10 - Explaining a kink to a partner
"So, what you're trying to tell me-."
"Loki, it's not a difficult concept to grasp," Natasha said, taking a deep sigh as she took a long drink of her wine, doing her very best to resist rolling her eyes. Seriously, he was supposed to be the God of Mischief, and here he was asking her to reexplain a kink of hers for the fifth time, it felt like? "I want to lose control."
"We've done the-."
"Yeah, the whole submission and dominance thing. I know. I've given you complete control the whole time, I know. I loved it-love it still. But I think there's more that you could do for me. You, Loki, no one else." Maybe Stark if she begged and pleaded for him to look into it.
"What's the point of that?" He asked, obviously still trying to wrap his mind around. She'd have thought it would have been easy. He didn't like when things went according to plan, and she didn't want things to go to her plan. She wanted to lose it-completely and entirely. Why couldn't he understand it? She took another drink, finishing off the bottle and moving to uncork another. All the while Loki remained silent, waiting for her answer.
"Loki, I have to be in control for every second of my life. Every last moment is choreographed and analyzed and intentionally plotted it. Is it too much to ask for a little help so I don't have to be that way in the bedroom? So I don't have to think at all about what's going on and I can just focus on getting what I need? Anyway I don't see what's holding you back from it-isn't it supposed to be every guy's fantasy to have a girl begging for them in the bedroom?"
He caught her wrist before she could bring the glass, now full, up to her lips. When she looked over his gaze was soft, nearly disbelieving. "I don't want to have control over you in that sense. I want to know I'm giving you what you need, yes, but you need to be happy, too. I don't just want you begging for me to beg-I want you to want it as badly as I do, and if this is what you want then I'll figure it out." He promised her. She smiled, relaxing in his grip and leaning closer.
"That's all I can ask for. Thank you, Loki."
He kissed her lightly on the lips.
"Give me a few days to get it figured out." She leaned into his touch, nodding. That she could do.
A/N: Definitely part one of two of this-super major ridiculous kudos if you can get what kink I'm trying to allude to? If not it's likely because I didn't explain it/hint at it enough xD My bad. Hope you likeD it!