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Chapter 6

Edward's POV

I jumped in the shower to ease the tension I was feeling. I really wasn't looking forward to dinner with Tanya tonight. I was so pissed for hooking up with her I could kick my ass. But my dick overruled the common sense I thought I possessed. Instead, I saw a great set of tits and a hot pussy that was for the taking. I thought she understood that this was just about sex, plain and simple. At least she had, until, like the asshole that I am, I invited her to the barbecue. As I remembered that day, I reflected how Tanya's eyes grew so fucking big. She was almost cat like, ready to pounce on her prey. I was too blinded by the blond hair, blue eyes and what looked like one fine ass to realize she was thinking long term. Idiot!

This day couldn't be over soon enough. Besides the bullshit with Tanya I would have to deal with, I was still reeling from this morning's meeting. I still wasn't able to wrap my head around what it was that happened when I met Isabella…Bella. It had to be just some fucked up bizarre encounter. That shit happens right? Emmett didn't miss a damn thing. He sure as hell had to rub it in my face that he picked up on it. He can be such a prick.

My phone starting buzzing, Christ who was it now! I looked down at the display and I breathed a sigh of relief.

"Hey Mom."

"Edward, how are you sweetheart?" My mother had the most calming voice. One of my favorite things about her, (besides how much she adored me) was the knack she had in diffusing stressful situations. Trust me, we Cullen's could stress. Well some of us that is.

"I'm good, how are you and Dad? Everything okay?" I just saw them a few days ago, other than my father still working too many hours, all seemed well.

"Edward, everything is fine. I just wanted to remind you that the benefit for the hospital is coming up. You did say you were going to be there."

Shit! Yeah, I did say that I would. This was a big deal for my Dad. Not only did it raise a ton of money for the hospital, but it also raised awareness of several specialties available at Fork's Community. My father was Chief of Surgery but he was very proud of the advancement the hospital had made in mental health.

"Oh, right. Yeah Mom, I remember. Can you give me the date again?" I better fucking mark this in my calendar.

"It's Saturday October 6th at the Eclipse, 8 PM." She was actually laughing a bit because she knew I had totally spaced this damn thing.

"October 6th, Eclipse, 8 PM. Got it." I wasn't surprised that it was being held at the Eclipse. It was probably the nicest hotel and convention centers located in Port Angeles.

"You know dear, you should ask Tanya to accompany you." Did I fucking hear her right? Fuck no!

"I don't think so Mom. In fact I am ending it with her tonight." I heard my mother sigh on the other end of the phone.

"Honey, what happened? She seemed really nice." Nice! Yeah, right. She wanted one thing -the Cullen name. I knew it, deep down inside I did. My smaller brain over ruled my larger one.

I didn't want to drag Tanya through the mud with my mother. It was more my fault than hers. I turned a blind eye because I was getting what I wanted. I wouldn't make that mistake again. Maybe it was time for me to grow the fuck up.

"She and I, we um, we just didn't have enough in common." The only thing we had in common was between the sheets.

"Edward, I worry about you. I just want you to find the girl who will steal your heart away and love you the way you deserved to be. It's all I want. I was hoping that the time you were spending with Tanya, perhaps she was the one." She sighed; I knew all too well what that meant. I wasn't giving this enough time.

"Mom, I know you want that for me. Maybe it will happen. But then again, maybe I'm just not the marrying kind." I was trying to not get pissed off but I could taste the anger on my tongue, the bitter tang of acid from the churning of my stomach.

"You have such a poor image of yourself. I don't understand why you see yourself as not worthy of a long lasting relationship. You are quite a catch Edward. Before you say anything about me being bias, I am speaking the truth." The catch was the Cullen name.

I hated that she worried about me. There was no way I was even going to mention Isabella Swan. Fuck, the minute I even mentioned the bizarre connection I felt with this girl, she would have me married with three kids. No fucking way was I going there now.

"Look Mom, I don't have time to get into this with you at the moment. I was getting ready to head out for dinner."

I wasn't in the mood for her psychoanalysis. Mom couldn't help it, she did major in psychology. It always came back to the bitch that had given birth to me. What mother would leave three young children? I didn't care how many times my father tried to explain, to me, there was never an excuse to do what she did. If she and my father had fallen out of love then fine - but to abandon your kids? That was some serious fucked up shit. I would be lying if I said it had not affected me. Emmett, well he seemed to deal with it differently. And Alice? Well she was barely one, and Esme raised her from the age of three. Too young to really understand, and although she knew Esme wasn't her biological mother, she was the only mother she had ever known. Whether kids were in my future or not, one thing I knew for sure, they would always know how much they were loved and wanted.

"Alright son. I didn't mean to upset you. My call was to remind you of the benefit. I love you Edward. Your happiness is what matters to me, I hope you realize that."

"I love you too. I know, I get it. I'll talk to you later."

~SyP~

Normally whenever I got behind the wheel of my SUV I was relaxed, not a care in the world. Tonight was an entirely different feeling. Anxiety, annoyance, and total 'I don't give a fuck' attitude. A big part of me just would have loved to have called Tanya and tell her we were done. She could go pound fucking sand for all I cared. As much of a dick as I was at times, my parents did raise me better than that. I guess I was just really pissed for even putting myself in this position. Just remember that next time fucktard! I wasn't going to swear off casual dating, but I sure as hell was going to be more selective. All the cards would be on the table; nothing would be assumed or taken for granted. Relationships and I were not a good mix.

Why did I even suggest New Moon? Christ, Tanya lived in Port Angeles and New Moon was just on the outskirts of Forks. Cullen you are so fucked! She would assume she was going to spend the night at my place. That wasn't happening. I had handled this whole thing shitty from the very beginning. Whatever, the damage was done; I needed to face the music and man up. I needed something to take edge off so I turned on my iPod. Delibes's Flower Duet from Lakmé began to fill the cabin of my vehicle filling me with calm and serenity. I took a deep breath and let it out.

~SyP~

Forty five minutes later I was outside Tanya's condo. I was tempted to just honk the horn but that was totally classless. So I parked and made my way up to her door. She had a pretty sweet townhouse in a small development. I rang the bell as I contemplated how this was going to go.

"Hey baby…." Immediately I was immersed in a haze of that heavy perfume that was her signature.

"Hey, ready to go?" I was in a hurry to get this show on the road.

"Whoa, what's the rush. Come on in."

Oh Fuck

Not good. It's not that I didn't think I could resist Tanya. Well that's not true; it was my dick that couldn't resist her. Keep your cool Cullen and this will all work out. I hope.

"I was surprised that you changed your mind about dinner tonight. This morning you told me you were too busy on Mondays." She was wearing tight jeans that she paired with an even tighter sweater. Pale pink with a neckline that was dangerously bordering on indecent in the way it accented her tits. I was starting to sweat. I am a dumbass.

"Well, that's normally how Monday's are, but my schedule ended up being lighter than I anticipated. Let's get going, I am starving. And my Tuesday is looking like it should be a Monday with all the shit Emmett and I have to power through." Let's just get the fuck out of here. The sooner we got to New Moon the sooner this night could end.

"How about a drink before we leave?" Her lips were candy apple red and glistened. She licked them as she looked at mine. Why did I feel like I was an animal being cornered?

"I'm driving Tanya, and haven't had anything to eat since lunch. I don't think it's a good idea for me to have any alcohol until I put something inside my stomach." Now that was the truth.

"Are you alright? You seem a bit tense." Tanya walked towards me and started to run her fingers through my hair.

"Don't." I stared her down and she backed away.

"Okay, I get it. You are tired and hungry. Honestly Edward if you were feeling this way maybe you should have called to cancel. We could have rescheduled."

Once I made up my mind there was very little anyone could do to change it. The more I thought about what I had been doing with Tanya the more I started to feel like a heel. I knew that she hadn't complained, fuck it wasn't like she didn't get what she wanted. Well not all that she wanted. The sex had been decent and I made a point of seeing that she was satisfied. What a guy.

~SyP~

I parked the Cayenne far enough from other cars since the last fucking thing I wanted was my doors dinged. Not after spending a hefty amount on this SUV. I loved it; I was such a boy at times. You know what they say "boys and their toys." I was quiet for most of the ride to New Moon. Actually there was really no point in talking as Tanya rambled on about some bullshit about her upcoming shopping spree with some friends in Seattle this weekend. I wanted to just say shut the fuck up as it was becoming increasingly annoying listening to her banter. Now that I had made up my mind that I was cutting her lose every little thing she did was a pain in my ass. I was beginning to think taking her out to dinner was a really bad move on my part. Why the fuck didn't I just tell her this morning? Whatever, I hadn't so now I had to deal with the consequences.

I opened her door; she slid her legs out and grabbed my arm for support. Not that it was really necessary; she just wanted her hands on me. It was very clear before we left her place that she wanted to delay heading out. I couldn't tell her over dinner. That would be such a douchebag move. I was left with only one choice and that was to break it to her when we got back to her place. No matter where or when it was going to be uncomfortable, I had visions of her slapping the shit out of me or throwing objects at my head. I wasn't saying that I didn't deserve it but then again we had never discussed the ground rules. I just assumed she knew we had an uncomplicated arrangement. We had some laughs, dinner and drinks and then fucked. It worked for me until this morning when big brown eyes invaded my core. I didn't really understand what that meant. I wasn't even sure if I was willing to find out. The only thing I did recognize is that I was no longer interested in fucking Tanya.

We walked into the restaurant and immediately I suggested we head over to the bar for a cocktail before we grabbed a table for dinner. Tanya was more than fine with it. I ordered a Jack and coke and Tanya ordered an Appletini. I had the bartender put it on my tab after telling him we were having dinner. The bar was actually more crowded than I imagined it would be on Monday night. The music was loud but not enough to drown out Tanya's continuation of her babbling on about the trip to Seattle.

"Kate and I are so excited about shopping at Pacific Place." Tanya's hand was lingering on my knee.

"Mmmm, oh really. Cool." I was so not fucking into this. I would rather have had a root canal then endure this fucking shit. And take your hand off my God damn knee!

"I guess they have quite a collection of shops and we plan on hitting everyone." Whoopee fucking do!

I half listened to what was coming out of her mouth while the other half of me was wondering what a certain mouth would taste like. Here I am sitting in a bar with one girl while my mind is on another. Cullen, you are the epitome of insensitivity. My parents would be so proud.

After too many minutes of Tanya's monologue I ushered her towards the dining room so we could get dinner over with. It was nearly 8 PM, I was starved and I wanted the night to end as soon as at all possible. Preferably with my balls still attached to my dick.

We entered the dining room, the hostess asked how many in our party then motioned for us to wait a moment to ensure a table for two was available. Again the room looked full for a Monday night. I didn't know if there was some kind of event going on around the surrounding area or if people just decided to hit New Moon for the hell of it.

While we waited for the hostess to reappear I casually scanned the room. It was spacious; I guess you could say there was about close to forty tables in the dining room. The décor was anything but relaxing which was the whole theme behind New Moon. Nothing ostentatious which frankly would be out of place since Forks and the immediate area was anything but that. People here were very laid back and appreciated the simple things. If you wanted something more then you had to find it in Port Angeles or even better Seattle.

"Thank you for waiting, right this way." The hostess was an attractive raven haired woman, I was guessing in her late twenties maybe early thirties. She was new. I didn't remember seeing her before. It wasn't like I fucking lived in this place but I was here enough to know plenty of the staff. I noticed as she gave me the once over before starting to cross the dining room to lead us to our table. Look your fill sweetheart, that's all you're gonna get.

Tanya was leading the way behind the hostess when I heard one of the tables off to the right. Voices raised in laughter and even some snorting. I guess someone was telling one hell of a story.

Fuck me!

I had to take a second look because the first time I didn't believe my eyes. Isabella Swan, Bella. The giggling and laughing was coming from her, well she was one of the participants in whatever the fuck was going on at that table. And just what was going on? Who was the blonde fucker sitting next to Bella? Why did it fucking bother me? It's not like she was my girl, she was far from mine period. Why did I feel myself getting all alpha male when that blonde joker had his arm around her chair?

Bella looked…there's simply no other word to describe her but breathtaking. From where I was standing I could see she had on pair of jeans and a black sweater. But the contrast of the black sweater and her coloring gave her an ethereal air. Like she wasn't of this world, any minute I was waiting for her wings to fucking sprout out from her back and truly show me that she was an angel. Winking from above the rise of her breasts (yeah I said breasts not tits, what the fuck is up with that?) was the same necklace with that medal that she had on this morning. At that moment I wanted to be that medal. I wanted to feel the warmth and the beat of her heart as I rested my hand there.

We made our approach by their table at the same time that Bella bent over to pick up her napkin that had obviously fallen from her lap. I didn't even think, I just reacted, before I knew it I was on bended knee grabbing the napkin as my eyes locked with laughing chocolate ones. Staring at her I could tell I was the last person she had figured she would bump into here of all places.

We were suspended in time, in that moment it was only her and I fixated on each other. Her fragrance enveloped me like a warm summer day, fuck she was so beautiful. I didn't remember the smattering of freckles across her nose earlier today. Her scent, her face, her hair, her eyes, everything about her drew me as if she had the power to hypnotize me. I was the first one to break the contact before Tanya flipped, like I needed her to cause a fucking scene.

"Isabella, it's nice to see you again." I handed her the napkin as I was rose up towering over her, over the table running my fingers through my hair.

"Ah…Edward. Yes, what a small world." Clearly she was shaken by our encounter. She was blushing again. Jesus Christ that made me hard. Next to me Tanya cleared her throat. I wasn't going to make introductions. I wasn't going to borrow trouble; I had enough of my own.

"I apologize for interrupting; enjoy the remainder of your dinner." I touched Tanya's elbow and maneuvered her to our destination. It was close enough that I could still see Bella. Was that a good idea?

"Who was that?" Okay here we go. Tanya's claws were coming out. She looped her arm through mine and practically had her body plastered to my side. Staking a claim?

Fuck my life.

"She's no one." Shit why did that sound so wrong coming out of my mouth.

"She didn't look like no one." I sensed the barb in her tone.

"Tanya, really is this important?" I really didn't think Tanya deserved an explanation. Part of me wanted to keep Bella secretly ensconced in my own private place. I could see Tanya's eyes flare and her mouth compress into a hard line.

Oh fuck, really.

"She works for the company that has hired E & E Designs to build their new headquarters. We met this morning, I had a meeting remember?" Why did I find it necessary to justify my actions?

"Oh, yes. You did say you had a meeting this morning."

Can we drop this? I was doing my best to avert my eyes from Bella's shoulders, doing a pretty decent job. Suddenly Bella and the rest of her table got up. I guess that solved my problem with my wandering eye.

~SyP~

The drive back to Tanya's went the same as the drive to New Moon. I was quiet for the most part while she gave me her whole opinion on how the service at the restaurant could have been better. After all she pointed out; they knew I was a regular patron. Therefore I should receive exceptional service. All the while she was beating this dead horse, my mind was elsewhere. Like where was Bella right now? Was that blonde dude her boyfriend? Fuck, of course she would have a boyfriend. A girl like that couldn't be unattached. So she preferred the blonde, blue eyed type. That was fucking typical. I guess it just surprised me because I didn't find her to be anything but typical. What the fuck are you talking about? You have met her twice? Get grip Cullen!

I pulled outside Tanya's townhouse, tired and slightly annoyed. It annoyed me that I ran into Bella and she affected me the way that she did. It annoyed me that I had to waste a few hours humoring Tanya, when I could have been at home whacking it. It annoyed me that I wanted to know where Bella was right now and what she was doing and with whom. Yeah I know with whom, fucker. I was fucking annoyed period. What a way to end a Monday, can I get a do over?

"Edward, care to come in for a drink?" Her voice was dripping sweet and I felt a cavity coming on.

"I don't think so Tanya. I have to drive back home, I did have a couple at the restaurant."

"Well, instead of alcohol, how about a cup coffee?" Her hand that had been in her lap was now on my lap and old fucking faithful noticed.

Jesus Fucking Christ!

I promised myself I wasn't going to fall into this again. But I had to go in didn't I? I still had to tell her that I didn't want to see her anymore.

"Sure, coffee sounds good."

Tanya was busy in the kitchen getting the coffee on. Her place was cute. It wasn't overly large but it was roomy. Her living and dining rooms were an open concept that led to the kitchen. She had two bedrooms one of which was the master that was all decked out in feminine tones and prints. The girl had a fondness for pink. The first time I saw her bedroom I thought a case of Pepto Bismol had exploded. In fact I was rather amazed I was able to get stiff and keep it up long enough to fuck her. It's one of those colors that if you had a hangover the sheer sight of the walls would make you vomit.

"Hey sweetie, I will be right out with the coffee."

Ten o'clock. Okay, I would drink a cup then just get right to it. I had rehearsed it enough my head to know short and sweet was the best avenue to take.

Tanya walked out from the kitchen carrying a tray with two cups, creamer and sugar. Christ you would think after the few months we had spent together she knew I took my coffee black. I guess she didn't notice the little things.

The couch dipped beside me as Tanya sat down. Too close for my liking considering she was in the perfect range to do some bodily damage if she didn't take what I had to say well.

The coffee was hot and it felt good as it flowed down my throat. I placed my cup back onto the serving tray and turned slightly towards her. Tanya moved closer to me as her right hand began stroking my chest trailing her had down towards my waist.

"Tanya…." I started to tell her to stop when she unbuckled my pants and pulled my zipper down. Oh fuck. She had my dick out from boxers in a flash and it pulsed in her hand. This was not part of my plan. I needed to tell her to back off. But my little head wanted nothing of the kind. It wanted some release. She pushed me back on to the couch as she sprung up and dropped to her knees.

"Just relax baby, let me take care of you. You seem so tense." Her fingers rubbed the tip of my dick and it felt engorged like I could come at any second. I closed my eyes and immediately I envisioned a brunette whose hand and fingers were playing my dick so well. It was her breath I felt as it neared her quarry, her tongue that lapped the tip. I wanted so badly to feel her mouth around me, maybe I could just keep my eyes closed and think of her as Tanya sucked me off.

No! This was wrong, all wrong. Regardless that I didn't give two shits about Tanya, she was still a human being right? She had feelings? I knew she wanted more from me than I was willing to give. If I continued to let her pleasure me like this I was no better than the man whore Emmett said I was.

"Tanya, no. Just stop." I pulled her hand off me and moved away tucking myself back into my boxers, zipping my pants and refastening my belt.

"What the fuck Edward." She gave me a look of 'are you seriously passing up a blow job?'

I didn't know how to take that, actually I did. When did I ever turn down a blow job from Tanya? Never, that's when.

"Tanya, you and me…it's just not working anymore."

3, 2, 1…

"Excuse me! It's not working anymore? Just what does that mean exactly?" Tanya got up and stood tall

, like a towering inferno. Her face was turning red while she narrowed her eyes, almost to the point that they looked like two slits.

Oh fuck…not good.

"Look, we had some fun; I really enjoyed our time together. But it was just that." Oh smooth Cullen.

"Fun, you call what we were doing fun?" Yup, she was pissed.

"Well, yeah. It was casual, but I don't think we ever thought this was going anywhere."

"Fuck you Edward! Fuck you! You are some piece of work you know that? God how could I be such an idiot!" She was fuming and I was nervous that flying objects were about to be aimed at my head.

"Tanya, come on. I don't think we ever discussed that we were exclusive. I'm sorry if I led you on. I didn't mean to." I sounded sincere, fuck I was. Seriously, I didn't want to hurt the girl. But I wasn't lying. Never once did we discuss that we were exclusive. It wasn't like I saw her every night.

"Jesus, Edward I met your family! What was that?"

"You came to one barbecue; don't make it out to be more than what it was." Like I said that was the biggest mistake I made other than tangling up with her. Such a douche bag!

"I think you should leave. What kind of guy takes a girl out to dinner, then back to her place to break it off? Who are you?" Her voice got louder and it almost sounded like she was on the verge of tears.

"So you would have rather I called you up on the phone and tell you I didn't think we should see each other anymore? I'm sorry Tanya. I guess maybe I fucked this up all around. "

"Oh you can say that again. Go ahead Edward leave. I won't be surprised if you come back once you realize what you are missing." Her composure was back in tact as she spit those words out standing straight with her arms crossed. Well at least she wasn't planning on throwing anything at me. Yet….

I walked to the front door and opened it while I heard Tanya call me a 'fucking asshole.'

I couldn't disagree.

A/N: Thank you for those of you who are taking this little journey with me. I hope you have liked what you have read so far. What are your thoughts about Edward? Do you think he acted fairly in regards to Tanya? I does look like Bella is getting under his skin...what are your thoughts?

To Jlyn and DennaRose...you know how I feel. xoxoxo