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A Child chp.14
Bel was brooding silently on a soft lounge chair inside one of the Varia's many lounges. He sat deeply in thought. A soft frown marred his face, the only evidence of his emotions.
"Bel-sempai."
"Huh?"
"Come look!" Fran was in a good mood this morning. Bel plastered a quick smile on his face and went to follow the waddling frog.
"Froggy? Where are we going?" Bel said.
"Don't you remember sempai?"
"Remember what?" Fran hit his forehead into the palm of his hand.
"Sempai. Today is the day when we get to see our little one!"
"WhAt?" Bel stopped short.
"Relax sempai~ It's only an ultrasound!" (A.N. Aussie equivalent of a sonogram)
Bel froze. An ultrasound… See the baby… Shit…
"Sempai?" Fran gently shook Bel's arm. Bel wouldn't shake out of it.
He can see his babies… his biggest fear might come true. He has to face it now? Why now? Why not later? Bel's eyes began to water slightly.
They made it to the ward/room where Lussuria was already firing up the machine.
"Ok Franny-chan~ Lie down and lift up your shirt~" Fran did as asked and rolled his shirt up just underneath his chest.
"Ok Fran–chan~ this will be cold ok?" Lussuria spread clear cold gel onto Fran's stomach. Fran shivered slightly.
"Ok… now… Ooh! Found baby! Ain't he cute Franny?" A little white alien looking shape showed up onto the screen. Fran's face was practically glowing. Bel looked a little relieved but still tense. What was he worried about?
Luss kept moving the machine/rod all around Fran's stomach. After a while he let out an almighty squeal.
"There's another! Another! Twins Fran! Twins!" Fran smiled, his eyes where endless depths of pure happiness. Two babies. Two little pieces of himself and Bel. Fran looked over to his sempai.
"Sempai?" Bel was frozen. His muscles tensed up so much that it looked painful.
"Sempai?" Fran called once more. Bel seemed to snap out of it.
"Oh yeah froggy?"
"Luss said twins sempai! Twins!"
"Yeah I-I heard." Bel not using third person? Something is wrong. Fran thought.
"Oh! Froggy! Go on to the room first, I'll catch up…" Fran's face fell, on the inside.
"Oh.. ok sempai." Fran turned quickly not letting Bel see his hurt face. Bel turned swiftly and walked out the room.
As soon as he was clear, of earshot, Bel ran and ran. He ran till he reached his 'sanctuary'. He pushed open the door and ran out… onto a balcony?
Bel took in deep breaths and tried to calm himself down.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.
In.
Hold.
Out.
The first drop of clear salty water dropped and dripped onto the cement floor of the balcony.
His dam finally broke.
Sparkling tears made their way down Bel's face from his hidden beautiful purple eyes.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.
Bel crumbled down into the fetal position.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.
It didn't work.
Rivers soon made their way down Bel's cheeks and flung themselves off of Bel's chin to the cold hard floor.
Sobs made their way out of Bel's mangled heart and echoed off of his small chest.
He felt weak.
Weak...
Small…
Scared.
More and more sobs tore their way out of Bel's chest and throat.
Scratching up his sensitive insides and making his throat cry for comfort.
Sob after sob escaped from Bel. Each sob that overtook, his chest wracked with grief and absolute despair.
Each sob brought Bel further and further into his dark place.
Further and further away from Fran and his logical brain, and closer to the depth of depression. He reached for one of his 'comforters'. Silver flashed into Bel's hand. The temptation of his past came back fully fledged. His veins seemed to pulse in the memory. Cols sharp silver touched the delicate skin of his wrist. The temptation became greater. He wanted it… no. He needed this.
"I thought I'd find you here. Che. Stupid brat." Bel stopped in shock. What? Who? Only one person knew of this place… Bel looked up hastily trying to stop his sobs.
"S-Squa-lo?" Squalo smiled sadly down at Bel.
"Stupid brat. You're making Fran worry." Squalo said as he sat next to Bel, as best he could with a baby bump. Bel looked away.
"VOI! Bel! I told you to stop this shit!" Squalo yelled as he ripped the knife from Bel's hand. Bel just looked at it helplessly.
"Squa-lo…" Bel managed to utter the one word before sobs over came him once more. Squalo sighed and pulled Bel close.
"Brat. Stop your crying and tell me what's wrong." Squalo whispered into Bel's ear.
"Squ-Squ-a-a-Lo!" Bel hiccupped but couldn't stop his sobs fully.
"Yeah yeah, that' my name. Now what's wrong?"
"It's… It's… Squalo…"
"It's what?"
"It's… twins." With that word uttered Bel broke into sobs once more.
"What's wrong with that?" Squalo asked.
"Twins. Twins. Twins." Bel just muttered the word over and over again. Like a twisted mantra, unable to determine the end and unable to determine the start.
Squalo finally got it. Twins. Bel was/is a twin. The twin who killed his other… The twin who killed his father… his mother… The twin who suffered… The younger twin…
"Bel… Bel. It won't be the same. They won't be like…"
"How can you know!? HOW! They might turn out exactly like me! They… they'll… I-I can't take it." Bel put his head into his hands and began breathing deeply. Squalo frowned.
"Bel. I can guarantee you this. They will NEVER be like how you and your brother were."
"HOW DO YOU KNOW!" Bel yelled half crazed.
"VOI! I KNOW! BECAUSE THEY'LL HAVE BETTER PARENTS. THEY'LL HAVE A BETTER LIFE! THEY'LL HAVE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPY CHILDREN WILL EVER NEED! … you Bel. They'll have you." Bel froze.
That's right… its not the same.
It's different from his life.
He isn't…
no…
he WON'T be his father.
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