." Phil turns his laptop to face me and gets up to put away his bowl. I watch the video entitled Bonnie's YouTube party. I watch as I see a load of You Tubers dance around and say stuff to the camera; I recognise a few people and spot Phil dancing awkwardly in the corner. Then I see Dan. He is dancing with a young blonde girl with a very large chest, I gather that she is Bonnie and then I see something that makes me want to curl up and cry myself to sleep. Dan is pressing her up against a wall, he is whispering in her ear and she giggles and then turns to him and snogs him. And he snogs her back.