Sorry guys if this chapter isn't that good, i lost it when i first wrote it and had to do it again! :(
ONE MONTH LATER
"Dan, i'm so nervous. I don't think that i can do this." i say, holding his hand tighter. "Hey come on Amy, believe in yourself. I know that you can do it." He comforts me and hugs me. I am backstage at a small theater in London for the launch of my book where i read the first chapter and then answer the audience's questions. I don't think that i have ever been so nervous before, i walk round the small room, biting on my lip and looking at Dan for encouragement whenever i feel like bolting for the door.
"Five minutes Amy." A stage hand pops her head round my door and i run to Dan, suddenly too scared to walk. "Calm down baby, take some deep breathes. If you get scared out there then just look to the audience for me, i'll be there." Dan puts his hands on the back of my head and slowly kisses me which is so heavenly that it leaves me light headed but less nervous.
He takes my hand and we walk out and down a long corridor. We reach the stage curtain and he gives me one last smile before going to take his place in the crowd. "Come on Amy,you can do this." I mutter to myself, ignoring the weird look i get from a stage hand. Then i hear my cue and walk out on the stage, blinded by the lights.
Two hours later and i'm sitting in the back of a taxi in Dan's arms, looking out of the window at a rainy London evening. "I'm so proud of you baby, you were brilliant." Dan tells me, stroking my hair. "Thank you, i honestly don't think that i could have done it without you." I reply, relaxing for the first time today. "Wow, it's just five months till the wedding now." I realise, doing the maths in my head. "Really? I don't think that i can wait that long to marry you and make you Mrs Howell." I giggle at the thought of no longer being Amy Smith, i loved the name Howell though. "There's still so much to do though."
I sigh, suddenly tired from the long busy day of book signings. "Hey, when are you going to tell me about our honeymoon?" I ask, Dan had begged me to let him organize the honeymoon all on his own. I had gotten slightly worried as the weeks went pass that he had forgotten all about it. "I'll tell you at the airport ok? And don't worry about the wedding love, i'll help you. Wow, i just keep thinking how lucky i am to be marrying you. Are you sure you made the right choice with me?" I lean back so that i can look up at Dan. "Don't be so silly. Of course i did Dan. I'm in love with you, that's why i turned Mark down." "But you didn't know me then?" He questions, frowning slightly. Then i realise that i need to tell him about Mark. "Actually, he of kind proposed again the last time he came up. Really freaked me out." I admit, studying Dan's face for a reaction. "What?" He says a little too loudly, "He proposed again? Why didn't you tell me Amy? I thought that we didn't have secrets?" "It doesn't matter Dan." I say, turning to look out of my window, watching the rain drops slide down the outside of the glass. "Yes, it does matter that my fiance's ex proposed to her without me knowing." I sense his anger in his tone and tense up. "Dan, i'm sorry ok? I wanted to forget about it, i haven't loved Mark for a long time." I explain calmly. "Amy." he says, i turn and see him looking at me, disappointment across his face.
We spend the rest of the journey in silence, both of us looking away from the other and the argument.