Chapter Eighteen: Touch Me

Tamera's Apartment: 9:39PM

All through dinner with her father Tamera was stressed about her grade, it had been a long time since she'd come that close to failing and she didn't like it. The feeling had her simply nauseous, so ill in fact that she barely touched her food. She wanted to talk to her father about it but she didn't know exactly what to say. She kept envisioning saying daddy my teacher said she might have to flunk me because I've never been fucked. She was sure a statement like that would send her dad straight to the hospital. It was that reason that they ended their dinner early. It served its purpose like always her dad gave her a copy of her statement letting her know that 21,000 dollars had been placed in her account. Each year she received 1000 dollars for each year she was born.

She placed her envelop in her fireproof case under her bed and sat went back into her living room. She stood in the middle of her living with her hands on her hips, she was nervous. She had texted Gina after her dinner was over with a request of things to get for her because she wasn't knowledgeable about the products she was asking for. She finally sat down and covered her hands with her face. She couldn't believe she was even considering what she was. This wasn't her and she wasn't sure if it was who she wanted to be. All she knew is that she wanted to make the grade and sometimes you have to make sacrifices.

About ten minutes later Gina knocked on her door. Tam hopped up and snatched the door open; Gina barged on in and sat down three little black bags. She turned and looked at Tam with a giddy little sassy grin. "So cousin!" Gina tilted her head as if to say what the hell is going on.

"Yes cousin?" Tamera said innocent as she tentatively peeked into one of the bags.

"What has my baby cousin texting me to pick up a vibrator? That's what I want to know!" Gina was loud and blunt.

"Shh Gina, damn!" Tamera whispered; her horror and embarrassment made her doubt her ability to actually do what she was considering.

"You expect me not to ask questions?" Gina scoffed and sat down on the table. "Child please!" Gina swung her hair over her shoulder.

"Can't you just do this favor for me on my birthday?" Tamera gave her famous pout and Gina rolled her eyes.

"You know how tempted I am to say no, but you're right it is your birthday and if you don't want to tell me then I won't push, just like I didn't push the whole Teddy issue." Tam just stopped and glared her cousin. "I said I'm not pushing it!" Gina snapped.

"Good, so tell me about what's in the bags," Tam said and pulled one of the toys out of the bag and her eyes widen as she looked at the faux black dang lang.

"That's the black label rabbit. It's a more advance toy; you might wanna work up to that. That's why I got this." Gina grabbed the middle bag and pulled out another one.

"Gina, I only asked for one now I'm gonna have all these dicks in my house!" Tamera fussed as she threw the one she was holding down and grabbed the one in Gina's hand. "What's so different about this one … besides color?"

"The speed and the texture, it's for beginners, but I'm not sure it's for virgins. Do you really want a piece of plastic to be the thing the breaks your virginity. It seems kind of cold Tam." Gina shook her head.

"I'm a big girl and besides it's just … I mean I need to know what the big deal is." Tam said bluntly.

"Okay," Gina sighed and pulled something else out of the bag. "I got some KY because that thang between your legs needs juice, the juicer the better. I also got you some Alize', candles so you can create a mood and last but not least an outfit."

"This is too much." Tam shook her head in despair. "I just wanted one thing you did way too much." Tam huffed out a breath as she looked at all the stuff.

"Tammy, what you don't understand is you're not just going to make up your mind to do this, and then boom orgasm. You got to have the right frame of mind and mood. I just thought I would help with the atmosphere." Gina got up and rubbed her cousin's back. Something was telling her that Tam wasn't doing this because all of a sudden she wanted to fly her freak flag high. She seemed like she was under pressure and that's no reason to engage in any sexual activity. "Are you sure about all this stuff, because I could take it home and have some fun with Ben."

"Oh yeah how is Mr. Benjamin Cutta Harris?" Tam giggled. Tam breathed a sigh of relieve as Gina brought up a conversation that was familiar and safe.

"I'm amazing Tam believe me." Gina thought of the amazing kitchen sex they'd had this morning. The man was slowly changing her life and she hoped she was having the same effect on him.

"That's good. I'm glad you're happy cuz."

"Why not wait until you find someone? Then when you experience my type of happiness you'll be getting busy on top of the kitchen table to." Tamera wrinkled her nose in disgust.

"Remind me never to eat in your kitchen," Tamera mumbled.

"I cleaned it!"

"It so doesn't matter." Tam got up and moved all of her new "goodies" into her room.

After Gina finally left, Tam poured herself her second legal drink of the night. She lit the lavender candles and immediately felt her body relax. "So far so good," took a deep breath and enjoyed the aroma. "Now for this silly little outfit," Tamera unzipped her black dress and stepped out of her heels. She took off her bra and panties and stared at her nakedness in the mirror. "Ugh." She poked at her stomach and frowned at herself. She was disgusted with the image she saw she wanted to be only a few pounds lighter. She quickly slipped on the nighty it was a black corset top with and little panties again she looked in the mirror again. She actually thought she looked hot and her boob, oh wow her boobs looked freaking huge! She tried to readjust them but it just seemed like they weren't going to completely fit in their cups. "Dammit," she fussed, after awhile she stopped messing around and got to the nitty gritty at hand. She grabbed the purple rabbit. She lay back on the bed and turned on the "thing" she watched it with nervousness. It's now or never, she thought to herself as she made herself comfortable and slowly parted her legs. At first she allowed the "thing" to just buzz over the fabric of her panties. She was expecting something, she didn't know what it was, but she definitely wasn't feeling it. She sat there for a moment hopping that her body would respond. She clinched her eyes such and tried to think of something dirty but she was drawing blanks. She had no fantasy stored in her head. After ten minutes she began to get cold she was starting to get emotional and depressed.

"There is something wrong with me," she whimpered and just as she was about to allow herself to cry. She heard a knock at the door. Had Gina forgotten something? Tam hopped up and stormed to the door about to tell her cousin that these toys were a piece of shit. Just as she walked the living room to the door opened on its own and bam they were face to face.

"What. The. Fuck!" Ted looked at Tam and was shocked and very confused. "Is there somebody here with you?" He looked back towards her room and noticed the candles burning and then he looked back at her. So much flesh and her tits, he felt himself respond to the mere sight of her.

"No, I'm just here … just me." She tried the hid the vibrator in her hand, she quickly moved her hands behind her back and refocused the conversation to him. "What are you doing here?"

"I uh." Ted tried to form words but he kept staring at her chest and then her legs. He wanted her to turn around so that he could get the full view. Tam wanted to cover herself but then he would see her toy. "I've been trying to call you and you didn't answer and it was getting late so I worried. I never would have thought that you would … that you'd be occupied. Why are you half naked and looking like you do?" He cleared his throat and then swallowed hard.

"I was taking your advice you should be proud of me." Tam huffed and gave up. She took her hands from behind her and shoved her faux dick at him. "These things don't work!" She crossed her arm and it made her chest even more prominent.

"Or maybe you don't know what you're doing. You really shouldn't be using this, not at first anyway. You should be using these." Ted grabbed her hand and ran his thumb over her fingers.

"But I thought if I used it would make me aroused and it just feels weird that don't get a charge or anything." She shrugged and Ted frowned at her in confusion. He turned the thing on and it buzzed and he looked at her.

"What were you thinking about when you were trying to … Ya know?" Tam hunched her shoulders.

"I don't know. Doing it?"

"Are you asking me? You should know what you were thinking."

"I just want it work Teddy. I wanna feel it." The two stood in the living room with nothing but silence between them. Ted didn't know what to say and Tam was just completely mortified. "I should go change into something." As she moved past him and Ted had an extreme urge to seize her roughly and touch her … he was more than sure he could give her what she wanted. Ted felt he needed to make a decision fast, if he didn't take this opportunity now, he may never have it again. "I could help you Tam, I'm sure I could make you feel it."

"What?" She said weakly. She knew he couldn't possibly be suggesting what she thought he was.

"I could teach you how to touch yourself. I could give you something to think about."

"Teddy I," Tam shook her head repeatedly. She knew it was a bad idea but she knew he was probably right. She didn't know anybody else that knew as much about sex as Teddy.

"I know it's a bad idea, but I know you Tam Cake. You are going to keep trying this until you get it right. Why not skip all the failed attempts and let me help you?" Ted was now right in front of her and his blue eye stared fiercely and passionately into her hazel eyes.

"It's such a bad idea," she whispered. He smoothed he hands over the sides of her corset and already she was feeling differently … that sneaking feeling of taboo that sometimes would plague the two. She took a deep breath to calm her nerves.

"What do you say Tam," He murmured as he pulled her to him and allowed her to be close enough to feel his hard on against her belly. She gasped and she felt something new something clenched below her navel. Just knowing that her appearance had affected him hand caused her body to respond. This was wrong, so wrong.

"Okay," she muttered. "So what do we do now?"

"Bedroom." The both walked into the bedroom and Ted walked towards her bed. He removed his shirt and allowed Tamera once again to view his chest. He remembered that she had responded to this. He sat down on her bed and motioned for her to sit with him. He positioned her with her back to his bare chest and ran his fingers down the length of her arms. "I want you to touch all the places I want to touch Tam. Lean back Tam and I'll tell you where to go." He breathed in her ear. Oh God, that sensation she was so warm and she felt so … different, but it was good.

"I love your beautiful tits Tam, maybe we should start there. They are so full and soft looking and I always wondered what they'd feel like. I wanted you to caress them be soft and gentle. I'd be soft and gentle with you because you're so perfect and fragile. Do you like the way that feels?" Tam nodded and she continued circle her hands around her breasts. "It looks amazing," he growled.

"Now I want you to slowly work your caress down to your abdomen," Tam did what she was told. That's what she was good at, doing what she was told. She felt her breathing start to slow and it felt like the air was becoming thick. Although her touch was good she wanted more.

"Teddy," her statement came out more like a groan.

"Yeah," he breathed.

"I … I want you to uh." Tam grabbed his hands and led them to her body to her chest. "Touch me." Ted squeezed her chest and she moaned. The spark this was what she was expected, she was surprised she was experiencing it with Ted. Ted used his feet to part her legs.

"Whatever you want baby." He stuck his pointer and middle finger in his mouth to wet them. He slid his fingers into panties and she whimpered in anticipation. Ted took his two fingers and stroked the length on her center. He parted her center and dipped his finger in only enough to wet it. He took in a staggered a breath. He gently alternated between rubbing and tapping her clit. Tam felt her pulse accelerate she clinched the fabric to Teddy's jeans.

"Oh, … this feels," Tam moaned again and clamped her eyes shut. Her body began to move of its own accord. Ted grabbed her left tit possessively as his other hand moved elsewhere.

"I know, I know Tam, it feels good right? I'm about to make it even better." Ted dipped one of his fingers into her and began to move around. She was so wet. Ted couldn't believe that she thought something was wrong with her.

"Teddy," Tam begged for what she wasn't sure. It just felt so good and she was being taken to a whole new level of sensation. "Teddy," she whined as she felt something new build inside of her and for some reason you hated that it was coming because that meant the experience would soon be over. Ted slid his middle finger inside of her joining his pointer finger in driving his best friend crazy. "Oh TEDDY it's happening OH FUCK!" Euphoria was not a good enough word to describe the experience she'd just had.

"See Tam, there's absolutely nothing wrong with you baby, nothing at all."

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