When the show finished, everything was quiet. If we uttered a word about it, it would be game over. So we waited. And, once the waiting was over, we smiled and posed and pretended. It's what we do best, right? But I couldn't wait to get home, there was no denying that. It was great. Those little things were priceless and so precious that I stored them in my mind forever. But then it was back to tinsel town, with the hair and the make up. I can't lie; I loved it. It was everything I imagined and everything I wanted but something was missing. Then, when the publicity started, it became harder to take. Once again, I loved it, but deep down I knew there was always something more to say, something more that I should mention when asked about my experience. Then came comic-con. I was ecstatic, totally psyched about being there. But, obviously, it was audience question time, which led to more self-hatred. A brown haired guy in the front row stepped up to the plate, looking determined.
"My question is for everyone. Did you ever kiss one of your co-stars of the same sex during the competition, if so when." Charlie nodded, a menacing look in his eyes. We all went down the line- starting with Blake- re living these stolen moments. Blake explains him and Michael's awkward moments and Michael nods along, chipping in when needed. Next was Lily, admitting that her and Aylin kissed numerous times for a dare, making Aylin burst into hysterics. Nellie shook her head, saying that she'd only kissed the guys in spin the bottle, her face becoming more red by the second. Shanna said about Shaylin in 'We found love', Aylin then adding how much she shipped Shaylin and commenting on an admirer who called about how 'Shaylin is the new Brittana'. Charlie bickered with Abraham about their kiss, also dropping Tyler in it. After hearing more interesting stories, it got to me.
"What about you Ali?" The presenter asked, looking expectantly at me. Subtly, I glance at Dani. I... I just can't...
"No, no one at all. Though the whole Charlie and Abe thing was pretty damn gruesome!" I laugh, trying to ignore Dani's sad eyes as she takes another sip of water, words frozen between us until another time, anywhere but here. Just smile Ali, no one will know.