Hi and I'm so sorry for the long update but I was busy with a few things so I had to break my promise. Anyway, here it is 3rd chapter and I will try to update the 4th tomorrow (I will try) :')
This chap is full of angst ~~ try to enjoy in one way or another.
III ~ Wish!
Fai continued to scream in anguish as more and more small lights went out of his chest. Kurogane also screamed with all his might, as if he wanted to stop those lights himself. It was so painful seeing the mage suffering like that, he only wanted to reach Fai's body and pull him to his arms. He wanted to feel him safe. He didn't want him to scream, he wanted to see his bright smile and feel strange sensations flying throughout his body. Nevertheless, why he couldn't? When he thought that everything, or almost everything, was alright the stupid mage had to come and do stupid things. Kurogane never suffered so much with someone before like Fai. The blond man was able to awake all kind of feelings inside the ninja. It was frustrating, however the dark haired man wanted the mage beside him. He wanted to protect him, because he was important and he promised protect those he loved the most. Always.
Tomoyo, the young princess of Nihon Koku was also suffering due to all the screams of both men. She knew Kurogane since their childhood, she knew how strong he was, however when the most important persons to him were hurt he tended to be desperate. She wanted to do something so much, nevertheless she was unable. She couldn't interfere in so powerful sacrifice. Much less if that sacrifice was consented.
Seeing the young princess so worried, Souma approached from her side and touched on her shoulder softly. The young ninja wanted to transmit to her princess that she wasn't alone, and she believed that the rude dark haired ninja would do everything, the possible and the impossible, to solve things. She also knew Kurogane since his childhood. Although he was someone with a strong heart, right now he was weaker than ever. And that was so, so strange.
Nonetheless, there was someone else who was also hurt with such sacrifice. Even if he was the one who could concretize such a thing, he was also the one who probably suffered the most seeing people who love each other feeling so much pain. However, Watanuki Kimihiro had to be totally expressionless. Even if his heart hurt and his soul was a lonely one, he couldn't allow to people to sense his true self. Never.
Suddenly, the blond mage stopped squirming and screaming surprising all there. Everyone's eyes were over the slender figure of the mage, while the small lights gathered together forming a single form. Only Kurogane and Watanuki were able to see that form, Tomoyo and Souma could see only a strong light over the blond's body.
The mage opened his blue eyes very slowly and they were without life, his body continued suspended in the air as if something possessed it giving him permission to breathe and move.
'This way everyone will be happy, including me.'
Watanuki was ready to collect the strange form that had come from the inside of the mage, when the ninja stopped him asking convicted "Oye, what do you think you're doing?"
"I'm concretizing a wish, Kurogane-san." The dark haired male responded directly.
"This is something that doesn't belong to you... If you dare to take it with you, you will regret it." Kurogane said furious and determined. He didn't know what kind of thing was that, yet he could sense that Fai would be in danger without it.
Watanuki stopped moving the Fai's object and looking intensely at the dark haired man said "Kurogane-san, wishes exist to be realized, as I exist to realize them. Fai-san is just one person among many others who came to me asking me for help. So, it is my duty to fulfill his wish." Kurogane was now desperate, however he would not give up. He wanted and he would save Fai.
"T-Then forget his and take my ask as a wish." Kurogane said determined and looking into his intense red eyes, Watanuki almost showed what he shouldn't.
"That's something impossible. I have an unbreakable rule that doesn't allow me to make two wishes with the same power. So, I only can concretize the first wish." Watanuki said facing the ninja.
Desperate, Kurogane looked at the mage and said "It's enough! Why do you always do everything the way you want? You never... You don't even think about the feelings of the others idiot!" His voice revealed all the pain he was feeling.
Fai continued suspended in the air without any reaction. However, inside his mind the same voice was heard, so he asked inwardly "Who are you? Where are you?"
'Who are you? Where are you?' The same voice also asked.
Surprised, Fai looked behind him where suddenly appeared a large golden mirror. The blond mage walked towards the object and touched it softly, when suddenly appeared a strong and intense light which in turn gave rise to a figure. Fai was confused when saw such figure. The voice and the figure on the other side of the mirror was his own figure.
Grinning, the figure in the mirror said "We are the same... I am your conscience."
"My… conscience?" Fai asked still confused.
"Yes, I am the guilty of half of your decisions. Good or not, they are our decisions." Fai's conscience said still smiling. A soft yet cold smile. That smile was like Fai's old smile, without life and love.
"W-Why are you here?" Fai asked.
"Eh? That's something that only you know, since whoever controls me it's you."
"So that's why you are here... As a way to make me feel good denying what I did..." Fai said remembering his wish, a soft smile was on his lips.
"Yes. You... For that person you decided to sacrifice your happiness, but... Is it okay? I wonder if that's even what you should have done..." Fai's conscience said frowning lightly.
Before such question, the blond mage remained silent and still looking to his own figure on the other side of the large golden mirror.
As Kurogane and Watanuki continued facing each other, the strange form of Fai began to shine so brightly forcing everyone there clenching their eyes tightly.
Fai, who was in the middle of a dilemma with himself, saw reflected in the mirror the most memorable moments that he spent with the ninja. From his wide blue eyes, fell thick and shinny tears and his lips were curved into a warm smile. Then he confessed " Yes it is. I couldn't have done anything else unless this, because... If those I love the most are happy, then I also will be."
"Even if you're saying that you will be unhappy... Is it okay to be like this?" Fai's conscience asked.
"Yes, it is okay to be like this." Fai said still smiling.
"But, why that person? Is he so important as to make you sacrifice your own happiness? In my opinion I would say that he is a bad person." Fai's conscience said.
Before such statement, Fai remained quiet and thoughtful.
Fai's form lost a bit all the strong intensity and everyone was able to look at it. Seeing such an object, Kurogane, Watanuki and Tomoyo were astonished.
"W-What? Why?" The dark haired ninja asked confused.
Watanuki closed his colorful eyes and said as he felt a sharp twinge in his chest "I see… This is your true wish Fai-san."
"So this wish is the same one that I thought from the beginning." Tomoyo said, her purple eyes held a deep of sadness.
Fai broke the silence and said "He is not a bad person. Ku-Kuro-sa... Kuro-sama is not a bad person, because... Because he did so much for me. Kuro-sama never gave up on me, he fought for my life... for my existence until the end, so... So... Kuro-sama is..."
Kurogane felt a pang in his heart seeing the new element formed by the intense light of Fai. He looked one more time to the dimensional sorcerer and asked "Why that object changed its form?"
Hearing such words, Tomoyo was even more astonished while Watanuki answered to Kurogane's question "Because this is the true wish of Fai-san, Kurogane-san."
"HUH? What kind of answer is that? Still a minute ago this form was a golden key, then why did that change?" The ninja asked feeling more and more confused and worried.
"Kurogane is that really true? Before changing, the interior lights of Fai-san had formed a key?" The princess asked concerned.
"Yeah, that's why I asked that... If previously it was a golden key, why did it turn into a golden cage?" Kurogane explained.
"Because this cage represents the abdication of all the feelings and happiness of Fai-san." Tomoyo said afraid and sad.
"Exactly Kurogane-san, but in this case this golden cage represents the strong feelings for someone." Watanuki said one more time.
Then Kurogane was able to understand the meaning behind that golden cage and said "Why did he has to abdicate of such a thing? I never..."
"To give you happiness. To you and to Tomoyo-Hime." Watanuki said, his voice soft and his eyes closed.
Tomoyo also closed her purple eyes as a sign of comprehension. Kurogane on the other hand, asked "W-What will happen if he stays without such feelings?" He was afraid. Even more afraid than before. His heart was strongly beating fearing the answer. Somehow, inside him he could feel a long and deep change between him and the blond mage, however if he could he would change the future.
"You don't have to worry Kurogane-san. Fai-san will continue by your side, just like he promised. Nothing bad will happen to him, he just..." Watanuki hesitated, he felt again the same sharp pain in his heart. Kurogane's expression was so hurt and worried, that he was starting to regretting Fai's wish.
"He just… what?" Kurogane asked, his voice trembling.
"Fai-san will just forget what he felt for you. Even if you try to make him remember everything, he will not be able to do it and his life will be in danger." Watanuki said facing the ninja.
"In... danger?" The ninja asked astonished.
"Yes, every time you try to force him to remember about something his life will decrease." Watanuki explained and Kurogane was still. Speechless. He felt his heart stop for a spit second, then it started to beat strongly and painfully. Kurogane almost died only hearing Watanuki's explanation.
"T-Then he... he... Will he forget about me?" He managed to ask, his voice low and weak. His body slightly shaking and his intense red eyes almost dead.
"No, Fai-san will continue to remember about you and almost everything you have done. Except the moments that helped him to realize his true feelings for you." Watanuki explained one more time.
Fai approached more from the mirror, and the mirror's glass broke. The blond was then able to touch directly his own conscience and finish what he said "Kuro-sama is the most important person to me. His entire existence is precious to my own existence, that's why he has to be happy even if I'm not." By this time his conscience had started to disappeared and Fai added dropping one more tear "But I will not remember about my true happiness, so... It's enough."
Suddenly, the golden cage shone one more time and started to fly until Watanuki's hands. Kurogane tried with all his might prevent the golden element to go, but in vain because the younger male pulled it to his world and said "Kurogane-san, if you really want this cage... If you wish with all your heart this to return to its owner, then try to retrieve it. This is the only advice I can give you about this. So... I wish you luck, Kurogane-san." With this, Watanuki disappears from Nihon Koku leaving behind a very shocked and hurt ninja.
Suddenly, Tomoyo noticed that Fai's body began to fall and shouted scared "Kurogane!"
The ninja looked at the mage and without hesitation ran to him, being able to grab his slender body. Feeling him in his arms, safe and alive, Kurogane squeezed him tightly as if he wanted to recover all the memories that had disappeared.
Tomoyo approached from both men and touching in the ninja's shoulder softly, said "Kurogane, he needs to rest. Take him to your room."
Without more wait, Kurogane took Fai to his room, laying him in his futon.
T^T my… what will Kuro-tan do to recover Fai's memories?
Then, see you (I hope tomorrow ^^)
Chuu*