AN:IMPORTANT MESSAGE BELOW!
Pain is a gift.
Humanity, without pain, would know neither fear nor pity.
Without fear, there could be no humility,
and every man would be a monster.
The recognition of pain and fear in others gives rise in us to pity,
and in our pity is our humanity,
our redemption.
DEAN KOONTZ, Velocity
2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him.
Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors,
so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites.
You're all here for the very same reason
'Cause you can't jump the track,
we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass,
glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe,
just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him.
Maybe I'll just sing about it.
Cause you can't jump the track,
we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass,
glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe,
just breathe
There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made,
you'll just make them again
If you'd only try turning around.
2 AM and I'm still awake,
writing a song If I get it all down on paper,
it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary,
screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them,
however you want to
But you can't jump the track,
we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass,
glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe,
just breathe woah breathe,
just breathe,
Oh breathe,
just breathe,
Oh breathe,
just breathe.
~Breath (2AM)~
Anna Nalick
"Couldn't sleep?"
He scoffed. "You didn't tell me you kept Satan in your bedroom."
My eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
Satan? I don't remember him in your room.
Neither do I - maybe he just stopped in for a visit.
"Satan?" I asked, thoroughly confused.
He threw something at me and I caught it, surprisingly, and I looked at my phone - sighing as I saw Satan ringing me, and I flipped my phone open - biting my lip. "Hi, Mum."
"Antoinette Swan, where have you been? I've been ringing you for the past week."
I sighed, running a hand through my hair. "I'm sorry but I've been, urgh, busy."
"Doing what? Your in bloody Forks - what's there to do!"
Help my dying cousin with her mutant spawn baby.
Can't do that in any place now, can I?
"I met someone."
Silence met me.
"What?"
I smiled to Jake before stepping out onto the porch, looking at the grey skies above and I gnawed at my lip as I sat on the steps. "I met a gu-"
"Who is he? Is he a drug addict? Have you had sex yet? Do you know the consequences of getting pregnant at sixteen? Are you taking your tablets? Who is this guy? Why aren't you answering me?"
Okay.
Your mum is crazy.
YOUR APART OF ME?
Why can't you get that?
I don't want to be associated with you!
"His name is Jacob, he's not a drug addict-" Not that I know of "-we haven't had sexual intercourse yet-" Yet? "I do know the consequences of getting pregnant at sixteen - I remember the documentary. What tablets? What are you even talking about? And I am answering you now. Happy, now?"
I heard her sigh. "Why didn't you tell me? I mean, you've never had a boyfriend before-"
"Who told you that?"
Seriously, who told her that?
"Oh, I just assumed. Have you had a boyfriend before?"
Begrudgingly admitting that I hadn't was like walking on fire. "No. I could've, though."
Sure, sure.
"I'm sure you could've. So, what's he like?"
Biting my lip, I couldn't help the smirk that tugged at my lips. "He's nice. And really good looking, like Greek God good looking, and he is just great."
"Is that the description I get? I gave birth to you, Antoinette, do you really hate me that much?"
It was tempting to say yes.
I scoffed. "Of course I don't hate you." I felt hands on my shoulders and I looked back, smiling at Jake. "Listen, Mum, I got to go - I'll call you soon, okay?"
"Okay - be safe. Love you."
I smiled. "Love you too."
I turned around, snapping my phone shut and I looked up at Jake - cocking my eyebrows, wondering why he was out here and he smiled. "We didn't finish talking."
"Oh, I totally forgot about that, you know, with the whole being able to read the baby's mind, it's been slightly crazy." I explained, apologising. "So, what did you want to talk about. That imprinting stuff, right?"
He shook his head. "It's not just stuff, Anna."
I smiled, nodding. "I know. It's finding your soul mate, and crap like that, right?"
"You know, if you would stop making fun of it, I would be able to tell you what I've been trying to for the last day."
I nodded. "Right, okay, go ahead. Spill the beans. I'm all ears."
Jake nodded, his hands shaking and he looked to me. "You know how, urgh, you hit me with that car?"
I nodded. "Can't exactly forgot things like that."
"Well, uhm, you know how I was looking at you weird when I walked in on you..." He drawled on, looking over my body and I rolled my eyes.
"Yes, when I was stark naked - carry on."
He nodded. "Well, uhm, I - urgh, imprinted on you."
What.
What?
WHAT!
Oh, holy mother of Jesus fuck.
How had this happened? I'm pretty sure that when I had made my way up to Forks, I had promised myself that I wouldn't stay here any longer than a week. How could I have let this happen - how could I have run a werewolf over, it was just so ... Random!
Everything about you is random.
But why did it have to be me! Why couldn't it be some unlucky, small town girl who just thought she was going to stay here for the rest of her life so when he ... Imprinted on her, it wouldn't be like 'oh, holy fuck' it would be more like 'Oh, well, that's okay - why don't you stick your dick in me and I'll start popping the babies out now, then, shall we?'.
But I wasn't like that - I couldn't be like that!
And I hated children!
"Anna?"
His voice cut through my swirling and uncontrollable thoughts that threatened to consume my mind and I felt my eyelids droop as I tried to comprehend that I was his ... Soul mate.
I was his imprint.
Eh.
And I repeat, Eh.
I met his dark eyes and I felt my chest contract with the painful truth that I realised, that Jacob Black was compatible with me in every way, yet I had no choice in whether I even wanted to love him, or marry him.
It was like it was just expected!
I had a life that I wanted to live - I wanted to go to Paris, and London and oh, how I wanted to get out of the confines of my parents watchful eye and just explore.
Yet it seemed like my future had already been made up for me.
And then there was the fact that imprinting was something that couldn't be controlled, and I'm sure if some of the wolves had a choice - they wouldn't even want to choose that sort of lifestyle. A lifestyle controlled by their instincts, and not by themselves.
And then there was Bella - the woman he had loved before me.
The woman he had chosen to love.
He probably didn't even want to ... Love me.
It's not like we had even come close to saying that we love each other, I mean, we had only known each other for only a couple of weeks, and yet we were soul mates?
I couldn't do this now - I needed to leave.
"I can't do this at the moment." I said emotion devoid from my voice as I got up, walking around Jacob. Not meeting his eyes, I grabbed the door. "I'll, uhm, think about this."
Going into the living room, I didn't meet anyone's eyes as I walked on the hard wooden floors - sitting down on the couch and I paid no attention to the agonized howl that filled the house as I watched Jake retreat into the forest.
"Anna, may I talk to you for a second?"
I nodded, following Edward Cullen up the stairs and into a study with elaborate works of art of the walls yet I barely paid attention to it as I met Edwards eyes, pursing my lip. "How's Bella"
"The progress, I believe, is more than we'd judged. When Carlisle returns—"
"When are they coming back?" I asked, impatience flowing through me. "I know Alice and Jasper are. Did Carlisle end up sending all the blood for Bella?"
Edward nodded. "Yes, but it won't last more than a day. Carlisle stayed to try another source. I don't think that's necessary now, but he wants to be covered for any eventuality."
"Why isn't it necessary? If she needs more?"
He looked to me, his dark eyes agonized. "I'm trying to persuade Carlisle to deliver the baby as soon as he is back."
"What?"
"The child seems to be attempting to avoid rough movements, but it's difficult. He's become too big. It's madness to wait, when he's clearly developed beyond what Carlisle had guessed. Bella's too fragile to delay."
I nodded. It was the most sensible way to go.
Edward Cullen is finally making sense.
When your going through a nervous breakdown.
"That's good. At least we'll know it won't be out of our control."
Edward shook his head. "We're still going in dark. It's still dangerous."
"You think she's going to make it," I whispered.
"Yes. That was the other thing I wanted to talk to you about."
"Yes," he said again. "Waiting, as we have been, for the child to be ready, that was insanely dangerous. At any moment it could have been too late. But if we're proactive about this, if we act quickly, I see no reason why it should not go well. Knowing the child's mind is unbelievably helpful. Thankfully, Bella and Rose agree with me, as I'm sure you will. Now that I've convinced them it's safe for the child if we proceed, there's nothing to keep this from working."
"When will it happen?" I asked, meeting his eyes.
"By noon tomorrow."
I closed my eyes. "Holy shit."
"We don't have much time."
I opened my eyes, meeting his. "And what happens if-if she dies?"
Edward looked to me, pain of unimaginable capacity filling his perfect features. "If-if something happens, I need you to take the baby. Take it away from me - take Jacob with you."
I shook my head. "I can't take your child away from you. Bella wouldn't want that."
"Bella would be dead - and the foetus would be alive. She'd have gotten everything she wanted."
I cringed at the cold nature of that statement, and I shook my head. "I've done more than enough-"
"Are you saying you wouldn't do more for Bella? That you wouldn't do this for her? For me?"
Not for you, dumbass.
I bit my lip. "I will do whatever it takes to keep them safe. But I can't take a child - I can't take a baby. I'm only sixteen."
Yet you've already met your soul mate.
"Anna?"
Tearing my gaze away from Edwards, I made my way down the stair case - smiling as I saw Bella. "Hey, Belly. "
She smiled. "Hey Anna - did Edward tell you?"
I nodded, mustering up a forced smile. "Yeah. It's great, isn't it - you'll get the baby out tomorrow."
She nodded, smiling. "Yep. I'm so excited."
"I bet it's been the longest three weeks of your life?"
She looked to me before giggling incontrollable and I laughed with her, not noticing the fact that the door had opened and the sound of large feet bouncing off the floor snapped my head up as I watched him come into the room - his eyes boring into mine and I bit my lip, looking down as I averted my gaze.
Suddenly, Bella made a familiar face that had been overcoming her normally porcelain features over the past couple of days. "Rose?" she asked.
I heard Roses chuckle. "Again?"
"I think I've drunk two gallons in the last hour," Bella explained.
I got out of the way while Rosalie came to lift Bella from the couch and take her to the bathroom."Can I walk?" Bella asked. "My legs are so stiff."
"Are you sure?" Edward asked.
"Rose'll catch me if I trip over my feet. Which could happen pretty easily, since I can't see them."
Rosalie set Bella carefully on her feet, keeping her hands right at Bella's shoulders. Bella stretched her arms out in front of her, wincing a little.
"That feels good," she sighed. "Ugh, but I'm huge."
She really was. Her stomach was its own continent/planet and don't even get me started on those planets that sat on her chest.
"One more day," she said, and patted her stomach.
I couldn't help the small smile that fluttered onto my lips as I watched her stretch her fingers before sighing.
"All righty, then. Whoops—oh, no!"
The cup Bella had left on the sofa tumbled to one side, the dark red blood spilling out onto the pale fabric. Automatically, though three other hands beat her there, Bella bent over, reaching out to catch it.
There was the strangest, muffled ripping sound from the centre of her body."Oh!" she gasped.
And then she went totally limp, slumping toward the floor.
I shot up, watching as Rosalie caught her in the same instant, before she could fall. Edward was there, too, hands out, the mess on the sofa forgotten.
"Bella?" he asked, and then his eyes unfocused, and panic shot across his features.
A half second later, Bella screamed.
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I'm kidding, of course. Why would I give up this story?
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