A/N: Here is chapter three. I really appreciate your reviews, and everything. And it makes me want to continue this even more. So I'll leave this in this section. A Makoto headcanon, one that I use for my muse. I'll be leaving one per chapter until I run out of one or the other. Chapters or headcanons, whichever comes first.

Headcanon: Makoto isn't as cheery and jovial on the inside as he is on the outside. He takes his fear of the ocean very seriously, and has a serious fear of death as well. This phobia of death is linked to the fear of the ocean. This causes him to be severely depressed at times, and also a bit paranoid. But to keep his mind off of all the negativity, he swims.

Saturday, a day that felt empty and meaningless without Haru. The emptiness returned, and since I swam so much the days prior, my muscles ached. I really regret pushing the pain away. But what can I do? It's all said and done now.

I pulled my phone out from under my pillow, and checked the time. Eleven in the morning. It was definitely time for me to get out of bed. I felt like I wasted most of my day just thinking about someone who would never be in my life. I'd have to accept the fact that they'd be my friend and that's that. I couldn't waste any more time, even if the pain paralyzed me at times. I had to smile and nod, as I always did.

I dragged myself out of bed, and slipped on a white t-shirt, and some black jeans. Sleeping in my boxers made dressing convenient.

I exited my room, yawning. I was so sleepy today. Maybe I needed to splash some water on my face or something. I shouldn't be this exhausted.

"Onii-Chan!"
I smiled a little as the dynamic duo of my twin siblings latched onto me as they normally did. Their tiny hands grabbed onto my crisp, clean white shirt, and I couldn't help but smile.

"Ren, Ran, where's Mom?"

"She's in the living room with your friend," Ren answered, staring up at me with big brown eyes.

I blinked before asking, "Which friend is in the living room with Mom?" Panic started to build in my chest. I knew I was acting weird. I just hoped Haru hadn't come here to check up on me. I'd rather swim in the ocean than deal with him right now. I didn't want him to rip the gaping hole in my chest even further. I've had about enough of that just by seeing him in school and at practice.

Ran smiled a little. "Rin-Chan is here. We haven't seen him in so long, ne?"

I tried as hard as I could to keep my composure. The guy who was in my way was in my house, talking to my mother. I wanted to act like everything was fine, like I could keep that smile on my face. But this was too much. Maybe he had found out about my feelings and he was here to confront me, I'm not sure. But honestly, I wasn't happy about it.

I shrugged the twins off and entered the living room, seeing the redhead with my mom. "Oh, Rin. What brings you here?"

"Makoto, honey," my mom started. "Rin came here saying he had something urgent to talk to you about." Her eyes flickered with worry for a moment. "I'll go make you boys some snacks." She smiled a bit awkwardly and exited our comfortable living room.

"Makoto, mind if we take a walk? I have something to talk to you about," he mumbled, raking a hand through his red locks.

I nodded a little, heading towards the door. I slipped my shoes on, and my jacket hanging by the door. "Alright. Let's go then," I told him, flashing my smile as if his presence didn't affect me in any way.'

We left my house and walked down the road a little, the trees starting to recover from their nudity in the previous season. It was a beautiful sight, the trees coming back to life. But I really couldn't enjoy it. The air was thick with a tense aura. I could've probably sliced through it with a knife.

"So, Makoto, about what I wanted to say," Rin began awkwardly.

"What is it?"

"How can I tell Haru that I want to stay friends with him?" He quickly asked, like he was spitting out nasty medicine.

I huffed quietly, sticking my cold hands in my pockets. "Well, if I were you, I'd tell him honestly." I smiled a little. "I know it's not that easy, but in the end, Haru will thank you for being honest."

Rin smirked. "I knew I could count on you for this. You and Haru are joined at the hip. You'd definitely know how to handle any situation concerning him."

I chuckled dryly. If only he really knew. I was the one avoiding the waterbug right now. I didn't want to associate with him until my heart could stop hurting whenever I saw him. I couldn't depend on him for affection, for companionship. He wasn't always going to be there for me. He was going to eventually find a partner of his own. Why was I so delusional to think that partner would be me?

"Hey, thanks, Makoto. Really. This'll help me sort out the mess between Haru and me."

I nodded. "Yeah, no problem."

Yeah, this meant Rin and Haru weren't dating. But this still meant that Haru didn't have any feelings for me. Would he have slept with Rin if he did? I don't really think so.

I sighed, glancing up at the clear blue sky dotted with clouds. "Why don't you go talk to him, RIn? I'll be around here. I might walk for a little while longer."

Rin nodded. "I'll come back when I'm done. You just wait around here, okay?" He jogged off, down the path to Haru's house. Of course, it gave me a bit of hope since he was clearing things up, I suppose.

In the end, part of me knew that Haru couldn't and wouldn't love me. So I just walked and thought about the trees and the chilly temperatures for this time of year. But in the back of my mind, Haru stayed nestled there, torturing my every thought.

A/N: Three is done! I may not get to four till the day after tomorrow even though I really want to update. We'll see. I love this fic so much, and I hope you guys like it too. And since I'm having trouble deciding, I'm putting up a poll to help me decide which pairing to use in this fic. You guys should go vote, Please xD Till next time, love you!