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57 Harrys POV

I didn't pay any particular attention to the film playing, having already watched it quite a few times with Dougie already, so instead, I sat draw patterns over Dougie as he sat on my lap. It had been so long since we had sat down and watched a film together, been almost fully relaxed, I hadn't ever thought that being like this again would be possible, so I was taking the opportunity to be a loving husband as my other half watched one of his favourite films. He didn't seem to mind, just leant back into me a little more, holding my arms as my hands made random shapes.

"love you, you little genius." I whispered, nodding my head towards Tom, who was still sitting up, totally engrossed in the film. Danny was sitting next to him, and I could tell he was resisting putting an arm around the blonde, instead having to take sideways glances at him from the corner of his eye. "love you too, and I'm not, I just did some encouraging." Dougie blushed quietly, leaning his head on my shoulder. "and it worked! I'm proud of you, and I'm sure Danny is too." I smiled, nuzzling into his blonde hair, squeezing his waist gently.

We reluctantly went back to watching the film, and managed to watch the second one too before visiting hours were over. The routine went on like usual, saying goodbye to Tom first, then letting Danny tuck him in on his own, then going home. Danny was bouncing on his seat in excitement, so happy that he had actually spent some time with Tom, sitting next to him like he would have a year ago. "tomorrow has to be like that, and every day from today has to be like that! And slowly, Tom will trust us more and then, he'll be allowed home, and we'll be a couple again!" Danny grinned, bouncing into his house, hyper beyond belief.

"Danny, its not going to happen that fast, it was a miracle we stopped him hiding today!" I warned, not wanting to upset Danny, but having to make sure he knew what was going to happen. "I know, but it will happen, Tom will be allowed home soon, then I can work on our relationship. I was so stupid before, I'm going to make sure he knows that I love him and that I'll be better in the future if we wants me to." Danny fiddled with the necklace around his neck, but smiled at the same time. "he'll hopefully take you back, I can't see he won't." I encouraged, not wanting a depressed Danny on my hands again.

58 Toms POV

I barely listened to the nurse who was talking to me, the one who always talked to me, as she checked all of the charts and monitors, and everything else. She had set them to go off if I turned them off, and was now checking I hadn't tried to turn them off or something. "thank you for actually behaving today, I bet you had more fun because you have been let go of! Isn't it easier to behave than to fight?" she smiled, handing me a plate with some shepherds pie on. "I guess." I shrugged, trying to not gag on the food. It was disgusting, half cold, and I swear not cooked properly. I ate it anyway, not wanting to have anything better when I didn't deserve it.

"told you, didn't i? Keep this up and you should be able to go home next week! Well, you still have to talk to a shrink and the police, just to make sure your okay, and to find out why you ran away, then we'll let you go easy!" she ruffled my hair and walked out, leaving me to eat in peace. And start to worry about talking to people about why I ran away. To other people it would sound stupid, and probably crazy, but to me, it made sense. It made complete sense, everything made sense to me. I was annoying, attention seeking, and special needs, and Danny, Harry and Dougie were perfect and far too kind to tell me to sod off and leave them alone. So they put up with me, and pretending to like me, and love me, so I was happy.

I still felt sorry for doing that to them, when I really shouldn't have been, and promised myself that when I was allowed home, I would be nice to them and would let them get on with whatever they wanted. If that meant hiding away in my house, they I was going to do it, I would do anything to keep them happy, literally anything. And seeing as I would probably be caught within minutes of running, the least I could do was try and stay out of their way.

For the rest of the night, I dozed, thinking about how to make sure everyone was happy. I would practise playing as much as I could, and write the best songs I had ever written, so the band would still be successful. In interviews, I would pretend to be happy, and friends with everyone, so fans thought that nothing had changed over the past year. Something had changed, I had changed, for the better, and now we would be even more successful because I wasn't going to hold us back anymore. It was going to be my own personal torture, but it would be so, so worth it, to see how happy Danny, Harry and Dougie would be, free of me torturing them.

I fell asleep, heart breaking, but knowing it was going to be worth it in the long run. I could get over pain, and if I couldn't, I would use the razor against myself, until it was right.