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Kirova started to laugh. "You teaching? Kids? This is ridiculous. What do you know about subjects on this school?"

"I know how to fight. I can be a trainer. Or a school guardian. I just need to stay here." I said.

"Guardian Petrov!" she yelled. It was unexpected so I flinched. Alberta came in looking at the floor, ashamed. It was obvious that she was listening to the conversation outside the door.

"Yes, Headmistress Kirova?" she said when she stopped and stood on my left side.

"As you heard, Rose wants to work on this Academy." She crossed her fingers and looked so… so Kirova. I never liked that look. "Well the thing is, that all of us know how good are you with rules and doing the things we tell you to." She said and raised one eyebrow.

"I promise that I will listen and obey the rules." I said. But she didn't believe me. "I swear that I'll do that." I say.

"Well, if I may say, Rose is an amazing fighter. And we all know that novices on this school need to be as good as possible, because strigois are getting stronger and smarter. I think that with giving Rose a chance of teaching novices how to fight, we will save a lot of Moroi lives." Alberta helped me. Now it looked like Kirova could change her mind about this.

"Are you sure, you are not running from any kind of law?"

"Most surely." I say and nod.

"Then welcome on board. Guardian Petrov is going to walk you to the offices. I'm going to inform them about you. You are going to get a room, school clothes, and a schedule of your classes. We are a little out of guardian staff. One time a week you are going to guard the property." I felt a huge rock rolling of my chest. Kirova stood up and so did I. "And do not… DO NOT even try to do things your way. Because if you do… you'll regret it." She gave me a look that scared the crap out of me. We shook our hands and I left with Alberta.

At the office, a secretary gave me everything I needed. Alberta walked me to my room to help me with my bags and then left, because it was her turn to guard the Academy.

I came in my room and looked at it. It was small but enough for me. I had a bed by the door to my bathroom, a desk by the window and also a wardrobe large enough for all my stuff.

I can't believe that my faith brought me here, again. On the Academy. A place I was running away from. But I had to do this. My hands touched my stomach again.

I had to do this for my child. I'm going to live here and my child is going to be with me on this Academy. I don't want to be like my mother. I don't want to leave my child alone...

So this is it. I'm a teacher now. God knows I never even thought about becoming something like this.

I felt sick and threw up later. I wanted to take a walk around, but I was feeling too dizzy for that. I looked at my schedule. I had classes 4 times a week. And on Wednesdays I had to guard the school during the day. I felt nervous about my first class tomorrow.

I set my alarm, take a shower and jump in my bed. I fell asleep quickly but I had nightmares all night long.

I dreamt about Dimitri telling me I cheated on him, Lissa getting attacked, mother telling me how disappointed she was,... I was sweating like hell and I couldn't breathe.

I got up before alarm even went off. I couldn't stay in my bed anymore. Thinking about all of them made me feel depressed.

I walked to teachers' chamber and took some papers to see what were novices learning about.

"Show them how to block a punch in the stomach. They are still bad at it." it was Alberta.

"And don't be too harsh on them. Every trainer is. They're afraid to make a mistake. I know you can teach them how to be real guardians. How to be fierce, strong and smart." she smiled at me.

I know how the freshmen are feeling. The training gets a lot harder and they start to realize they're only 4 years away from graduation. To become a Guardian of a Moroi that needs their protection.

I nod to Alberta and walk out of the room.

On my way to the gym I made myself a ponytail. To show my molnijas of course. Even if I try I can't stop thinking about Dimitri and Lissa. What are they doing? Are they even looking for me?

"Rose?" Oh, crap. I stand still and think of the voice I heard was from the person I thought of. First I hesitate and then I turn around. Yes, I was right. It was Jill, with Eddie. Damn, I still didn't prepare any speech for what I will say to them.

"Why are you in Academy uniform?" Eddie asked.

"Umm... I'm... working as a trainer. And I'm going to be late so..." And I turn away but then I remember that somebody could call the Court and everybody will know where I am. I turn back to them.

"Lissa says, hi." I smile to them.

"Did she send you here because of me? Because Eddie is enough-" Here's the idea.

"Look. Yes. She send me because she wants to protect you. And it's not because she doesn't trust you Eddie, it's just that she wants her sister to be protected. But don't tell Lissa I told you that. It's supposed to be a secret. So just pretend I'm one of the teachers." I smiled and quickly walked away.

Ugh, that was a stupid idea. Who would believe me that? Me teaching just like that? I would never agree to that. I would rather come here and tell her that I'm going to be her guardian. If she wanted that or not.

I was now half jogging to the gym but suddenly, someone grabbed my arm. I turned around and saw Eddie.

"What happened? And don't even think of telling me that crap again about secret protecting cause I'm not falling for that." Shit. What am I going to do now?

"I can't tell you anything else, because it's true." I lie. Eddie smiles and quickly looks out of the window and it was clear, he didn't believe me.

"Come on. Not even Jill believed you that." he said still looking at the window. I forgot to breathe. He looked at me now.

"But you probably have a damn good reason to be here, so I will help you. I convinced her not to call Lissa. And for return I expect an explanation."

I remembered what is air again and took a deep breath of relief. It looks like I can't trick him. Not Eddie. He knows me too well. All I could do shake my head. I can't tell him. It's too hard to talk about it.

The school bell saved me.

"You are not going away with this." he said and looked angrily at me. An now I see there's no other way… I have to tell him.

"Look. Now I have to go to class. But later… we can talk, okay? Find me when you are able to talk, just the two of us." And then I rushed away.

I have to get calm and steady. My first class is going to start any minute now. I have to stop thinking about the conversation with Eddie and Jill. It will be okay… I had to expect this is going to happen. And I won't be able to hide my pregnancy forever… What am I going to tell people then? This is just not going well. My desperation of getting away revealed me. I should have go in a place where nobody knows me. What did I think coming on the Academy?

I guess it's just the need of someone near me when I'm going through all of this.

Through the betrayal, through the break up, through the pregnancy. Now I know...

I can't do this on my own.