Hey guys! So I'm gonna start with Peeta's POV :) I've finally decided to continue their love story from here, but Peeta will be unsure about how he felt and does feel towards Katniss. Also if will add the scone recipe, but it will be maybe a couple chapters away. I am spending most of my Christmas break with my grandmother, and the recipe is unreachable at this moment! Sorry. But I will say scones are SO good. It took me a while to think of what katniss and Peeta could bake for a decent meal. Anyways, this is my chapter going deeper into Peeta's feelings. Also thanks for all the reviews! I love reading them, even if that sounds cheesy. It also really helps. Enjoy!

Peeta POV:

Katniss's lips felt so good on mine. But, it doesn't feel right. It's really hard to explain. Especially at this moment, after all that has happened between us. My memories with Katniss are still fuzzy. I'm not quite so sure if that all of that is true, it's still not as clear as it needs to be. Gale told me that the kiss in the quell was definately real. He said I won her over, that she never kissed him like that. I may have been shown videos, but that only shows what happened between us. That could have been part of the plan, or the show. I may see the memories, but I will never actually see them. I can't relive them, I don't know how I was feeling during/towards them. I will never see what I saw in Katniss before, apparently.

I just can't remember. No matter how hard I try. I get flash backs, memories, and attacks, but that only shows me the memory. Not how I felt. I probably will never be able to know why I fell in love with Katniss. How I felt towards her. I may have over thought it when I kissed her, it felt a little unnatural. I can't figure out how I truly feel about Katniss Everdeen. Why did I kiss her? In that one moment did I truly remember how amazing she was? I figure I have to find out pretty quick. She's nice to have around, I like being with her. No question.

Katniss left about five minutes after I kissed her, she took a bag of scones with her. They turned out nice. She seemed eager to learn, but more eager to spend time with me. Katniss certainly did kiss back, and there was absolutely no rejection in her eyes. I guess I never thought about Katniss's feelings towards me. I can't imagine how she must have felt when I was taken away from here, and my mind was hijacked. Especially if she really loved me, like every one says she did. The problem is, I can't get any of those memories back. I don't know how Katniss or I felt. I wish I could remember, I wish I could remember so badly.

I decide I need to figure this out, or maybe talk to Katniss. Not nessecarily saying that the kiss was bad, or it was the wrong thing to do. I do not want her to think our friendship is simply ruined.

If it is friendship, anyways. It was probably more than that to her.

I understand it will be hard to relive the past, but I need to learn about the past between us some more.

Katniss has left about an hour ago, I grab a light jacket with shoes and head outside. It's not as cold as it was, since Katniss slipped on ice and we started talking more. It's been a few months, maybe five. They have gone by so fast, spending time with Katniss. I approach the door after walking for about two minutes. I brace myself before knocking on the door, hoping this isn't a mistake. It's about four seconds before the door opens. Katniss smiles.

"Peeta." She says.

"Hey Katniss," I say back to her.

We stay silent for a moment before Katniss asks, "Did you want to come in?"

"Yeah," I breathe. "For a little while. Can I?"

"Yes, of course." Katniss says opening the door wider for my entrance. She closes the door, and leads me to the couch. It's just like my house, I don't think I've ever been in hers.

"Is something wrong?" She asks after taking her seat beside me. She looks concerned. All I had been doing was staring at my feet, searching for words to say.

"Oh no, nothing. I thought maybe we could play that game, that Jackson made up." I say. Maybe she forgot about me kissing her, or maybe she just simply wants to forget. I'm not quite so sure if I want to forget. Maybe it meant nothing to her.

"Real or not real?" She asks.

"I thinks that's the name of it." I nod.

"Okay sure, what's your question?" She asks. I have many questions to ask, although I do not want to pressure her too much. It would dig up the past way more than I intended to. But, I end up asking the question that has been eating away my thoughts since the rebellion.

"The Quarter Quell kiss, was it all an act?" I ask anxiously. I need to know the answer to this. This, might determine my future with her.

She hesitates before she answers,

"Not real." She says. "At least to me. That kiss was 100% real to me. It was real in my head that it was our millionth, but in my heart I knew it was only our first. Don't get confused, the answer is 'not real' but that kiss was real to me. It was not an act. I never got to figure out if was real to you too, and I guess now we'll never know." She says, trying to fight back tears. I look at her with a straight face, I don't know what I am going to do.

I then ask another question, taking it slowly with all the memories.

"Did you think it was real to me? The kiss?" I ask.

I know katniss wants so badly to cry. I want to tell her its okay to, but then she won't be able to stop.

"I don't know. I'm sure part of it was for the audience to you. You were probably certain I did it for the cameras. You never mentioned the baby when you were talking about me needing to survive and return to my family. You never said to take care of our child, or that we need each other, and I could learn to grieve with our beautiful baby. That too, was for the audience. I hoped with all my heart you would believe me when I said that I needed you, because I did. Only I would be damaged if you died, Peeta. You made me who I am today, and I hadn't even been able to repay you for all the favors you did for me. It's possible you thought the whole scene was for the cameras. It's more than likely, actually. You never disappoint, but I had no other way of explaining to you that I wouldn't be able to live without you." She looks at me with glassy eyes, waiting for a response. When I don't give her one, she answers for me.

"It's okay, if you don't love me anymore, Peeta. Only you could tell me if you knew what I felt for you then was real. Unfortunately, that's not an option anymore. It's okay if you think that things could never be the same between us, I understand."

Then. 'Only you could tell me if you knew what I felt for you then was real.' Maybe she is saying I should just forget I ever kissed her. I want to know more.

"Katniss, did you love me? Then?" I make sure to add 'then' because I know whatever she felt for me is now gone. If she even felt anything.

"I didn't realize until you were gone. Until that one night in the beach, I was sure I had feelings for you then and before the quell. I could never shake my connection with you, when you tossed me that bread. The kisses, that were not part of the act, left me wanting more. I never even realized until you were gone. Completely. And then you didn't love me anymore, how could you? I was basically a stranger. I wish you would have at least known before being hijacked. Being taken away from who you love without knowing they love you back? Without ever coming back to them the same? That's probably the worst torture. I don't know how much you have been through, but I'm sure that was the worst for you while you could still remember. I know it would be for me. I wish I had more days with the old you, the one who loved me. To tell you how I felt. I'm so sorry that didn't happen. And even more so for what did happen."

This is when the tears finally start to fall down from those eyes, those beautiful eyes. They don't have that glow, the look of happiness. All I can see now is sorrow and regret. I cannot even imagine how she must be feeling. It's clear she knows I'm not in love with her, and she made it seem like her feelings for me are gone. I don't know how to decide on my feelings right at this second. I cannot even form words. So instead, to escape the coughs escaping from her mouth, I silence them with my mouth pressed to hers. She still hiccups, halfway, but I don't pull back until I think she stops, and realizes I'm waiting on her. I bring my hands up her cheeks and cup her face. It feels natural to take her face in my hands. I can feel the warm tears that have slid down her face. I pull back, but my lips are still on hers. Once lips finally detach from hers, I look her in the eye and wipe away her tears with my thumb. She really does have beautiful eyes. Now that the tears are wiped away from her face, I finally have the courage to say,

"Now there are those same, irresistible eyes that I fell head over heals for before."

A smile escapes her lips.

I chose my words carefully. She sniffles and I rub her back, telling her it is okay. Hers eyes are much more beautiful when they are not filled with tears.

She nods. I will determine how I feel about Katniss and what is going on between us later. I can work for here. I have history with Katniss, and neither of those kisses were for nothing.

Right now, she needs someone to hold her.

So I do exactly that, for the rest of the night.

Sorry if this chapter was disappointing, it was mainly about Peeta trying to figure out what is going on and reviewing the past about how katniss truly felt before he was hijacked. Leave some reviews for me :) I love reading hem waking up in the morning! Should I do Peeta POV for the next chapter? Both of them will really be determining how they should feel towards one another. Katniss already knows she still loves Peeta. Peeta is heading in that direction, but is having trouble deciding if that is what is actually happening between them, and what should happen, and what not. It will take another chapter or two for him to figure it out. And even more before he gets the courage to ask if she still loves him after all that time. I hope you guys liked it! Tell me what you think :)