adding quickly again now, because i might not be able to add much over the the next week, because on Thursday i've got my chemistry and psychology a level exams, so i'm going to revising a lot over the next few days. so if i do add, its a very quick add, so i might not answer to your comments, so i apologise in advance if i don't!

32 Dannys POV

As time went by, and the anniversary of Toms disappearance drew nearer, I could feel myself starting to snap, sharp objects were actually getting tempting, I mean, really, really tempting. I could barely sleep or eat anymore, and I felt like a zombie as I looked out the window, hoping to see Tom still. It was hard to breathe at times, when I realised how many days had passed since I had last seen Tom, or heard his laughter, or his voice, or held him close. He was literally everything to me, and not having him around had uprooted my whole being, I had no idea what I was doing anymore, he had taken everything that I was with him, I was just the empty vessel waiting for him to come back and complete me again.

"Danny, its time for dinner, you gotta come with us now." Harry spoke gently, but still made me leap feet. "I'm not hungry." I shook my head, whimpering as he started to pull me away. "Danny, stop lying, and if you werent hungry, you still have to eat something. What good will you be to Tom if your not strong enough to even stand?" Harry had a point, and I hated that he was right about things like this. "I can't eat when Toms not here, I'm too worried about him, in 2 weeks, its gunna be exactly a year since he ran away. A year Harry, a year without Tom, do you know how much it hurts to be without the person you love for a year? It stings so badly, and its awful, truly awful, nothing will ever hurt as much as this. How can I eat when all I want to do is cry and hold my lover, even though I can't? I'll eat when he comes home...if he ever comes home." I sighed, but let him help me up, holding his hands for support, needing some contact with someone. "he'll come home Danny, look, how about if we set something up for the day of the disappearance? Try a really big push to trying to find him, will that make you feel a little better?" Harry asked, pushing some hair out of my face. "yeah, that would be good, anything to try and find him, I need to see him soon, or I'm going to snap." I smiled a little, hugging the older brunette.

TOM

I ducted out of sight from the window as Danny looked at it, hiding from him. I didn't know why I came back, was it to torture myself more? So I had a reason to stay away, so I knew how happy everyone was without me, so I actually would stay away. The urge to cry was horrible, and it took all my strength to stay where I was until Danny and Harry walked into the kitchen, arms around each others waists. 18 months ago, seeing my boyfriend (yes, in my head he was still my boyfriend, it was the only thing keeping me from screaming for him) in the arms of another band mate wouldn't have bothered me, but knowing now there was a lot more going on ripped my heart to shreds.

As soon as they were gone, I ran, thanking god it was dark out, so no-one was able to see me in my black clothes. I ran all the way to my car, where I had to grind to a halt and back round the corner from it. There were 2 policemen wandering around the car, talking into their radios and taking notes. "yeah, this is the one, this is Fletchers car, the licence plates match and everything. Should we tow it to the impound or leave it here for surveillance?" one asked into his radio. "leave it there, in case he comes back. We might even find him!" the crackling voice replied, sh*t! I couldn't go back to my car now! Where was I supposed to go? I now had nowhere to live or anything! Everything was in that car, literally, everything I owned was in that car.

I pressed myself to the wall and thought about this, could I make a run for it? Just run in, grab my stuff and run, or would the police get me and drag my sorry a*se back to hospital? They werent carrying as much as I would be, and had probably eaten properly for the past year, unlike myself, there was no way I would get there! Or could I? I was dressed in black, and was quick, and small, I could hide easily. I was going to chance it, I was going to do it, I was going to run over and grab my bag and then run for my life. "one, two, three." I counted under my breath and ran, running over, unlocking my car and jumping in, grabbing my bag, Mickey Mouse and my ipod, before running again, hearing footsteps chasing me down the streets, shouting for me to stop.

33 Harrys POV

At 10, we got a phone call from the police, and all of our hopes went up. "have you found him?" Danny practically shouted, gripping the phone so tightly I thought it was going to break. "sort-of. We found Toms car, and planned to stake out, to see if he came back... he came back to his car, but ran off before we could catch him. We're trailing him now, but he might give us the slip." The person on the phone explained, and I could see Dannys eyes light up.

"y-you found his car? And theres a chance you'll find him?" Danny asked, bouncing on the balls of his feet. "yes, we have his car, and are leaving it where we found it, in case he comes back for something. He did run over and grab a toy and a backpack, but I recon he'll come back for something else. We'll keep you posted on our progress." Was our answer, and Danny and Dougie squeaked in happiness. I hung up before Danny screamed, and as soon as I did, he screamed and jumped a foot in the air, almost crying. "he's coming home!" he screamed, jumping up and down over and over, reminding me of a child. "not yet he's not. They've got to find him first!" I warned, not wanting to spoil his mood, but having to warn him we didn't have him back yet.

"I don't care! He'll be coming home soon! He's gunna be mine again! Toms coming home!" Danny shouted, jumping into our arms, deafening me a little. "yeah, he'll be yours again Danny when he comes home. Now wanna celebrate?" I smiled, knowing Danny wanted to celebrate the news that his beloved Tom was going to be found soon. "hell yeah! I'll get the DVD set up, you guys get beer and popcorn!" Danny ran off, thundering up the stairs. "if he's like this now, god knows how he is gunna behave when Tom is actually found." Dougie joked a little, jumping so I was carrying him, grinning widely. "I know, but we won't notice, cause we'll be the same! Now come on, Dan wants beer and popcorn, we're getting him beer and popcorn!" I carried my blonde husband into the kitchen, handing him the beer and setting the popcorn going in the microwave.

I set him down on the kitchen counter, taking a little moment after some good news to kiss Dougie gently. We had been being careful while we were around Danny, not wanting to rub it in that we were happily married while his own lover had run off without much of an explanation. "we'll be back to normal soon, and we'll be able to do this a lot more often." I smiled, resting a hand on his face gently. "I know! I can't wait, our best friend back and I'll finally have you all to myself again." Dougie tangled his hands in my hair, bringing me in for another kiss, not letting me go until the microwave pinged.