I woke up next to him still, and he was awake, talking to his father. There was also a police man in the room, and he was talking to Karkat about Kristy. He was gripping my hand tight, and trembling as he recounted. I pretended to be asleep until the police man left with Mr. Vantas to get further information. I hugged Karkat tight, wishing I could do something to help. He just held me close to his side.
"..Do you mind me asking about it yet..?" I asked looking at him. He took a deep breath.
"You can ask certain things, but... I just...I dunno..." He said awkwardly. I nodded and rubbed his shoulder. I looked at his wrists that were wrapped in bandages. I ran my finger gently over the bandage, and looked at him.
"She didn't cause those, did she?"
"No..." I took a deep breath and nodded, though I couldn't help but feel a little bothered. Why did he have to resort to this, without coming to talk to me..? I mean, when he found out his friend, Gamzee, had been taking drugs because otherwise he was a danger to himself and others, he cried his eyes out. He came to me, and he cried, and cried, and cried. He said he never wanted to see anyone destroy their body, and he vowed he wouldn't do that... that was back in the 6th grade.. what changed? I ran my finger up and down the bandage, not looking him in the eye.
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"I.. Well, I always gave her a reason... bad grades, making too much noise, speaking out of turn... I just never did anything right, and she was correcting me.." He said quietly.
"But she hurt you... how did you not realise..?"
"Well, I mean, I guess I just never noticed..."
"How do you not notice?" I ask, sitting up. I was angry, because she was hurting him, and he let it happen, he did nothing to stop it. I was sad because of the same reason. I've never felt this rush of emotions I did now. I couldn't believe him. He just turned his head, and neither of us said anything for a moment.
Soon after that, my mom walked in, and told me visiting hours were over. I nodded, and leaned down to hug him, but he didn't react. I walked out, and stayed quiet the entire ride home. I went straight up to my room, and I cried all over again. I pulled out my phone and I texted Equius.
-Equius... have you heard...?- I sent. He didn't reply for a few minutes.
-I did. I express my deepest sorrows, Nepeta.-
-I saw him today...I asked him about it, and he... he just let it happen to him... he said it was no big deal, and he probably deserved it... I tried to tell him that, but he didn't say anything...its frustrating..-
-Well, you probably upset him, Nepeta... he's been through a lot, and the way you see the abuse is in no way the way he saw it.-
-*I* upset HIM?! Equius, how do you think I am feeling right now, he literally told me he thinks it was okay to get hit all the time!-
He sent me another message after that, but I didn't bother reading it. I was so mad. How could he take Karkat's side? It hurt, it really did. I laid back, and closed my eyes, and just fell asleep. Today was so emotionally draining, I just had to sleep. I wanted to sleep for a long time. Maybe I would wake up and none of this would be real. Maybe it would be a dream. Hopefully.
I CAN EXPLAIN WHERE I HAVE BEEN okay so ha ha funny story um its called Color guard and practice went from being until 5:00 most days to about 6:15 EVERY day, and competitions on Saturdays and im just so busy ;-; But i got this written!
I wanna say nepeta's side is one i think would be common in people finding out a loved one has been abused. I mean, not a lot of people understand how someone thinks they deserve this. I'm trying to show multiple sides to how it can be seen, i hope that makes sense? i dunno
Next chapter,,, idk when it will be up, i've kind of lost interest in this story, sorry.. I have a few other ideas for other stories though! maybe they'll end up on here /shrugs
Hope you enjoy, sorry its so short!